InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ To Tell The Truth... ❯ ...And Nothing But The Truth ( Chapter 2 )

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Chapter 2 – …And Nothing But The Truth






Leaping out of the well, Inuyasha crinkled his nose as the stink of pollution assaulted his senses. Despite that unpleasantness, he was glad to be on Kagome’s side of time, and if you asked him, he’d tell you. Well, mostly because he’d have to.




He shuddered at the intimate reminder of just how potent that tea really was.




When they’d first arrived in Kaede’s village it had been late enough that the elderly miko had long since retired to bed, but this was something that simply could not wait until morning, so they’d felt little guilt with rousing her. After quickly being filled in on the direness of the situation, Kaede had readily agreed to assist Miroku in brewing the special potion she herself knew of, as well. It was a common trick amongst holy persons with a basic knowledge of herbs and spells, but she never would’ve believed in her wildest dreams that Inuyasha would be willing to voluntarily consume such a concoction if she hadn’t heard it with her own ears.

“Okay…how do you feel?” Miroku had asked the hanyou as Inuyasha finished drinking down the last of the tea. The potion didn’t usually take very long to kick in, but they had no way of knowing if it would effect him the same way because of his youkai physiology. It might not even work at all.

Fortunately, that brief concern had been proven ungrounded when Inuyasha had immediately answered with, “I feel…strange, actually.”

Inuyasha would normally never admit to feeling abnormal, no matter what was wrong with him. It had been a very good sign.

“Okay, I don’t trust you…” Sango had stated in that moment, half-playfully and half-seriously shoving Miroku out of the way so that she could do the preliminary ‘test’ interrogation.

“What is your name?”

“Inuyasha.”

“What is your species?”

“Inu-youkai hanyou.”

“How old are you?”

“A hundred and fifty…this is stupid. You guys already know this stuff!”

“I’m just getting warmed up.” Sango replied with a smile, “Or would you prefer I let him ask you questions, most of which will probably involve something lecherous?” she added while gesturing in Miroku’s direction. The monk’s playful wink in that moment sent a shiver down the hanyou’s spine.

“No…I would not prefer it if you had him ask the questions.”

“Okay then…” the slayer continued, trying to think of things that he wouldn’t normally admit, but that at the same time wouldn’t be too overly embarrassing for him. Inuyasha could tell she was giving the matter some serious thought, and truly appreciated her consideration.

“What do you hate the most about turning human?”

“That I can’t protect you guys properly.” he confessed with only a light dusting of pink on his nose. He knew they knew he cared for them, so admitting that was really no big deal.

“What’s the closest you’ve ever come to death?”

Without hesitation he answered, “Being injected with venom from a spiderhead-youkai during the night of the new moon.”

Shippou’s ears perked up at that, though the boy didn’t say anything.

“By Buddha!” Miroku spoke up in total shock. “That should have killed you. However did you manage to survive?”

“Myouga was there at the time, and was able to suck out most of the poison from my blood, so that I was able to make it through the night until my youkai powers returned.”

Please don’t ask me when this happened… the hanyou thought in secret, able to tell by that point that the tea was working quite well. Casting his eyes in Shippou’s direction, he gave a tiny nod of thanks to the boy for remaining quiet himself. Since Shippou had been there, he knew precisely which questions would humiliate him the most.

“Okay…” Sango spoke up in that moment. “We have to make sure it’s working properly, so I want you to deliberately try to lie to me about something.”

“Like what?”

Only Kaede noticed the grin that quickly spread over Miroku’s face, and by then it was too late for her to say anything to stop him.

“Have you ever pleasured yourself while thinking of Kagome-sama?”

“Hentai!” Sango shrieked, turning to clobber him one, but the damage was already done.

Nobody had ever seen Inuyasha move so fast, as he scrambled to exit the old miko’s hut, the reed mat that functioned as her door covering getting halfway torn down in his haste.

“Hmph.” the elderly miko intoned with a scolding glare sent Miroku’s way. “I shall expect ye to repair the damage caused by your mouth.”

Well, Sango thought, I guess that covers not being able to lie, as well as not being able to avoid answering.

Shippou thought it best to keep to himself the fact that Inuyasha’s softly spoken answer as he’d fled the hut hadn’t been too quiet for him to hear it. They probably thought he was too young to know what ‘pleasuring’ yourself meant, anyway. Shaking his head, the kitsune just hoped that Inuyasha would do right by Kagome. She deserved happiness.

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Stupid fucking bouzu… Inuyasha grumbled to himself as he made his way to Kagome’s house. I’d like to see you drink that tea, and then we’ll find out just how many times you’ve moaned Sango’s name…

“Stupid fucking letch would probably admit it without the tea.” he muttered, not that he thought for half a second that Miroku was actually stupid enough to drink that tea in the first place. There was no way it could be slipped to him, either. It had a very distinctive taste. There was really nothing you could compare it to.

Although ‘grasshopper anus’ might come close…

Shaking all unpleasant thoughts of disgusting brews and publicly announced moments of privacy from his head, Inuyasha was once again in a good mood by the time he landed on the roof just outside Kagome’s window. Stealthfully creeping inside, he landed on the tatami flooring without making a sound, closing the glass behind him so as to keep out the distant sounds of traffic, lest they wake the girl currently sleeping peacefully in the bed before him. Part of him didn’t have the heart to wake her. Yet, on the other hand, he really wanted to have this conversation with her before the effects of the tea wore off. If there was one thing that Kagome was apparently very good at, it was keeping her true feelings to herself, and he didn’t want her to possess that ability while pouring his own heart out in return. Still, he would let her sleep for a few minutes longer, he decided in that moment, as he stood motionless over her bed, silently watching her sleep.

Unfortunately, for him, Kagome’s miko senses were more in tune than they used to be, so the feel of his demonic aura in her room immediately started to rouse the girl, as her most basic instincts informed her on a subconscious level that there was a youkai close by.

“Mmmmnnnn” she moaned groggily, before momentarily forgetting where she was and jumping to alert at the feel of such powerful youki.

