InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Life She Chose ❯ i still remember ( Chapter 5 )

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The Life She Chose

 

Chapter 5 : I still remember

 

Dinner had gone awful. Actually, awful, didn't even begin to cover how bad it went. There were no words that could ever explain how terrible it had been. The food had been good, but everyone had been so tense and uncomfortable, it had been hard to eat it. Even Takara and Taru had seemed to sense the tension, and stayed quieter then the two had ever been.

 

Now, at twelve o'clock, InuYasha was headed toward the kitchen, in order to make his daily, or rather, nightly, late night snack. Ramen!

 

Every night, since he had been old enough to eat solid food, he woke up at exactly twelve and got ramen. The only time he ever remembered not getting his late night snack, was the time he stayed at Kagome's, after he found out that Kikyo had been cheating on him.

 

After getting lost two or three times, he finally found his way to the damn kitchen. What he found in the kitchen, was the very last thing he had expected.

 

Kagome was sitting on a stool at the bar in her baggy blue pajama bottoms, and a white, long sleeve, Sacred Arrow shirt. She had her notebook in front of her, and a pen in hand, as she hummed a sad tune. She didn't even seem to notice him, watching her from the doorway. She was too involved in whatever she was writing down, most likely a new song.

 

The microwave `beeped' and she hopped off her stool. Kagome took the bowl of ramen out and placed it on the bar, without looking up. She grabbed her notebook, and pen, and headed toward the door. Only then did she notice the hanyou staring at her.

 

“Oh…I was…just…leaving.” Kagome whispered, looking at the floor. She couldn't bare to look in his amber eyes. Every time she did, all she could see was his hurt, anger, and of course, hate.

 

“What were you doing?” InuYasha asked, blocking the doorway, so she couldn't get out.

 

“Coming up with a new song.” Kagome answered, waving her notebook and pen in his face.

 

“No. With the ramen.” His voice held absolutely no warmth, or emotion, what so ever.

 

“Oh.” Kagome said, slightly blushing. “I…I made you ramen. You always have it at twelve. I meant to leave before you got down here. Sorry.”

 

“Why?” He asked, narrowing his eyes. Kagome shrugged.

 

“'Cause I'm a good hostess.”

 

“How did you remember that?” InuYasha snapped.

 

“You use to get me up every night to make it for you when we were going together, back in college, remember. And even when the band was on tour.” Kagome answered, trying hard not to add a `duh' to the end of her sentence. InuYasha was acting like they didn't know each other.

 

“I thought you would be too self-centered to remember that.” InuYasha replied coldly, walking over to the bar.

 

“You know, I'm not as self-centered as you think. I HAVE grown up since we broke up.” Kagome was beginning to lose patience. Sure, earlier she said she deserved it, and she had, she still did. However, Kagome had welcomed him into her home, made his bed, cooked dinner, and got up just to make him ramen.

 

Kagome wanted to be back with InuYasha more then anything in the world. She realized that a million to one, he would never take her back. She understood that, and respected it, but couldn't he at least be civil? Couldn't they at least be friends, or just pretend to be over the holidays, for everyone else's sake?

 

“Kagome, you will never change. You haven't changed. Nothing has or ever will be good enough for you. Not Hojo, or your grades, when we were in high school, that life hadn't been good enough for you. You had to be a rock star. Even I wasn't good enough for you. Now, you have everything you fucking wanted since you were thirteen, and guess what, now that isn't good enough either. You will never change. You will die lonely and old in this mansion.” InuYasha spat at her. He took note to the effect it had on her; her wide eyes, trembling lip, and the sudden rush of salt in the air.

 

“You're right. When I was younger, my life wasn't good enough because I wanted to be a rock star more then anything I had ever wanted in my life. Now, it's not good enough because I made a huge mistake, but I can't change time. If I could, I would redo everything. My life isn't good enough, because it lost all the meaning it once had. I lost you.” Kagome whispered, trying not to cry. Her chocolate eyes pleaded for forgiveness.

 

“That sounds like a personal problem.” InuYasha replied turning away from her. He walked over to the ramen and threw it in the trashcan. He would be damned if he ate something she made for him so he would pity her. That's what she was trying to do. She was trying to break him down, so she could just break his heart again. Fuck that. That wouldn't happen again. Ever. He began to search the cabinets for more ramen, to make for himself, as he listened to the muffled sobs and retreating footsteps of the girl he once loved.

 

Truly, there was a small part inside of him, who had wanted to take Kagome in his arms, and never let go. He would apologize for being so cruel, and he would make her his. But another part of him, made him retort with such cold words and actions. This part just wanted to hurt her, as much as she hurt him.

 

His once human heart, now seemed to have been commandeered by his demon. A tiny portion remained human, but not enough for him to forgive her. His demon instincts wouldn't let him be hurt again.

 

So, as InuYasha found the ramen, and put it in the microwave, the war inside him raged. Battling for dominance. Human vs. Demon. Man against himself.

 

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Kagome sobbed into her pillow. Preying death would find her. She had nothing to live for. Nothing at all.

 

“Hey, Kagome, you okay?” A soft voice asked, and slowly opened the bedroom door. Kagome quickly wiped her eyes, and tried to regain composure.

 

“I'm fine.” Kagome sniffed. “What are you doing up so late?”

