InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Prophecy ❯ Inuyasha's Mind... ( Chapter 18 )
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By: mshutts 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Psychological / Hentai | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 01.19.2006 | Updated On: 01.24.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.4K | Visits: 2.0K | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Psychological / Hentai | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 01.19.2006 | Updated On: 01.24.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.4K | Visits: 2.0K | Status: Work In Progress
The Prophecy
By: mshutts
WARNING: incest
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any other characters here-in
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Chapter 18: Inuyasha’s Mind is a Dangerous Place
After finding and devouring a rabbit, Inuyasha made his way back to Kaede’s slowly. He knew that his friends would have questions for him. They would still be curious as to why he had rejected the ramen that morning and he really didn’t want to answer any of their questions.
In fact, more than anything else, Inuyasha just wanted to sleep right now. He was extremely tired. Of course, knowing that it was because of the changes that were taking place in his body, he was not as bothered by it as he had been before. Without the mystery of why, it seemed slightly less annoying than it had been previously.
Still, with as pleased as he had been initially about having a baby, he was beginning to have second thoughts. This baby would have a great impact on the rest of his life. Naraku was still out there somewhere. He could not just allow that bastard to go free because he had a pup. However, he also couldn’t exactly bring a newborn with him when he went into battle.
And what was he supposed to do while he was pregnant? He knew that he would most likely be able to hide the pregnancy from his friends for a while, but they would eventually find out. Most likely, they would not allow him to continue fighting after they found out.
His friends. He had not even thought of how they would react to this. They viewed his intended as their enemy. ‘Maybe if I explain it to them,’ Inuyasha thought then mentally shook his head. They wouldn’t understand the explanation. Hell, he wasn’t even sure he understood the explanation.
He was once again running into the fact that his companions were human. Sure there were also demons in the company, but Shippo was entirely too young to understand, Kirara didn’t talk in any language the human’s could understand, and Myouga was gone all the time. Telling them that it was his youki that wanted Sesshoumaru as his mate would, at best, lead to confusion, at worst, outright anger.
He knew Kagome wouldn’t understand. While she appeared to be an adult on the outside, she was still very much a child on the inside. And, like many children, she would not understand why things could not go her way. Inuyasha knew that she had had a hard enough time attempting to accept Kikyo, and he had not even been interested in Kikyo in a romantic fashion at the time.
If he were to tell Kagome that he was going to mate with his brother, she would most likely ‘sit’ him into a new crater. It would not matter to her that it was what his youki was practically screaming at him to do, she would never accept it. It made him happy and sad at the same time. Happy that she wanted him so much so as to not want him to be with someone else. Sad that she could not give him what he needed right now herself because she was too young.
Inuyasha was resigned to her anger if she ever found out, but he hoped that she would remain his friend. She had freed him from his prison after all, and they had been through a lot together. He cared about her deeply even if his youki did not want her as a mate.
Thinking on how his youki had not wanted to accept Kagome as a mate, Inuyasha found himself inexorably drawn to how he had felt all those years ago about Kikyo. He had known that his youki did not want Kikyo as a mate. He had known it to the core of his very being. He had been right next to her through two mating seasons and not once had he found himself the slightest bit interested in taking her as his mate.
It had been one of the reasons he had found turning human for her acceptable. He could not understand why his youki did not want her as his mate. She cared for him. She was the first to ever care for him since his mother had died. She would talk to him and had befriended him when he had felt that he would never have a friend in the world and was lost in the depths of his loneliness and despair.
If there was ever the perfect person to be his mate, she should have been it. Yet, his youki was still not interested. Despite his best efforts, she did not make his blood call out for her. She was of no interest whatsoever to his demon side. However, his human side had fallen in love with her. How could it not have? She had nurtured it through the worst times he could remember.
He had loved her with his entire human heart. So, because his demon side did not love her similarly, could not love her or desire her likewise, he decided to forsake his demon side and give his human side free reign. Then he would not have to live with the two sides of mind forever fighting one another on the issue of Kikyo.
