InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Telling ❯ Choices ( Chapter 23 )

Inuyasha's shout had broken through Kagome's haze of lust and her body became rigid with embarrassment and shock. Here she was, on her bed with Sesshomaru poised above her, attempting to suck his face off while he was thrusting away at her when she had told Inuyasha that she needed some time away from demons to think. She realized that her face was flushed and that her breaths were coming in short rasping pants.

 

For his part, Sesshomaru jolted back to himself with a hard mental lurch and simply continued to stare at the hanyou. He released his hold on her neck and let her head fall gently back onto her pillow. Still looking at Inuyasha he stated simply “You are interrupting Inuyasha.” Although his tone was that of his usual boredom, the narrowing of his eyes indicated that he was more irritated than indifferent. Though he was loathe to admit it, he had missed his irksome brother over the past 500 years and had also found that he had regretted the way things had played out between them. But the memory of this baka causing the pitiful death of the miko below him was enough to raise his hackles. Catching sight of Inuyasha's hand grasping the Tetsusaiga, he cast a meaningful glace at the sword while saying “Even you cannot be so feeble minded half-breed.”

 

Inuyasha willed his hand to release the sword and allowed it to clench into a fist at his side. He bared his fangs at his brother and ground out “I should have killed you when you first told me of your interests in Kagome.”

 

“It would have been amusing, however futile” the taiyoukai responded with a shrug of his broad shoulders.

 

Still pinned in her compromising position, Kagome tried to weasel her way out from under Sesshomaru. She was highly annoyed when she discovered that she was unable to. She was ashamed that Inuyasha had caught her.... kissing..... Sesshomaru when she had told him that she was only going back to her time to get her thoughts together. “Get off of me Sesshomaru” she told the demon above her.

 

He looked down at her, almost as though he had forgotten that they were in such an intimate position, and then slowly raised himself up and off of her. Standing up and raising himself to his full height, he returned his gaze to the half-breed. “Will you be a good boy if I open the window and let you inside Inuyasha?” He questioned condescendingly.

 

“Yes, you asshole!” Inuyasha yelled, furious with himself for letting Kagome out of his sight.

 

Apparently, things were even more desperate than he had first assumed. It had been bad enough when he had only had to imagine what the two of them had been up to, but it was much worse having to actually see it for himself. The worst part had been that even though the scene he had just witnessed had involved Sesshomaru and made his blood boil with rage and jealousy, he had felt himself become aroused. No one had ever kissed him like that. In fact, he hadn't even known that someone could be kissed like that. Obviously Kagome had been getting in some practice at it, but not with him. It made him wonder what else she had been up to.

 

Suddenly, his original plan of simply telling her how he felt about her and hoping that she forgave him for his never having said anything before, not to mention his blatant mistreatment of her in the past with regards to Kikyou, seemed really weak. Admittedly, the whole thing had always seemed a little fuzzy in his head, but he'd been pretty sure that it would all work itself out. That assumption was obviously incorrect.

 

Sesshomaru slid the window open and allowed the hanyou to jump inside. That done, he returned to the bed and settled himself down beside Kagome. Wrapping an arm around her, he gave his brother a satisfied smirk.

 

“Don't you fucking touch her!” Inuyasha yelled out.

 

“This Sesshomaru will touch her if he pleases. Besides Inuyasha, I have spent a good portion of this evening touching her.” Again he smirked.

 

“You son of a bitch! She's mine!”

 

“And what right do you have to lay such a claim on her?” Sesshomaru questioned seriously. “I have seen no mark upon her declaring her your mate.”

 

“Because I love her dammit!” Inuyasha all but roared at the taiyoukai. Casting his eyes on the ground he repeated softly “Because I fucking love her Sesshomaru.”

 

He had pity for his brother, but not enough to walk away. He had never had the desire to feel such a thing, but it was in that moment that the Lord of the West came to grips with the truth. He loved her as well. Perhaps she would be no better off if she chose to mate with him, but he knew for certain the fate that awaited her should she choose Inuyasha. His heart began to thrash wildly against his chest, but he never let it show. It was hard enough to realize that despite everything, he had fallen in love with the miko. To become vulnerable and love was difficult; to give that love to a human was nearly incapacitating. Yet there was nothing to be done, the time to reconsider his actions had passed many hundreds of years prior. If she was indeed destined to die, he would not have it be in such an utterly depressing fashion. Not if it could be helped.