“Wha…!” she gasped as she sat bolt upright, before realizing she was in her own room, as she turned to meet Inuyasha’s panicked gaze with surprised eyes of her own.

“Inuyasha!” she bellowed, more startled than anything else, although as the memories of all that had transpired quickly rushed to back her, she felt her face flame in renewed embarrassment for her previous words.

“Shhhh!” the hanyou hushed her while his ears did a frantic dance atop his head. “Do you want to wake up your whole damn family!?” he demanded softly.

“They’re not home.” she informed him at a normal speaking level, figuring that there was no point in whispering since her family really wasn’t home.

Baffled for a moment, Inuyasha walked towards Kagome’s bedroom door and sniffed, surprised to note how stale the scents of the rest of her family really were. Not that he thought she might’ve been lying, considering the whole ‘truth tea’ thing, but just how long had her family been gone?

“When did they leave?”

“Sometime this morning, according to my mom’s note.”

“Where did they go?”

“Souta’s staying with a friend while Mama and Jii-chan are visiting another shrine.”

“How long will they be gone?”

“Until the day after tomorrow. Sheesh, Inuyasha? Why always with the twenty questions?”

Immediately, his ears lowered just a tad at her irritated tone. “I was just curious about what was going on. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to start interrogating you again.”

Kagome opened her mouth to say something else, but then promptly closed it, caught off guard by how quick he was to apologize.

Hmph, just trying to kiss up to make up for what happened earlier.

“Well it’s all right there in her note. Why don’t you read it yourself, if you’re so curious?” she stated in that moment, raising her hand to point towards the piece of paper currently resting on her nightstand.

True, she had no real reason to be angry with him, but that didn’t mean she wouldn’t hold onto her temper for as long as she could, before she inevitably crumbled into a ball of tears once he finally got down to business.

He glanced towards the peace of paper she indicated, doing his best to bite his tongue, but she had phrased her statement as a question, even if she hadn’t truly meant it as one.

“I can’t read.” he finally blurted, his face erupting in a sea of crimson.

What the huh? the miko thought slowly, clicking on her bedside lamp only to note how pink Inuyasha’s cheeks currently were.

Oh…I guess, for somebody like him, it really wouldn’t be all that likely that he’d know how to read, would it?

She’d really put her foot in it that time, she could admit as much, but why had he gone out of his way to confess such a thing? He could’ve just as easily picked up the note and pretended to glance over it, or even more Inuyasha-like, he could’ve ignored her jibe all together in favor of saying whatever else would’ve been the next thing he was going to say.

Is he trying to make me feel better for earlier by going out of his way to be honest, himself?

It was a possibility, albeit a highly unlikely one. This theory would require further testing.

“Does it bother you that you can’t read?”

Now, the correct ‘Inuyasha’ answer to a question like that should’ve either been something along the lines of not giving a fuck about reading, not giving a fuck about what anybody else thought of him, or ‘Feh!’, not…

“Sometimes, yeah.”

With wide eyes, Kagome pinched herself to make sure she was truly awake.

“Inuyasha…what are you doing?”

Cursing under his breath, because this wasn’t how he had planned on confessing to her about the tea, he answered her as basically as he could get away with, by stating truthfully, “I’m standing in your room.”

“That’s not what I meant and you know it.”

Not a question.

He merely shrugged.

“Why are you being so…honest…all of a sudden?”

Damn it!

“I had Miroku and the baba brew me up a batch of that truth-tea.”

Her eyes nearly popped out of their sockets, before she remembered to blink.

“No…you didn’t…” she stated slowly in denial.

It wasn’t a question, but…

“Yes, I did.”

“What if I don’t believe you?”

“Then you can test me until you’re convinced.”

Mentally, he was cringing at the idea, paranoid over what she might ask him, but at least he didn’t have to worry about forcing himself to answer anything he didn’t want to. The tea would take care of that for him.

No matter what, it’ll be worth it. I need her to believe me on this, or she won’t believe anything else I have to say.

“How do you really feel about all the times I need to come back to my world?”

Well, I guess it could’ve been worse.

“I hate it when you have to come back here.”

“Why? Because it puts our quest on hold?”

“Partly, yes, that is one of the reasons.”

Intrigued, Kagome pushed further, asking, “What are the other reasons?”

“I’m worried something might happen to you, or to the well, and that you’ll be taken away from me. I’m worried you might be in danger and I wouldn’t be there to protect you. Or that for whatever reason, you might just come to your senses and decide on your own that you don’t want to come back to me any more.”

“What do you mean, I might ‘come to my senses’?” she asked, a little perturbed, but mostly confused.

“I know falling into my world ruined your life in this one, Kagome, I ain’t stupid. You’d be a normal girl in your world if it weren’t for the jewel…or me.”

“What about my promise to stay with you? Do you really think I’m capable of betraying my word like that?”

“No…I don’t really think so…but sometimes I get worried, anyway. Besides, even knowing that you promised to return, that doesn’t mean you might not stop wanting to return, or even still…what if something just happened to you, like you got hurt, and I wasn’t there?”

Her eyes softened at his obvious show of concern for her, but still, even though it was unquestionably out of character for him to so openly admit to such concerns, she wasn’t fully convinced, yet.

“Okay, new subject. How do you really feel about your brother?”

His eyes widened in surprise. Where had that come from?

Damn it all…

“I try to tell myself I hate him, but I don’t. I just wish he didn’t hate me, because he’s the only true family I’ve got. His rejection hurts more than anyone else’s.”

Staring up at him blankly in shock, it took Kagome a moment to truly process the meaning of his words.

Has he really taken the tea of truth?

“How…uh…no, never mind. I believe you.”

Inuyasha probably should’ve just left it alone, especially knowing that she really did believe him for her to have admitted as much, but having already vowed to himself that he wouldn’t hold anything back from her on this night, he asked in that moment, “No, tell me. What were you just going to ask?”

“I was going to ask you how your mother died.” Seeing the way his eyes widened in disbelief, she quickly elaborated with, “But that’s okay! It isn’t really any of my business.”

