InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Turn Around ❯ Chpt 5: "Saving" Rin ( Chapter 5 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

IMPORTANT NOTICE!
PLEASE READ THIS BEFORE STARTING THE STORY:

I do not own any of these characters in this FanFic. -Sigh- Although I wish I could, especially Sesshomaru...-giggle-

All lettering in ITALICS means the person is having these thoughts in their head. They are not spoken out loud.

Word Key: (Translation)

Arigato - Thank You
Kami - God
Gomen - Sorry
Baka - Idiot
Doshite - Why
Iie - No
Hai - Yes
Honto ne - Really
Onegai - Please
Doragon - Dragon
Gami - Toad
Ningen - Human

OKAY, let the reading commence! Enjoy!

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Chapter 5: “Saving” Rin

Back At The Palace...

The minute his palace came into sight he yelled for Jaken to come to his immediate aid. Without question, the ugly green gami came to his master's call, slightly relieved that Sesshomaru hadn't abandonned him.

“Get Rin's room perpared. Now. I don't care what you were just doing, drop it and go do this now, or I will kill you.”

Jaken gulped and said a quick,

“Right away master,” and ran to the servents quarters to outline the things they had to promptly do.

Without thinking, Sesshomaru carried her body down the east wing with beautiful mahogany flooring, which was slowly getting stained from the few drops of blood that managed to escape the kimono. He took her into his room, and put her on the bed as softly as possible, not caring that the blood seeped through the kimono and onto his beautiful, expensive white bedding.

Bedding can be replaced. Rin cannot.

He kept telling himself he didn't care about her, but it was rather obvious that he did, despite his attempted-harsh manners.

Sesshomaru sat down on a chair close to the bed, and realized his whole body was slightly trembling.

What? I'm shaking? Over a human girl? What's wrong with me?! That's the most stupid thing ever, getting all worked up over a human being! Perhaps there was reason to over family or close friends, but a human girl? Rin? Of all people? But...Rin is different...

It was at that moment that he heard a moan, and his eyes shot over to Rin's slightly moving body. He had the sudden urge to run over and put his hand over her heart, to make sure it was still beating. He was scared for her, it was HIS fault she got hurt, and he felt so damn guilty...

Slowly, her head waved from the right side, to the left, and then her whole body started to violently shake, and she was mumbling out words that not even he could understand; but it was more than obvious that she was in a great deal of stress or pain, probably both.

“NOOOO STOPPP!!! GO AWAYYYY!!! Don't do this to Rinnnn!!! Please, someone SAVE RINNNNN!!!!”

she shouted out, and then went dead silent.

He could hear her erratic, but still beating heartbeat, and visibly relaxed.

She's still alive, I need to calm down!

Eventually, he heard the sound of light dozing, and he knew she had fallen back asleep, her nightmare temporaraily stopping.

He wondered what was taking so long for the servents to do as he had asked, but it didn't matter. Rin was fine here. He didn't want her out of his sight anyway.

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Rin's head was spinning; Koga was trying to rape her, and no one was coming to save her

It seemed so real; she thought for sure this was going to happen. Maybe it was real, and that was why she was screaming for someone to save her. But if it was real, why wasn't anyone saving her?

Koga now had taken off all of her kimono and she was really scared. She wouldn't want to do this with a guy she liked, nevermind doing it with someone she didn't even know!

She tried her best to fight back, but she was weak, and he pinned her down onto the ground with ease. All she could do is close her eyes tightly and hope that this would end quickly and painlessly.

Just when she was sure that he would get the best of her, someone jumped in and saved her; but not before Koga managed to stab her in her side. She winced in pain, and looked down at the deep, and now bleeding wound.

“Curse my weakness!” she muttered, and made her way to the direction of the stream to get away from the battle.

Sesshomaru must have come to save her from Koga, then kill her himself for her stupidity of running away from the palace. Or hurt her, or yell at her, to say the least.

Rin was currently in so much pain, her thoughts were clouding, and she didn't want to deal with Sesshomaru's bad mood or the pain she was currently feeling. She cautiously walked over to the end of the rock that faced the cold, rushing stream. Her feet wavered a little, and she knew she better be careful or else she'd fall in.

