InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ True Love ❯ Mixed Emotions ( Chapter 7 )

Chapter 7: Mixed Emotions

"Inuyasha, us humans have to stop. We have been walking all day." Kagome stated wearily before dropping to the ground. They had come upon a beautiful clearing in the woods, the perfect camp setting. Miroku and Sango dropped down next to her. Shippo climbed off Kagome's shoulder to sit in her lap. They had fought Naraku about three months before and had finally killed him. Miroku's curse was gone, Sango's village avenged, Kohaku laid to rest, and Kikyou put back in her grave. Inuyasha himself had been badly injured but he still drove everyone at a fast pace. Naraku had not had the jewel on him and they couldn't find it anywhere they looked.

Inuyasha looked back at them. `Wow, they really do look tried. But we need to find Naraku's half of the jewel. I keep forgetting their human. Damn!' He sighed to himself. `At least they don't complain… much.' He snorted.

"Do you think you can handle setting up camp if I go hunting for dinner?" He looked at his friends. When Kagome smiled, he remarked to himself on how beautiful she was.

`Gah, what am I thinking? I don't even like her. At least I don't think so. I loved Kikyou, didn't I?'

"Thank you, Inuyasha. We can set up while you are gone."

"Keh!" was sent over his shoulder as he walked out of the clearing.

Kagome rolled her eyes. "Sometimes I don't know why I love him so much." She turned around to find a smirking Miroku and a blushing Sango.

"What?"

"So you love him, do you?"

Kagome blushed as she realized that she had spoken aloud.

"Just help me set up camp, Miroku."

He laughed as he went and got some firewood. `Doesn't matter anyway,' Kagome thought sadly, `he loves Kikyou still.'

Soon they had the fire going and their sleeping stuff out. Inuyasha was walking out of the woods with some rabbits when a shriek rent the night air.

"Hentai!"

*Crack*

Inuyasha smiled when he saw the monk sprawled on the forest floor. Kagome and Sango walked past the groaning man holding their bathing supplies. Sango nodded towards Inuyasha as she past him.

"Keep him away from us" was thrown back at him. Kagome shot him a sad look. `What's wrong with her?'

"You never learn." Inuyasha smirked at the monk holding his head.

"You know" Shippo started "if you guys treated the girls better this wouldn't happen."

"Hey, I didn't do anything."

"This time! You fight with Kagome all the time. The way your going you'll never win her love, loverboy. And you Miroku, Sango wants to be wooed not groped. I don't know why they like you both." Shippo ran after Kagome and Sango.

Inuyasha growled after him, "I don't love her."

`But you do' a voice whispered inside him.

`Shut up, I do not!'

`Then why do you hurt when she's hurt? Why do you feel empty when she leaves for her tests?'

`I- I- Shut up.'

The voice chuckled. `Do you want her to be with Kouga? Or the Hojo guy from her time?'

`She wouldn't. She's mine.' Inuyasha froze in the act of roasting the rabbits.

`Can you admit it now?'

"You're right." Inuyasha finally growled.

Miroku blinked. "I didn't say anything."

"Not you, the voice." Inuyasha snorted.

*Blink- Blink*

"Oka-a-y." Miroku edged away from the frowning half- demon.

`When did I start to like Kagome? Do I love her? I loved Kikyou, didn't I? And Kikyou loved me? She was going to be with me after I became human. Maybe she was right, and we were just lonely. But Kagome likes me for who I am, not what the jewel could make me. Could she really love me though?' He frowned. `No, nobody loves a half- demon. I may be her friend but she'll never want to be with me. She'll want to be with someone from her time I bet. Who cares, I don't have any feelings for her either.' Inuyasha thought to himself bitterly.

Miroku watch the play of emotions that floated across Inuyasha's face, confusion, a slight smile, sadness, and then ending with anger. `What is he thinking about?'

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Kagome sighed as she sank into the water. It was a sigh mixed with sadness though.

"What's wrong, Kagome?"

"Is there something wrong with me?" Kagome blinked back tears. "Why do I love someone who barely realizes I'm alive unless a shard is nearby?" Bitterness crept into her voice.

Sango swam over to the bewildered girl.

"Oh, Kagome. I think he does realize you are alive. I just don't think he realizes there could be someone who loves him. Remember, he has been hunted by human and demon alike for what he is. I think the last person he knew who ever loved him was his mother."

"There was Kikyou…"

"And she wanted him to become human for her. How could someone love you if they want to change you?"

"Maybe. I don't see how she couldn't have loved him though. I mean he can be so sweet sometimes and he's so cute- as a human, demon, or both." Kagome stared off into space dreamily.

"Mama, I think he does like you but he doesn't trust himself or his feelings. He doesn't really understand himself." Shippo said from the edge of the stream. Kagome jerked herself out of her daydream.

"Really, Shippo?"

"He gets crazy when your hurt, he mopes when you go home, and he protects you more then you need." Shippo thought back to the time Inuyasha had trapped Kagome in the future.

"Kagome, have you shown him you care? I mean maybe he needs to know there is a chance before he can come out of his shell."

Kagome looked at Sango. "Would he… Do you think… No, it'll never work."

"Yes, it could Kagome! If you love him, fight for him!"

"What about you Sango? You love Miroku, so why don't you follow your own advice?"

"What! That pervert? I do not love him!"

"Yeah sure, Sango, I've seen the way you look at him. It's probably the same way I look at Inuyasha."

There was a long pause. "Well… uh… if I do this then you have to too!"

"What should we do then? Subtle is not exactly in Inuyasha or Miroku's vocabulary."

Kagome and Sango pulled their knees up to their chests and rested their chins on their knees. Shippo sat down cross- legged on the shore.

"Maybe we could take a break from hunting the shard and spend some time with them."

"Inuyasha would never go for that. Maybe we could just pull them off on separate little trips. You know for some rumors of the shard we heard. I know it's a lie but who cares?"

"I don't know, Kagome. Inuyasha would be really pissed when he found out."

Kagome sighed. "I know, I know."

"Maybe I could ask Miroku to accompany me to my old village so I can visit their graves."

"Yeah, maybe I can bring Inuyasha to my time so that I can show him why it's so important to me. Only I'll just be spending time with him, showing him around my town."

Shippo looked at each girl. "This could take awhile. I'll stay here with Kaede and Kirara so you can be completely alone. This could work though. You're opening up about your pasts so maybe they will too."

"We should probably act like their girlfriends because…"

"Girlfriends? What's that?"

"Oh, boys in my time call girls they are courting their girlfriends. What they do is spend time with them and they do get physical like kissing and stuff."

"Miroku gets physical enough but kissing him does sound interesting."

"Alright, I think we have a plan. Let's get back to camp." They climbed out and when they saw their wrinkled fingertips they wrinkled their noses.

"How attractive!" They laughed slightly and got dressed.