InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ These Emotions ❯ These Emotions ( Chapter 1 )

I've been planning to rewrite this fic for a long time, since I lost the original longhand copy about a year ago and I had never typed it up. This is shorter than the old one, but I feel that I did a better job with showing Sesshomaru's emotions (Wow. I never would have thought I'd be typing that phrase…) Also, this is based off of the manga more than it is the anime. I haven't seen the episodes dealing with Rin and Sesshy recently, but my manga was close at hand during this fic's rebirth.

 

Disclaimer: If I owned the series, Sesshy-sama and Sango-chan would have larger roles. And Shippo would be older.

 

Warnings: Sesshomaru may be a bit out of character.

 

 

These Emotions

 

Somehow, I never saw this coming. Jaken did, and I know that I should have, but I was blinded by my weakness…by my `compassion'. I did not know I possessed compassion until she invaded my life.

She was, and still is, unique. No other human would have dared to stop and offer aid to a demon, pitiful and useless though her efforts were. A powerful demon lord such as me needs nothing from a human child.

In fact, it is she who has always needed my help. I revived her with the Tenseiga after the wolf demons destroyed her village and killed her, and when she was captured by Naraku's mind slave, Kohaku, I was the one who came to her rescue. It would take only a tiny fraction of my power to rid myself of her presence…to send her back into the realm of the dead from which I snatched her mortal soul. She worships me, as she very well should. Still, there is something about her that bends me to her will and brings my long-suppressed emotions to the fore…

I don't understand it. A human wench, making this Sesshomaru think twice about his actions? Not long ago, I would have killed anyone who so much as insinuated that such a thing was possible. Now, I see the evidence that such a thing has happened every time I wake to see her endearing gap-toothed smile.

A child. A pathetic human child, one that is orphaned, weak, and unprotected. She offers me no power or prestige…and yet she is the most precious thing I have.

Perhaps, one day, I shall understand these betraying emotions. Perhaps, one day, I shall understand the grip she has on my demonic soul. Until that day, however, I vow this. Rin, I shall always return to the campfire to hear your cries of “Sesshomaru-sama! I missed you!”, and I shall protect you as though you are my own child. One day, I will understand why.