His demon side still could not understand his human side’s attachment to Kikyo. When his companions discussed how they felt about the undead priestess, Inuyasha found his demon side agreeing with them time and time again. It was his human side that would not let go. His human side that still yearned for the love that it used to share with her. His demon side thought she was a waste of time and always had been.
Although, lately, his human side had been calling out to Kagome. It wanted to marry her when she was old enough. He had been ready to wait for her. Even though his demon side had also rejected her as a mate, he had thought that he might be able to eventually sway it. She was not like Kikyo. She did not outright reject his demon side. He was sure that, in time, he would be able to convince his demon side that she was worthy of being his mate.
The sad thing was it was now the exact opposite. His demon side was the one that was pushing for him to go after Sesshoumaru as his mate. His human side was the one shying away from the idea. He could hear the warnings coming from his human side. The reminders of all the wrongs his elder brother had committed against him over the years. All the pain and hurt that need not have happened.
But his demon side was also doing a good job pleading his case. His brother had not attacked him the last time they had met. He had taken him to get answers to his problems and even treated him like he was a mate in distress. That had to count for something.
His human side argued back that he was only doing that because his youki had taken over. When he was his normal self, he was just as confrontational as ever. He had even tried to choke him. It was not safe to have him as a mate.
His demon side was having none of it. It was whispering about how strong of a mate his older brother would make. How powerful their children would be. He could never have such wonderful children with either one of the human girls. Besides, there was always the possibility that either one would try to take his children away from him. With his elder brother, he would always have his children.
His human side was still confused as to why on earth he wanted to have children himself. ‘Why not let the girls have the children?’ True, they might try to eventually take them from him, but his human side could see no reason for him to want to take on a traditionally feminine role.
This enraged his demon side. ‘They will be my children. I refuse to give them up for anything.’ His demon side saw no shame in him bearing the children. It was the least he could do in exchange for getting such a powerful mate. He was powerful in his own right, but, in all honesty, the sheer strength of his intended mate was enough to turn him on. He was picturing all the times he had found himself being thrown or shoved by his brother and the might behind it. Just imagining all that power being directed at him…
Unfortunately, his human side decided to be the voice of reason and stop his little fantasy before it could really get started. (And it was looking to be such a good fantasy, too.) ‘If you let him mate with you, you know he will not stick around.’
His demon side snorted, ‘Feh. I know that. I’m not asking him to. I can take care of myself you know.’
‘You might be able to take care of yourself, but what about our pups? Who will take care of them?”
‘Are you implying I can not take care of my own pups?!’
‘We do not have a permanent home. We would be raising them on our own without any assistance, unless you want to let Kagome help raise them.’ Actually, that idea appealed to his human side greatly, a bit of a compromise, as it were. He could get his pups from Sesshoumaru and then live with Kagome and raise them with her.
It was shot down immediately by his demon side. ‘She’s not coming anywhere near my pups! I’ve seen what she did to Shippo. She is not going to do that to my pups! We can raise them on our own. We never really had a permanent home when we were growing up, they’ll be fine.’
‘Do you really want them to grow up like we did?’
‘Oi! I’ll be around to protect them. I’m not planning on leaving them to fend for themselves.’
‘With the way our life is, we might not have a choice. What if we die fighting Naraku?’
His demon side did not really have an answer to that. He knew that his intended mate would also be at the final battle against Naraku. He was sure his mate would take care of his own pups in the event that Inuyasha was killed, but what if his intended mate was killed as well? The pups would be left to grow up on their own, just like he was. ‘I will just have to teach them how to survive in the wild without me.’
‘How long are you planning on putting off fighting Naraku for? They won’t be anywhere near old enough for that until decades from now.’
Considering what he was going to do about training his pups to survive on their own, Inuyasha was unaware of the presence until he felt a slight sting on the bridge of his nose. ‘Myouga,’ his mind supplied. With a slap, he flattened the flea and held out a hand in front of him, effortlessly catching the small retainer as he floated down.
