InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Therapy of Each Other ❯ Flooded ( Chapter 23 )

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Chapter 22: Flooded

The next few weeks after the “first date” had been easier between Kagome and Inuyasha. Since her mother and grandfather's return, Inuyasha was somewhat relieved he didn't get alone time with Kagome, except on the occasional date here and there. The tough subjects were still heavy on both their minds, but they tried to focus on the important things, like their true, meaningful feelings and relationship. Inuyasha couldn't be happier, but it still weighed heavy on his heart about her memories. She had started to remember her past quickly, but claimed they felt more like she was watching a movie, and it wasn't really her. School had become easier too, since now everyone openly knew that Inuyasha “claimed” Kagome, though she did not know. His friends were starting to realize that Kagome wasn't that bad and could see what Inuyasha saw, but they feared looking at her, knowing they might get their leader's wrath. He already held Himekou up against a wall by his throat when he commented how Kagome was actually “sexy”.

Kagome was getting better at her schooling and after school, Inuyasha and her would do their class' homework in her room together, both sitting at her desk. Kagome enjoyed when he helped her, he'd get close an put his arms around her, resting his chin on her shoulder, talking lightly in her ear and she could feel when he'd inhale her in. But today was different. Kagome could tell when Inuyasha would be thinking about things she'd rather not think about, that's when she'd break the moment, though she rather not, but Inuyasha's intentions were scary and unknown too her...Everyday she'd try to remember him and try to remember what was so bad that he worried about that night at the Cafe so he would reveal everything to her. Her thoughts broke when he began to nuzzle her ear and neck. She giggled,

“Inuyasha!”

He sighed and groaned,

“What's so wrong about wanting attention from my girl?”

“Because your girl is trying to get her homework done before you have to go to your house to wait for your brother's return,”

And she smirked at him from the corner of her eyes,

“And it's the same thing you should be doing too.”

He sighed and said,

“Until later...After I return...Then...”

“Inuyasha!”

Kagome still was so innocent and naiive, but Inuyasha found teasing her about it satisfying in a funny way, He could tell though she blushed, she was amused too...most of the time. She slowly took his place back over to his paper and began to work again. Kagome would bit her lip and run her fingers through her hair when she was in deep thought. Inuyasha couldn't help but to stare at her from the corner of his eyes when she'd do it. He jumped when the phone rang out in the hall. Kagome giggled and got up to answer it. She came back in,

“It's for you.”

Inuyasha took it and got up to sit on her bed as Kagome sat at the desk to continue her homework. She didn't really pay attention as she just heard Inuyasha growl at his brother over the phone. He hung up the phone and sighed. Kagome turned around,

“What's wrong?”

“I have to go now, but I'll be back a little later, ok?”

Kagome groaned and laid her head on her desk. Inuyasha sat in his chair and hugged her,

“I'll be back in a few hours, ok? It's Friday, so I have no curfew. OK?”

Kagome nodded and looked up at him, saying,

“I still hate it when you have to leave.”

He sighed and kissed her on the cheek.

“I'll return soon.”

And with that he ran down the stairs to grab his jacket, shoes and keys. Kagome sighed and twiddled her pencil between her fingers, stuck on her next question. She looked over at Inuyasha's paper, but not to cheat. They wandered over, but she noticed something familiar. She looked at his name. She slid his paper over to her and looked at the 3 characters. They looked like “Inuyosya” But she knew it was his name... She whispered,

“Why does that look so familiar?”

She ran her fingers over the name, then sat back in her chair, thinking. She had always spelt it in Hiragana and at the Home, it was written in Romanji on his name tag. Her eyes began to wander around her room as she began to get bored, then her eyes fell upon it. The purple book in her book case. She held her breath and crawled over to it. This is where she had seen his name. Her Diary. She gulped and hastily opened the book.

“Oh, Kami-sama, please let me be wrong.”

She flipped back to when she was around 12 years old...And she spotted it. His name. She began to read out loud,

“Today I aced the math test. Something I never thought I'd do! But as usual, I tried to avoid him, but Inuyasha found me. Today turned terrible fast as he called out to me...”

Kagome started to get flashes of what was happening as she read, she gulped and continued,

“I knew I couldn't run. I can't ever out run him, but yet again I tried. He called me very bad words as he began to hunt me. I was so scared, my heart raced. I tried not to cry, but it was hard since I knew what was coming.”

Kagome began to tremble as she felt a panic attack come to her. She remembered the fear, the fear that ate at her. She read on,

“He caught me and shoved me into the ground. Inuyasha then took out his knife and laughed like it was funny as he held my head down by my hair...and...he...”

