InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Worthless Child ❯ Why? ( Chapter 6 )

"Why"

"Why? Why do you want to kill yourself? Why do you want to die?" the girl asked him with tears rolling down her cheeks and landing on the ground.

Inuyasha stopped his blade from ramming into his heart. He kept his face forward and eyes on Kikyo's grave, so he would not have to look at the unknown girl. Then the scent of salt came fresh to his sensitive nose. `Why is she crying? Is she crying for me?' thought at first, surprised to see a girl crying. Realizing what he was thinking he quickly rethought `No, I am a Hanyou, lower than dirt. Why would anyone cry, let alone care if I die? Anyways who cares if she is crying? Not my problem or concern.'

"Keh! Leave me the fuck alone Bitch. It isn't your problem, and quit acting like you care Bitch."

`What did he call me? A bitch? What nerve and here I am trying to save his life. Why do I even care now? No one calls me "bitch" anyway with it. The nerve of this guy.'

"What did you call me" the girl asked in a death pan voice that could scare almost anyone, well except Inuyasha.

Still keeping his eyes on Kikyo's grave he replied annoyed "A Bitch". He slowly turned his eyes to look at the unknown girl. "You got a prob…" Golden eyes met blue. Inuyasha stared at the girls face only one thing came to mind. "Kikyo" Inuyasha breathed and thought at the same time. Visions of happy times flew throughout Inuyasha's head. Them making out, their first date, her playfulness, her in that red dress…"

The girl heard him breath out something. She thought it was Kikyo but she could be mistaken. `Anyway, how could this loser know Kikyo anyways…?' She broke eye contact to look at the grave that was behind the jerk. The name "Kikyo Higurashi" was fully printed on the gravestone. On the floor were a dozen blood red roses. She knew of only one person that Kikyo accepted those from. All other people that gave her blood red roses were politely refused. `No, it can't be, Kikyo would never go out with this loser and arrogant jerk.' Golden eyes locked on blue again. She remembered a phone call she had with Kikyo before she died. "Oh Kami-sama I met a guy today. He was so HOT! Golden eyes, snow white hair, muscular and strong. He has such a weird name to, Inuyasha" The girl looked broke eye contact and roamed her eye's around the Hanyou's body. `White hair, check. Golden eyes, check. Strong looking, check.' It took her a second before realization took over `Oh Kami-sama! It's him!'

"Are you Inuyasha?" she asked in a scared and small voice.

"How the fuck do you know my name?" demanded Inuyasha.

"Well you were Kikyo's boyfriend right? Well Kikyo is my cousin, and we have talked about you."

"Keh" said Inuyasha as he turned around raised the dagger to try and kill himself again.

"You still haven't told me why. I wont let you kill yourself until I know why" said Kagome in a no nonsense tone. `Why do I even care?' the girl asked herself. `Because I don't want his dirtying Kikyo's gravesite' `Right, you just want to save him because you think he's cute.' `I do not, and I refuse to argue with myself.'

"And I told you to mind your own business bitch. Now leave before I kill you first" Inuyasha said in a half dejected tone half angry tone.

`Good, he's losing his resolve. Just a little more should do it.' the girl thought.

"You are going to kill me? What would Kikyo think? What do think she thinks of you wasting your life away like this? Spilling your blood all over her grave and for what? Just because you want to join her? That is the weak way out. You are a disgrace to her name, I can't believe she go out with someone like you!" `That should do it. He should be so pissed off at me for calling him weak and himself for being weak. I know Kikyo always talked about how he was always so macho and arrogant.' What she never expected was the deep pain that showed throughout his body, but most of all in his eyes. She realized many things about him then and there. Inuyasha and Kikyo found each other because both had a lot of pain. She could tell with Kikyo easily as they were friends. Inuyasha had just used his arrogant attitude as a front, to hide his pain. Kikyo saw past it, and they joined with him to share their pain. And right now, Inuyasha was at a low point, and she hit him hard when he was low. `He looks like a lost and hurt puppy, with nowhere to go, and no one to comfort him. I hurt him real bad when he was down, Kami-sama I feel like an ass…'

"Of course I am weak. I know I never deserved her, you don't need to tell me that. I never understood why she was with me. I am a Hanyou. I am less than dirt, someone who doesn't deserve to live. Why should something who is less than dirt, deserve a goddess so beautiful. I mean, I even let her die, when I promised I would always protect her."

The girl never new his pain went that far. `I have no idea how to help him. I want to help, because I half caused it. I don't know what to do… Wait I have an idea.'

She slowly walked over to a dejected Inuyasha, sat behind him and cradled him.

Inuyasha's first reaction was lean back into the embrace, as flashes of his mother holding like this passed through his eyes. The next thing he did was to breath in her scent. `She smells so different from Kikyo, yet looks so alike. She acts so different too. Wait, why is she touching me like this?'

Inuyasha pushed her off yelling "Get the fuck off me stupid bitch."

She landed on her butt with a thud. "Owww, that hurt."

