InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Portrait ❯ Memories ( Chapter 5 )

******STANDARD DISCLAIMER HERE***** I DON'T OWN INUYASHA IN ANY SHAPE OR FORM*******

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There he was, riding to her like a knight in shining armor upon his noble stead saving his damsel in distress. It seemed so damn romance, she thought except for a few things; One, Why was she there? And two, didn't he live centuries before she even born?

Within minutes, he was standing before her looking downward. Her eyes never left his form. 'That picture didn't do he justice' she deem. He looked gorgeous as the wind whipped his hair around his face and body; she also suspected that under his warrior attire was a body fit for a god.

Her concentration was broken when he spoke, "Rin…you have returned."

His voice, his captivating, warm baritone voice, it was the same voice she hear in the garden during the fair, and in my dreams. He summoned her to come to him. Why?

"Hello…Sesshomaru-sama. Excuse me, but how do you know me?" speaking nervously.

"Rin, you are my ward. You die four years old and now you have been reborn."

Her copper colored eyes lost all expression, and she started shaking uncontrollably. Her thoughts ran back to the diary, 'All those events, the attacks, the kidnappings, and other adventures happen to me. That's why things felt familiar…I lived before with him.'

The thought kept bombarding her already worn-out mind; she raised her shaking hands to her throbbing head and screamed, then fainted. But, before her head hit the ground, Sesshomaru was cradling her in his arm.

"Jaken, follow me with Ah-Un to the castle." he order, and with his lighting fast demonic speed, he headed for his castle.

Sesshomaru knew reincarnated people could get their past lives memories back. But there was only two ways for them to. The first way, was if they had a life mate, their mate's strong spiritual bond would allow them to merely touch one another for their memories to return. The other way, was for that person to retrace their live up to their death to achieve their total memory.

Having Rin remember her death, made him uneasy. Because he did see who had killed her, he only saw the bloodily aftermath. He would help her remember their life together, but he would never tell her how he found her body.

"This Sesshomaru will never let her suffer like that again." He vowed.

He arrived at the castle quickly, and went right to her old room with her. The dust free room contained a large queen size bed, two dressers, a mirror and a chair. Yellows, whites, and blues trimming and sheets furnished the room and bed. While on the smaller dresser top held her prize possession a few old dried flowers, silver hair combs, and her journal arranged neatly. Everything was in its exact place, since the day she left it.

Placing her gently on the bed, he ordered to have a basin of water and some towels brought to the room. Once the chambermaid carried the items in, he instructed her to leave, and send notice that he was not to be disturbed.

As he tenderly wiped her face with a wet towel, he studied her features. She was still so beautiful; it seemed as if time stood still for her, since that ominous day. He allowed his claws, to trace delicately around her face, eyes, and mouth remembering every curve and the texture of her skin.

"Lovely" he whispered, as his face lower to the unconscious girl face. Her scent was so soothing to him, and her lips looked as full, and delicious as ever. For four years he had an undeniable need to taste them, and he could no longer resist them. He gently kissed her lips for a few second. They were soft, warm, and tasted like honey, he knew that he could kiss her for an eternity.

She shifted slightly, and then he quickly moved from their intimate position. He did not think that she would want him that close to her if she was to awaken. He stood up, and walked out onto the balcony of her room. The crescent moon was out. He would have sworn the moon appeared to be smiling back at him as he looked at it. But, for the first time since he lost her, his soul felt at ease. He walked back toward Rin's bed again, and gazed at her once more.

"You are mine, I shall keep you safe forever." he said, and then he left her room

Rin woke up the next day, still feeling a little dizzy. She sat up slowly in the bed, as she viewed her surrounding thru cracked eyes lids. She soon realized she was in a very pretty bedroom. She jumped out of the bed, unto the stone floor.

"Aaa…cold floor…cold floor." she screech, hopping about on her bare feet, before she jumped back to bed. After she found her socks under the covers, she returned to her exploring of the room.

She searched the tall dresser first, and found beautiful silk kimonos, and shoes. When she rummaged around the smaller dresser, it held worn cotton kimonos, hakamas, shirts and undergarments.

She noticed a book on top of the dresser. As she opened it and browse thru the pages, she realized that it was the diary that she read before. She thought went to what Sesshomaru said to her, Was she truly his ward? Had she really been reincarnated? If so, is that why can't she remember anything about her life? Then she heard someone knocking on her door.

"Yes…" she murmured

"May I come in?" a rich baritone voice asked.

"Yes."

As he pulled the rice paper door opened, her heart started to race at the mere site of Sesshomaru. He sensed her heart rate increase but, decided not to question her about it.

"Good morning, Rin…I hope you are feeling better today?" asking in his usual unemotional tone

"Yes, I do feel better, but still bewildered about what's going."

"How does it seem unusual to you?" he questioned

"Well it not everyday that you come back to life…" she said half jokily with a weak laugh.

He gave her a puzzling look, "Rin, I would like for you to eat with me, afterward we can talk."

"I would like that" she answer excitingly, and then said "But, first I would like to wash up…please"

He nodded, and called for a servant showed her to the bathhouse. After her bath, Rin rush back to her room. Putting her shirt and jeans on the bed, she went to the dresser and pulled out a beige and orange kimono with small green circles on it.

