InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ To love is to be able to let go ❯ Prologue

~*To love is to be able to let go*~

Prologue

"Inuyasha" Kikyo said as she watched Inuyasha walk into the clearing. She knew that this would make him become hers fore once and for all, her perfect plan.

"Kikyo, what do you want now?" Inuyasha said softly. Every single time he looks at her, an unbelievable amount of guilt could be felt within him. Yet every single time he sees her, it amazes him that slowly the girl from the future made her way through his heart so that every time he sees Kikyo, he would see Kagome. Of course that always ends when Kikyo opens her big mouth. He watched as Kikyo moved closer to him. He fought down every urge to run away from her... the stench of blood and soil was really getting to him.

"Inuyasha" Kikyo said putting her hand on his chest, "Inuyasha do you love that re-incarnation more than me?"

It was true that Inuyasha liked her once upon a time. She was the first female that didn't cringe at the sight of him. She was the only woman he had any contact with that time. Now that he is in more contact with the rest of the world, he realized the moment his heart beat faster every single time when Kagome is around that the 'love' he had for Kikyo is nothing but a crush. Kikyo had died for him and the guilt was too great for him. Guilt was also a major factor as to why he hasn't made any moves on Kagome.

"So that's it isn't it! You love that bitch!" Kikyo said slapping Inuyasha's face. Whether or not he was hurt physically or mentally by that slap she couldn't tell because his face was emotionless. "If I can't have you Inuyasha then nobody can! I'm a priestess you know, a powerful one to it. you think that by now I don't' have the spell to take my soul back from that bitch's body?"

Inuyasha's eyes snapped wide open when he heard that. Panic was evident in his face. Fear for Kagome's safety. "What do you mean Kikyo?! Don't' you dare lay a single finger on Kagome! Or else I would…"

"You would what Inuyasha? I don't even need to touch her to get what's mine. But let me tell you this Inuyasha, stay with me, take me to search for the shards instead of her, take me and introduce me to your friends. But most of all kick that bitch out! You are mine, Inuyasha as long as you remain by my side I will not hurt that hussy of yours." Kikyo smiled smugly. There was such spell in reality to begin with. It was impossible for her to cast it in anyway. If there was such a spell it requires another priestess or someone else with spiritual powers to cast it for her. It's a rule that states in all magic although it is rarely ever applied to anyone but with her it applies. The original can never hurt his or her re-incarnation with their magical powers because the original's powers would be absorbed by the re-incarnation seeing that the power is the same it will recognize it and take it as its own. Of course Inuyasha would know no such thing about it seeing he is a half demon and an ignorant one to it. So who was she to inform him about it?

Inuyasha felt as if she had just stabbed him in the heart. 'To reject Kagome… I can't do such things to her. I … I love Kagome… but if it means for her to live and find her own happiness… a happiness that doesn't include me in it… then I would do it. Even if it means that I will kill my own heart' Inuyasha thought miserably. "You win Kikyo. I will do that as long as you leave Kagome alone! You may keep me by your side but never expect me to give you my heart!"

'You will learn to love me Inuyasha, I'll make sure of that' Kikyo thought as she was dragged back to her little sister Kaede's hut where the rest of his gang is.

Inuyasha took a deep breath before barging in the hut like his usual manner only this time he had Kikyo in his arms. All activity in the room froze at the sight of Kikyo. Kagome's heart stopped when she saw Kikyo in Inuyasha's arms. 'No! No! It can't be happening… he's not he's not going to tell me that he is rejecting me for a bag of dirt!" Kagome thought as tears began to well up in her eyes.

Inuyasha's heart broke into little pieces when he saw Kagome's eyes began to water and knowing the pain he is going to cause her isn't helping as well. "From this moment on, Kikyo would be coming with us on the shard hunt." Inuyasha declared as he avoided looking at Kagome unable to look into Kagome's eyes.

"What!" three collective shouts can be heard from Sango, Miroku, and Shippo. Kaede looked up from the pot and stared intensely at Inuyasha and at Kikyo who was smiling smugly in his arms.

"What about Kagome-sama, Inuyasha?"

"I'm not traveling with her! What about Kagome's feelings you insensitive jerk!"

"I'm not traveling with that mean witch!"

"SHUT UP! You will pay your respects to Kikyo! Kagome is not the only one who can sense the jewel here! Kikyo can sense it too!"

"But Inuyasha! Kikyo-sama has tried to kill us many times before. How would you know that she won't betray us to Naraku?"

"I guess we just have to trust her now don't we houshi?"

"What about Kagome? Inuyasha be reasonable! Aren't you even thinking about how she is going to feel about this?" Sango said look at Kagome who has remained silent and emotionless throughout the whole thing.