“It’s not that it’s none of your business, it’s just hard for me to talk about, but…”

Sighing, Inuyasha softened his gaze as he met her eyes with his own, and offering her a small smile, he stepped forward while pulling Tetsusaiga from his obi. Gently setting the sword aside, he took a seat on the edge of her bed, and said, “But even without you officially asking me, I’ll tell you anyway.”

Unblinkingly, Kagome gave him her full attention.

“There was a sickness that spread through the castle where we lived. Some blamed it on me, others were wise enough to know that sickness can happen without it being the fault of a half-breed child, but either way…the healers were either too afraid of or disgusted by my mother to treat her. A few other people died, a couple people who were very old and a couple of kids, but everyone my mother’s age…they all survived with the medicine. Medicine they wouldn’t give my mother, because she had given birth to a hanyou.”

“Oh kami…why are people so cruel?” she asked aloud, albeit rhetorically.

“I don’t know the answer to that question.” he stated solemnly.

“Neither do I…”

In the moment of silence that followed, Kagome began to find the stitch work on her comforter very fascinating. Finally, she confessed, “My father died in a car accident on the way home from work. I didn’t see it coming, and I didn’t get to say good-bye.”

Inuyasha nodded his understanding at her words. Fair was fair, and so since he had shared such a painful detail about his past, it was only right that she return the favor. He had always secretly wondered what had happened to her father, though he’d never asked because he’d figured it wasn’t really any of his business. Having never known his own father, he couldn’t really imagine what it would be like to lose one, although he could definitely imagine how horrible it had to have been to suddenly discover that he had died, and that it had been beyond their control to do anything to prevent it. That was one of his greatest fears regarding Kagome and the well, after all, that one day she would just…never return…because something had happened. Oh well, no sense in dampening the mood with such sad thoughts. He actually had really good news he wanted to share with her, after all.

Apparently sensing where his thoughts had taken him and subconsciously agreeing that it was time to get down to business, it was in that moment that Kagome suddenly asked him, “Why did you agree to drink the tea of truth?”

He sighed.

“Because Sango got me worried when she reminded me of how much of an ass I can be at times, even when I don’t really mean it. It was Shippou’s idea, although the runt had only said it in jest that I should have to drink the tea myself. I was the one who actually asked Miroku if he could make it after I decided that Shippou’s idea was a damn good one.”

“Why are you even here in the first place?”

“I wanted to talk to you.”

“Now?”

“I didn’t want to wait until after your tea wore off.”

“So I can humiliate myself again?”

“So you can’t hide your true feelings from me any longer.”

“You’ve always known of my feelings.”

“Not all of them…”

At that, Kagome gazed silently into Inuyasha’s eyes, waiting for him to continue.

“I knew you loved me, but I thought…uh…I didn’t know you had thought that my reasons for seeing Kikyou were because of anything other than honor.”

“What were you just going to say?”

Closing his eyes, Inuyasha exhaled, and then quietly admitted, “I thought you knew how I felt about you, in return.”

“I…”

Two can play at that game, Kagome. No hesitation shall go unpunished.

“You, what?”

Cringing, the girl reluctantly confessed, “I thought you still loved Kikyou.”

“And in a way, I do.” he admitted of his own accord, adding, “Just not in the way you think.”

“Then in what way do you love Kikyou?” she asked, even as she kicked herself for asking the question as she realized she was about to get a very honest answer. Somewhere in the back of her mind, she could hear her little brother chanting after watching an American movie online, ‘The truth? You can’t handle the truth!’

“I still care deeply for her, as a person, as the first woman I ever loved. She was the first person to speak to me as a person after my mother’s death, and she will always hold a special place in my heart.”

With her own heart ripping in two, Kagome asked, “That sounds like regular love to me. How is it any different?”

“Because I no longer desire her in the way a man desires a woman.”

Kagome blushed at the visual, admittedly relieved to hear that he didn’t love Kikyou that way. Even though Inuyasha could’ve ended his answer there, he realized how badly he’d hurt the girl sitting before him, and felt that he owed it to her to be even more honest than the tea demanded.

“Kikyou is dead, and I do understand that. This Kikyou…she never should’ve been brought back, and I understand that, too. There can be no future together between me and the Kikyou that walks today. All she’d wanted, before, was for the two of us to die together, when she thought I was the one who’d killed her, and she’d needed my death in order to calm her soul.”

Not yet catching on to the way he’d stated that last part in past-tense, Kagome lowered her eyes before mumbling, “And you agreed to die with her because you love her.”

It wasn’t a question, but Inuyasha was still determined to be completely honest with the girl, especially since he could tell she was coming close to tears. He hated tears.

“I agreed to die with her if it was the only thing that would bring her soul any peace, because I felt responsible for her death, not to mention her resurrection is also my fault, because it never would’ve happened if I hadn’t called out her name. It’s my fault she’s suffering, and so it’s my place to make things right again. That’s not the same thing as being in love, Kagome. Just because I’m no longer in love with Kikyou, it doesn’t mean I’m suddenly going to hate her.”

Kagome’s eyes widened at the unexpected implication.

“Of course not!” she answered without hesitation, grateful that her family was truly gone for the night because they would’ve surely woken at her volume if they weren’t. “I never wanted you to hate Kikyou.”

“Then why does it bother you so much that I pledged my life to her?”

“Because you don’t deserve to die!” she almost shouted. “If Kikyou really loved you, then she wouldn’t want you to sacrifice your life for her, at least not now that she knows you weren’t the one who killed her.”

“Then I guess Kikyou really loved me, after all.”

“I…wait, what?”

Smirking, Inuyasha knew there was no better time to inform the girl, “Kikyou released me from my obligation of needing to die with her to appease her soul. She said that she had required my death when she’d believed that I was the one who’d killed her, and now that she knows about Naraku, all she needs of me to find peace is for me to kill Naraku, to avenge her. My life is my own, in the mean time, and once I avenge her death, then my soul is my own, too.”

“She won’t be dragging you with her into Hell?”