Maybe that's what I want. Maybe I want fall in. End my pain, and Sesshomaru's wrath. It's not like he cares much about me. He's always yelling at me, and calling me names. But if he didn't care, why would he be here right now?

Another voice penetrated her head.

He wanted to give you back to the human village. Do you really think he cares for you, if he wants to give you away?

Rin was getting dizzier by the second. She managed to look behind her with a look of helplessness in her eyes, only to see Sesshomaru approaching her. She couldn't hear him; her hearing had fazed out on her. After looking back toward the stream, her body fell forward, and there was nothing to stop it. She'd fallen without control into the deep, dark stream.

Maybe I'm dying...

After what seemed like ages, something was shaking her rapidly, and she was confused.

Slowly, she opened her eyes to see it really was all a dream, and Sesshomaru was waking her up from it.

“Rin, wake up. It's a dream. Wake up, damn you!” He commanded coldly.

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Well, at least he hadn't changed. Rin would have smiled, but as she was attempting to sit up, a huge pain corrosed through her body, and she let out a painful gasp, which forced her back down on the bed. Even though she lay down, she still hurt really badly all over, and to top it all off, she was really cold. Her body started shaking uncontrolably, and her teeth chattered.

Sesshomaru took this as a sign that she was cold, and felt like smacking himself for not getting her some warmer furs before. He ran over to his closet and pulled out the furs that were closest to his grasp, and placed them over her body, knowing these would warm her up quickly.

His cold face revealed nothing about his worry over her, and he decided that's how things would stay. He didn't want her to think he was weak , and was liking her.

He remembered now how she had tried running away, and that if she never had, none of this would have happened in the first place.

Sesshomaru surpressed a growl, and instead questioned her.

“Why did you try to run away from me, Rin?”

No answer. He was getting annoyed, so he used a little more force.

“Answer me, now. Why did you try to run away? It better be a good reason. You could have died out there.”

Rin took a deep breath. To this question, she was going to have a lot to say.

"This Rin wanted to see my friends! Kagome, Inu Yasha, Sango, Miroku...and besides, its not like you want Rin here or anything. You're never even around to spend time with this Rin! Its boring when Rin only has the servents to interact with, and most of the time even they're busy!

Ever since you got hurt, you stopped Rin's training, and now that this Rin hurt, even if you are better, I'm not in a good enough condition to be doing any training.

Besides, you were going to send this Rin back to the stupid ningen village to "be with this Rin's own kind."

And to top it all off, you look at Rin as "just a human; a weakling that will die in a short life span, and can't take care of herself." I want to know why you keep this Rin here at all! I was probably better off dieing out there than being stuck here with you!"

Rin's eyes began to water a little, but she told herself,

This Rin will not cry! Rin refuses to cry! Not in front of him!

She turned her head away from his view. She tried to surpress a sob, but it came out in one breath, and then she managed to stop herself.

"Are you trying to tell me you attempted to kill yourself out there? That this was planned, and you wished to die?"

All in all, Sesshomaru was shocked, and couldn't completely hide it. There was concern in his golden eyes as he tried to look at her face, waiting for her responce.

Rin turned onto her back and stared at the ceiling, her eyes slightly glassy with a gaze of emptiness. Her eyes had no emotion, and they were no longer watery.

She studied the pattern on the ceiling that had a dark blue-gray sky, gray thunder clouds and a few lightning streaks. It was simply, but very well done, and she admired it, but it didn't show on her emotionless mask.

Although she didn't realize it, she was locking up her emotions and becoming more like Sesshomaru by the second.

Without looking at him, or even regarding his presence, she whispered,

"Leave this Rin..." and closed her eyes.

She allowed her head to sink further into the pillow until her face could hardly be seen, and pulled up some more of the furs on her body that wasn't quite covered, even though it caused her great pain. The pain it was causing didn't register on her face.

"Rin, I..."

Sesshomaru was angry she wasn't answering him, and was ordering him to go away! No one did that, and yet, even as said this in his mind, he knew he would comply with her command, although he didn't want to.

The servents would come by later that night with her food, and fix her "bandages" then. For now, he wanted to think about what she had unconsciously said by not answering his question.

