InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Prophecy ❯ Uncertainty ( Chapter 57 )
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By: mshutts 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Psychological / Hentai | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 05.24.2008 | Pages: 2 | Words: 3.8K | Visits: 2.0K | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Psychological / Hentai | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 05.24.2008 | Pages: 2 | Words: 3.8K | Visits: 2.0K | Status: Work In Progress
The Prophecy
By: mshutts
WARNING: incest
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any other characters here-in
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Chapter 55: Uncertainty
Inuyasha brought his hand up to his neck once again. The rosary, the chain that had been on his neck for the past couple years was really and truly gone. He felt free. Free as he had not felt in so long that he could no longer recall what it had felt like.
True, Kagome had not wanted to take it off. True, his elder brother and mate had forced her to do so under pain of death. Which, now that he thought about it, was really odd. He hadn’t thought his older brother would care one way or another. Sesshoumaru should have been happy to see his hanyou face in the ground. He furrowed his brow in confusion and then shook his head.
That was not the important part. No, the important part was that he no longer had on that damned rosary. He was no longer in a cage. He was free! He could now do as he wished. He no longer had to answer to the whims of a child and have everyone simply shake their heads at him as if to say that he should have expected it, that it was his lot in life as a hanyou and it was the best he could hope for.
He wouldn’t be left questioning why his face was in the ground. Or wondering if anyone was ever going to listen to what he had to say. Or pondering if he should even bother getting up after being sat into a deep hole.
He wouldn’t have to worry about accidentally saying something to set Kagome off. Nor would he have to concern himself with whether or not he felt like getting put into the ground for stating his opinion. Now he had the freedom to do such things without consequence.
It was all so beyond what he had thought or even hoped for that he was still in a bit of a daze on the whole issue. Sure, he had considered not having it before. Certainly, he had fantasized about making Kagome take it off. Yelling at her or threatening her. In his darkest thoughts, he had even considered physically forcing her to take it off. Sometimes it happened in a scene that even resembled the one that he had just seen, but with him as the antagonist this time.
But he had always shied away from those ideas in the past. Yes, he wanted them off, but he didn’t want to hurt her to do it. He spent so much time protecting her, anything even approaching harming her intentionally just went against his very nature. He never would have been able to go through with it. Even the fact that his own mate had done it left some distaste in his mind. It was almost enough to spoil his joy in his new-found freedom. Then a new thought entered his head.
He wouldn’t have to fall before that damn wolf either! That idea brought a true smile to his face. He had been waiting to pound Kouga’s face in for a LONG time. Now, the next time he saw him, he would have his chance. He could just imagine how great it would feel to have his fist sink into that mangy wolf’s face. The thought made him so content, he was almost purring.
Thinking on how much better it was going to be without that leash on, he turned to the reason it was no longer there. His elder brother. His mate.
He wondered if he should thank him or something. That was what one did when someone else did something for them, right? Especially if they did not have to do it. He was pretty sure that was how it worked even if the one in question was a bastard to you more often than not.
Deciding to hope for the best, he said, “Thank you,” very softly to Sesshoumaru. And then he decided it was worth it if for nothing else than for the look that had adorned his mate’s face at those words. It was very quick, but since he had already been looking at Sesshoumaru, he hadn’t missed it. There was definite shock there before the wall came back up again.
“And what might you be thanking me for?”
“You know, the subjugation beads,” Inuyasha said, pointing to the where the beads used to be on his neck.
“No mate of the Lord of the West shall fall before a human.”
The hanyou looked at his older brother incredulously. He breaks down and actually shows his gratitude and all he gets is that imperious look and a ‘how could you be so stupid as to think it had anything to do with you?’ tone? All that asshole cared about was his own reputation. Forget this!
He ripped his arm out of his mate’s grip and pulled away muttering about ungrateful bastards who think they own the universe. So much for showing appreciation. He should have known the ass wouldn’t accept it. Probably felt he was too good for it. That he deserved to be thanked just for breathing in his direction. His elder brother was such a bastard.