With a ‘pop’, the flea reanimated itself to normal size and sat on the offered hand. “Greetings, Master Inuyasha. A pleasure to taste you, as always. Although, you taste a little different today. Are you feeling alright?”
Seeing a chance to sort out some of the details that were running through his head without having to put up with all the questions he would get from his human companions, Inuyasha jumped up onto a likely looking tree branch and set Myouga on his knee. Looking down at his rather fearful little friend, he asked, “Do you know a story about a war between the wolf and dog demons?”
“There were many wars between them, perhaps if you could be a bit more specific, my lord.”
“This war occurred thousands of years ago. The dog demons were trying to kill off all the female wolf demons.”
Myouga’s face turned thoughtful. “Killing all the female wolf demons… Ah, yes! I remember that war, master! It was rather dreadful. Quite long, too. Why are you interested in it?”
“Why did it stop?”
Racking his memory of the story, it had been a long time since he had first read the account of it, after all, Myouga finally came upon the relevant piece of information. “It was found that the male wolf demons that had never seen a female wolf demon since birth had the ability to bear pups themselves. With the reasoning for targeting females gone, the practice ceased.”
Inuyasha humphed. He had been hoping that the tree demon might have been wrong and the entire argument his human and demon sides had been having earlier was all for naught.
Meanwhile, the flea looked at him curiously. “Why are you asking about this war now, Master Inuyasha?”
“Myouga, have I ever, to your knowledge, met a female dog demon?”
Myouga thought long and hard about that. “No, I do not believe so, my lord. Why are you asking these questions?”
Inuyasha remained silent, waiting for Myouga to put it together himself. Inuyasha saw it as a bit of payback for all the riddles the flea had given to him over the years. Here was just one riddle for him to solve.
He saw the confusion change to dawning comprehension on his retainer’s face. “M-master Inuyasha, you mean to tell me that you now have the ability to bear pups?”
“Feh.”
Taking that as confirmation, Myouga continued to think out loud. “But, why now? You have been going through heats for the last 20 years. Why not before? This is a new development, is it not? You have not been hiding this from me, have you, my lord?”
“Feh. You could taste it in my blood, couldn’t you? How could I have hidden that from you before?” Although, Myouga’s questions had given birth to a few more questions all too happy to rattle around in Inuyasha’s head. Why did it change now? Why not before? Why not later? The story said that when they reached maturity they changed.
Inuyasha knew that he was not yet considered to be a mature hanyou. He most likely had another 30 or so years before he would be officially out of the in-between stage he was currently in: too old for a child, but too young for an adult. He knew his body was in a constant state of change lately. The rise of his demon blood and powers in general were proof of that. Could it be possible that this was just another change his body was going through?
His retainer seemed to be thinking along the same lines. “Maybe it has waited until now to take place because your youki spent the last 20 heats trying to call out to a female dog demon to mate with. Since none responded to the call, it has well and truly decided there are no more alive and begun to search for other options, my lord.”
“You mean convince my brother to mate with me.”
“Yes, that would be one possibi… What?!”
Inuyasha sighed, “My youki has come to the conclusion that Sesshoumaru would be the perfect mate for me.”
“It has?” Myouga looked skeptical. “Why would your youki want your elder brother as its mate?”
“Why not? He’s powerful, handsome and will sire strong pups.”
The flea demon looked at him in shock. “Master Inuyasha?”
“What?! If it wasn’t for the fact that he has tried to kill me on numerous occasions, I would be just as interested as my youki. Can you honestly tell me that he wouldn’t make a wonderful mate?”
“I suppose you’re right. He would indeed be nearly irresistible to your youki. But, my lord, are you sure that it is not just mating season talking?”
Inuyasha raised a brow to the tiny demon. “Myouga, how many demons has my youki actually been interested in?”
“Counting your brother?” At the nod, Myouga thought about it. Inuyasha already knew what the answer was going to be but waited until the youkai looked up in shock and said, “Only your brother, my lord. I can not recall your youki having ever been interested in another.”