She had attempted to kill herself? Was her life here at the palace really as bad as she thought? Could he make it better? Or maybe it wasn't life at the palace that was bothering her. Maybe it was...no, it couldn't be me, could it? No, it couldn't be!

He shook his head. Perhaps he was going crazy for thinking such stupid thoughts, and yet...These 'stupid thoughts' were the things that were going to keep him awake the rest of that night, and many nights to come, or at least until he got proper answers.

Sesshomaru, for a minute, realized she was in his bed, and he would have no where to sleep if he fulfilled her request. Servents would question why he isn't currently sleeping in his quarters, but it didn't matter. He didn't care what they thought, and never had.

He made his way as quickly as possible to the kitchen, and told them to deliver Rin's food, healing herbs, and bandaging to his chambers, because she was recovering her wounds in his room, due to her quarters not being made-up when they returned.

"Are her quarters made up now?" he questionned, and the servent nodded her head up and down.

"Good. I shall not be dining tonight, and wish not to be disturbed for the rest of the night, no matter how urgent the issue may be."

"Hai, Master. As you wish." and there were no more words spoken.

Sesshomaru went straight to Rin's room. Her scent immediately assulted his senses, and he took in deep breaths of it. Flowers, soap, and just her natural scent was all mixed together to make "Rin".

He lay down on her bed, and closed his eyes. All he could think about was how she had wanted to commit suicide.

Was this really true? Or was there something she wasn't saying? I admit, but only to myself, I was really worried about her...More than I ever should have been.

Sesshomaru pulled the furs over his body, and simply thought these things over and over, even until the early hours of the morning.

Rin, before giving into sleep, thought about what she had said, and what she hadn't. He was probably wondering if she had attempted to kill herself, but it didn't matter. Whether it was true or not, he was making assumptions and she wasn't responsible for them. Ever since her withdrawl, she didn't feel like smiling or laughing; she was in great physical and emotional pain. So, he didn't like her, not at all. He didn't even attempt to defend his feelings, or anything. All he did was leave.

She had wanted to cry so badly in his presence, but managed not to. She only cried after she was sure he was gone. The silvery streaks ran from here eyes like a dripping tap; they wouldn't stop. Even though she had cried many times in her life, she still thought crying was stupid. It didn't prove anything, make things better, or change anything.

Oh, how she longed for him to hold her, soothe her, whisper endearments in her ears, make her feel better.

Whoa, whats wrong with Rin?! This is Sesshomaru Rin is thinking about here! He would never do that!

But, she had to admit, she was curious. If he didn't care, not one bit, then why would he have been sitting by her bed-side, rather, by his bed-side? Till this moment she wondered why she was in his room, and not her own. Rin shrugged, causing her a unintentional pain to shoot up in her side.

Rin's room probably wasn't made up yet. Why else would Rin be in here?

Rin took in her surroundings. She could still smell him, afterall this was his room, of course his scent would be all over. She breathed into the pillow, his scent being strongest there.

She couldn't help a smile from coming to her lips. Even if they wern't talking for the time being, she didn't him. Overall, she was just as confused as him. Perhaps later on things would be resolved.

Body being exhausted, Rin allowed herself to close her eyes and was ready to sleep when she heard a knock at the door.

"Mi'lady? We've brought you food! Oh, we also brought bandaging, and healing herbs for your wounds. Can we come in?"

"Hai, come right in."

Rin wondered how the servents knew she was in his room and not hers. They had probably checked her room originally, and then assumed she would be here. It was logical. Either way, she was glad for the distraction.

She hadn't realized until now how hungry she was, and her manners flew out the window. She gobbeled up her food like there was no tomorrow, and then allowed the servents to put on the thick, strangely scented herbal "cream" (which was poultice) and then wrap around bandages on her wound.

Finally, after about 30 minutes in their presence, they left. Although it was early, she had had a very busy, and emotionally/physically straining day, and decided to sleep.

Sleep claimed her within a matter of a few minutes, although it was quite the contrary for the Lord, who ended up being awake all night...

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Author's Note:

Yay! This chapter went well, although it didn't really bring out where I'm going with the story. I know, Rin sounds suicidal...Eep! Well, don't worry too much. Things will turn out in the end, or at least I hope so...Pleaseeee review!
Thanks!