“Only if I die by Naraku’s hand, failing in my task. I would already be dead, but then yes, my soul would be bound to hers in Hell. I can’t ignore my obligations completely, so I agreed to this. But she will not be the one to kill me, Kagome, and she also won’t interfere in my life, in…our lives…while I’m alive. Besides, that bastard ain’t gonna kill me. I’ll rip him to shreds, and then Kikyou will be at peace, and then…”

Blushing, Inuyasha desperately tried to put on the brakes on his little speech, but it was too late.

“And then, what?”

“And then I could pledge my soul to you.”

Gasping at his words, Kagome desperately searched Inuyasha’s eyes for the truth, even as she knew it would only take one simple, little question to hear it.

“Do you love me?”

“More than anything.”

Closing her eyes and relishing in the truth of his words, Kagome didn’t jerk in surprise when she felt a warm body suddenly embracing her own, as she snuggled closer into his chest and arms, inhaling his wild scent.

After a few minutes of silence, Kagome spoke into his chest, knowing he would hear her…

“Why didn’t you ever say anything before?”

Resting his chin on the top of her head as he tightened his arms wrapped around her body, he replied with, “I thought you knew how I felt, just like I knew how you felt. Why didn’t you realize I returned your feelings?”

“Sometimes I thought you might love me, in some way, but no matter what, I just thought Kikyou was more important to you. Didn’t you realize how deeply the whole Kikyou thing always bothered me? Is she more important?”

“I did know it bothered you whenever I left to see Kikyou, and I did know you were upset about the vow, but I didn’t realize you’d thought I’d made that vow out of love. My obligation to Kikyou, it is more important, in a way. It’s more important than my own happiness, but I can’t say it’s more important to me than you are, in my heart. It was a matter of honor. I hated the fact that I was bound to Kikyou, and that before, it would’ve meant that you and I couldn’t be together. I guess, yeah, the vow was more important than our love, because it was a matter of honor; I owed her my life. But I was just as upset about the fact that that meant you and I couldn’t be together as you were, and I thought you knew that I loved you, but that it just wasn’t meant to be. It wasn’t by choice. It wasn’t my choice.”

“And now?”

“Now, technically, my life still belongs to Kikyou, but she is allowing me to live as I choose, with the only exception being that I must kill Naraku, which I was gonna do anyway. She knows I love you, and she said she won’t interfere, she won’t come between us. Once I fulfill my new vow, then she will be at peace, and I will be free.”

“So right now, I can already have you in life, but we would just be separated in the after life?”

“Yes, but I ain’t gonna die, Kagome. I’ll kill that bastard, and then my soul will be my own, and you and I will be together in the next world, too.”

“I never hated Kikyou, and I do understand that she came before me. I think…I think if she’s willing to give up as much of her claim on you as she has, then I’m willing to accept what little claim still remains. You’re right, you won’t die by Naraku’s hand, especially because I’ll be right there, fighting along side you. Together, we will avenge Kikyou’s death.”

Inuyasha’s heart soared at her words, and before he could think about what he was doing, he pulled back from their embrace just enough to hook an index finger under Kagome’s chin, as he tilted her face up and away from his chest, his own face leaning closer to hers until their lips met in a brief, chaste kiss. Blushing as he lifted his head afterwards, his embarrassment grew so severe that the inside of his ears turned pink at the way she was looking up at him in shock.

“I…” he began hastily, only to freeze mid-speech as though his voice had been stolen.

He was going to apologize for his action, but the words were plucked from his throat thanks to the magic of the tea, because to be perfectly honest, he wasn’t sorry. He had wanted to kiss Kagome for a long time.

Recognizing the unnatural way in which he’d hesitated, Kagome knew it was the tea at work, and taking a wild stab at what he had been preparing to say, she asked him point blank, “Were you just going to apologize for kissing me?”

“Yes.”

“Why?”

“Because I was afraid I’d gone too far.”

“Then why did the tea stop you from apologizing?”

“Because I’m not sorry.”

Smirking, Kagome thought she would get Inuyasha back for all of the times he’d interrogated her throughout the course of the day, so she kept on going.

“If you’re afraid you went too far, then why aren’t you sorry about it?”

With his face disappearing into the fabric of his suikan, the hanyou reluctantly confessed, “Because I’m a selfish bastard, and I’ve wanted to kiss you for too long to truly regret it, no matter what you thought.”

“What do you think I thought?”

“I think you were surprised, but not upset.”

“Because you know I love you.”

“Yes.”

“So if you know I’m not upset, because I love you, then why fear you went too far?”

“Be...b-because…p-part…”
< br> Opening her eyes wide in surprise, Kagome wasn’t expecting Inuyasha to try and fight the force of the spell. Just what had she accidentally forced him to confess?

“…of m-me…is……still insecure over the fact that I’m a hanyou.” he reluctantly admitted, ceasing his struggles to keep the words unspoken.

Kagome gasped, and shifting herself so that she was sitting upright before him instead of halfway leaning against him as she had previously been, she reached up with her right hand to cup his left cheek.

“Oh…Inuyasha…”

Leaning into her touch, he closed his eyes, and confessed further…

“I know you love me, but so did Kikyou, before, but nothing would’ve ever happened between us with me as a hanyou. I was going to use the jewel to turn human, remember?”

“Yes.”

“I know you’ve said you like me as a hanyou, that you like me just the way I am, but there’s a big difference between liking and accepting somebody as a person, and even caring deeper for that person with love in your heart, and…and being willing to be with that person…as a man and a woman.”

His ears swiveled forward at the sound of her heart’s tempo suddenly increasing, until the organ was pounding frantically in her chest, as she hesitantly lowered her hand from his cheek.

“Now have I gone too far?” he asked dejectedly, realizing that just because she wasn’t upset about the kiss, that didn’t automatically mean she was willing to go any further. But to him, it was all or nothing. You either had a physical relationship with somebody or you didn’t. Sure, you could build up to it gradually, start out with just a kiss, and then go further with time, but if you had no intention of ever going any further with that person, then why kiss them? To him, a kiss was the symbol of accepting that person wholly, mind, body and soul. Considering his lingering insecurities regarding his mixed heritage, Inuyasha could accept that she might love him with her heart, but couldn’t allow herself to love him with her body, and that was why he had originally planned on apologizing for the kiss. With his ears trained forward and his heart in his throat, he waited silently for Kagome’s answer.

