InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Then From Love until Forever ❯ To Love and To Lose ( Chapter 11 )

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Two things I wanted to make sure everybody understood:

1) Naraku doesn't know Kagome was taken out of the valley although he is about to find out.

2) Kikyou has no idea that Kagome is even still alive

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Chapter takes place a few hours after the ending events of chapter ten.

Then From Love Until Forever…

Chapter Eleven: To Love and To Lose

Naraku looked out the small window of his helicopter as it began its descent into the valley just below him. He sneered as his mind recalled the events of hours before. He got wind around seven in the evening that the police were five minutes away from his house to arrest him. Apparently someone stole a few files from him and turned them into the authorities. The Higurashi woman was nowhere on the grounds, so naturally Naraku concluded that the bitch had been the one who had taken the information, however, it was soon discovered that two of his guards were missing as well. Evidently there had been a conspiracy right under his nose, much to his annoyance.

He knew exactly who was behind it…Inuyasha and Sesshoumaru.

Every document he had concerning Kagome Tama was taken. And lucky for Naraku, he had not revealed the woman's location in any of them. So, after he got away from his mansion, he immediately left to retrieve the girl in hopes of using her against the Tama brothers. All charges would be dropped if they valued the life of the woman named Kagome.

He called Kikyou and told his daughter he would be out of the country for a little while. His little girl did not need to know any specific details she would hear about them soon enough when she returned from the Bahamas. He simply told Kikyou to get back to Inuyasha as soon as possible, and make sure to get as close to him as she could get because he was about to go through an traumatizing ordeal. He would need her for comfort.

His pale lips curved upward in a malicious smile. Kouga would have taken care of Rin a few hours ago thus destroying the most important person in Sesshoumaru's life. As for Inuyasha, as soon as the charges were dropped, Naraku would make sure Kagome was returned to her husband…one piece at a time.

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Inuyasha shifted his daughter's sleeping form in his lap. Kagome's head rested against his shoulder, his tux jacket damp with her tears. He pulled her tight to him with his arm that was draped around her. They had been waiting for an eternity to find out if Rin and the baby were okay. An eternity filled with long agonizing seconds and silent aching hearts. Rin had been shot; the bullet that pierced her chest was aimed directly at her heart. In the mist of the confusion and mayhem the assassin ran off, Rin was rushed to the hospital and had been in surgery for over three hours now.

His gloomy eyes scanned across the pale colored waiting room. Miroku held Sango tight against him; it was hard for Kagome and her to see their close friend in such a state, on the brink of losing her life and the child within her. His mother sat across from Kagome and him staring apprehensively at her eldest son's back. Sesshoumaru…Sesshoumaru stood facing the largest window; he had not moved a hair since Rin had been taken back behind the swinging double doors. Inuyasha knew, without seeing his face, without looking into his eyes, that his brother was not handling the situation very well.

Even though Sesshoumaru's outward posture and expression were normal, Inuyasha could sense that his brother's mental state was walking a very, very thin line. He just stood there staring blankly out into the blacken sky like a ticking bomb counting down to a nuclear explosion. Once the shooter was caught, it was going to take every army in the world to keep his brother from mutilating the bastard. And if Rin died, if he lost his child then Inuyasha had no doubt in his mind that there would be hell to pay, and Sesshoumaru would leave nothing undestroyed in the wake of his wrath.

Inuyasha stifled a yawn, his eyes burned and his heart hurt in opposing combination of contentment and joy of having his wife by his side. He just wished things didn't have to be this way. He wished with all that he was that Rin would live - her spirit, her life, her friendship, her love meant so much to every person in the small area holding their breaths and waiting for the doctor to finally come out of surgery.

Dr. Jaken had walked through the double doors once, about thirty-five minutes ago, clipboard in hand and a placid appearance condoned his features. Everybody had turned their attention towards the doctor when he emerged, except for Sesshoumaru who didn't even seem he would acknowledge anyone but his wife. Three steps - the short, stout man managed to walk towards them before a nurse came burst through the doors, frantically whispering something in the doctor's ears, before they both turned and raced back to where they had come. The tension in the waiting area increased after that, and Inuyasha wasn't sure he could stand the pressure of wondering and worrying for much longer.

"Mr. Tama?" Dr. Jaken practically squawked, startling Kagome and Sango. No one had heard him approach.

