InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Morning After ❯ The Reality ( Chapter 2 )

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Chapter 2- The Reality

Still disclaimed.

Sure enough, they'd managed to get to the hut in time, and set up inside it to ride out his human night. Inuyasha looked nervously outside as Kagome fixed dinner.

“Relax. We're safe,” She chided, handing him a familiar container of noodles. Kagome tried to make sure she had a treat for him on these nights, she knew how upset he was when he turned human.

“Sure we aren't,” Inuyasha grumbled as...the sunset. She'd politely looked away, knowing he didn't like her to see it, and shrugged at the young, black haired human sitting across from her as he started eating, one eye on the door.

“Hm. You know, you aren't hurt and we aren't being chased?” Kagome said with a laugh. A nervous one.

“Yeah. Heh, that's a change,” he said wryly, covertly admiring her by the firelight. Lovely.

“For tonight? Yeah,” she nodded, and yes, she was nervous! Again! About what? She was usually too calm about his little secret, not on edge. That was his place these nights.

“Alright, wench, what is it?” he scowled.

“What is what?” oh yeah, something was wrong!

“Why are you twitchy? Is something out there? What are you hiding?” he demanded.

“Nothing,” she said quickly, looking down.

“Liar. Well?”

“Uh...” she looked up again, and he stared at her blush in confusion. “We...haven't been alone on the new moon once, since, um, Kaguya.”

“Uh...So?” Inuyasha asked, looking away nervously. He felt the cord around his neck as he tugged at his collar. Not the beads...the other one. The odd necklace with their images in it, the one she'd given him, that she didn't know he'd kept. At least, he didn't think she knew he still had it, hidden under his clothes next to his heart. He never took it off.

“Inuyasha-I-we never talked about it,” she said finally.

“We didn't have to...did we? Why tonight?” he asked, unsure where she was going.

“Because-well, you're easier to talk to tonight, in some ways. And I won`t get another chance anytime soon so-” Kagome was practically shrinking as he watched her.

“Am not! I'm a mortal, but it`s still me!” he groused.

“Are too. I-I do love you, you know,” she said fast, clasping her hands as he nearly dropped his dinner!

“Uh...”

“D-do you love me?” Kagome asked shyly, so embarrassed she hung her head. But when else was she going to get the chance to ask? His, at the moment, completely human heart went out to her...

“Damn,” she heard him get up, and felt a hand rest awkwardly on her shoulder as he sat next to her.

“You...um...” she looked up, ready to hear a no, but she was so beautiful-so kind-she loved him...he impulsively kissed her.

She kissed him back...hesitantly at first, he just had meant to comfort her when he took her in his arms, but she had melted into them, then things-got complicated as they cuddled. Hands roamed hesitantly, clothes were awkwardly removed, things-happened as they ended up on her sleeping bag. There was much surprise on both sides...much amazement; this was new to both of them. He'd trembled afterwards at his own daring, and so had she...but it was something that, of course, had to be tried again not long after the first attempt.

After the second time, she'd fallen asleep, and a stunned mortal held her, kissing her tenderly before drifting off to sleep himself. It felt like a dream...better than a dream...

Until morning came, and he was a hanyou again. His eyes flew open, and he realized-oh hell no!!

Crap! He'd-she'd-they'd-oh no. He'd been a weak mortal...and had taken advantage of her, just like a selfish human! Kagome wouldn't have wanted him as a hanyou, he was sure of it, even if she said she loved him. Why else wait to ask him on his human night? He looked down at the nude, sleeping maiden...well, woman now lying next to him. Inuyasha gulped as she cuddled closer when he covered her and tried to slide away without waking her. An arm wound around his neck possessively and he gripped it gently to untangle it. Instead-he got his shoulder nuzzled as an eye opened.

“Morning,” she said shyly, smiling at him...until she saw he looked-uh...upset? Kagome's smiled faded as she got a look at him. Had she done something wrong? Maybe...she hadn't been-good? Wasn't that what guys said when they hadn't liked it?

“Kagome-I'm sorry,” he began, looking away. She frowned, letting him go as he sat up, scowling in what she thought was his standard denial tactic. Oh no, he wasn't going to pull away again!

“About what? You better not be trying to take it back!” she ordered, sitting up and pulling the cover up to her chin in annoyance.

“K-Kagome-we-you-uh...what?” he asked, still unable to look at her.

It was pretty damned un-takebackable!

“That you love me, baka. You said it a lot-” she blushed, “last night.” And other things...things he'd never have said to her in normal circumstances. Never leave me, I need you, sweet Kagome, I love you. Things that had made her reel with his intensity as he touched her...in ways that made him want to crawl away and die in shame now.

He'd blurted out all that crap! Baka! He was a baka! A filthy, perverted, evil hanyou who seduced a defenseless maiden! One he was supposed to protect! He was everything anyone had ever called him!! What had he done?? It was all his fault, girls like Kagome would do all sorts of things if a man told them sweet things...even if he'd meant every word of it. And she had. Wonderful things...damn it!

“Uh...oh. No-no-uh...we should-uh. Get dressed,” Inuyasha ordered quickly, tone sharp. Maybe no one would have to know. Know he'd dishonored her. Taken advantage of her, done-that! Twice. At least-he'd been a human, she could claim it wasn't a mere hanyou who'd made her a woman! But it was really, and she was too baka honest not to tell people! Blushing, he thought furiously. Maybe send her to her own time and her family, so no one here would know?