'Don't thing about her Sango? My heart is breaking into pieces thinking about what I'm doing to her! She's my peace! She is my courage, my hope, my life but most of all she is my love! My life without her would be meaningless. But … but this is for her own safety. I want her to live.' Inuyasha thought as his eyes darted across the room to where Kagome was sitting with her head down staring at the floor.

"What about Kagome? Her only purpose here is to be my tama detector but now I found Kikyo who is willing to do it, what is her use here anymore? In all the fights we get into I have to save her! I have to be the beaten half to death saving her! And does it matter whether or not I have a gaping whole in my stomach? All she does to thank me is to sit me again. She is useless in a fight and always wants to go back to her home in the future for those 'test' she takes. She wouldn't care less if I wanted her to stay to help me look for the shards! At least Kikyo belongs in this era and she doesn't whine and complain about this era. She won't be constantly saying she wants to go home. Kikyo can fight! I don't have to protect her as much as I have to protect Kagome!"

Everyone was stunned by what Inuyasha just said. Such harsh words pierced right though Kagome's heart as she tried to keep her eyes from tearing and crying in front of everyone making them worry about her. Everyone was now cautious as to what Kagome is going to do now that Inuyasha has openly chosen Kikyo over her. 'I wish she would yell at me. Sit me a hundred times or more! Anything for what I just said about her… for what I just did to her.' Inuyasha thought as his own eyes began to water.

"What now? My copy can't handle the fact that Inuyasha would prefer me? I maybe the living dead and to all of you a bag of nothing by dirt but at least I am the original unlike someone. Despite all the things I am Inuyasha would still prefer me over a living being. After all who would want a useless, clumsy, not to mention ugly and unrefined girl traveling with them. A copy will NEVER match the original bitch! Now get out because you're not wanted here!" Kikyo said screaming the last bit.

"Hey you're the one who isn't wanted her, bitch!" Sango said getting in a pose ready fight as well as Miroku and Shippo.

"Ne-sama when have you became so cold hearted? That is not the way of a miko." Kaede said standing up ready to help Sango kick her sister out. She had once respected her sister and admired her for her power but that was ages ago. Now she's just a vengeful ghost who is unwilling to let go.

"You are not doing anything to her because I want her here!" Inuyasha said.

There wee about to protest and fight Inuyasha when Kagome stood up from her spot. She walked slowly up to Inuyasha and Kikyo. Everyone was silent. Up till now Kagome had shown no sign of sadness or anything, she had remained emotionless.

"Inuyasha is that what you really want?" Kagome looked up to him with deep sad eyes. His heart was yelling no but his mind only worried about her safety yelled yes.

"Yes, that is what I really want Kagome" Inuyasha replied unable to make eye contact with her.

"Then I guess I wish you good luck. I wish that you will… find what you always long for." Kagome stuttered as she was unable to contain her tears as she tore off the necklace which contained the shikon no tama and flung it to Inuyasha while she ran out of the hut.

'Why! Why is it every single time you have to choose between me and Kikyo you would always choose her? Is it really because I am a copy as I can not compare to the original? Why don't you love me the way I love you?' Kagome cried without looking at where she was going and before she knew it she was right in front of the well. If she went though, Inuyasha would definitely not come back for her this time.

"How funny did things turn out to now?" Kagome cried softly "it was this well that leads me to you. I unsealed you and eventually I fell in love with you but like always you went for the more beautiful and refine lady or should I just say Kikyo. Am … am I really that bad that you can never love me? Do you really hate me that much for looking like your love? I guess I knew all along that you would not love me but Inuyasha I will always love you no matter what. I wish you and Kikyo will be happy together. It hurts me to see you choose another but if that's what makes you happy then I am willing to let you go." Kagome placed her hands on the well, looking down. She didn't notice the fact that the aura around her had changed nor did she notice that she was pulsing a faint glow as she readied herself to jump down for the last time.

Meanwhile, Kikyo and the others were arguing about what just happened while Inuyasha stared at the object in his hand. 'The shikon no tama, the one thing I wanted the most all my life is now in my hands. I feel like it us no use anymore. It was my excuse to see Kagome and now she's gone. Kagome I love you.' Inuyasha thought as a tear made its way down his face and dropped on the incomplete jewel. It started glowing softly and then burst into a bright light. Everyone shield their eyes from it and when they opened their eyes again, Midoriko the originator of the jewel stood there staring out the door towards the well.

"Kagome…" was the only things see said before another light flashed by and she as well as the jewel flew across the lands towards the well.

A/N: please review I want to know what you thought about my fic. =D