When Sesshoumaru did not even bother to see what his problem was, it only reinforced the idea in Inuyasha’s mind. Somehow he had managed to once again forget that he was only a half-demon. Not worthy to even breathe the same air as his ‘perfect’ elder brother. Surely, if he had cared about him at all, he would have tried to find out why his younger brother had pulled away.
Hell, if he had been with his old pack, he wouldn’t have gotten a full step away before they would have been on his case about what was wrong. In fact, there would have been incessant questioning about just what had put him in such a snit until he finally told them or just left entirely.
But if he had been with them, this never would have happened in the first place. Had he told one of them thanks, they would have appreciated it. They would have noticed how hard it was for him to say such things. But, no, not his older brother. Not his mate. He had to be a condescending prick about it.
And he was sure he knew the reason. It always came to back to the fact that he was a hanyou with his brother, didn’t it? Not that the younger brother had any choice in the matter. But that had never mattered, now had it? As he had been told countless times before by the demon in front of him, he was not worth the dirt beneath his feet. He should have been killed for what he was. As a hanyou, he was nothing. No, he was less than nothing. He was beneath notice.
Inuyasha sneered. Well, so be it. If that bastard did not want him around sullying up the place, he would just leave. There was no reason for him to stay here. He had what he had come for. All he needed to do was gather the rest of his pack and leave. See if Sesshoumaru ever saw his pup at all.
He could feel his youki whimpering at the idea of being away from his mate. But it was not as if he had much of a choice now was it? He had to think of himself and the good of his pups. His pups. Oh gods, he had almost forgotten about Shippo. He now had at least two of them to look after counting the unborn one or ones in his abdomen.
With a sharp inhale, he set his shoulders. No matter, it couldn’t be that much harder than taking care of himself. Could it?
He began to panic slightly at the thought. How was he going to take care of his pups? He would be vulnerable during the pregnancy. If he couldn’t find somewhere safe to stay… He didn’t even want to think about it.
He knew he would do the best he could by them but, what if it wasn’t good enough? Would his pups even HAVE a home? Or would they just be wanderers? That couldn’t be good for pups. Could it? Would they hate him for not leaving them with their father? How could he even begin to explain to them that their father wanted nothing to do with them? Should he even try?
What if he WASN’T good enough to be able to take care of them? What if he couldn’t provide for them? What if something happened to him while he was trying to protect his pups? Who would take care of them? They would not be old enough to take care of themselves. Would they end up as outcasts like he had? Would they starve to death in the unforgiving winter?
Now his youki wasn’t the only one that was beginning to get panicky. His whole self was being consumed with worry for his pups and their future. He knew intellectually that they were safest here. But if he was not wanted, how much more wanted would the pups be? Perhaps he should just leave them here with Sesshoumaru. Even as he thought it, he shied away from the idea. There was no way he could leave their pups alone with that bastard.
If Sesshoumaru could hate him, his younger brother, for having human blood, how could Inuyasha possibly expect him to accept his pup who would also carry human blood? It wasn’t possible. It would not be safe for his baby to live here. He would just have to leave. That was all there was to it.
Trying to calm himself down, he reminded himself that he had been on his own for a long time. Surely a couple more mouths to feed wouldn’t be a problem. He had been doing alright recently. Besides, he couldn’t lose hope yet. There was still the possibility that he would be able to stay with his old pack. Although, that too was in doubt over what had just happened in the room back there.
What if Kagome was furious about the way she had been treated by his older brother?
Who was he kidding? Of course she was furious! Who wouldn’t have been?
He wondered if her outrage would spread out to encompass him and his pups as well. He hoped not. He truly did not want to have another enchantment put on him. He had just become free!