“No…” she admitted shyly, closing her eyes for a moment.

With her eyes closed, she missed the giant wave of relief that washed over him at her timid reply.

 “So…” she spoke up again after a moment, opening her eyes to meet his gaze. “You have had…those types of thoughts, about me?”

“Repeatedly.” he confessed without hesitation, and for some reason, he didn’t feel quite as embarrassed as he thought he would. Perhaps it was because she felt the same way…? She did feel the same way, right? He really needed to be sure.

“What about you? Are you truly willing to, uh…bed…with me? As I am?”

Her face flamed at his words, unable to believe he’d actually asked her such a direct question, but still, this night was dedicated to honesty, to getting all of their feelings for each other out in the open.

“Yes…although I wouldn’t say ‘willing’ is the right word. More like…I would be happy to.”

“Really??”

She couldn’t help but to giggle a little at his innocent, joyful expression. Even given their current topic of conversation, Kagome could tell there was truly nothing dirty or lecherous going on in Inuyasha’s mind. Joining together as two people…it was the purist form of expressing love, and that she was willing to share herself so intimately with him, when he had grown up his whole life hearing how filthy, tainted and unwanted he was… Well, it meant a lot to him, clearly.

“Yes, really.” she answered with a smile, still somewhat amazed in the back of her mind that she and Inuyasha were actually openly discussing the prospect of the two of them having sex.

“May I…uh…may I kiss you again?”

Smiling, she unhesitantly replied with “Yes, you may.”

Smiling himself, a rare sight for Kagome, she held her breath as Inuyasha leaned forward, closing the gap between them until their lips met for the second time that night. Instead of the brief peck he had given her the first time, this time, he allowed the pressure to linger, as he cherished the sensation of his lips against her own. Melting into the tenderness of the moment, it didn’t take Kagome long to decide that she would no longer be satisfied with a simple kiss, and so when he finally started to pull away, she made her move, weaving her arms up and around his neck before pulling herself forward to kiss him once more, although this time it was anything but simple. Inuyasha was surprised, but also overjoyed by her action, as he eagerly wrapped his arms around her back, holding her to him just as tightly as she clung to him in return. When he felt her lips start to move against his own, it didn’t take him long to catch on, as he began mimicking her movements, and when he felt her tongue delicately trace the edge of his lips, silently asking for entry, he readily granted her request.

They explored each other to the fullest, as she traced his fangs with her tongue, while he savored the taste of her. Slowly but steadily, a fire ignited in each of their bellies, beginning to burn brighter and hotter with each passing minute, as they began panting, sweating, and clinging to each other more desperately. It seemed that neither of them were willing to allow reality to rear its ugly head, so lost were they both in the moment. Gradually, Inuyasha permitted his mouth to vacate the premises of her own, as he trailed his tongue down across her throat, suckling and nipping gently at her neck, causing her to moan softly and arch into his touch. Her hands behind his neck turned into fistfuls of hair, as she yanked, but not in any way meant for him to stop what he was doing. Growling possessively from deep within his throat, Inuyasha began moving over her body, leaning her backwards, and Kagome readily complied, until she was stretched out on her back with him lying possessively over her, his legs resting between her own, his erection fitted snugly against her center. Her chest heaved with heavy breaths, pressing her breasts against him, but he was content for the time being to remain focused on her neck, as he unconsciously began grinding his stiffness against her core. Each of them had momentary flashes of thought pass through their minds, as they asked themselves what they thought they were doing, as they told themselves they knew they should stop, but neither of them were willing to listen to reason as they stubbornly ignored their own inner voices in favor of the breathy moans and gasps that were filling her room.

Instead of pushing him off of her, she grabbed his left hand from where it currently rested against her right shoulder, and placed it over her breast. He immediately began squeezing and pinching, causing her to arch into his touch even more fiercely than before. Instead of feeling embarrassed by the obviousness of his excitement for her, he reached down with his right hand for a second to adjust himself, yanking the front of his constricting fundoshi off to the side to free himself within his hakama, as he continued to grind against her.

Things continued on like that for several minutes further, Inuyasha’s hips gradually picking up the pace as he continued to dry-hump her while simultaneously lavishing her neck with his tongue as he palmed her breasts through her top. Hooking her legs around his own, Kagome rocked with him, knowing full well what it was she could feel between her legs and loving every minute of it. He repeatedly rejoined his mouth with hers, and he even allowed Kagome some further exploration of her own, as she yanked his head back by the hair to bite at his own throat, knowing her blunt human teeth would never be strong enough to break the skin, no matter how many times he whispered “Harder.” in her ear. Inuyasha liked it rough, no real surprise there.

The miko was content to remain lost in their passion forever, so it was somewhat of a splash of cold water when Inuyasha suddenly pulled himself away from her, jerking up onto his hands and knees above her so that their bodies were no longer touching.

“Whoa…” he breathed, panting heavily.

“What?” she asked desperately, the fear of rejection tainting her scent and stinging his nose.

Just because they had each said they’d had those types of thoughts, that they each wanted to be with each other, was it possible that he didn’t really want to yet? But wasn’t it usually the girl who wanted to wait because she ‘wasn’t ready’? Kagome knew she was ready, and she had the moisture in her panties to prove it, but more so than that…she’d loved him for so long, wanted him for so long…there was really no reason why they needed to wait. Unless, of course, he simply wasn’t ready. She would never force him into anything he didn’t-

“I almost came.” he blurted, causing her thoughts to come to a screeching halt with the mental sound effect of a needle scratching across a record.

“What?” she repeated, unable to mask the relief and amusement in her voice.

The relief he understood, since it had been obvious to him from her sudden scent change that she had feared he was rejecting her, but was the amusement really necessary?