Kagome threw the book as it felt like something sliced her cheek and forehead. She checked for blood, but all she felt were the scars that were left from those few years ago. She began to shiver as she ran to her bed,

“Let me wake up, this is just another nightmare. I can wake up, it'll be morning and I can tell Inuyasha about it.”

The thought of being comforted by him calmed her as she suddenly fell asleep... And that's when it happened... She was flooded like a dam broke in her mind of all the memories she had of Inuyasha before the accident. All the pain, the fear...the hate. The slices with his knife and claws, punches, beatings... His sinister, sadistic laugh... That's when she realized... this wasn't a dream. She woke up with a start and began to scream. She noticed everything was as before, but like a rush, all her scars began to hurt, which covered most of her body, but the worst pain was in her chest...in her heart... Fear flooded her. She panicked and ran out of the house, her mother calling her as Kagome was heaving herself in blindness as tears felt like they were burning. All of a sudden she was thrown in a memory, she was living it...She ran a crossed the shrine grounds as she heard his laugh behind her. She screamed,

“Stay away! Inuyasha! Stay away!”

She heard him yell for her in words she dare not repeat. That's when she felt like she was grabbed, and could have sworn she saw silver hair and his eyes as she was heaved into the fence. When she collected herself, no one was there. She was scared out of her mind and curled up against the fence, in the corner, rocking herself back and forth quickly. These memories were too much. And what hurt worst was it was true. Inuyasha...It was him that caused the scars she'd ask her mother about, why her left hand hurt when it rained on cold days.

“This can't be real... not Inuyasha...not my Inuyasha!”

She started to have flash backs of all their warm and romantic moments, then they faded to bad ones...Namely when he playfully tried to seduce her before her accident. She cringed. The hurt... The fear... The heartbreak... She wanted to die. Inuyasha was her everything on Earth...now he was her every fear...

“No... Kami-sama...Please!”

She cried into her hands as the night began to creep over the shrine. She paused when she heard someone walking through the shrine. She panicked and curled herself in the corner.

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Inuyasha walked toward the house, annoyed of his brother. He drove all the way there just for his brother to say,

“Ok, you were here, now you can go.”

He could never get his brother, He expected everyone that lived in the house to be there like he was a king or something. He looked up to Kagome's room and sighed, but smiled,

“At least I get to be with her the rest of the night.”

He stretched and yawned,

“I wonder if her mom will just let me crash on the couch.”

He walked into the house and slipped off his shoes, putting on the slippers her mom bought for him. Inuyasha was about to head up the stairs when her mom saw him and asked,

“Did you see Kagome out there?”

He looked at her, puzzled.

“No, why?”

Her mother looked concerned,

“She ran out of the house, whimpering. I didn't go after her so she could calm down, but she's been out there for a while.”

Inuyasha kicked his slippers off and sprinted outside to find her. The sun was set, so it was dark. He put his nose in the air, starting to sniff around for her. Then he caught it. Her intoxicating smell, but it mixed with... saline...and blood.

“Oh no... Kagome!”

He began to follow the scent and called her name, panicking that she wasn't answering him. Then he paused and listened. His ear twitched as he faintly heard her squeaking to herself,

“Please don't find me, please go away...”

Inuyasha was confused and searched for her, then he looked behind a bush, by the fence, there she was. She backed herself up against the corner, whimpering and sobbing, Inuyasha rushed to her,

“Oh my ... What the hell happened to you? Are you OK..”

“STAY AWAY FROM ME!”

Her voice cracked as she yelled at him. He froze with wide eyes,

“Ka...kagome? What's the matter?”

She hid her face,

“Don't hurt me! Please!”

“Hurt? Why would I?”

She looked at him with pure horror. He froze as he smelt the overwhelming fear and panic. The same smell she got...when...Inuyasha dropped to his knees,

“Oh, Kami-sama...No...”

Kagome shielded herself, bracing herself for the worst as she cried,

“Inuyasha...You lied to me! Just please... don't hurt me!”

Inuyasha's face became pale. She remembered. Inuyasha began to crawl towards her, in a small, cracking voice he pleaded,

“Kagome... No... not now...It's not like that now...I'd never hurt you...I...”

“Then what about all the times you did... all the scars you ever gave me are burning... Not as badly as my heart.”

Inuyasha reached to her,

“Kagome...It used to be like that, but that was before!”