He wondered if pointing out that Sesshoumaru hadn’t killed her would help. Even he was shocked by that one. With as pissed off as his elder brother had been, he had fully expected her to have been nothing more than a splotch on the ground. But, his older brother had shown great restraint, more than Inuyasha had ever seen him show to anyone, in the way he dealt with the issue.
And it still had the hanyou in a state of confusion. For a while back there, it had sounded like his big brother was trying to fulfill the role of mate and alpha in more than just name and actually care about him and for him. What a laugh. Sesshoumaru didn’t care for him as far as he could throw him. He only did what he thought was ‘required’ of him due to their current situation. But that still left the issue of why he hadn’t killed Kagome. He was grateful, but he would have liked to know why.
For all that she had hurt him, he nevertheless did not truly wish her dead. Although he was still pretty pissed that she had thought she needed to use the beads to keep him in line like he was some mangy, out of control mutt. Sure, he had looked at it that way sometimes, but he hadn’t thought SHE had. He had thought, hoped, she had some other, ANY other, reason for using it that he just didn’t understand. But that did not appear to be the case.
To hear her say it out loud was so much different than the whispered implications in the back of his mind. He had thought she was his friend. She was so nice to everyone else, why not him?
Then it came to him, he was a hanyou. Nobody cared for half-demons. Nobody was nice to them. He cursed to himself for even daring to hope it could be different.
His human side took this opportunity to remind him of Kagome’s temper. She had been really mad when she had been talking. Maybe she didn’t really mean it. She had said things she didn’t mean when upset before. Maybe this was just one more case of that.
This thought gave Inuyasha hope in keeping his friendship with her even though his demon side was scoffing at the idea. But his hanyou self, who had been alone almost his entire life, was willing to put up with almost anything not to be alone.
He knew Sesshoumaru did not understand it. The very fact that he had no idea why Inuyasha wanted to spare Kagome’s life was enough to show that. And he had his doubts that anyone in his old pack understood this need of his either.
How did you explain to someone who had never been alone, completely and utterly alone, what it was like? How do you explain why you are willing to put up with threats and put downs and physical harm just so that you have someone to talk to? How do you make them see that you have never in your life had complete acceptance? Never had a friendship without conditions? He sighed. There WAS no way.
It was one of the main reasons he never bothered to explain his relationship with Kikyo to them, after all. And now, he was beginning to wonder if his relationship with Sesshoumaru was going to fall into the same category. If his old pack couldn’t accept his mate and his mate couldn’t accept him, where did that leave him? Alone, once again.
But, maybe, just maybe, he could convince his old pack to let him back. He knew there would be conditions to it. He wasn’t completely stupid. He hoped they wouldn’t include that damn rosary going around his neck again, but realized it was a distinct possibility. No one trusted hanyou after all. But what if they made more demands now?
He was worrying over what the conditions might be for him to rejoin his pack when he heard Sesshoumaru say from almost half the hallway ahead, “Are you coming or not, little brother?”
“Why should I go anywhere with you?”
“I am your mate. Your alpha. I do believe those were the conditions you gave to that priestess of yours for expecting your obedience were they not?”
Damn. He had him there. He HAD said that. In fact, Sesshoumaru fulfilled almost all the requirements he had laid out for Kagome. Shit. Now what? Glaring at his elder brother, he snapped out, “Doesn’t mean I’ll follow you without reason, bastard.”
“Very well. And here I had thought you would wish to know what I had planned for that miko of yours. Perhaps I was wrong.”
“What are you talking about?” Inuyasha asked suspiciously. Even when he was answering questions, his mate acted like a condescending prick.
“Have you not wondered why I have the beads, little brother?”
To be perfectly honest, no, he hadn’t. He supposed he had thought they were perhaps to be a trophy of some sort. He wasn’t really sure about what he had thought they were going to be used for. But there was no way he was going to admit that to the jerk he had the displeasure of calling his mate. Instead he sneered, “Why should _I_ care what you do with them? Throw them out for all I care.”
