InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Right Thing ❯ Part II ( Chapter 2 )

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A/N: This part is told from a different point of view.

The Right Thing
Part II
By: Scars of the Moon

"Remember how you told me that... that I was free to leave whenever I wanted?" Her question startled me. I never thought that I would have to recall that time again. Of course I remember, I couldn't count the number of time I berated myself for saying those words. It was that time when that boy, Hojo, started showing interest in you. It never occurred to me the possibility of you being with another. The thought brought insecurity and fear. So, before getting the chance to say what I wanted to say, my emotional barriers went up. I wanted to ask you... no, beg you not to leave me, but instead, I told you that you were free to leave. I wanted to take it back, but my pride wouldn't let me. But you weren't hurt or sad by my comment. You just smiled at me, the sweet smile you always gave me, and we never mentioned it since. I thought you forgot about it... but I was wrong. What would happen if I were to say yes? Should I pretend that I didn't recall? That wouldn't work... I was never able to lie to you.

"Yes...I remember." I was afraid of what she was going to say. I never knew the meaning of fear before she came along... not even with Kagura.

"Is that offer...still valid?" This question made me catch my breath. She wanted to leave. It wasn't surprising really, with the hell I've put her through. It's a mystery why she took so long in the first place. If I was pathetic before, I was even more pathetic now. I was a poor pianist, would couldn't even get her a decent gift. Now I was a poor, blind pianist. It was ironic really, her asking me whether or not she could leave. What right did I have to hold her back?

"Yes...it is still valid." It was the very opposite of what I wanted to say. But this was the right thing to do. I would do anything to make her stay, but she would be miserable, and that...would make him the most heinous creature.

"I am going to leave to Kyoto. My aunt lives in a shrine there, and I wanted to stay with my for awhile." Thousands of things I wanted to say came up in my head. But none of them would set her free. So I opted for the right answer, no matter how wrong it sounded to me.

"I understand." I forced the words out, trying to sound uncaring as possible. It would make her feel less guilty. Knowing her, she would hate herself for leaving me, thinking that it was selfish of her. It always amazed me how selfless she was.

"Take care of yourself." She always thought of me before her. Even in the last moments, she cared for my welfare. I became frantic as I heard her footsteps that led her out of the hospital room... out of my life. I wanted to say something, anything before she left. So in my state of desperation, I unconsciously called out her name.

"Rin," Somehow, I knew that she was looking at me. Then I said the words which I felt was the right thing to say. "Thank you... for everthing." For coming into my life, helping me find a reason to live, teaching me how to love, I thank you.