Sesshoumaru remained silent, but the slight turn of his head indicated to the doctor that he was listening.

"Your wife is in stable condition at the moment. The bullet was lodged in the wall of her heart, and through a delicate open-heart surgical process, we were able to remove it with minimal visible damage to the organ. However, a little over a half an hour ago, she went into cardiogenic shock, which is a result of her heart's inability pump blood to through her body. In other words, the circulation of blood to the body's tissues dropped below the point needed to maintain life."

Inuyasha watched his brother's nails dig into his palms.

"We were able to stabilizer her as I have told you, but the next twenty-four hours are extremely critical. Between sixty-five to eighty percent of cardogenic shock cases do not survive. But we have high hopes for Mrs. Tama's recovery," the doctor continued scanning through the sheets of paper on his board.

"And the baby?" Sesshoumaru spoke for the first time since arriving at the hospital; his voice was low and in decipherable.

"There is a heartbeat, but it is weak. Her pregnancy was already high risk before tonight, and now that risk has almost tripled. Birth defects and complications are impossible to determine if the child does survive the strain its mother is undergoing. To be honest with you, if your baby survives it would be nothing short of a miracle. I am sorry."

Inuyasha rubbed Kagome's back when her soft sob swept into his ear. His mother held her hand over her mouth, hot tears clearly evident in her sad eyes. He was silently glad Destiny had finally fall asleep, the stress of night had been hard on her and the news the doctor brought would have worried his daughter more. His own heart mourned for Rin, she had to live; he couldn't imagine a world without her in it. And her baby…it would kill a large part of her if she lost it. The fact that she was pregnant after being told she would never conceive was a miracle in itself, and the chances of having another was next to impossible.

"When may I see her?" Sesshoumaru questioned again, his gaze never once leaving the crescent moon descending towards the horizon.

"She is being cleaned up and taken to a private room so after she is hooked up to the necessary machines and the ECG, a nurse will come a take you to her. If you will excuse me, I must finish my report on Mrs. Tama," Dr. Jaken answered, leaving the area shortly after.

Silence hung in the air for a long time; the only sounds were the idle chatter of the nurses at their station, the sound of rubber-soled shoes against the slick floors, and the soft hum of the hospital equipment and computers.

"You all should go back to the mansion and get some rest. I will call if her condition changes." Sesshoumaru remarked, not moving. Inuyasha opened his mouth to protest but his mother gave him a stern look causing him to snap his jaw shut.

"Inuyasha," Sesshoumaru started, knowing his brother's mind without having to see what transpired between his mother and Inuyasha, "Rin would not want you to keep Destiny out all night for her sake. Take the child home and to bed. It has been a long night, spend the remainder of it with Kagome."

Kagome lifted her head, her dark blue eyes looked into Inuyasha's heavy orbs when his head turned towards her. She offered him a weak, sad smile; the guilt and pain in his eyes mirrored the emotions raging in her heart. At the cost of their reunion, their friend may possibly pay the ultimate price. Life could be so sadistically cruel and devastatingly ironic at times…one brother gets his heart back while the other loses the only reason he had one.

"Alright," Inuyasha responded, his gaze falling to Miroku and Sango as they stood, "but you had better call if anything changes," he finished, rising himself and adjusting Destiny so he could carry her easier. He glanced at his brother in time to see the slightest hint of a nod.

Sango and Kagome embraced, as they shed a river of tears for their friend. Miroku watched sullenly as the females trembled against each other, "Please tell Rin that we are praying for her…" Miroku requested.

"And that we love her," Kagome's shaky voice broke in as she stepped away from Sango, laced her fingers with Inuyasha's and slowly started to walk towards the elevators, Miroku and Sango close behind.

"I will…" Sesshoumaru answered, still staring out into the abyss of the night.

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Inuyasha gently placed Destiny on her bed. She stirred a little but remained asleep. His eyes studied her closely as he pulled the star covered comforter over her small body. She was so beautiful…and she was his…his daughter. Two fingers gently brushed across her soft cheek before he stood from his crouch and placed a kiss on Destiny's forehead. He could hear Kagome's dress rustling behind him, and a second later he felt her warm hand in his.

"Will she be okay sleeping in that dress?" he asked.

"Yes, besides I think she would rather keep her dress on because Rin bought for her and you know how much Destiny adores her aunt." Kagome answered, staring down at her child and resting her head on Inuyasha's shoulder.