No, that wasn't fair to Kagome, this was she home now, and without her honor, who would take her as wife there? And...There could be-more as well. A child. His child, and hers. He may have been human last night, but would it be if she'd caught? Inuyasha didn't know, would it have his ears? Her eyes? Black hair-or silver? In any case a target for enemies, there were plenty who'd want her and any kid he sired dead to get to him, or just because of it's heritage if his mixed blood left a mark.

He couldn't even be sure some youkai didn't lurk in her era, he may not have seen any...but youkai were adaptable, cunning, no telling if she'd really be safe if he sent her back and sealed the well. Even if no enemies lurked she'd be alone, shamed and possibly with child. Here at least...they'd have each other. He wouldn't leave her to that! Sure, he was just a hanyou, but damn it, he had some sense of honor! And...

She did love him, he knew that, and he loved her...so well, after last night, he'd have to do the honorable thing. Marry her as soon as possible. Not that a lot of people would agree that was honorable, for a hanyou to take a human miko to wife...but still, there was no choice now. Miroku or Kaede would do it, no question. Well, no, there'd be lots of them, actually, but he figured they wouldn't try to stop them. Oh, no, what had he done?

What the hell was he going to say to her mother??

`I turn human once a month and our friends weren't around, so I fucked your maiden daughter?' sure. She'd probably plug the well to keep him from fleeing and find a really strong monk or priest there to kill him! Nah, he'd marry her first, and then beg forgiveness after restoring what honor he could to her. Show he was making amends and would stand by her. Better plan!

“Inuyasha? You-you don't regret it, do you...?” Kagome asked as he quietly freaked out, biting her lip. She realized that she didn't. Not a bit, she'd wanted to...thought about it so often...she was glad he'd been her first. Too many of her friends had done it with guys who didn't love them, and she had. She was eighteen after all, she'd probably have done it sooner if she'd never fallen through the well. Probably with Houjo or some other guy. Ick.

“Huh? No! Kagome, I-I love you, and,” he straightened his shoulders, time to be a man and accept responsibility for their mistake, “don't worry. You just get dressed.”

“Ok...” she agreed, wondering what was wrong, in the rush of last night's wonderful, unexpected events...she didn't consider that there was a very different view of that sort of thing in the feudal era than in her own time. Well, at least she didn't have to worry about a baby, thanks to modern medicine. Mom had made sure of that. No problem!

Except Sango...and Miroku...and Shippo...and Mom. Back home, it happened a lot, Mom would be annoyed, maybe, but she'd deal with it when the time came. He'd been with her for three years, after all. They'd all find out eventually that she was sleeping with her-hee! -Boyfriend. She shivered at the happy thought. Well, twitchy, currently disturbed hanyou boyfriend, but still! Good things. It's not like they'd rushed into anything, so maybe he was nervous because he'd finally admitted he loved her? Had to be it.

They got cleaned up, dressed, packed up, and he fidgeted, trying to decide how best to proceed.

“Miroku or Kaede?” Inuyasha asked suddenly, he couldn't decide who to have marry them...so he'd let her.

A wife had to share some decisions, after all, and he'd do his best by her from the start. No more running blindly into danger, no more carelessness, his life would have to be focused on her now. Naraku was still about, and now he had a wife to protect, not just a beloved maiden who would be all right if he went down. Not that he had a lot to offer, or had ever really considered having a wife and eventually-or soon, a family, but they'd manage. They'd have to now, because he was a baka who couldn't control himself! So she ought to pick who she'd want to marry them.

That she had no such thoughts...never entered his mind.

“Huh? Oh, Inuyasha,” Kagome smiled. So he was worried about their friends! Maybe last night had loosened him up, and she blushed a bit.

“We'll go to Miroku and Sango,” she said cheerfully, adding, “I'm glad you're doing this, it's sweet.” Kagome impulsively kissed him on the cheek.

“Of course I am! What'd you think, I wouldn't?” Inuyasha snapped in outrage. Kagome stared at him in confusion as he crouched to pick her up, both unaware two different conversations were taking place, based on two entirely different views of the last few hours. She climbed on stiffly, and they traveled on, mostly quiet, not saying much. Everything had changed between them.

That night when she rolled out her sleeping bag and he hadn't made a pass at her, had hardly spoken three words all day, Kagome got nervous again. Maybe he wasn't sure if she'd wanted him to? No, couldn't be! Maybe...he didn't want to again? Ohhh...maybe, maybe he really hadn't liked being with her? Had she done something wrong? He'd have said, she figured, but he'd been so quiet after they'd been-together. Was it that he wasn't human? She'd never been bothered by that, there'd never been a human Inuyasha in her dreams. Darn. Gathering her courage, Kagome decided to make the first move.

“Inuyasha? You, um...would you like to-come over here with me?” his eyes widened at the soft, hesitant question as she sat there.

“What, you mean-?”

A nod.

“Damn,” he breathed, astonished.

He'd assumed she would only permit him to, well-once a month-and after they were properly wed. Inuyasha had felt quite pained at the thought, but he had no right to expect anything else. She was a human, it made sense she'd only want to share herself with another human, or at least the seeming of one.

She didn't need to ask twice. The damage was done, after all, and they were getting married, so this was all right. At least, that's what he told himself, even as he'd marveled-she not only didn't mind his hanyou form, she seemed to like it more than his human side alone. Damn.

It took them two extra days to reach the village than usual, thanks to several breaks and camping early. After some repetition, Inuyasha realized he wasn't at all upset about having to take her as his wife. Quite the contrary. Except...they'd have to settle somewhere sometime, face people and the future...he worried. It made him eager to enjoy the now, and Kagome, blissful, eager, madly in love, didn't notice