 

Sango stepped into the room, looking concerned. “The baby's hungry.” She said, patting her round, pregnant belly. “When I got up I saw you run into your room. Is everything ok?”

 

“Yep. Nothing's wrong.” Kagome replied, lying.

 

“Things will get better Kags. He won't stay mad.” Sango said, smiling softly.

 

“Yes he will.” Kagome answered stubbornly.

 

“He'll lighten up. You know InuYasha. He can only hold on to a grudge for so long. Especially when it comes to you.” Sango promised.

 

“That was before Sango. I really hurt him.”

 

“I promise you. He will forgive you. He loves you.” Sango said smiling. “If he didn't, then he wouldn't be holding this grudge.” Just so she could be alone, Kagome pretended to agree.

 

“Sure.” Kagome nodded her head.

 

“Okay. I'm going down for some food. I'm starving.” Sango got up, slowly, and left the room. Kagome stood also, and closed the door.

 

She couldn't stand it. It was too much. Yesterday had been bad, but now it was unbearable. Everyone's fake ass smiles and lies were starting to get to her. She had to get out of the house of deceits. Where time stopped. Where nothing was the truth.

 

Kagome changed into a pair of jeans, sneakers, a t-shirt, and a black sweatshirt. She pulled a hat over her raven locks, and put on a pair of sunglasses, even though it was dark outside. She didn't want anyone to notice it was her.

 

Opening the door, she came face to face with InuYasha. The two stood and stared at each other for a few long seconds. Time stood still. Nothing moved. Neither even blinked. The rest of the world seemed to fade away, to dissolve into nothing, until nothing remained but them.

 

InuYasha's amber eyes were wide. He had been caught. He hadn't expected Kagome to open the damn door. He just wanted to see if she was still crying or if she cried herself to sleep. Not that he cared. It didn't matter to him if she cried. Truly, he wanted to make her cry. It meant he was making her feel some of the pain she made him go through. Still, a little part of him couldn't help but feel bad.

 

“What are you doing?” Kagome asked him.

 

“I was just trying to find my way to my room. This house is so damn big!” InuYasha lied.

 

“Ummm…your room is the next door down.” Kagome pointed towards it.

 

“Oh. What are you doing?” He asked, noticing her laid back, civilian clothes.

 

“Dunno. Gotta get away for a few hours.” Kagome answered, shrugging.

 

“Sick of everyone's disgustingly fake smiles and lies?”

 

“Something like that.” Kagome said, walking past him. She went to the garage and got in her black '07 corvette. Not knowing where to go, she drove to Wal-Mart. She needed to grab some, soap, Tylenol, and food anyway.

 

After getting the food, she headed toward the soap and stuff, passing the magazines on her way by. A certain one caught her eye.

 

On the front she was smiling, with the words `Kagome's Depression' written underneath. Rolling her eyes at the stupidity of the magazine she flipped to the page to find out why she was supposedly depressed.

 

`Drinking heavily, rarely smiling, and keeping to herself, this wild rock star has been acting less and less the party girl we all knew. Is something on her mind, keeping her from having fun?

 

Recently, at an Ellen Degenerous interview, the young rock star was asked what she had given up to get where she was today. Instantly Kagome's eyes filled with nostalgia, as she stared of into space.

 

When she finally snapped out of her daze she answered with `a boy.' Apparently, she gave up long time, high school sweetheart, InuYasha Takahashi.

 

As the conversation continued, Kagome said she didn't want to talk about it. (to the right is a picture of the interview.)

 

We ALL remember when the cute couple broke up. The media had went wild. The insanely rich business man InuYasha, and rock star Kagome's fight was talked about for weeks. Kagome even came out with a new album right after the breakup, entitled `Get Over It', which just so happens to be the bands best seller.

 

The couple broke up on the count of Kagome's lack of time and attention to InuYasha (shown left). Sources say he told her to choose between him and stardom. Obviously, we can all tell what she chose. (A picture of the happy couple during high school years is shown at the bottom of the page.)

 

Four years later, both seem to be hung up on the other one. Friends of InuYasha say he refuses to celebrate any holiday, and is incredibly moody. The only thing this handsome twenty-six year old does is work.

 

Kagome has stopped attending wild parties, she has grown up and changed her ways. According to friends who will remain nameless, she has been depressed lately. At twenty-five, she has everything money could buy, if only she could get InuYasha back, her life would be perfect.

 

A current rumor of the ex-couple has been circulating around about Christmas. Is this there chance to rekindle love? When we hear anything new, we swear to inform the public.'

 

Kagome gapped at the magazine. Her, depressed? How laughable was that? How could SHE be depressed? She had what she wanted. She was living the dream. Her dream. As funny as the thought of being depressed was, she didn't laugh. She felt like crying instead.

 

“Oh. So you're a Kagome fan, too?” A girl that worked at the store asked from behind her. She looked about Kagome's age, with blond hair and green eyes.

 

“You could say that.” Kagome answered, glad her baseball cap and civilian clothes were hiding her identity.

 

“She is my favorite singer! I have all of her stuff. Shame about her depression, huh?” The girl continued.

 

“Yep. Sure is.”

 

“It's beyond me why she let that InuYasha guy leave. She seems to really regret it.”

 

“Believe me, it was the biggest mistake of her life.” Kagome answered walking away from the girl. She finished shopping, paid for her stuff, and headed home.