"Ye-ah," his voice cracked - his mind is unbelieving of all that happened in the course of the last eight hours, "I do…" I adore her just as much.

Kagome sighed; she knew he wouldn't get any sleep with Rin's fate so uncertain. Rest would impossible for the both of them, but she figured the best thing to do was to keep their minds off Rin to help pass the time quicker. She started to walk away, tugging at Inuyasha's hand when he didn't move - his amber eyes looked as if he were a thousand miles away.

"Inuyasha…?" she called out in a soft, low voice.

He closed his eyes at the sound of her voice calling her name. How many times had he dreamed of hearing it? Sesshoumaru and Rin had truly given him the greatest gift that could ever be given. He had to have faith that Rin would survive, she was strong and he knew she would never leave Sesshoumaru alone to deal the grief of losing her. Although his brother liked for people to think he had no emotions, he still had them; he just kept them in constant check and control. But losing Rin, losing the only person that had ever completely understood him would be detrimental to Sesshoumaru and Inuyasha was unsure of how controlled his brother would remain if she died.

"Inuyasha…" she whispered again.

A small smile graced his lips…this time unlike hundreds of times before he wasn't dreaming. She was here…next to him, calling him, touching him…she was…Inuyasha quickly spun to the side, grabbed Kagome around the waist and crushed her to his chest…she was his.

"I missed you so much," he whispered against her bare shoulder. The warmth of her body was consuming him, reaching for every deep, dark part of him that died while she was gone.

"I missed you too, " she cried, her arms hugging him so tightly to her. It felt so good to finally be in his arms, to hold to him.

"I want you to tell me everything…about you, about Destiny…everything," he said pulling away but not letting go, his fingers combing through her hair.

Kagome's head nudged to the side as her eyes sparkled even though the room was barely illuminated by the night-light next to Destiny's bed. Her smile lit her face up even more; she stepped out of his embrace and extended her hand towards him.

Inuyasha gaze shifted from her to her hand for a long time, confused and not sure of what she wanted him to do. Furrowing his eyebrow together, he reached out and grabbed her hand, guess this was what she wanted.

"Hello," her grin was beautiful, "My name is Kagome Higurashi Tama. And you are?"

He let out a chuckle feeling her hand move his up and down, "Inuyasha Tama."

"Nice to meet you. But I have to ask - Have we met before, you look vaguely familiar?"

Inuyasha scrunched his nose up just a little causing his wife to giggle, "I believe so, a very long time ago," he responded sadly.

Kagome's expression softened, "Well, lets take a walk and I will tell you about myself."

"Okay," Inuyasha responded, following Kagome out of their daughter's room.

It only took them a few minutes to reach the beach that the mansion over looked. The beach that had been his bed countless nights, the place where he would sit or walk or lay wondering what the hell was the point of life without Kagome in it. The waves crashed frantically against the white sand, almost as if it was welcoming the reunited the couple.

"Where do you want me to start?" she asked him, squeezing his hand.

"The beginning," he was quick to respond, releasing her hand so he could wrap his arm around her waist.

"Alright," she practically giggled out, "it was an early morning in August, and my mother had been in labor for hours, she couldn't wait to hold me in her…" she was cut off when his wiggling fingers pressed into her ribs causing a song of laughter to spill from her lips.

"Too far," he said into her ear and ceased the action of his fingers.

Kagome took a second to compose herself again before looking at him with glittering eyes, "How was I know you which beginning you were talking about?"

"Hmph," he responded mockingly.

Her smile grew, "Okay, well I guess you can say I had the perfect life. I was married to my best friend, the man I love more than words could ever explain. I had great friends, and a promising future career, but" she watched his expression darken, "it was all taken away one night."

"We found your car wrapped around a tree," he stated flatly.

"Yeah, I guess you would considering I purposely hit it," she responded, her eyes watching her delicate shoes sink into the sand with every step.

"Purposely?" his voice was laced with astonishment.

"Yeah, a man found his way into my car that night, held a knife to my neck and told me to drive. I am sorry," her chin started to quiver, "but would have rather died than be raped."

Inuyasha stopped walking to pull his wife against him, he nuzzled his nose in her hair, "Shhh, its okay. You don't have to be sorry for anything. You're alive and that is all that matters."