Backing off of her, Inuyasha knelt next to her on the bed, the tent in his hakama clearly visible in that position.

“I almost came, damn it. This is a fucking dream come true and I got too excited, all right?” he repeated, more than a little humiliated at the confession.

Moving so that she was sitting up cross-legged before him, Kagome reached forward with a hand on his leg.

“There’s nothing to be ashamed of.” she assured him quietly, her smile warm and gentle.

Taking a deep breath in the hopes of calming himself down, Inuyasha failed to take her current posture into consideration, as her cross-legged position gave him a huge whiff of her own arousal, her body’s current state of desire as obvious to his nose as his surely was to her eyes.

“Damn…” he moaned, a lethargic smile creeping over his face.

“What?” she asked again with a grin in her voice, only mildly confused and still more amused than anything else.

“Your scent…it’s absolutely heavenly. Your body is screaming for me.”

To her credit, Kagome didn’t uncross her legs, even as a horrible crimson stained her cheeks as she realized just which scent he was referring to.

“Yes, it is.” she admitted after a moment, even though he hadn’t asked her a question. “What are you going to do about it?”

Locking eyes with her own as his golden orbs darkened to a fiery amber, his voice dropped an octave as he replied, “I’m going to make it scream some more.”

Without warning, he lunged, and Kagome suddenly realized just how quickly someone of demonic blood could actually move, as she suddenly found herself sitting topless before him, caught in his embrace as he palmed his hands up and down across her bare back and sides, her pajama top lying somewhere on the floor below. Towering over her possessively once more, it was with a gently murmured “Lie down…” that Inuyasha coaxed Kagome back into her previous position, not that she really needed all that much coaxing. Kissing her senseless, Inuyasha didn’t stop with just her throat this time, as his tongue ventured lower still, circling a nipple before his mouth consumed it, suckling from her as though he were a pup. She gasped at the sensation as she arched her back, pressing herself against him further. After giving equal attention to her other breast, he began traveling even lower, and Kagome held her breath as she realized her lover’s intended destination, as he buried his nose in her pajama clad center, inhaling madly, before yanking down to rid her of her pajama bottoms and panties in a single motion.

Suddenly lying bare before him, Kagome wondered briefly at how she didn’t feel embarrassed. Not in the slightest. She was excited, and almost desperate for him to touch her where she had only ever touched herself.

“I’ve never seen a woman like this before.” he admitted quietly, some of the fire cooled in his voice as he gazed at her perfect form in wonderment and awe.

“What are you talking about?” she panted, tilting her head to glance down at him. “You’ve seen me naked before, several times in fact.”

“I’m talking about this…” he answered as he reached forward with his right hand, carefully tracing her opening with a claw-tipped index finger, before taking some of her moisture and spreading it across the swollen nub resting above.

She gasped at the contact, her hips rising of their own accord as she spread her legs even wider, and that was when she realized…she was lying completely nude, spread eagle, and he was staring at her, there. She still wasn’t embarrassed. Not even when she saw him take that same index finger and bring it to his lips, his tongue poking out teasingly to taste her essence. Then his eyes met hers, and the fire was back.

Was he really planning to…?

Oh kami…I’ve heard stories, but I never imagined he would ever-

“Ah!” she gasped as he lunged forward, holding her legs open as he lapped at her like the dog he was.

“Like that?” he rumbled between licks.

“Gods, yes!”

Shoving his tongue as far inside her as it would go, his nose against her curls, Inuyasha grinned, and carefully rubbed the smooth front of his fang against her clit, before pulling back to circle the bundle of nerves with his tongue, flicking and licking and slurping like she was a melting ice cream cone. Then pressing the flat of his tongue against her swollen nub, he shook his head quickly from side to side, until she was rising off of the bed like she was possessed. Just because he’d never actually seen what a woman looked like down there for himself, it didn’t mean he’d never heard stories. Living for as long as he had out in the wilderness, there had been several occasions over the years where he’d been within earshot of traveling bandits or swindlers out in the woods, the type of men who spoke loudly and frequently of their many female conquests. At the time, it had been more information then he’d cared to hear, but now, he was only too happy to put his inadvertent knowledge to good use. Closing his lips around her nub and suckling as he had done to her nipples, it didn’t take long before Kagome was screaming his name, her fists suddenly in his hair holding him in place as he eagerly rode through her turbulence.

When she finally calmed, loosening her grip on his silvery strands, he backed away from her only to grin down at her in pride. He was the one who had just brought her so much pleasure. She had let him touch her in such a manner, because she loved him. Not even the prospect of his own brother forever hating him could sour his mood in that moment.

“How was it?” he asked her smugly, chuckling as she glared at him before confessing, “It was the best orgasm of my life.”

She could see the wheels were starting to turn at that answer, so she quickly got him off track by asking in turn, “How did you know what to do?”

Immediately coming clean about what he’d overheard over the years from various travelers in the woods, he then assured her once and for all, “I’ve never been with anyone before. You’re my first.”

“I’ve never been with anyone before, either.” she replied, even though he hadn’t asked. She figured it would be wrong of her to allow any doubt to linger in his sometimes overly sensitive imagination.

Quickly putting two and two together, Inuyasha’s chest puffed in renewed pride at the astounding realization that the pleasure he had just given her was even better that what she gave herself. Then again, he had also heard it from traveling men in the forest that the same was also true the other way around. But he wouldn’t ask Kagome to do that…at least not tonight.

“What are you thinking?”

Damn it!

Kagome wanted to giggle as his contemplative expression quickly morphed into horror. Whatever he had been thinking, honesty was the best policy, right?

“That I’d also heard that, uh…using the mouth…was better…for men. But that I wasn’t going to ask you to do that!”

Laughing at his panicked expression, Kagome pulled her legs back before sitting up, as she cooed, “But what if I wanted to?”

“Then I’d let you.” he blurted before quickly slapping a hand over his mouth.

She giggled.

“Quit doin’ that! This shit ain’t funny!”

“Oh come on…it’s only me. It’s not like Miroku-sama asked you anything perverted.”

