InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Torn ❯ Lucid ( Chapter 5 )

A.N. Could it be, that I have updated earlier than intended? Indeed! Thanks to your great reviews I got the motivation I needed. Sorry about last chapter, I mixed up the word fowl with foul. Thanks Reiku for pointing that out for me. Enjoy!

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha & Co. All I own is the key to the dark closet they're locked in.

~*~ Warning this fic is not intended for children. ~*~

*Possible OOC coming up! Beware…

* 5 Lucid *

~Kagome~

"Kagome. Kagome get up." A strong and familiar voice calls to me.

Slowly I open my eyes expecting dark stonewalls but I'm greeted with a bright afternoon sky, lined with tall trees.

I sit up and notice that I'm in a small clearing, wearing my usual school uniform.

Is it possible that everything was a nightmare?

I feel a hand on my shoulder and I look up at warm golden eyes that were once rendered lifeless.

"Inu…Inuyasha!"

Without a second thought I pull into a tight embrace.

He's here.

I'm here.

We're safe.

It was all just a bad dream…but it felt so real.

I pull back to take another look at his face.

It's the same but different. A soft glow surrounds him giving him an angelic appearance. My mind tells me that this is out of place but my heart ponders otherwise.

"Kagome, I'm sorry." I hear his words but they aren't in tune with his lips.

Why is he sorry? Why does this seem unreal all of a sudden?

I'm sure my eyes reveal my confusion because he continues.

"I'm sorry it had to be like this. I'm sorry for not protecting you."

"I don't understand, Inuyasha."

"This is the only way I can be with you…in your world of dreams."

World of dreams? He's not making any sense. What is he trying to say to me?

"Kagome I need you to stay strong and stop taking this out on your self. None of this is your fault."

I finally realize what he's saying but I don't want to.

"Tell me Inuyasha, is this real?" I sullenly respond.

"Only to a certain extent…"

"What extent is that?" I cut in.

"I am contacting you from the afterlife. I've watched what's happened since I…died."

His last word causes me to wince and pull away from him completely.

I'm so stupid for believing everything was fine again. Things never work out that way.

"So your really gone and I'm just left to suffer? Is this the way it is, Inuyasha?" my words come out harshly but I didn't want them to.

His eyes reflect my sadness with a hint of understanding and he pulls me close to him. I don't resist.

Instead I return his embrace and let my tears fall. I keep my head buried in his chest and he softly strokes my hair.

A sudden calmness lulls over me. He did this when the Well first closed, when I needed him the most…I want to stay like this forever.

"Things will get better I promise. You just need to stay strong and live." He whispers into my ear.

How can things get better if he won't be with me? Doesn't he realize I'm empty without him that I have no reason to go on because he's no longer on my side?

I feel his grip tighten around me as he nuzzles my hair.

"Promise me that you will live and be strong."

His voice held a conviction that made it hard to deny his request.

So I didn't.

I slowly nod my head into his chest. His hold loosens and I look back up at him.

"The girl, she can help you." His words slightly echo.

"What girl and how?" mine does the same.

He responds by giving me a chaste kiss. It catches me off guard but I slowly allow it to become more passionate.

My worries are forgotten and I slide my eyes close. I melt in his touch but he begins to somewhat dissolve in my grasp.

I keep my eyes shut. I'm too afraid to open them and discover him gone…again.

I then feel his lips pull from mine and my arms feel as if they have passed through him.

No, it's too soon. He can't leave me…not yet. I'm not ready for him to go. Blindly I reach out to try and steal one last touch but I don't feel anything just empty space.

No. No. No. Please don't do this to me again.

Slowly I reopen my eyes and once again they meet with golden orbs but these hold a colder glimmer than before.

My heart, once again, fails to acknowledge this so by impulse I throw my arms around him.

I began to cry uncontrollably and hold onto him tighter for fear that I will be left alone again.

"Please, Inuyasha don't leave me yet…at least let me say goodbye." I manage to bawl out.

No arms wrap around me.

No hand sweeps through my hair to soothe my cries.

No whispered promises linger to my ears.

None. I only hold in my arms a rigid form.

It is now that I realize that this is not my Inuyasha nor am I in that he called my world of dreams.

Instead I'm back in Hell and holding Satan himself.

Before I can pull away, he thrusts me across the room, causing me to slam into the cold stonewall.

How could I let myself become so foolish to think that this bloodthirsty bastard was my Inuyasha even for a split second?

I feel a pang in my heart as I think back to the short time I spent with him. I still wasn't able to tell him goodbye.

"Have you lost so much sanity to think that your precious hanyou is still alive let alone believe that I am him?" Sesshoumaru's words are cold and sharp.

I only stare at him and steadily pick myself up, thankful that nothing was broken from the impact.

"Eat, miko." He orders and makes a small gesture to a short tea table that has a plate filled with food, on it.

Eat? Does he expect me to willingly accept a meal from him? My stomach growls in protest but I will not eat something of his, especially something that he has seemingly brought himself.

"I will not eat your scraps." I refuse.

He lets out an irritated growl but impassively responds, "You may not eat now but you will eat soon, I can hear insides from here."

"What the hell do you want from me?"

I couldn't hold it back. There isn't a reasonable explanation as to why he has kept me here.

"Such language will not be tolerated here in my home. Learn to understand this miko, then your stay will be somewhat enjoyable."

There is nothing here that I can do that will bring me joy.

Except bring Him pain.

"Listen miko, you still live only because you will remove the demon seal from Tetsusiaga and obey any action I order you to do that I find suitable."