Sesshoumaru finally turned partially and looked at him. “Ah, but if I threw them out, little brother, I couldn’t have FUN with them.” The way he said, ‘fun’ sent a chill down Inuyasha’s spine.
Despite himself, Inuyasha began moving closer to the older youkai. “What are you planning, Sesshoumaru?” he asked suspiciously.
A cold smile graced the normally expressionless lips and the hanyou was strongly reminded of a ferocious predator on a hunt. “Come and see, my mate. There are many ways to deal with problems such as that little girl of yours.”
“You’re not gonna kill her or something are you? Cause she may be annoying sometimes, but that doesn’t mean I want her dead.”
“I am well aware of how you feel about the situation, little brother. Rest assured she shall not die by my hand. However, there are ways other than death to deal with problems.”
Inuyasha regarded him skeptically. He had never heard of his elder brother using any method other than death to deal with annoyances. “If there are other ways to deal with these problems of yours, why don’t you use them instead of killing everyone?”
“Because killing the annoyance is so much easier and much less of a headache. However, if you are to live here, you must realize you will not be allowed to kill everyone who annoys you. There are lords and ladies who you will be expected to show respect to regardless of how annoying you find them be. As such, you would do well to learn… other ways to deal with the annoyance they will no doubt cause.”
The younger inu stiffened at that. “Who said I was staying here?”
The elder merely cast him a glance. “Of course you are staying here. You are my mate. You will bear my young. This is now your home.”
The way Sesshoumaru was treating him like an idiotic child was raising his ire, “Look, I may have agreed to be your mate. I may have agreed to bear your pups. I did NOT agree to live here!”
“Surely you did not think I would allow my pregnant mate and pups to go gallivanting around in the wilderness did you?”
“I can take care of them!” Inuyasha yelled back defensively, despite the fact that he had just been bemoaning his ability to do just that mentally a mere moment ago. Besides, what was his brother playing at? He didn’t care about Inuyasha one way or the other.
“Perhaps, but it is my duty to take care of both you AND the pups. I cannot fulfill that duty if you are not here.”
Ah, DUTY, how he hated that word. Although he was unsure why the fact that it was merely a duty that kept him in his mate’s care was bothering him so badly, he could not possibly have been expecting more. “Don’t I get a say in this?”
“No,” came the blunt response as the youkai lord turned around. “Now come, Inuyasha, we have wasted enough time as is.”
Inuyasha just stood there in anger, glaring a hole into his mate’s back. How dare that ass talk to him like he was a servant?! To hell with this! He was going to go back to his pack right now. His prick of a mate would just have to deal.
Turning around to head back down the hall they had just come up, Inuyasha suddenly felt his energy get sapped away. He felt his ears move from the top of his head down to the sides and all his senses dimmed to being barely there. With a sinking feeling, he realized what had happened. After all, it had happened once a month his entire life. And he had known that it was getting close to nighttime, but with having been out of it and unconscious, he had completely lost track of the moon cycle.
But with the change, he now knew exactly what phase the moon was in. If he looked out a window, he knew he would see a dark sky. Which, in turn, meant only one thing. He was now human. Shit.
The human Inuyasha glanced down at the black hair on his shoulder. This was sooo not good. Sesshoumaru was going to kill him. His elder brother HATED his humanity. He wondered what his chances of getting away before his mate noticed he wasn’t there were and didn’t think they were too good. But he had to try! He had a pup to think about! Even if he allowed Sesshoumaru to kill him, which wasn’t likely to happen, he couldn’t allow him to kill the pup!
Decision made, Inuyasha ran as fast as he could down towards where his friends were. They would understand the problem. They had to help him. He didn’t know what else to do. He hated to admit it, but he was defenseless in this form. He just prayed he would be able to get there in time.
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Someone was asking a while ago when the new moon was going to come. Tada!