“So, how likely do you think it is that this is just a mating season thing?”
“But what about the Lady Kagome, master?”
He sighed. “My human side is interested in her, but my demon side wants nothing to do with her. Whereas my demon side is interested in Sesshoumaru, but my human side wants nothing to do with him. I don’t know what to do. Which side do I go with?”
Inuyasha had never been so confused in his life. He knew he could not have both of them, but his two sides could not decide which one of them to be with. It was a sign of just how confused he was that he was actually telling Myouga of his problems like he used to when he was much younger. He only hoped that the flea demon might be able to assist him this time.
“I do not know, my lord. Perhaps you should talk to Sesshoumaru about it first. Is he even remotely interested in you?”
“Well, he did bite me in an attempt to calm me down when we were talking to Bokusenou.”
“He did?! Then he might be more interested in you than you think he is.”
“What do you mean, old man?”
“Your brother has had a very hard time finding a mate.”
“Bokusenou said that, too. He said it had to do with looking intellectually instead of with his youki.”
“While that is certainly true, Bokusenou most likely does not know that your elder brother was told that he only had one possible mate.”
“Only one? I thought you said that there were multiple possibilities for every demon.”
“So, you were listening.”
“Feh.”
“In most cases, you would be correct. However, when your brother was still rather young, your father and his mother were concerned because he had shown no interest in any of the female demons that had been brought before him. They took him to a witch who told them that he had one mate and it was necessary for him to find that mate.”
“And you think I might be that mate? Don’t be ridiculous.”
“He did bite you, did he not?”
“But I’m a half-breed. He hates half-breeds. Besides, wasn’t it supposed to be a female demoness? I may be able to bear pups now, but I’m still a male.”
“I don’t know, Master Inuyasha. Maybe you should ask him.”
“Feh. Why don’t you ask him?”
“Oh, look at the time, I better be going.”
Before he could catch him, Myouga had jumped out of Inuyasha’s hand and made off on a passing bird. “Wimp,” Inuyasha muttered under his breath, drifting off to sleep, his exhaustion finally catching up with him.
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Thanks to everyone who reads and/or reviews. I really appreciate it. Show of hands, who’s confused? That's ok, Inuyasha is, too.
By: mshutts
WARNING: incest
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any other characters here-in
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Chapter 18: Inuyasha’s Mind is a Dangerous Place
After finding and devouring a rabbit, Inuyasha made his way back to Kaede’s slowly. He knew that his friends would have questions for him. They would still be curious as to why he had rejected the ramen that morning and he really didn’t want to answer any of their questions.
In fact, more than anything else, Inuyasha just wanted to sleep right now. He was extremely tired. Of course, knowing that it was because of the changes that were taking place in his body, he was not as bothered by it as he had been before. Without the mystery of why, it seemed slightly less annoying than it had been previously.
Still, with as pleased as he had been initially about having a baby, he was beginning to have second thoughts. This baby would have a great impact on the rest of his life. Naraku was still out there somewhere. He could not just allow that bastard to go free because he had a pup. However, he also couldn’t exactly bring a newborn with him when he went into battle.
And what was he supposed to do while he was pregnant? He knew that he would most likely be able to hide the pregnancy from his friends for a while, but they would eventually find out. Most likely, they would not allow him to continue fighting after they found out.
His friends. He had not even thought of how they would react to this. They viewed his intended as their enemy. ‘Maybe if I explain it to them,’ Inuyasha thought then mentally shook his head. They wouldn’t understand the explanation. Hell, he wasn’t even sure he understood the explanation.
He was once again running into the fact that his companions were human. Sure there were also demons in the company, but Shippo was entirely too young to understand, Kirara didn’t talk in any language the human’s could understand, and Myouga was gone all the time. Telling them that it was his youki that wanted Sesshoumaru as his mate would, at best, lead to confusion, at worst, outright anger.
He knew Kagome wouldn’t understand. While she appeared to be an adult on the outside, she was still very much a child on the inside. And, like many children, she would not understand why things could not go her way. Inuyasha knew that she had had a hard enough time attempting to accept Kikyo, and he had not even been interested in Kikyo in a romantic fashion at the time.