She got up and grabbed a long stick, raising it in self defense as she backed herself against the wall,

“You really expect me to believe that after 8 years of ruthless torture and abuse, Your heart changed in just 7 months!”

Inuyasha slowly got up and said, deeply hurt,

“Actually... yes...”

Fear faded from her eyes to reveal something more painful... brokenness, then bitterness.

“You liar...Everthing you've told me was a lie! You saw this as the perfect plan... Hurting me physically wasn't enough... Torturing my brain wasn't enough...”

She choked back her tears,

“You went for the heart... Make me believe you care for me...I remembered you as my saviour so you took that into plan...When were you going to say it?”

Inuyasha was in total shock, he barely got out the,

“What?”

“That this was your master joke...That you hate me? You tricked me!”

Inuyasha bore his teeth and clinched his fist, wiping the bitterness from her face and she purely panicked. As she opened her mouth to scream for help, He grabbed her armed hand and covered her mouth, backing her against the wall. Her eyes went wide, then showed a “I knew it” Look, until Inuyasha said,

“Kagome, look at me! Look Into my eyes! I'd never lie to you again... Every warm thing I've said or done within the past year was real. True, I fought it, even took it out on you a few times, but truth is...I can't live without you...

She just stared at him as he asked,

“If I uncover your mouth, you won't scream, ok? I really don't like holding you like this... I'd rather hold you in my arms...”

She went slack and he let go. She cautiously watch him as he fell to his knees, looking up at her, showing how broken he was. She whimpered,

“So much I remember of you now. The pain I felt, the panic... sleepless nights dreading the next day...the bitterness and hatred... This is too much...Why did it have to be you to do all that to me?”

Inuyasha shrugged,

“I don't know, but if any bastard ever tried to hurt you...They'll pay”

Kagome shivered at his growl as she squeaked,

“I'm so confused. You are my world, but you are my hell...”

Inuyasha slowly got up and said,

“Kagome...”

Kagome pressed herself against the wall as Inuyasha grabbed her into an embrace. She froze and trembled as he pleaded with her,

“Please Kagome, forget about all that! I'm different...Please I'm begging you. I'd never hurt you again...I lo...”

Kagome pushed him off and glared,

“Don't say what you don't mean!”

Inuyasha stared at his empty arms then to her. She saw his eyes were truly hurt, but she knew Inuyasha could fake many things. But she remembered something and asked,

“If You are real... Why did you fall for me? Because I basically thought you were everything... the only guy? Or because I lost weight? I bet if I never lost weight, You'd still be abusing me!”

Inuyasha felt like he got burned. It never really crossed his mind, but he sighed,

“I'd probably would not be abusing you now...I'm a jerk, but not that much...”

“That's not what I remember in the home... You still teased me...hurt me...And I was helpless... You jerk!”

Inuyasha's heart was being torn piece by piece. He felt like falling on the ground and curling up to rot.

“You...You...Remember that?”

She nodded. He hung his head low and clinched his fists. He didn't know what to do.He felt so helpless. She remembered it all. All the abuse. He said softly,

“I knew this day would come... I just thought...”

He looked up at her with a hurt face, his ears drooping,

“That you would remember the real me... The me that I am around and with you...and put all the bad stuff behind you.”

Kagome rubbed her arms,

“Well, I wish it were that easy...But you have no idea the pain you put me in for years...and remembering all that...”

She began to tremble and hold back her sobs,

“And that it was you...it's too much...I'm...I don't know what to do...I feel so lost.”

Inuyasha looked at her,

“Just listen to me now...I've changed...The only place I'm truly happy is with you...holding you...protecing you...cuddling and having fun...That is me...forget the past me... You'll never see him again...Just don't take yourself away from me...”

Kagome's look softened to sympathy and she sighed,

“It's not that easy. I have a lot to cope and sort. This all was flooded into my memories and it broke my heart...just leave me alone...I need to think...”

Inuyasha hated those words.

“I will...but...I don't know how long I can stay away without you... besides, you told me there was no crime in the past that I could have done for you to hate me...”

She sighed at herself and said,

“I know...I don't hate you...I'm scared of you...”

He cringed and she said,

“Just...leave... I need to think...and rest...”

He lowered his head and turned around and said,

“I'll leave you to think, but nothing you feel for me will ever change what I think about you...”

She watched him as he walked off. She was relived, but yet overwhelmingly sad. She sat where she was and thought...and cried.

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Grammar note.

I miss plurals and sometimes forget the “s” on “she”... like last chapter... most of last chapter I had a 2 year old trying to “help” me type :)... She's my “editor”

till next time, Kudos.