Sorry about this taking so long to get put up, I haven’t been happy with some of the transitions and so it has been sitting on my hard drive with me worrying at it the past month instead of it getting posted. However, I changed some of the wording so it should be better now.
As always, thanks for reading and/or reviewing.
By: mshutts
WARNING: incest
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any other characters here-in
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Chapter 55: Uncertainty
Inuyasha brought his hand up to his neck once again. The rosary, the chain that had been on his neck for the past couple years was really and truly gone. He felt free. Free as he had not felt in so long that he could no longer recall what it had felt like.
True, Kagome had not wanted to take it off. True, his elder brother and mate had forced her to do so under pain of death. Which, now that he thought about it, was really odd. He hadn’t thought his older brother would care one way or another. Sesshoumaru should have been happy to see his hanyou face in the ground. He furrowed his brow in confusion and then shook his head.
That was not the important part. No, the important part was that he no longer had on that damned rosary. He was no longer in a cage. He was free! He could now do as he wished. He no longer had to answer to the whims of a child and have everyone simply shake their heads at him as if to say that he should have expected it, that it was his lot in life as a hanyou and it was the best he could hope for.
He wouldn’t be left questioning why his face was in the ground. Or wondering if anyone was ever going to listen to what he had to say. Or pondering if he should even bother getting up after being sat into a deep hole.
He wouldn’t have to worry about accidentally saying something to set Kagome off. Nor would he have to concern himself with whether or not he felt like getting put into the ground for stating his opinion. Now he had the freedom to do such things without consequence.
It was all so beyond what he had thought or even hoped for that he was still in a bit of a daze on the whole issue. Sure, he had considered not having it before. Certainly, he had fantasized about making Kagome take it off. Yelling at her or threatening her. In his darkest thoughts, he had even considered physically forcing her to take it off. Sometimes it happened in a scene that even resembled the one that he had just seen, but with him as the antagonist this time.
But he had always shied away from those ideas in the past. Yes, he wanted them off, but he didn’t want to hurt her to do it. He spent so much time protecting her, anything even approaching harming her intentionally just went against his very nature. He never would have been able to go through with it. Even the fact that his own mate had done it left some distaste in his mind. It was almost enough to spoil his joy in his new-found freedom. Then a new thought entered his head.
He wouldn’t have to fall before that damn wolf either! That idea brought a true smile to his face. He had been waiting to pound Kouga’s face in for a LONG time. Now, the next time he saw him, he would have his chance. He could just imagine how great it would feel to have his fist sink into that mangy wolf’s face. The thought made him so content, he was almost purring.
Thinking on how much better it was going to be without that leash on, he turned to the reason it was no longer there. His elder brother. His mate.
He wondered if he should thank him or something. That was what one did when someone else did something for them, right? Especially if they did not have to do it. He was pretty sure that was how it worked even if the one in question was a bastard to you more often than not.
Deciding to hope for the best, he said, “Thank you,” very softly to Sesshoumaru. And then he decided it was worth it if for nothing else than for the look that had adorned his mate’s face at those words. It was very quick, but since he had already been looking at Sesshoumaru, he hadn’t missed it. There was definite shock there before the wall came back up again.
“And what might you be thanking me for?”
“You know, the subjugation beads,” Inuyasha said, pointing to the where the beads used to be on his neck.
“No mate of the Lord of the West shall fall before a human.”
The hanyou looked at his older brother incredulously. He breaks down and actually shows his gratitude and all he gets is that imperious look and a ‘how could you be so stupid as to think it had anything to do with you?’ tone? All that asshole cared about was his own reputation. Forget this!
He ripped his arm out of his mate’s grip and pulled away muttering about ungrateful bastards who think they own the universe. So much for showing appreciation. He should have known the ass wouldn’t accept it. Probably felt he was too good for it. That he deserved to be thanked just for breathing in his direction. His elder brother was such a bastard.