Kagome seemed to straighten up in his embrace, when his amber eyes met her ocean blues, he could see determination in them, "You're right, sir. I am here now."

He watched a grin form on her lips as she resorted back to her earlier game, "Well ma'am I would very happy if you continued with your story," he responded playing along as they continued to walk the shoreline.

"Hmm, well I blacked out after the wreck and woke up in a hut with a head wound, some bruises and no memory of who I was…" she felt Inuyasha stiffen but she resumed, "there was a lady who took care of me and I soon discovered I was in a valley far away from civilization. It was just Kaede and I; that is until we found out I was pregnant. It was hard at first, dealing the emotional turmoil of bearing a child not remembering the conception or the father. But I knew, somehow deep inside my heart, I knew that my child was conceived out of love. I felt like I was missing a half of myself but I could never quite understand why…anyways, I gave birth to my baby girl on the sixth day of February and named her Destiny because that name nagged me day in and day out."

"Destiny…" Inuyasha muttered, my Destiny.

"For a little over five years Kaede, Destiny, and I lived alone in that valley. Nobody came, nobody left. My mind ran through a hundred different scenarios of what could have happened to me, but none of them seemed right. But then…low and behold Sesshoumaru and Rin came busting into the valley and turned my quaint little world upside down. They told me everything, who you were, who I was, what had happened to me. They wanted to take Destiny and I with them, but under the condition that my presence was kept hidden from you…" she continued with her story, biting her lip and waiting for his reaction.

It took everything that Inuyasha had not to stop walking when he heard the latter part of her words…her presence hidden from him, but why? Why would Sesshoumaru and Rin see it necessary to keep something that meant so much him a secret?

Kagome grabbed his free hand and brought it too her heart causing him to look at her, "they brought us to the mansion, hoping that being near you would help jog my memories. You were pretty much told that Destiny was an orphan girl Rin had decided to bring home with her. I stayed hidden in my room out of sight for about five weeks."

"Five weeks?" Inuyasha choked out, "You were in the mansion, all this time? And nobody told me, nobody thought I had the right to know that my wife was alive and that the child that I was growing to love was my daughter?"

She could hear the anger in his voice, his hold on her tightened, "it wasn't because we wanted to keep it from you. Sesshoumaru feared that if Naraku found out that I was gone from his valley before he could be arrested, he would try and tear us apart again. We had to wait until Kohaku got a hold of the files that proved Naraku had me abducted."

"Naraku…" he sneered, his eyes flashing red for a brief moment, his veins burned with fury.

"Yes Naraku, but he is gone now and we have the rest of our lives to forget about him."

"But," he tried but she would not let him.

"But, nothing. Naraku is in jail and I just want to be with you without him ruining our time together," she pleaded, knowing that his anger would not recede with her words but it would be calmer.

"You're right. I'm sorry," he gave her an apologetic smile, " So when did you remember me?" he asked slightly cocky, while trying to suppress the deep urge to rip Naraku body apart very, very slowly.

Kagome returned the facial gesture, "The night you let her stay up past her bedtime so she could watch Beauty and the Beast."

She observed his face contort as he tried to recall that night, when he did his eyes grew wide and a silent `O' formed on his lips before his mouth broke out into a sheepish smirk, "Oh yeah…" he chuckled out.

"Yeah! She has you wrapped around her little finger and the worse part is that she knows it."

Inuyasha rubbed the back of his neck with his hand, finding nothing to say in his defense except that he couldn't deny girl anything when she looked at him with her big amber eyes, "So you remembered that night, huh?" he asked, changing the subject and hoping that glint in Kagome's eyes would vanish soon.

"Yes, you turned over and I saw your face…it was like fireworks exploded in my head and with each explosion a memory accompanied it."

He gave her a crooked smirk, "So my devastatingly handsome features were the key to unlock your mind?"

Kagome rolled her eyes and slapped him playfully on the arm, "So too speak. Your turn."

"My turn? You want to know what I did the last six years?"

"Yes."

"Let's see. I searched for you, drank, fell into depression, got arrested more than once for attempting to beat the hell out of Naraku, searched more for you, everything in me died when every lead winded up as a dead end. Rin saved me, had she not smack me across the face and screamed at me for an hour about how you would have not wanted me to become a hopeless drunk, I probably would be dead from alcohol poisoning by now," he looked down at his hands as an image of Rin's bloody body flashed in his mind.