"Keh, stupid weak humans" said Inuyasha as he reached down to pull her up. When she was standing he turned around, grabbed his dagger and starting walking away, leaving a very confused and angry girl. Putting everything aside in mind to think about later she picked up her flowers that she had dropped on the ground, and set them beside Inuyasha's. Just as they hit the ground she heard a faint whisper that sounded like Kikyo, "Help him Kagome". Kagome smirked, "Of course Kikyo, of course"

Inuyasha walked home trying to think of everything besides the girl that looked like Kikyo. `Why did she stop me? Why did she cry? Why did she touch me? Why one minute she was being a bitch and the next hugging me like she was my girlfriend? God I am going to stop thinking about it. She is a bitch and annoying. But why did I help her? Kami why can't I stop thinking about this.' Inuyasha's hand automatically opens the door, and his feet carried him toward his room. His foster father's voice rang in his head "Remember to be back in time to pack your shit and my stuff. I want most of it done today, and finished by tomorrow. No excuses. You can go back to school when you finish packing, I already called your school. Now get moving Hanyou." He got to work.

As Kagome started walking to her car she barely recognized what was happening around her. After the half an hour drive she finally got home. As she was getting out the car she was to busy thinking about Inuyasha to notice her girlfriend ride up with her Honda Civic and ask "Hey Kagome wanna go somewhere?"

Kagome didn't hear and just continued her mussing in her head. `Why did he have to act like that? Doesn't he want any help with his problems, especially if he is willing to die? Why would someone want to waste their life like that? I know I shouldn't have hugged him like that, but he didn't have to shove me like that. But then he got all weird he helped me up, but acted like a child that was forced to do something he hated. Then he had the nerve to ignore and walk away from me after insulting me. Why I sho…'

"KAGOME DO YOU WANNA GO SOMEWHERE FOR THE LAST TIME" the girl in the Civic shouted. This broke Kagome out of her thoughts as she looked over to whoever was talking to her.

"Sango" happily replied. "Wanna go to the parlor?"

Sango sweatdropped (oh ya anime style). "What do you think I have been asking you for the past five minutes? I have asked you now four times if you wanna go somewhere."

Kagome blushed. "Oh, well yes I do want to go to the parlor for ice cream. By the way, can you come over for a while afterward? I need help with the math homework" replied Kagome as she got into Sango's Civic.

The car filled with an awkward silence as the two sat in the car.

"Hey Sango, you remember Kikyo right? My cousin."

This was not what Sango was expecting as she thought `Where is this going to lead to. Why Kikyo out of the blue.' Instead of saying what she was thinking Sango replied "Of course I know who Kikyo was. She was your cousin, we hung out a few times, and I went to her funeral remember."

"Do you remember ever seeing her boyfriend?"

"No. Kagome where is leading to. Do have a point to this or what?"

"Well today I took off early from school today to go see her today."

"Ya, you told me this already"

"Well I met her boyfriend there" Kagome said a little more quietly.

"Cool. I wonder why I've never seen him. How come he didn't show up at the funeral?" Sango saw the small blush on Kagome's face, then to be replaced by anger.

"Wait a minute, something happened there, and you were thinking about him. That's why you didn't pay any attention to me! What does he look like? Is he cute? Spill Now, or I am gonna pull over."

"Well it's a long story."

"No excuses, now start spilling."

(AN Ok, first off, im a guy. I don't do "girl talk" so sorry if it's a little weird and/or pathetic. I don't have a g/f at the moment anymore, so I really don't know who to ask. Second thing, god it feels so weird to describe a guy as cute. Ugggghhh. Quivers in weirdness.)

"Well first I see him wondering who could be at the cemetery this time of day. I find out that it's a guy. Not just any guy. I mean this guy is so fine. Finest ass I ever seen. He's got this long silver white hair, that just a little longer than mine. He's lean…"

Sango interrupted her getting the picture "OK Kagome, we have established that he is hot. So did he put on his `manly charm' on you?"

Kagome's face slightly wavered "No see here's the thing he brought a dagger to his neck. He cut it so much I could see the bone. The worst part about it was he did it so he wouldn't die. It was like he was torching himself before he died. He screamed after pulling it out. The he was gonna stab his heart, killing him self. I just stood there crying, he was really gonna do it. I asked him why. Then he got all pissed off, and glared at me. That was when I realized who it was. I told him off, told him he was a disgrace to Kikyo's grave, and to live. But this is what freaked me out. You know that is all arrogant right?"

After a moment Sango registered the question. "Ya, Kikyo was always complain bout that."

"Ya so instead of getting pissed off, he turned around with the most pain filled expression I have ever seen. Then he told me he new he wasn't worthy of her. He said he was a Hanyou and sounded like that explained it all. I mean sure Hanyou's get made fun of more than others, but that's no reason to kill yourself. To say your not worthy of living." Kagome paused gathering her thoughts "So I feel real bad for saying that, so I go and embrace him. Why I don't know, it was like an instinct, like I couldn't let him suffer alone. He leans into me one second, then the next he gets real pissed off and throws me off him. This is the weirdest part. He insults me, picks me up, glares at me, ignores me and walks away. Got I just don't know what to think about Inuyasha, why is …"

`Wow Kagome's getting worked up with this. But I don't fault her. I mean almost see a cute guy killing himself. Wow I feel bad for her. Hmmm, although this will be good ammunition against her for teasing me about that pervert wannabe Hoshi.' thought Sango with a wicked grin on her face.

Sango interrupts Kagome "So on a first name basis with him already Kagome?"

A small blush creeps up on Kagome's face and all that could be heard was Kagome trying to convince Sango that she didn't like Inuyasha all the way to the ice-cream parlor and back.

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