If he were to tell Kagome that he was going to mate with his brother, she would most likely ‘sit’ him into a new crater. It would not matter to her that it was what his youki was practically screaming at him to do, she would never accept it. It made him happy and sad at the same time. Happy that she wanted him so much so as to not want him to be with someone else. Sad that she could not give him what he needed right now herself because she was too young.
Inuyasha was resigned to her anger if she ever found out, but he hoped that she would remain his friend. She had freed him from his prison after all, and they had been through a lot together. He cared about her deeply even if his youki did not want her as a mate.
Thinking on how his youki had not wanted to accept Kagome as a mate, Inuyasha found himself inexorably drawn to how he had felt all those years ago about Kikyo. He had known that his youki did not want Kikyo as a mate. He had known it to the core of his very being. He had been right next to her through two mating seasons and not once had he found himself the slightest bit interested in taking her as his mate.
It had been one of the reasons he had found turning human for her acceptable. He could not understand why his youki did not want her as his mate. She cared for him. She was the first to ever care for him since his mother had died. She would talk to him and had befriended him when he had felt that he would never have a friend in the world and was lost in the depths of his loneliness and despair.
If there was ever the perfect person to be his mate, she should have been it. Yet, his youki was still not interested. Despite his best efforts, she did not make his blood call out for her. She was of no interest whatsoever to his demon side. However, his human side had fallen in love with her. How could it not have? She had nurtured it through the worst times he could remember.
He had loved her with his entire human heart. So, because his demon side did not love her similarly, could not love her or desire her likewise, he decided to forsake his demon side and give his human side free reign. Then he would not have to live with the two sides of mind forever fighting one another on the issue of Kikyo.
His demon side still could not understand his human side’s attachment to Kikyo. When his companions discussed how they felt about the undead priestess, Inuyasha found his demon side agreeing with them time and time again. It was his human side that would not let go. His human side that still yearned for the love that it used to share with her. His demon side thought she was a waste of time and always had been.
Although, lately, his human side had been calling out to Kagome. It wanted to marry her when she was old enough. He had been ready to wait for her. Even though his demon side had also rejected her as a mate, he had thought that he might be able to eventually sway it. She was not like Kikyo. She did not outright reject his demon side. He was sure that, in time, he would be able to convince his demon side that she was worthy of being his mate.
The sad thing was it was now the exact opposite. His demon side was the one that was pushing for him to go after Sesshoumaru as his mate. His human side was the one shying away from the idea. He could hear the warnings coming from his human side. The reminders of all the wrongs his elder brother had committed against him over the years. All the pain and hurt that need not have happened.
But his demon side was also doing a good job pleading his case. His brother had not attacked him the last time they had met. He had taken him to get answers to his problems and even treated him like he was a mate in distress. That had to count for something.
His human side argued back that he was only doing that because his youki had taken over. When he was his normal self, he was just as confrontational as ever. He had even tried to choke him. It was not safe to have him as a mate.
His demon side was having none of it. It was whispering about how strong of a mate his older brother would make. How powerful their children would be. He could never have such wonderful children with either one of the human girls. Besides, there was always the possibility that either one would try to take his children away from him. With his elder brother, he would always have his children.
His human side was still confused as to why on earth he wanted to have children himself. ‘Why not let the girls have the children?’ True, they might try to eventually take them from him, but his human side could see no reason for him to want to take on a traditionally feminine role.
This enraged his demon side. ‘They will be my children. I refuse to give them up for anything.’ His demon side saw no shame in him bearing the children. It was the least he could do in exchange for getting such a powerful mate. He was powerful in his own right, but, in all honesty, the sheer strength of his intended mate was enough to turn him on. He was picturing all the times he had found himself being thrown or shoved by his brother and the might behind it. Just imagining all that power being directed at him…
Unfortunately, his human side decided to be the voice of reason and stop his little fantasy before it could really get started. (And it was looking to be such a good fantasy, too.) ‘If you let him mate with you, you know he will not stick around.’