 

“You are not the only one Inuyasha.” He said quietly.

 

Wide eyes rose from their position of studying the carpet and met the similarly shocked eyes across from them. “What?” Inuyasha demanded.

 

“This Sesshomaru stated that you are not the only person in the room with such feelings.” It was said blandly, but all present realized the implications hidden away behind the words.

 

Kagome was stunned to silence. She had never expected Inuyasha to just come out and tell her that he loved her. And for Sesshomaru to love anyone at all? Well, it was almost scandalous. She sat, mouth open, eyes wide, gaping at the two inuyoukai.

 

The time had come. She would have to make her own decision. He had done more than he had intended already. He had stopped her from mating Inuyasha on this night, but ultimately, she would still have to make her own choices. He placed two long and delicate fingers underneath her jaw and pushed it closed. Looking into her eyes he began what he hoped would be his final words to her. If she did decide to take a different path this time, then he would not be forced to spend 500 years mourning her.

 

“Kagome, I remember everything that happened between us in the feudal era. For the past 500 years I have waited for a chance to change things, and the time is now. I cannot tell you what choices you have made before, nor can I advise you on what decisions to make now. All I can offer you are some things for you to consider. I remember the proud taiyoukai that I was, and I know that although I would have thought about this, I would never have allowed myself to speak freely to you in regards to the subject. It has taken me this long to come to grips with the fact that I love you, that I have loved you from the moment I came across you at the hot spring. My inability to share my feelings and my stubbornness are only two things that you will have to deal with should you choose me over Inuyasha.”

 

Inuyasha snorted and effectively ruined the moment. Sesshomaru heard him mumble something about his being an icy bastard. Eyes narrowing, Sesshomaru growled out an unmistakable warning. “Let me finish half-breed.”

 

Returning his attentions to the woman who held his heart, he continued “As deplorable as I find it, the hanyou is correct. You will also be forced to endure my cold exterior. But Kagome, when you left the feudal era to return here, that icy demeanor was already melting.” He glanced over to the sulking hanyou and told her “Remember that although I can give you no more than what I am, Inuyasha will never be able to give you his entire heart. I do not doubt that he cares for you, but part of him will always belong to the other miko.” He stopped and stood. If he said anything more, it could be too much, and so he bent down and pressed his mouth gently against Kagome's.

 

Pulling away from the chaste kiss he whispered softly in her ear so that she would be the only one to hear, “I did miss you very much Kagome.” And then he walked to the window and left the way he had come.

 

Inuyasha and Kagome turned away from the window and looked at one another. After a moment's hesitation, Kagome dropped her gaze. “Well shit.” She muttered to herself.

 

Inuyasha was dumbfounded. There was no way he could top that. Damn Sesshomaru! His little speech had been so eloquent and heart felt! Now what was he going to do?

 

“Kagome....” He could hardly finish saying her name before she interrupted him.

 

“Go back Inuyasha; go back to your time.” She muttered without even looking at him.

 

He was stung that she was calling it “his” time. He had long ago begun to think of it as “their” time. Trying not to let the hurt show in his voice he told her softly “But Kagome, I love you.”

 

How long had she waited to hear those words? How many years had gone by while she hoped for nothing more from him than those three simple syllables? But now, it was all wrong. Something in her gut just told her to think about what Sesshomaru had told her, and she wouldn't be able to do so with Inuyasha around. She looked up and into his eyes and told him simply “I know that you do Inuyasha. But I need you to go back now okay?”

 

He could see that she was all but begging him, and he could not refuse her. Without a word, he turned his back and left her to her thoughts. He could think of nothing more to tell her, nothing more that could be said. Inuyasha too, realized that she would now be forced to make her own choice. There was nothing more that he could do but pray that perhaps he hadn't fucked things up too badly.