"She'll be okay," Kagome encouraged, leaning into his warmth as a cool breeze swept over them.

"I know. Well she made me come live with Sesshoumaru and her so she could `monitor' me," he chuckled, "And so instead of getting drunk, I used work as a means of escape. And that has been my life since you were taken."

"And Kikyou?" she asked, very interested in his response to her question.

Inuyasha stopped walking and turned to her, his face was drained of all its color and his eyes were wide with shock, "Y-you knew about Kikyou?"

"I saw her…" Kagome retorted. She wasn't upset like she had been the day she saw her husband and Kikyou together. All she wanted was to hear his opinion, his thoughts about Kikyou and she knew he would never lie to her.

Inuyasha's mouth fell open, shut, and then fell open again. Kagome had seen them together? A flash went off in his mind, as a memory came rushing back.

"Th…thank you for lunch," he stammered out uneasily, surprised by his body's reaction to his close proximity to her.

"Your welcome," she responded with a curve of her lips while she leaned up and pressed her lips gently against his.

Inuyasha stiffened at contact; his mind whirled like a fierce tornado on a rampage to destruction. His heart was beating so loud, he was sure she could hear it. It took him a moment but soon his lips began moving against her soft mouth. It was a simple kiss, nothing passionate but it did not take long for an iron ball to form in his stomach, weighting it down and coating his insides with a horrid sick feeling.

Kagome…

Abruptly he pulled away, stepping back to put some distance between them. He was confused; his heart belonged to his wife but since Kikyou had been around, his heart had begun to yearn to be loved again

There was no way Kagome could have seen that…especially if she had been stuck in the mansion. That kiss, if it could be called a kiss, happened in his office. But whether or not she had seen, he still felt a wave of guilt rushing through his body at the memory. He should have listen to Rin, and stayed away from Kikyou.

"I saw her when you brought Kikyou home. I can tell you, Rin was about to skin you alive that day," Kagome laughed, jolting Inuyasha back to reality.

She was laughing, why was she laughing? She should be hurt, mad, angry that he had technically started dating his ex-girlfriend in her absent, but she wasn't…she was laughing.

"You make the funniest faces when you panic," she managed to crack out, "if the topic scares you that much, we talk about Kikyou later."

"Kagome, it's not like that. We never…I couldn't…" he stuttered.

"Say it again," she said, wrapping her arms around his neck.

"Say what?" he asked thoroughly confused now.

"My name," her bright eyes stared up at him, "I've missed hearing you say it."

"Kagome…" his whispered before bending down and kissing her. Her soft lips melted against his, his hands pressed to her lower back as his tongue parted her mouth; eager to find the treasure he had been denied for so long.

She pulled away after a minute or so, needing air. He examined all her face, knowing he would never tire of looking at her, never take her for granted, and never stop loving her. No matter the length of time they were apart their feelings for each other had not changed, or dwindled, or burned out.

"I love you," he heard her say but it sounded more that an elaborate classical climax of the greatest love song of all time.

"I love you too, Kagome, more than you will ever know."

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Sesshoumaru walked into the dimly lit hospital room. His eyes held nothing, no emotion, no light, no life. But they fell upon the sleeping female lying alone in the bed. Her normal tan skin was deathly white, and her rosy lips were just a shade lighter from being considered a very pale pink. Tubes and electrical equipment practically surrounded her, emerging from her wrist, nose and chest. The low beep of the ECG and the hum other the other machines being used to sustain her life were the only sounds echoing through the room.

He clenched his fist, his sharp nails dug into his palm causing red crescent shape marks to appear. She hated hospitals; she would always scream and yell and pout and do anything in her power to avoid them. And yet here she was in a hospital, fighting for her life and the life of their child. She should not be here, by now she would have been sleeping soundly in his arms in their bedroom, completely thrilled that her friends had finally found happiness again. But she wasn't…his Rin was dying right before his eyes and there was nothing - nothing he could do that would save her.

I don't wanna know

She was the shining star in the dark depths of his mind, his body and his soul. She had been since the moment he had met her. It had been so long ago, before her, he had never once entertained the notion of conversing with the opposite sex unless it was necessary. The female race posed nothing but erratic emotional trips, passive dominance over their male, and an insatiable desire to get what they wanted - money, jewels, luxuries, power it all was the same. But then one day, he met a female that shook the very strong holds of his opinionated foundations.