When Sesshoumaru did not even bother to see what his problem was, it only reinforced the idea in Inuyasha’s mind. Somehow he had managed to once again forget that he was only a half-demon. Not worthy to even breathe the same air as his ‘perfect’ elder brother. Surely, if he had cared about him at all, he would have tried to find out why his younger brother had pulled away.
Hell, if he had been with his old pack, he wouldn’t have gotten a full step away before they would have been on his case about what was wrong. In fact, there would have been incessant questioning about just what had put him in such a snit until he finally told them or just left entirely.
But if he had been with them, this never would have happened in the first place. Had he told one of them thanks, they would have appreciated it. They would have noticed how hard it was for him to say such things. But, no, not his older brother. Not his mate. He had to be a condescending prick about it.
And he was sure he knew the reason. It always came to back to the fact that he was a hanyou with his brother, didn’t it? Not that the younger brother had any choice in the matter. But that had never mattered, now had it? As he had been told countless times before by the demon in front of him, he was not worth the dirt beneath his feet. He should have been killed for what he was. As a hanyou, he was nothing. No, he was less than nothing. He was beneath notice.
Inuyasha sneered. Well, so be it. If that bastard did not want him around sullying up the place, he would just leave. There was no reason for him to stay here. He had what he had come for. All he needed to do was gather the rest of his pack and leave. See if Sesshoumaru ever saw his pup at all.
He could feel his youki whimpering at the idea of being away from his mate. But it was not as if he had much of a choice now was it? He had to think of himself and the good of his pups. His pups. Oh gods, he had almost forgotten about Shippo. He now had at least two of them to look after counting the unborn one or ones in his abdomen.
With a sharp inhale, he set his shoulders. No matter, it couldn’t be that much harder than taking care of himself. Could it?
He began to panic slightly at the thought. How was he going to take care of his pups? He would be vulnerable during the pregnancy. If he couldn’t find somewhere safe to stay… He didn’t even want to think about it.
He knew he would do the best he could by them but, what if it wasn’t good enough? Would his pups even HAVE a home? Or would they just be wanderers? That couldn’t be good for pups. Could it? Would they hate him for not leaving them with their father? How could he even begin to explain to them that their father wanted nothing to do with them? Should he even try?
What if he WASN’T good enough to be able to take care of them? What if he couldn’t provide for them? What if something happened to him while he was trying to protect his pups? Who would take care of them? They would not be old enough to take care of themselves. Would they end up as outcasts like he had? Would they starve to death in the unforgiving winter?
Now his youki wasn’t the only one that was beginning to get panicky. His whole self was being consumed with worry for his pups and their future. He knew intellectually that they were safest here. But if he was not wanted, how much more wanted would the pups be? Perhaps he should just leave them here with Sesshoumaru. Even as he thought it, he shied away from the idea. There was no way he could leave their pups alone with that bastard.
If Sesshoumaru could hate him, his younger brother, for having human blood, how could Inuyasha possibly expect him to accept his pup who would also carry human blood? It wasn’t possible. It would not be safe for his baby to live here. He would just have to leave. That was all there was to it.
Trying to calm himself down, he reminded himself that he had been on his own for a long time. Surely a couple more mouths to feed wouldn’t be a problem. He had been doing alright recently. Besides, he couldn’t lose hope yet. There was still the possibility that he would be able to stay with his old pack. Although, that too was in doubt over what had just happened in the room back there.
What if Kagome was furious about the way she had been treated by his older brother?
Who was he kidding? Of course she was furious! Who wouldn’t have been?
He wondered if her outrage would spread out to encompass him and his pups as well. He hoped not. He truly did not want to have another enchantment put on him. He had just become free!
He wondered if pointing out that Sesshoumaru hadn’t killed her would help. Even he was shocked by that one. With as pissed off as his elder brother had been, he had fully expected her to have been nothing more than a splotch on the ground. But, his older brother had shown great restraint, more than Inuyasha had ever seen him show to anyone, in the way he dealt with the issue.
