InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Roommate ❯ Really IMPORTANT!!! ( Chapter 15 )

The Roommate

Sara: Okay my writer's block is so horribly bad that I can write a thing. I've been sort of depressed lately. If I could I would blow up my school with a few select people left inside. And home life has been getting worse with my parents fighting back to back. I can't really think. I'm trying to keep everything together for my emotional state of mind and I even caught myself crying in gym the other day. I am on the verge of tears as I am writing this. A few times the thought has crossed my mind to end it all right now. Yeah I know, `your trying to get the sympathy of the fans yada yada yada'. Actually what I am heading for is that you will understand and wait until my emotional state is back together and I will be able to actually sit at my computer without having my mind wretched with yells and screams from my parents or constant badgering from kids at school floating through my head. I could write a chapter if you really wanted me to but maybe even half the time I would mistakenly write Sara in it instead of Kagome and it would be a cheap angst. I'm sorry to all those people who are waiting hand and foot for my update and I am trying as hard as I can, I honestly am, to try to get this chapter up in time before I just lose inspiration from it forever. And I don't want that to happen. This fan fiction is my baby and I doubt I will be where I am without you wonderful reviews lifting my mood day after day. And back to the point that you need to understand, all of this I am going through is so hard mentally on a twelve year old girl. And for all those people who have it worse than me, I pray to be as strong as you guys and I wonder how you can make it through a day. But I promise not to let this simpily be a ramble by me so this is a piece of poetry done by me:

I wake up from my slumber cry

And wipe the vast tears from my eyes

On my bed, to the sky I rise

And I imagine the glorious angel; she flies

I feel the tears that I shed

As I grasp the teddy bear, tuck my head

I knew that it was said and done

Life's battle was not to be won

The bells of sadness, in my ear its rung

This depressing song was not to be sung

This memory is all I keep

In the depths of silence is when I weep

 

-Sara

And another incomplete poem:

 

You try to make me something I'm not so I can win your personal love.

You try to make me realize that what I have isn't enough.
You try to make me put you up above.

And I try to tell you its tough.

 

Your presences graces mines briefly through this hallway of hell

I can see it in your eyes that you know I have cried

You try to coax me into thinking that everything to you I can tell

And I know inside my heart that I tried.

 

You try to bring me with your friends

And your laugh echoes as I sit on the edge

I reach under the table for your fingertip ends.

I've tried to tell you, from the popularity bush, I'm on the hedge.

 

You slip through the halls after the school bell rings

And I chase after to catch up with you

I slow to a stop near the swings

With that girl, nothing new.

 

You try to make to make me understand

But I am stubborn, misunderstood

Those times in the hall when I attempted to grab your hand

You'd casually walk away, you would.

 

You finally stopped coming after me

And began hanging with that girl all the time

I knew that I was finally free

But I still wanted you as mine.

 

Life moved as slow as it started

And I fell into the shadows as it used to be

You and that girl were together

As you have been with me

 

I would occasionally catch your eyes in the halls

Occasionally catching a grin

At the night I awake, your name my heart calls

But I know for your, I'm not far enough in.

 

I regret it now

The day we met

But somehow

We'll meet again I bet

 

I write that in my notebook now

And seal it to my chest

You went away so I made that vow

When we meet I'll plan the rest

 

When I lay in the rolling plains

I see your face in the sky

When the sun is out while it rains

And when the rainbow appears, you come to mind, I wonder why

 

I think back now to the time we spent together

When we would huddle between ourselves

I remembered you promised we would be together forever

But it seemed like I was stacked liked a doll on your dusty shelves

 

I remember when you'd throw your arm about my shoulder

But your eyes weren't concentrated on mine

I feel my lips turning blue and my blood getting colder

“I love you”, how many times have you repeated that line.

 

I had a dream about you

With that girl, soaring in the air

I awoke crying, I knew in a way it was true

You stripped me of a lover and left me bare

 

I can't eat anymore

I set my fork down almost immediately

Mom is noticing, dad's foot is halfway out the door

I seal my eyes tightly before the fight begins heatedly

 

Mom blames dad for the sudden loss of life

Dad blames mom for her heartlessness for me

The pride I have to see you again keeps me away from that knife

Even if your face is the last thing I will see

 

I knew I had your number in a phonebook

I needed to contact you no matter what
my eyes read the pages as empty no matter how hard I look

And I knew that another door has shut

 

And so here I go…. Until the chapter

 

-Sara

 

Kagome bows her head softly and mumbles under her breath, the tears washing her cheeks wet, “Please come to me Inuyasha. Please…” And her eyes suddenly close from the impact of a blow…

 

-from next chapter