Inuyasha, Sango, Miroku, Kouga, and Kikyou had all grown up together as the years passed their relationships with each other changed drastically. Rin had come to their small town when his little brother was in the sixth grade; having been two years older Sesshoumaru was in his eighth year when he first met Rin. Inuyasha instantly adored her, not like he would a girlfriend but as more like a little sister since she was a few months younger that he was. Sesshoumaru could still remember the bright fall day Inuyasha brought her home to swim with his friends, it was the first time Sesshoumaru had ever laid eyes on her.

Your eyes were covered in sunglasses

When they first met mine

I sat there and stared at you

You didn't seem to mind

The awkward ways we meet

He was sitting out on the deck, placidly listening to his father talk of business matters with a colleague he had invited to dinner. Sesshoumaru could still here Kouga and Inuyasha stupid argument after all these years as they approached the pool. Finally the debate was ended when his brother pushed the arrogant preteen into the water. Splashing and yelling ensued afterwards causing Sango and Rin to immediately run outside to see what the boys were up too. That was when his amber eyes fell upon her as she laughed at her new friends then her covered eyes turned to him and they stayed like that for a long time, just staring at one another. It wasn't a physical attraction, or anything-in relation to it. It was something more something deeper something he never knew existed.

First comes heavy breathing

Staring at the ceiling

What will happen next

I don't wanna know

Sesshoumaru had always been very reserved person, even as a teenage he his intelligence as well as his perception of the world exceed all his peers and friends. Rin had been the first and only girl to ever capture his attention and keep it. Initially he had tried to ignore her and his sudden need to get to know her better but for the first time in his life he failed. He had soon found himself craving her attention, which she seemed to reserve only for him when he was near her. He never had any close friends until she came into his world; he had never let anyone too close to him - always kept people at a distance. But Rin was the exception…his only exception.

I never cared how I dressed before

But I cared that night

Anticipation ran through my bones

And my clothes never fit right

I can't wait till we meet again

As time passed, they had grown to depend on each other; in essences she was his best friend. But then her father moved her away, far away. She had been a wreck the night she told him, he had been angry and what a combined pair did they made when her father came to take her home that night. It felt as if his muscles and organs were slowly being pulled apart as he watched her car drive away into the distance, he felt the same way now watching her shallow breathing.

First comes heavy breathing

Staring at the ceiling

What will happen next

I don't wanna know

He made it a point to go see her every chance he could get; his visits came more often when he got his license. Sometimes he would take Inuyasha to see her, it was his little brother who introduce Rin to Kagome. They met during a trip when Inuyasha insisted on bringing his best friend with him since he didn't get to spend much time with her because of Kikyou. As the years passed, Rin and his friendship grew into something much greater, and it took Sesshoumaru a long time to adjust to the sensation his little Rin would stir in him. He resisted, when they were apart it was easier to deny the feelings that danced vigilantly across his frozen heart but when he was in her presence her aura consumed him and he fell victim to her love.

After months of fighting with himself, he finally surrendered and asked her to be his girlfriend summer after his sophomore year. Two years later, the night of his graduation under the sparking sheet of diamonds he asked her to be his wife, to be his forever. She was always there for him, always no matter what was going on in her life. Her smile, her constant happiness and hyper personality called to him. She calmed his spirit, soothed his mind, and loved him despite the fact that he was incapable of being a normal, weak-minded male.

Framed pictures start to be put on the walls

Constant visits while I'm out on the road

It's hard to leave sometimes

But you know where I lay my head at night

Her passion for those she loved was unlike any he had ever seen. Inuyasha in his own right held a special place in her heart, she had taken care of him and refused to give up when he continued to wallow in despair and grief year after year. Sesshoumaru's lip nudged upward a bit; he had heard from the servants that she had even smacked him around a couple of times in attempt to knock some sense into him. Kagome and Sango were also two very special friends to her, Rin had been crushed when Kagome disappeared but like Inuyasha she somehow knew that her friend had not been killed. She knew without a doubt that Kagome was alive; the only question that needed to be asked was…where?

Sesshoumaru walked the short distance towards her bed, the beating organ in his chest twisted with pain, anger, and fear. She had to live; there was no other result he would accept. He refused to lose the woman he loved, it simply would not happen. Another burden weigh on his mind when his eyes fell upon her swollen stomach, even if she survived there was a good chance that the baby would not. The loss of their child would scar her to the very core, her personality did not permit her to handle the death of her baby very well, especially considering that it would most likely be the only one she would ever carry.