Who does he think I am?

Does he think that I'm going to forget what he has done to Inuyasha and just do what he says? How dare he.

I'd much rather die than do anything for Him.

`Promise me that you will live…'

I did promise and I will live. I will be strong for you Inuyasha.

"Why should I do anything for you?"

I can feel my will building up and that fire I once had begging to be unleashed. I like this feeling, this feeling of strength.

"You have nothing miko and this I am sure of. If you do as I say I am sure that you can earn privileges. If you decide to make this difficult, I promise to be difficult as well."

How does he know that I have nothing left? What makes him think that I even know how to remove a seal from anything? And what other things does he have in mind for me anyway?

I openly shudder as cruel images of him forcing me to do ungodly things invade my thoughts.

But the real question is why does he need me, a human, to help him.

"Has the great Lord sunken so low as to require the help of a lowly human?"

I know I shouldn't have said it but I don't regret it. It was an effect of my sudden surge of confidence.

"So you have chosen to be difficult? Very well, I will put you in your place since you have yet to understand me."

His response is too calm for my liking and the fact that he used the words; `put you in your place' doesn't go down too well either.

The color red replaces his eye color of amber and before I can rationalize what this means exactly, I'm forced back onto the floor with Western Lord on top of me.

My eyes widen as I feel one of his clawed hands reach under my kimono and make a move to touch my bare flesh.

What is he doing? Why is he doing this?

I struggle to get him off me but its no use.

"Get off of me you bastard!" I scream.

"What did I say about that tongue of yours miko? Are you unable to comprehend that I can cause you great pain?" he inhales deeply, "Your still untainted but I can change that."

I shiver in panic as I absorb his statement. My effort to get from under him becomes frantic.

I cry and scream but he only stares at me as if he's not even doing anything when he's aggressively trying to part my legs and ruin me.

No, I won't let this happen…not like this. I will not just lay here and be taken forcefully.

Never.

I can feel the heat in my soul consume my body. I can feel it…my strength, my energy, my life force it's getting stronger.

I take a deep breath and become calm but I still try my best to keep my legs clamped shut.

"Are you ready to submit, miko?"

I look him in the eye, put my hands on his shoulders and serenely reply, "Are you?"

With my newly revived miko energy I send him off my body and across the room almost as he did me.

Wow. I expected to do some damage but not much. I hear him grunt in pain and I cherish that sound that I caused.

Putting my thoughts back together, I quickly stand up and head for the door. I feel a dizzy spell come over me and I inwardly curse for using so much power.

I expect it to just wear off but it only gets worse. The room spins and my head becomes light.

Damit, don't let me pass out here!

Sluggishly I walk to the door and just when I am in arms reach of the door handle I feel strong arms wrap around me, squeezing the breath out of me.

My body tenses up but the room still spins.

"I liked that trick but we won't be having that anymore, now will we? I sense that you have weakened considerably."

Ii groan and everything becomes blurry. I feel him lift me in his arms and toss me back onto the futon.

"I want you awake and alert when I punish you for your defiance, so sleep miko. When I return I hope you have more sense."

Damit, how can I get so close but so far?

Next time…next time…Black.

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A.N. Damn that was difficult. I hope this satisfies some of my readers hunger. It's not my best but it's something. Anyway please review I love hearing the thoughts of my readers.

Oh yeah! Sesshou-kun has both arms in this fic cause I'm lazy X3.

~Riomi~

Reviewer Responses:

AsianEyes- Special Happy Birthday! Hope you're happy that I updated earlier than said X3.

Rasberries- I love your reviews they are so inspiring. I glad you liked Rin POV part of last chapter! I can't wait til you update!

Blue Saiyan Angel- Sorry for the tease but sometimes it's just needed.

Emerald Night- Wow you really think I portray it perfectly? I would say it's semi-ok…not perfect…especially after this chapter…lol.

scarecrow- I'm glad you liked that retaliation from chapter 3…PLEASE UPDATE HEART OF PAIN, HEART OF ICE!

Crash- You should be my beta because you're better at pointing out my mistakes than most! Hugs X3.

Reiku- Thanks for letting me know about the fowl/foul mix up. ~_^

Genesis Eve aka Lasher-Thank you so much! I wish I could convert you to a Sess/Kag fan but hey you still seem like a good person. Lol! I'm still glad I could get through to an outsider though. XD

Narakusmiasma- I'm glad that you like my story and that my angst has helped inspire you. Say…When are you going to update your story anyway…?

Lady Koneko- I'm glad you like my work.

Gate-Keepers-21- I love Inuyasha too…but I can never pass up a good idea for a Sess/Kag fic. Maybe Inuyasha will come back…who knows. (I'm not sure yet.) How about I write an Inu/Kag fic just for you?

EvilNekoEatsYourSoul- Let's see… I'm sorry I made you feel sad and I'm thankful that you felt sad…lol. I really like all your stories and I'm glad you like this one!

Snowcat- I guess he has both arms because I think it's too difficult to write him doing things with only one. You have a lot to say and I like that. Hmm…have you ever tried being a muse? Why don't you email me at Riomi_Sess@msn.com? I would love to hear some more views from you cause you seem to certainly have a lot! X3

That all I can squeeze in this time. But remember for me to respond you must review! XD

One more thing next chapter will have a lemon just because I think I should put one in now before I lose my `perverted readers' lol. But I will only post it at MM.org and AFF.net cause FF.net acts silly.

~Riomi~