Shit…

Unable to mask his expression quickly enough, Kagome’s eyes widened. “He did?”

“Yes.”

“What did he ask you?”

“If I’ve ever pleasured myself while thinking of you.” he confessed, his eyes softening as he realized that particular topic of discussion wasn’t anywhere near as humiliating with the woman of his fantasies currently sitting naked before him.

“And what was your answer?”

“Yes…” he sighed, adding, “Though I bolted outta there so fast I’m hopin’ they didn’t hear it.”

Instead of giggling at his embarrassment, Kagome leaned forward, her breasts dangling in his face as she stretched up to reach his ear and whispered, “I was thinking of you, too.”

“Kagome…” he groaned, before pulling a breast into his mouth.

His attentions to her were languid, pleasant, so she was able to remain functioning as she maneuvered her hands into position, tugging loose the knot of his obi so that she could begin the daunting task of undressing him. It wasn’t very fair that she was naked while he was still fully clothed, after all. However, with the way he was sitting, it didn’t take long for her hand at his waist to accidentally encounter something else, and at his sharp intake of breath, Kagome suddenly decided the obi could wait. Pulling back away from his attentions, then, Kagome snaked her right hand through the open slit at the right side of his hakama, and quickly finding what she was looking for, she firmly wrapped her fingers around him, relishing in the choked gasp that tumbled from his throat at the contact.

“Holy fucking shit…” he panted, unfolding his legs as he leaned back against the wall, laying propped up and stretched out before her with his feet dangling off the side of her bed, though still fully clothed.

“You gotta help me get you outta this stuff. I want you naked.” she said in that moment, and wordlessly, he nodded, quickly undoing his obi to yank open his robes while she never ceased what she was doing within the confines of his hakama.

Once he had all of his clothing’s ties undone, he shrugged his robes off his shoulders before letting them fall off his arms and onto the bed beneath him, and with the ties of his hakama unfastened, Kagome reached up with her left hand to lower the garment’s front flap, revealing what she was doing, all the while never releasing him. Inuyasha’s hands joined hers to tackle the removal of his fundoshi, and then after pulling it free, some mild wiggling on his part was all that was needed to have his hakama falling off his feet, and then finally, she had him nude before her.

“I’ve never seen a man like this before.” she murmured in that moment, even as she continued to stroke him.

“Wha…ahhh…what are y-you talking about?” he managed to rasp, her talented fingers quickly bringing back to life the roaring fire that had temporarily been set to simmer. “You’ve seen me naked before.” he added, mirroring their previous exchange. It was true, after all.

“I’m talking about this…” Kagome emphasized, giving his shaft an extra squeeze. He had not had an erection during the times she’d previously seen him sans clothing, and while she only had the stories of her school friends to go by for comparison, the miko believed she could say with confidence that Inuyasha was far above average.

Not forgetting about her previous offer, it was in that moment that Kagome leaned down over him, sticking her tongue out to give his head an experimental lick while she continued slowly pumping him with her hand. His response was immediate, as he sucked in air through his teeth while raising his hips. She’d only heard stories, but then again so had he, and she had no complaints, so hopefully, he wouldn’t either.

“Fuck!” he shouted as she suddenly engulfed him, moist heat surrounding his throbbing flesh. With her hand still pumping the lower half of his cock, she worked the top half with her mouth, as she bobbed her head up and down while simultaneously flexing her lips and tongue tighter and looser around him. Taking a cue from something he had done for her, Kagome raised her mouth closer to his tip and swirled her tongue around his head a few times, teasing the lip of his foreskin, before then attempting to deep throat him once more, doing her best to avoid triggering her gag reflex.

The taste wasn’t the best, though it also wasn’t the worst, and it felt unnatural to stretch her jaw in such a way for so long, but any thoughts of discomfort were immediately erased upon hearing him shout out, “Ahhhhh, crap! I love you, Kagome! Oh fuck…”

He started writhing his hips in time with her movements as he wove his hands into her hair, and for a moment she was worried he was going to start guiding her descent, or thrusting up towards her, which were among some of the stories she had heard, but he seemed content to just gently rest his hands on her head, letting her control her own movements at her own pace. Things progressed like that for another forty-five seconds or so, and then…

“Godsdamned mother-fucking- ah! Shit!”

Before she could react, the miko suddenly found her head in his hands, as he swiftly, yet also carefully so as not to hurt her, yanked her up and away from his dick. His red, swollen, and visibly pulsating dick.

“That was way too fucking close…” he panted, adding, “Maybe…one day…but not right now. Not for our first time.”

The miko blushed hotly as it became obvious what he was referring to. She hadn’t really been thinking about it, but now that she was, she was glad he had stopped her when he had. Maybe one day she would be ready to try that, but he was right, tonight wasn’t the time for it. She also felt another kind of heat rush to her cheeks as she fully registered the way he’d so casually made reference to their ‘first’ time like that. It wasn’t that he was out of line for presuming she was willing to go all the way with him in that moment, because she most certainly was, but the heat she felt consume her was the heat of passion, fueled by the causal way he acknowledged that there would undoubtedly be other times besides this one.

With that last thought in mind, it was with a wicked smile that Kagome backed away from him, gently nudging his legs out of the way as she lied herself back down along her bed, her legs spread wide. Smirking, Inuyasha didn’t need to be told twice, as he crawled over her body once more, settling himself into position. Resting his aching member directly against her heat, he hissed at the contact, and confessed, “I know this will be uncomfortable for you, but I’ll make it up to you, I promise.”

Meeting his eyes with her own, Kagome spoke from the heart as she honestly told him, “I don’t care about physical comfort right now. I want you more than anything, even if it hurts like hell. I love you, and I want to be your lover, mate, wife…whatever word you want to label it. I want to be yours. Please, make me yours, Inuyasha.”