'This kimono looks familiar for some reason' she thought. Continuing with her task she then found a green obi to complete the outfit, she combed her hair then looked in the mirror.

"I think I match the times a little bit now" she mused, and then walked downstairs to find the dining room.

She walked into the dining hall, and saw Sesshomaru sitting at the head of the table. He motion for her to sit next to him. She was amaze with all the wood work and adornments in the great room. When a small toad walked thru the kitchen door, she was looked him oddly.

"Rin, I am glad you are back. What would you like for breakfast?" said Jaken.

"I'm not really hungry…a few stacks of strawberries waffles with tons of maple syrup will do." As she licked her lips, she noticed that Jaken and Sesshomaru were giving her queer looks.

"What are these 'waffles' you talk about?" Jaken asked, with a perplexed look.

"Sorry, I forgot the times. I'll eat whatever I use to eat...just make sure there is a lot of it." she smirked.

After her hearty breakfast, she and Sesshomaru went out to the garden for their talk. As they were walked he sense confusion, and sorrow radiating from her body.

"Rin, I know something is bothering you, tell me what it is." he said.

She looked at him with tear brimmed eyes and said, "I wish I knew why I was brought here."

"You are here because you belong here."

"You said I die. So, why was were a need for me to come back?" she innocently asked

That question made him uncomfortable. His mind would not allow him not tell her how much he miss her, so he implicated it, "I can only tell you that things were not the same since you left."

"So, are you saying that you miss me?"

She was making this hard for him, so he said "Yes, Jaken and Ah-Un had missed you greatly."

She smiled and wiped the tears from her eyes. Somehow she knew that he missed her also.

"Sesshomaru-sama, do you think that I will never remember my life with you?"

"Yes, Rin, you will. But, it will take time. I will be here for you, to help as much as I can."

With those few simple words, he made all her doubt, and uncertainly about her current situation vanished. She started to twist her necklace around her finger.

"Rin, where did you get that necklace, it bears one of my marking." As he brush his shaggy mane back from his forehead.

She looks at his head and then back at the gem, 'Why didn't I ever notice that before.' She thought and then said "A lady gave it to me. She said I needed it to find something."

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Give it to your true love

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Then she looked back at him, and ponder 'Perhaps, she knew this would happen.'

As time when on, Rin's memory slowly started to come back. The more time she was with Sesshomaru, the more she realized how deeply she loved him.

It was during one of their daily walks in the garden. Rin decide to ask Sesshomaru a question had been bothering her for a few days, and she hope that he would answer it.

"Sesshomaru-sama, May I ask you a question?" she said

"Yes" he said

"I remember that you brought me back to life with Tensaiga after a wolf attack…correct."

"This is correct, Rin"

"Then, why didn't you use it, when I die again."

Sesshomaru knew she would ask him that question eventually. He stopped walking, and turned to her and said. "I prefer for you to recall other memories of your life than that one."

"Why? You said, that I needed to remember everything about my life to get my memories back." she question

"Rin, do not ask me about your death. You are alive now, focus on other things" and with that he started toward the castle.

She stood baffled, "It must have been terrible, I sure that's why he doesn't want to talk about it." she assumed.

She had been at the castle for four months, and all her memories were back except for one. The question of how she dies would not leave her mind.

She felt so incomplete, and furious, because every time she would ask Sesshomaru about it. He would never answer her. She started to avoid him the best she could, during their meals together conversation was almost nonexistence, and she would rush out of the room after finishing her meal.

One day, Rin decide to take a walk in the garden labyrinth to relax her mind. She was about to enter the maze, when she heard Sesshomaru calling out to her. At first, she wanted to act like she didn't hear him. But, she knew that he would just find her in the labyrinth, and be angry with her for not coming to him.

So, she turned and walk toward him. Once she was in front of him, she kept her gaze on the ground, and played with her necklace.

"Rin, you have been unhappy, and avoiding me for the last few days…Why?" He said with a stern voice

"Because, you won't tell me what I need to know to get my complete memories back." she said defiantly. Letting her copper eyes glared directly into his golden amber ones.

"Rin, I told you, this Sesshomaru is pleased with the memories you have now, it is not important for you to remember more."

She was furious and yelled, "Well, it's important to me. I didn't even realize that I never existed before. I want to know everything about that life. Or, you're saying, that my life had no value."

She was about to run away, when Sesshomaru grab her arm and twisted her back around to face him. He then cupped her chin to force her to look at him.

"Rin, never raise your voice to me again…and, your life has much value, to this Sesshomaru never doubt that."

She saw a passion in his eyes that she never noticed before. He slowly started to caress her face, and lower his lips close to her. When they hear a noise behind them broke the trance.

"Excuse me, milord; you have visitors in the castle." Jaken said, as he groveled toward him.

'Dam….' he whisper, he couldn't believe he let his guard down. He cursed mentally himself for letting emotions clouded his senses.

He released her face, and turned away her. As she watched him leave, she thought Sesshomaru almost kissed her, could he truly have feeling for her. She needed to find out, and thought maybe Kagome Inuyasha's mate could help her.

In the forest not far for the maze was a solitaire figure watching and listening to the conversation between Rin and Sesshomaru. With angry blood red eyes the figure watched as Rin walked back into the castle.

"I guess I've to kill the bitch again." The person said, as they curled their lips into a cruel smile.