And it still had the hanyou in a state of confusion. For a while back there, it had sounded like his big brother was trying to fulfill the role of mate and alpha in more than just name and actually care about him and for him. What a laugh. Sesshoumaru didn’t care for him as far as he could throw him. He only did what he thought was ‘required’ of him due to their current situation. But that still left the issue of why he hadn’t killed Kagome. He was grateful, but he would have liked to know why.
For all that she had hurt him, he nevertheless did not truly wish her dead. Although he was still pretty pissed that she had thought she needed to use the beads to keep him in line like he was some mangy, out of control mutt. Sure, he had looked at it that way sometimes, but he hadn’t thought SHE had. He had thought, hoped, she had some other, ANY other, reason for using it that he just didn’t understand. But that did not appear to be the case.
To hear her say it out loud was so much different than the whispered implications in the back of his mind. He had thought she was his friend. She was so nice to everyone else, why not him?
Then it came to him, he was a hanyou. Nobody cared for half-demons. Nobody was nice to them. He cursed to himself for even daring to hope it could be different.
His human side took this opportunity to remind him of Kagome’s temper. She had been really mad when she had been talking. Maybe she didn’t really mean it. She had said things she didn’t mean when upset before. Maybe this was just one more case of that.
This thought gave Inuyasha hope in keeping his friendship with her even though his demon side was scoffing at the idea. But his hanyou self, who had been alone almost his entire life, was willing to put up with almost anything not to be alone.
He knew Sesshoumaru did not understand it. The very fact that he had no idea why Inuyasha wanted to spare Kagome’s life was enough to show that. And he had his doubts that anyone in his old pack understood this need of his either.
How did you explain to someone who had never been alone, completely and utterly alone, what it was like? How do you explain why you are willing to put up with threats and put downs and physical harm just so that you have someone to talk to? How do you make them see that you have never in your life had complete acceptance? Never had a friendship without conditions? He sighed. There WAS no way.
It was one of the main reasons he never bothered to explain his relationship with Kikyo to them, after all. And now, he was beginning to wonder if his relationship with Sesshoumaru was going to fall into the same category. If his old pack couldn’t accept his mate and his mate couldn’t accept him, where did that leave him? Alone, once again.
But, maybe, just maybe, he could convince his old pack to let him back. He knew there would be conditions to it. He wasn’t completely stupid. He hoped they wouldn’t include that damn rosary going around his neck again, but realized it was a distinct possibility. No one trusted hanyou after all. But what if they made more demands now?
He was worrying over what the conditions might be for him to rejoin his pack when he heard Sesshoumaru say from almost half the hallway ahead, “Are you coming or not, little brother?”
“Why should I go anywhere with you?”
“I am your mate. Your alpha. I do believe those were the conditions you gave to that priestess of yours for expecting your obedience were they not?”
Damn. He had him there. He HAD said that. In fact, Sesshoumaru fulfilled almost all the requirements he had laid out for Kagome. Shit. Now what? Glaring at his elder brother, he snapped out, “Doesn’t mean I’ll follow you without reason, bastard.”
“Very well. And here I had thought you would wish to know what I had planned for that miko of yours. Perhaps I was wrong.”
“What are you talking about?” Inuyasha asked suspiciously. Even when he was answering questions, his mate acted like a condescending prick.
“Have you not wondered why I have the beads, little brother?”
To be perfectly honest, no, he hadn’t. He supposed he had thought they were perhaps to be a trophy of some sort. He wasn’t really sure about what he had thought they were going to be used for. But there was no way he was going to admit that to the jerk he had the displeasure of calling his mate. Instead he sneered, “Why should _I_ care what you do with them? Throw them out for all I care.”
Sesshoumaru finally turned partially and looked at him. “Ah, but if I threw them out, little brother, I couldn’t have FUN with them.” The way he said, ‘fun’ sent a chill down Inuyasha’s spine.