His demon side snorted, ‘Feh. I know that. I’m not asking him to. I can take care of myself you know.’
‘You might be able to take care of yourself, but what about our pups? Who will take care of them?”
‘Are you implying I can not take care of my own pups?!’
‘We do not have a permanent home. We would be raising them on our own without any assistance, unless you want to let Kagome help raise them.’ Actually, that idea appealed to his human side greatly, a bit of a compromise, as it were. He could get his pups from Sesshoumaru and then live with Kagome and raise them with her.
It was shot down immediately by his demon side. ‘She’s not coming anywhere near my pups! I’ve seen what she did to Shippo. She is not going to do that to my pups! We can raise them on our own. We never really had a permanent home when we were growing up, they’ll be fine.’
‘Do you really want them to grow up like we did?’
‘Oi! I’ll be around to protect them. I’m not planning on leaving them to fend for themselves.’
‘With the way our life is, we might not have a choice. What if we die fighting Naraku?’
His demon side did not really have an answer to that. He knew that his intended mate would also be at the final battle against Naraku. He was sure his mate would take care of his own pups in the event that Inuyasha was killed, but what if his intended mate was killed as well? The pups would be left to grow up on their own, just like he was. ‘I will just have to teach them how to survive in the wild without me.’
‘How long are you planning on putting off fighting Naraku for? They won’t be anywhere near old enough for that until decades from now.’
Considering what he was going to do about training his pups to survive on their own, Inuyasha was unaware of the presence until he felt a slight sting on the bridge of his nose. ‘Myouga,’ his mind supplied. With a slap, he flattened the flea and held out a hand in front of him, effortlessly catching the small retainer as he floated down.
With a ‘pop’, the flea reanimated itself to normal size and sat on the offered hand. “Greetings, Master Inuyasha. A pleasure to taste you, as always. Although, you taste a little different today. Are you feeling alright?”
Seeing a chance to sort out some of the details that were running through his head without having to put up with all the questions he would get from his human companions, Inuyasha jumped up onto a likely looking tree branch and set Myouga on his knee. Looking down at his rather fearful little friend, he asked, “Do you know a story about a war between the wolf and dog demons?”
“There were many wars between them, perhaps if you could be a bit more specific, my lord.”
“This war occurred thousands of years ago. The dog demons were trying to kill off all the female wolf demons.”
Myouga’s face turned thoughtful. “Killing all the female wolf demons… Ah, yes! I remember that war, master! It was rather dreadful. Quite long, too. Why are you interested in it?”
“Why did it stop?”
Racking his memory of the story, it had been a long time since he had first read the account of it, after all, Myouga finally came upon the relevant piece of information. “It was found that the male wolf demons that had never seen a female wolf demon since birth had the ability to bear pups themselves. With the reasoning for targeting females gone, the practice ceased.”
Inuyasha humphed. He had been hoping that the tree demon might have been wrong and the entire argument his human and demon sides had been having earlier was all for naught.
Meanwhile, the flea looked at him curiously. “Why are you asking about this war now, Master Inuyasha?”
“Myouga, have I ever, to your knowledge, met a female dog demon?”
Myouga thought long and hard about that. “No, I do not believe so, my lord. Why are you asking these questions?”
Inuyasha remained silent, waiting for Myouga to put it together himself. Inuyasha saw it as a bit of payback for all the riddles the flea had given to him over the years. Here was just one riddle for him to solve.
He saw the confusion change to dawning comprehension on his retainer’s face. “M-master Inuyasha, you mean to tell me that you now have the ability to bear pups?”
“Feh.”
Taking that as confirmation, Myouga continued to think out loud. “But, why now? You have been going through heats for the last 20 years. Why not before? This is a new development, is it not? You have not been hiding this from me, have you, my lord?”
