InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ To Choose The Wrong Path ❯ Chapter 2

Disclaimer: I don't own InuYasha nor will I ever.

I've always wondered what I would do in the end when my decision would have to be announced about the whole Kagome and Kikyou thing. I always knew that I would probably have to choose Kikyou. Don't get me wrong-I love Kagome. I just can't desert Kikyou no matter how much I love Kagome. She died thinking I betrayed her. It would be wrong to just abandon her because my love for her isn't the same. I still love Kikyou; it just isn't the same kind of love as it used to be.

I take pride in the fact that I keep my promises. Well, I used to. Unfortunately I've broken a promise and in doing that a lot of things have been chosen for me. I broke my promise to protect Kagome. The girl put up with my shit time and time again, yet I couldn't keep a simple promise. I sometimes wonder why she put up with me.

I remember a time when I didn't want the wench around. I remember thinking about how much easier life would be if I just let the girl die. It would have been easy to get rid of her. I could have let a demon kill her. I didn't though. I've always wondered why I didn't let her die. I guess I didn't want to be alone. Now, she's gone, and I've never felt so alone in my life. Sure, I still have Shippou, Miroku, Sango, and Kirara, shit even Kikyou-if I go to hell with her, but it's not the same. I'm surprised that they still stay with me. I mean-Kagome is the one that got us all together. As I sit in a tree watching over the smaller traveling group I notice how things aren't quite the same. It has gotten quieter, more somber. It is like the light of our group has been put out. The lighthearted, energetic vibe that the group used to have seems to have disappeared.

I'm surprised that the group doesn't hate me. It is my fault that Kagome is dead. Shit, they don't act like they blame me at all. They tell me over and over that I couldn't have known that they were going to get attacked. It doesn't matter if I knew or not. I should have been there. I shouldn't have left. Miroku was the first to talk to me after Kagome died. He told me that he didn't blame me and the others didn't blame me; they were just hurt by her passing. Believe me, I know the hurt that came with her passing. It hurts to see them all grieving. It hurts to watch Shippou bawl his eyes out. The poor guy had to watch a second mother pass. It hurts to see Sango cry and knowing that you are part of the reason that she no longer has a friend that was the closest thing to family that she had. Kirara looks sad to see a companion gone. I know she will miss having the treats Kagome would bring back for her. Miroku is almost as sad as poor Sango. I knew the pervert cared for Kagome, but I never knew why. It seems that he thought of her as a little sister to care for. That didn't keep him from groping her though.

It has been two days since her death and we are traveling back to Kaede's village. I want to keep Kagome's body here. I know if it is here that it will probably be burned. It doesn't matter though. I don't think that I can travel back to Kagome's time with her. It will be too damn painful. I don't want to see the disappointed looks her family will give me when they know that I didn't protect her like I promised.

Now the only thing I have left to do in life is complete my mission of killing Naraku and completing the jewel. I've also have made my decision on the whole Kikyou thing. I'm going with her. Why should I stay around in a world that has nothing for me?

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Naraku is gone. The jewel is also complete. I'm very proud of everyone that fought with me. Everyone has their share of cuts and bruises, but they're alive. Kagome would have been proud. I can't believe it has been almost four years since she has died. It was harder finding the shards without her. I didn't think Miroku was going to make it with his kazanaa (A/N: Spelling??) growing. He ended up being the one to suck up Naraku's body after we killed him before it sealed up. I've also made my decision about Kikyou. I've decided that I will follow her to hell. I figure that I will have at least have kept one promise. Even though that isn't the promise I wish I had kept. I wish had made a different choice that day so many years ago. Maybe I wouldn't have had to go down this path in life. I'm so sorry Kagome….