InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Life to My Soul ❯ Revelations ( Chapter 5 )

[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]

Sango paced back and forth impatiently in the small hut. I really did it this time . . . I let my emotions get the best of me. How could I lash out at Inuyasha? Friends aren't suppose to do that . . . I was so cold and bitter . . . She stopped pacing. Cold and bitter? That's not right . . . how, when did I-- She clenched her teeth. Naraku. Of course. Ever since that despicable creature entered the picture I have done nothing but suffer. First Father, then the villagers, then Kohaku . . . The demon slayer slammed her fist into the wall she was standing in front of. Even after he's dead, his evil lives on . . . "You know, if you continue this charade, Kaede won't have a place to live anymore."
looked up to see Miroku's form leaning on the doorframe. "Wha-what?"
you've been pacing back and forth for an hour, wearing out her floor, and now you attack her walls, which by your strength will come down in a couple more blows." Miroku made his way towards Sango.
not funny Miroku."
wasn't trying to be funny. Just telling the truth. Come now, Sango, don't tell me you're beating yourself up over your little spat with Inuyasha earlier."
gazed up at the monk's face, then turned away. "It wasn't only a 'little spat' . . . I used Inuyasha as a means to relieve myself of the anger building up inside me . . . friends don't do that." She slumped down to the floor.
I see. " Miroku sat down on cross-legged next to her. "The way I see it, you weren't trying to relieve yourself of your anger; instead, you were guiding Inuyasha." "Guiding . . . Inuyasha? Guiding him where?" Sango was terribly confused.
Kagome." As he saw the woman next to him give him a blank stare, he continued. "Your little speech caused our little hanyou to finally confess some of his feelings, if not all. In another aspect, you helped Kagome-chan out too. His surprising outburst gave her a chance to finally look into his heart and see his feelings for her. Inuyasha and Kagome should be thanking you."
thought for a minute. Helping? I never thought of it that way . . . but still, I have all this anger and pain that won't subside . . . who knows who I might lash out at next . . .
know you're still grieving for your loss, Sango," Miroku spoke softly, "I have never experienced loosing a sibling, but I have experienced the loss of a parent. It's painful at first, yes, but you will learn to move on. Kohaku wouldn't have wanted to to dwell in the past. He would've wanted to you to be happy, to live a happy life. We all want you to live a happy life, including me." Sango was moved by his words. Miroku . . . I never realized . . . I've been so selfish, only thinking about myself and my loss . . . I thought I was going through this alone, but you were right there, always with me . . .
I, arigatou." She embraced the monk. I never noticed how caring he was, how he can touch a person's heart--speaking about touching. . . SMACK! Sango watched her handprint on Miroku's face turn by the second. She sighed and shook her head. Some things just never change . . .


love you."
froze. Everything became silent. Birds stopped chirping, the wind stopped blowing. Inuyasha stared at the girl he was grasping by the shoulders. Did she just say . . . no . . . but wait . . . she did! Come again? Kagome was looking at him, relieved that her burden was finally lifted, but terrified of what Inuyasha's reaction might be. Inuyasha on the other hand, was still sorting out his unorganized thoughts. I shouldn't be surprised . . . that look earlier today said it all . . . say something damnit!
wh-when?" stuttered Inuyasha, breaking the silence between them.
looked closely into his eyes. His reaction is still vague . . . he's still in shock. Did I shock him that much? Good job, Kagome. She sighed, gently released herself from Inuyasha's grip, and leaned against Goshinboku. She was silent. Inuyasha was taking her silence as a bad sign. Maybe I shouldn't have asked that . . . she isn't going to 'sit' me is she?" Kagome began to speak.
you remember a while back when I saw you and Kikyou together under this same tree? Right after our fight with Juromaru and Kageromaru?" Inuyasha nodded dumbly, still in shock. The young miko continued. "When I returned to my time, I was seriously debating on whether to come back or not. Seeing the two of you together caused me to question my purpose here, in your time. Did I really come back here time after time just to look for jewel shards? Or was there something else?"
managed to get a hold of his bearings. He looked at Kagome. "Kago--"
shook her head. "Let me finish; if I stop now, I might never be able to speak of this again." For once the hanyou shut his mouth and let her continue.
I was back at home, I passed by our Sacred Tree, when the jewel shards around my neck began to glow. It was then I realized that our Sacred Tree is the same as this tree, Goshinboku. As I approached the tree, I began to have flashbacks, of you. When I first met you, the times you protected me, our old conversations . . . it was then that I realized that I had grown to love you, even if I didn't know it before then." She snuck a peek at Inuyasha underneath her hair.
expression was one she had never seen before. She couldn't read it clearly. His facial muscles are relaxed, but his eyes are unreadable . . . "Kagome?" She broke out her thought. "Yes?"
thing I said back in the hut . . . about you showing me my full potential . . ." Inuyasha started softly.
held her breath. Don't expect him to say 'I love you' back . . . Kikyou is still lurking in the background . . . remember that . . .
. . . I meant every word I said." Kagome was startled to see the emotions that had surfaced in his eyes. Gratitude . . . friendship . . . trust . . . love?!
were the first person to show me that being a hanyou isn't half bad . . . you taught me how to trust again, and gave me friends . . . but, Kagome, I can't say I love you, yet ."
felt ashamed. Kagome spills out her whole heart to me and all I can think about are my own selfish needs. If I tell her I love her, which I'm pretty sure I do, she'll get her hopes up. I made a promise to myself . . . "May I ask why?"
head snapped back up. "Wha-what?"
I ask why, you can't say it . . . yet?" Kagome asked softly.
hanyou looked away once more, ashamed from what he was about to say. "Kagome, I made a promise to myself a long time ago, that I would become a full demon." Kagome felt a sinking feeling down in the pit of her stomach. Inuyasha continued. "Yes, Kikyou came into the picture, and she did ask me to become a human, which I considered . . . but I knew I wasn't being true to myself. Kagome, I can't be true to you if I can't be true to myself. "
head spun. So . . . he needs to be true to himself before he can be true to me. I can understand that. Wait, true to me . . . so does he have feelings for me? Her eyes widened at her realization. With Kikyou, he wanted to become human to fulfull her needs, but it wasn't what he really wanted . . . so, in a way . . . Kikyou isn't what he really wanted? But if he wants to be true to me . . . is it me he wants?
now, I am having second thoughts about becoming a full demon, but it is from my own free will. Years of torture and shunning are still fresh in my mind." Inuyasha cupped Kagome's cheek with one clawed hand. "But you showed me something different. You showed me that all humans aren't all that bad." He brushed away a tear that escaped from Kagome's eye with his thumb. "The Shikon Jewel is yours to give. Its your decision and your decision alone to determine what it's fate will be. But listen to me, if you do decide to give it to me, you don't need to be afraid of me running off with Kikyou." He smiled, brushing the hair away from Kagome's face.
if I don't decide to become a full demon, the only person I'm going to be running with is you."