First comes heaving breathing

Starting at the ceiling

What will happen next

I don't wanna know

He stared down at her, unblinking and indifferent. He would not allow his family to die on him. Rin was not going to have to suffer the death of her child. If she did, then nothing could help the man that dared to test his control and hurt his Rin. The bastard would see the extent of how far his control went - a slow and painful death was not the only thing the gunner would have to fear.

The heart monitor started to slow; her heartbeats began to gradually stop causing a sharp, loud, constant beep to emit from the machine. An instant spark of panic struck through his body as he knelt down to cup her cold cheek with his hand.

"You are not allowed to leave me, Rin. Do you hear me? I forbid it."

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Sesshoumaru's mother walked back towards the hospital room where her eldest son was with his wife. She sipped at her coffee and was silently glad she had decided to go and get it. She had stayed, despite her son's insistence that she go home. She knew her son all too well, if something happened and Rin did not make it. Someone was going to have to be ready to try and stop him from fulfilling what his instincts would tell him to do. Her eyebrow rose a bit as she neared the nurse's station. A withered old man stood at the desk, demanding that he be allowed to see Mr. Tama immediately.

"I am sorry, but Mr. Tama asked not to be disturbed," the red-headed nurse replied irritably.

"But I must speak with him, it is important," the old man replied rather shakily.

"I am sorry, but you will just have to wait," the nurse said, ending the conversation by walking away.

Mrs. Tama approached the mumbling man, recognizing him as she neared, "Detective Totosai?"

The aged man squawked at the sound of her voice, "Mrs. Tama. I must see your son."

"I am sorry, even I will not bother him while Rin is in such a state," she replied evenly.

"Damn it." He muttered under his breath.

"Did you catch who shot Rin?"

"No, that is what I wished to speak with him about. The shooter got away without a trace. We found Sesshoumaru's chauffer lying unconscious, wearing only his briefs, behind some decorative bushes. The man who attacked him was discovered hidden on the grounds. He is being held down at the station as we speak, however, we believe that he isn't the one who shot your son's wife."

"How do you know?" Mrs. Tama asked, feeling a chill run down her spine.

"An employee of the country club said she saw a figure dressed entirely in black from head to toe spiriting across the lawn towards the gates. By the time she called security, the person was nowhere in sight. The man who attacked the chauffer was still wearing his victim's uniform and as I said before he was still in the area."

"Sesshoumaru is not going to be pleased when he hears this, but I am almost positive he will insist on speaking with the man your holding down at the station," she responded, switching her coffee cup to the other hand.

"We have another problem as well," Totosai croaked out, "We believe Naraku has left the country, by the time we arrived at his mansion he had fled. There is a warrant out for his immediate arrest but if he leaves our nation's borders there is little we can do."

"Damn fucking hell," Mrs. Tama snapped, angrily. Naraku is still free, meaning he could still cause harm to her family. How much longer were her sons and their families going to have to suffer because of that heartless pathetic excuse for a human being?

"That's what I said," Totosai warily responded.

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Anger can be a dangerous thing. The need for revenge can be even more dangerous. A failed promise had hardened her heart, left her alone in the world and had taught her resentment and hate. She had waited patiently and quietly for the perfect time to get her retribution for the broken vow that had been made to her family. And tonight had been the night.

She removed her black ski mask; her white hair tumbled to her shoulders. Tossing the item into her bag with her concealed gun, she casually walked down the hall towards the room where her sister had laid for many years in a coma - all because he failed protecting her.

The teenager entered the room, dropped her bag on the nearest chair and moved to stand over her sister. Her blank eyes stared down at the frail body of her only living relative she considered family. The man that donated the sperm for their existence did not count. Naraku was nothing to them. The other man had betrayed her family; he had promised Kagura that if she helped his younger brother then he would keep her and her family safe. He had failed, her sister now lie alone day after day unable to wake up as her life passed with each moment.

She reached out a hand to stroke her sister's cheek, not noticing the flutter of Kagura's eyes, "An eye for an eye," she spoke in a soft childlike voice, "Sesshoumaru allowed my sister to be taken from me, and so I have taken his wife from him."

Kagura's red eyes snapped open at Kanna's confession.

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