Moisture gathered behind his eyes at her words, and leaning his head down, he met her lips with his own for a slow, tender kiss, as he retracted his hips and reached down with his with hand to help guide himself home. Feeling the tip of his shaft align with her entrance, he figured the best approach was probably slow and steady. He wouldn’t stop halfway through and prolong her suffering any more than was necessary, nor would he snap his hips forward and risk actually injuring her. While Kagome’s hymen had been lost over time due to one reason or another, her canal walls were still tight and unused, and as he slowly pushed himself inside of her, he found that he literally had to push in order to move forward, her muscles contracting around him almost making it feel like her body was trying to keep him out.

“Try to relax…” he murmured softly, pinching his eyes shut as sweat beaded on his forehead.

“I could say the same thing about you.” Kagome commented, the feel of his heart thundering in his chest resonating throughout her body.

“Not gonna happen.” he admitted quietly, gently kissing her lips once more. “There’s no way I can be calm when you’ve just given me the most wonderful gift in the entire world.”

Finally pushing all the way inside, Inuyasha remained still for a moment, savoring the sensation of simply being one with her. He was inside her. Even though he had had fantasies, he had never honestly thought that such an event would ever come to be. After all, he had only just been released from his vow of dying with Kikyou a few hours ago, and prior to that moment, he had known that a physical relationship with Kagome was out of the question. He might be an ass at times, but he wasn’t that heartless, and he never would’ve committed himself to Kagome in such a way if he’d known he was only going to end up having to leave her, and this was a commitment. She was his now, and he was also hers. They belonged with each other, they belonged to each other, and nothing and no one had the power to change that.

Beneath him, Kagome had her eyes pinched shut, but it was only to keep from crying because she was so overwhelmed with joy that she knew she wouldn’t be able to contain her tears if she looked him in the eyes. She had never thought this moment would actually come, and now, she was more than a little in shock. During their previous activities of a few minutes prior, it had been easy to lose herself in the moment, in the passion that tended to numb one’s ability to form coherent thought, but now, as she laid still below him, as he rested motionlessly atop her, their bodies connected in the most intimate of ways possible, it really hit her, they were one.

Realizing that Inuyasha was probably lost in a daze of his own, and wanting to reassure him that he wasn’t dreaming, it was in that moment that Kagome reached up with her right hand and gently began tweaking his left her. He jerked to attention at the contact, and turning to meet her gaze, he found Kagome’s eyes open and smiling up at him.

“You can move.” she assured him.

“Are you in pain?” he asked her quietly.

“A little,” she confessed, quickly adding “But it’s not important.”

Reassured by the love he could clearly see in her pools of chocolate as she gazed up at him tenderly, he carefully retracted his hips before pushing forward once more, biting his lip almost to the point of drawing blood to keep from losing control. Going so slowly was absolute torture, but besides being afraid of accidentally hurting her with his youkai strength if he lost control of himself, Inuyasha was also fairly sure that he wouldn’t last too long if he started going much faster. Then again, if Kagome was in pain, even a little, then it really wasn’t right to prolong her discomfort, was it?

Gradually picking up the pace, the hanyou hissed as waves of pleasure shot from his groin to spread throughout his entire body.

“Oh fuck, ‘Gome, I can’t take much more of this. You feel way too fucking good.”

“Let it go, Inuyasha. Don’t hold yourself back.”

Increasing the tempo of his hips to match the speed he had previously been using to grind against her when they’d still been clothed, it didn’t take long at all before he felt the onset of that tightness within his balls for the third time, and this time, he didn’t fight it. Grabbing her hips, he moved her with him, and it only took six thrusts for him to lose it.

“Oh f-fuck…Mmm, arg…Ka…Kagome, yeah…fuck!”

Locking his hips and holding himself tightly against her, Inuyasha was literally shaking with the intensity of pleasure rushing through him, as he shot his seed deeply within her waiting body. Fortunately, he knew it was the wrong time in her cycle for her to be able to conceive, although that was something they would definitely have to take into consideration in the future. While he would love nothing more than to have a family of his own, now wasn’t the time to start one, while that bastard Naraku still had breath in his body.

Kagome could feel Inuyasha climax inside of her, and she wasn’t disappointed in the slightest that he hadn’t been able to hold out any longer. She knew that as the newness wore off, he would be able to go for longer and longer runs, and that as her newness wore off, she’d be able to enjoy it more. It was a future she was really looking forward to. Although…as she felt him continue to empty himself within her, it did cross Kagome’s mind that they would have to be very careful in the future to not risk her accidentally getting pregnant. The thought of condoms wasn’t very appealing, and in the Sengoku jidai they’d have no proper way to dispose of them, anyway, so maybe she would ask her mom about getting on the pill. She wasn’t worried about having that conversation with her mother, the elder Higurashi woman had already long ago pulled her daughter aside and assured her that she trusted Kagome to be old and wise enough to make her own decisions in that regard. Mrs. Higurashi had known that Kagome was in love with Inuyasha longer than Kagome had known it herself.

“I love you…” she whispered in that moment, for no other reason than figuring that he deserved to hear it as often as possible.

Pulling back slightly to meet his mate’s eyes, Inuyasha offered Kagome one of his rarest, truest smiles. “I love you, too.” he responded sincerely, before retracting his hips and pulling his softening member free from her body.

Kagome could feel how sticky she was down there, and grimaced slightly, quickly explaining so that he would not misunderstand at her expression… “I better go get cleaned up.” as she tried to move herself out from under him to head into the bathroom.

Moving his hands to her shoulders, Inuyasha held her firmly in place, his smile turning into a smirk.

“Let me take care of that. I promised to make it up to you, after all.”

Whatever the miko was about to say next, her words were replaced with gasps and moans as Inuyasha traveled down her body for the second time that night. Eventually, when it was deemed time to use the bed for actual sleep, neither of them bothered getting dressed first, knowing that Kagome’s family wouldn’t be there in the morning. They cuddled together skin against skin, turned on their right sides with Inuyasha’s back to the wall, as he spooned her, wrapping himself around her nude form while she snuggled just as equally against him in return.

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A/N: Originally, I had only planned on making this story two chapters long, but I for once I’ve decided not to end the story right after the sex scene, so…enjoy the bonus chapter! Otherwise known as the Epilogue.



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