Despite himself, Inuyasha began moving closer to the older youkai. “What are you planning, Sesshoumaru?” he asked suspiciously.
A cold smile graced the normally expressionless lips and the hanyou was strongly reminded of a ferocious predator on a hunt. “Come and see, my mate. There are many ways to deal with problems such as that little girl of yours.”
“You’re not gonna kill her or something are you? Cause she may be annoying sometimes, but that doesn’t mean I want her dead.”
“I am well aware of how you feel about the situation, little brother. Rest assured she shall not die by my hand. However, there are ways other than death to deal with problems.”
Inuyasha regarded him skeptically. He had never heard of his elder brother using any method other than death to deal with annoyances. “If there are other ways to deal with these problems of yours, why don’t you use them instead of killing everyone?”
“Because killing the annoyance is so much easier and much less of a headache. However, if you are to live here, you must realize you will not be allowed to kill everyone who annoys you. There are lords and ladies who you will be expected to show respect to regardless of how annoying you find them be. As such, you would do well to learn… other ways to deal with the annoyance they will no doubt cause.”
The younger inu stiffened at that. “Who said I was staying here?”
The elder merely cast him a glance. “Of course you are staying here. You are my mate. You will bear my young. This is now your home.”
The way Sesshoumaru was treating him like an idiotic child was raising his ire, “Look, I may have agreed to be your mate. I may have agreed to bear your pups. I did NOT agree to live here!”
“Surely you did not think I would allow my pregnant mate and pups to go gallivanting around in the wilderness did you?”
“I can take care of them!” Inuyasha yelled back defensively, despite the fact that he had just been bemoaning his ability to do just that mentally a mere moment ago. Besides, what was his brother playing at? He didn’t care about Inuyasha one way or the other.
“Perhaps, but it is my duty to take care of both you AND the pups. I cannot fulfill that duty if you are not here.”
Ah, DUTY, how he hated that word. Although he was unsure why the fact that it was merely a duty that kept him in his mate’s care was bothering him so badly, he could not possibly have been expecting more. “Don’t I get a say in this?”
“No,” came the blunt response as the youkai lord turned around. “Now come, Inuyasha, we have wasted enough time as is.”
Inuyasha just stood there in anger, glaring a hole into his mate’s back. How dare that ass talk to him like he was a servant?! To hell with this! He was going to go back to his pack right now. His prick of a mate would just have to deal.
Turning around to head back down the hall they had just come up, Inuyasha suddenly felt his energy get sapped away. He felt his ears move from the top of his head down to the sides and all his senses dimmed to being barely there. With a sinking feeling, he realized what had happened. After all, it had happened once a month his entire life. And he had known that it was getting close to nighttime, but with having been out of it and unconscious, he had completely lost track of the moon cycle.
But with the change, he now knew exactly what phase the moon was in. If he looked out a window, he knew he would see a dark sky. Which, in turn, meant only one thing. He was now human. Shit.
The human Inuyasha glanced down at the black hair on his shoulder. This was sooo not good. Sesshoumaru was going to kill him. His elder brother HATED his humanity. He wondered what his chances of getting away before his mate noticed he wasn’t there were and didn’t think they were too good. But he had to try! He had a pup to think about! Even if he allowed Sesshoumaru to kill him, which wasn’t likely to happen, he couldn’t allow him to kill the pup!
Decision made, Inuyasha ran as fast as he could down towards where his friends were. They would understand the problem. They had to help him. He didn’t know what else to do. He hated to admit it, but he was defenseless in this form. He just prayed he would be able to get there in time.
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Someone was asking a while ago when the new moon was going to come. Tada!
Sorry about this taking so long to get put up, I haven’t been happy with some of the transitions and so it has been sitting on my hard drive with me worrying at it the past month instead of it getting posted. However, I changed some of the wording so it should be better now.
As always, thanks for reading and/or reviewing.