“Feh. You could taste it in my blood, couldn’t you? How could I have hidden that from you before?” Although, Myouga’s questions had given birth to a few more questions all too happy to rattle around in Inuyasha’s head. Why did it change now? Why not before? Why not later? The story said that when they reached maturity they changed.
Inuyasha knew that he was not yet considered to be a mature hanyou. He most likely had another 30 or so years before he would be officially out of the in-between stage he was currently in: too old for a child, but too young for an adult. He knew his body was in a constant state of change lately. The rise of his demon blood and powers in general were proof of that. Could it be possible that this was just another change his body was going through?
His retainer seemed to be thinking along the same lines. “Maybe it has waited until now to take place because your youki spent the last 20 heats trying to call out to a female dog demon to mate with. Since none responded to the call, it has well and truly decided there are no more alive and begun to search for other options, my lord.”
“You mean convince my brother to mate with me.”
“Yes, that would be one possibi… What?!”
Inuyasha sighed, “My youki has come to the conclusion that Sesshoumaru would be the perfect mate for me.”
“It has?” Myouga looked skeptical. “Why would your youki want your elder brother as its mate?”
“Why not? He’s powerful, handsome and will sire strong pups.”
The flea demon looked at him in shock. “Master Inuyasha?”
“What?! If it wasn’t for the fact that he has tried to kill me on numerous occasions, I would be just as interested as my youki. Can you honestly tell me that he wouldn’t make a wonderful mate?”
“I suppose you’re right. He would indeed be nearly irresistible to your youki. But, my lord, are you sure that it is not just mating season talking?”
Inuyasha raised a brow to the tiny demon. “Myouga, how many demons has my youki actually been interested in?”
“Counting your brother?” At the nod, Myouga thought about it. Inuyasha already knew what the answer was going to be but waited until the youkai looked up in shock and said, “Only your brother, my lord. I can not recall your youki having ever been interested in another.”
“So, how likely do you think it is that this is just a mating season thing?”
“But what about the Lady Kagome, master?”
He sighed. “My human side is interested in her, but my demon side wants nothing to do with her. Whereas my demon side is interested in Sesshoumaru, but my human side wants nothing to do with him. I don’t know what to do. Which side do I go with?”
Inuyasha had never been so confused in his life. He knew he could not have both of them, but his two sides could not decide which one of them to be with. It was a sign of just how confused he was that he was actually telling Myouga of his problems like he used to when he was much younger. He only hoped that the flea demon might be able to assist him this time.
“I do not know, my lord. Perhaps you should talk to Sesshoumaru about it first. Is he even remotely interested in you?”
“Well, he did bite me in an attempt to calm me down when we were talking to Bokusenou.”
“He did?! Then he might be more interested in you than you think he is.”
“What do you mean, old man?”
“Your brother has had a very hard time finding a mate.”
“Bokusenou said that, too. He said it had to do with looking intellectually instead of with his youki.”
“While that is certainly true, Bokusenou most likely does not know that your elder brother was told that he only had one possible mate.”
“Only one? I thought you said that there were multiple possibilities for every demon.”
“So, you were listening.”
“Feh.”
“In most cases, you would be correct. However, when your brother was still rather young, your father and his mother were concerned because he had shown no interest in any of the female demons that had been brought before him. They took him to a witch who told them that he had one mate and it was necessary for him to find that mate.”
“And you think I might be that mate? Don’t be ridiculous.”
“He did bite you, did he not?”
“But I’m a half-breed. He hates half-breeds. Besides, wasn’t it supposed to be a female demoness? I may be able to bear pups now, but I’m still a male.”
“I don’t know, Master Inuyasha. Maybe you should ask him.”
“Feh. Why don’t you ask him?”
“Oh, look at the time, I better be going.”
Before he could catch him, Myouga had jumped out of Inuyasha’s hand and made off on a passing bird. “Wimp,” Inuyasha muttered under his breath, drifting off to sleep, his exhaustion finally catching up with him.
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Thanks to everyone who reads and/or reviews. I really appreciate it. Show of hands, who’s confused? That's ok, Inuyasha is, too.