InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Twisted Hearts ❯ Blue Sorrow ( Chapter 1 )

Disclamer: I'm putting this here, and it counts for every other chapter in this story. I do not, in any way, own Inuyasha. It belongs to Rumiko Takahashi, and I am not making money with this work, not do I want to.

 

 

Because love is not kind, and it never is the way you want it to be.

 

Twisted Hearts

Blue sorrow

 

Since when did getting ready become such a complicated task?

She had been trying dresses for about thirty-minutes until she found one she liked. She had taken hours with her hair just to let it stay in the simplest way at the end. Make-up had been the only easy part because finding the right shoes for the dress was an almost impossible task. At last, Kagome examined herself in the mirror.

`Perfect'. She thought. `I have to look perfect tonight.'

Her wavy, black hair was not in a ponytail as it usually was. She had let it loose, falling over her shoulders. She wore a simple, yet elegant, black dress that hugged her curves. The heels she wore made her legs look longer. Her lips were red, and she had put on eye-liner and blush. She had a blue-heart shaped necklace around her neck and matching earrings.

Inuyasha had given her that necklace as an anniversary gift a year ago. He had told her, after a lot of blushing and almost in a whisper, that it made her eyes look bluer. Kagome had smiled and kissed him, knowing this was Inuyasha's way of showing his love to her.

Now, on their third anniversary, she was preparing herself to meet him at a very exclusive restaurant. She leaned towards the mirror to see if she had to fix anything. Then she twirled in front of it and smiled nervously.

Tonight would be perfect.

Inuyasha had been acting weird since he had gotten back from his last business trip, a couple of months ago. Kagome thought she knew why. It was kind of obvious, really, in the way he had been looking at her. Every time his eyes locked with hers, he would blush and turn away. It was as if he was trying to hide something. Kagome had a very good feeling of what it was.

He was going to propose.

“Damn it, Sango,” Kagome said to the air, “Why can't you be here when I need you?”

Sango, her best friend, was currently in the U.S, which happened to be continents away. As the daughter of the ambassador between youkai and humans, Sango had to travel a lot. Still, why did she have to go away on this day? Kagome played with a lock of hair and sat on the bed. She sighed and breathed deeply three times. Really, she had to calm herself. It wasn't as if she didn't want this. Hell, she had been in love with Inuyasha for a long time now, and nothing would make her happier than marrying him. It was what she had dreamed about, and what she wanted the most. It was the one thing that would make her life complete. Inuyasha had appeared in her life out of the blue. In truth, he had appeared when Kagome wanted nothing to do with the male species. She had just gotten out of a very long relationship, and the last thing she needed was to start another one.

But something about the white haired hanyou caught her attention.

Something had clicked the minute she had seen him, and when he talked to her, she found herself not wanting to go. He was rude, temperamental and a complete jerk, but there was something about him that made Kagome stay hooked. If it had been anyone else, she would have said goodbye a long time ago.

She couldn't with him. Because sometimes he would look at her with such tenderness in his eyes that Kagome thought she might die from lack of breath. And when he smiled at her, it seemed to Kagome that there was no one else in this world but them. When his lips crashed with hers, it made Kagome feel like she was in heaven, and she was completely and utterly head over heels in love with him.

She would do anything to make him happy.

She laughed at that thought. Independent, strong Kagome at the mercy of Inuyasha, the jerk.

No wonder Sango kept laughing at her.

She smiled, but then she caught her expression on the mirror again, and her smile wavered. She stood up to look at herself. She looked attractive and sophisticated. She was almost like a porcelain doll, and it bothered her to some extent. Why did she have to try so hard to be what Inuyasha wanted? Shouldn't he just accept her for herself?

A clock sounded in the distance, and Kagome's eyes shot open.

“Damn it, I'm late.” She yelled and started trying to find her keys and her little black purse. After five minutes, her door closed shut, and Kagome hurried through the streets of Tokyo.

Inuyasha loved her, of course, but that didn't mean that he would love her forever in that way.

When he had first met Kagome, he had thought that she was annoying. His first impression of her had not been excellent. Still, something had pulled him towards her.

He thought it was the strength that irradiated from her body.

Kagome was just a happy person. Strong, too. Wherever she went, people seemed to forget their problems. She was compassionate, kind, and gentle. She didn't like to see people get hurt. Of course, she was also annoying, headstrong, and clumsy. The first months they had been together, she infuriated him to no ends. They always got into arguments.

Inuyasha loved her for fighting him back.

Then, everything changed.

Kagome, around him, lost her spark. It was as if she didn't want him to get mad at her, as if she was afraid of being left alone.

He could not understand that.

Kagome was beautiful and smart. Men were attracted to her, and Inuyasha sometimes wondered why she stayed with him. She could have anyone, but it was he she wanted.

He had thought he wanted her too.

Inuyasha looked at the velvet box in his hand. His golden eyes saddened.

Before his trip to France, he had meant to ask her to marry him. Kagome made him happy, and his life would be okay by her side. He thought things couldn't get any better.

Then he met her.

Flashback

“Kagome, what are you doing here?” Inuyasha said, as he turned the black-haired lady towards him. His eyes widened in surprise.

“I…I'm sorry.” He mumbled, letting go of her arm. “I thought you were someone else.”

The woman in front of him looked at him with annoyance, and Inuyasha found her unsettling. He knew he shouldn't like the way her brown eyes stared at him.

“Who did I remind you of?” She asked, and Inuyasha found the sound of her voice fascinating.

“I…well…”

“Your girlfriend?”

“I…” He didn't know what to say to make her stay. “I don't think I want her to be my girlfriend anymore.”

And just like that, he let go of Kagome and focused on the woman in front of him.

End Flashback.

Perhaps he hadn't loved Kagome as much as he thought. If he had, then he wouldn't have let go of her so fast. But than woman...He had spent the remainder of his trip with her. By the end of the week, he was sure he didn't want to ever be away from her. She made something inside of him awake.

Kagome had never made him feel quite as happy as he was now.

Inuyasha closed the little box, and turned when he heard the door of his room open. He quickly hid the box.

“Are you going to go see her?” A feminine voice asked him. Inuyasha nodded.

“I have to break it up before it hurts her more.”

The woman lowered her head. “I…if it wasn't…”
Inuyasha moved towards her and cupped her head in his hands. “Hey, you didn't do anything.”

“But…”

“I love you.”
”I love you too.” She sniffed and punched Inuyasha on the shoulder playfully. “Go, you don't want to make her wait.”
Inuyasha kissed her lightly on the lips and turned to go.

After he talked to Kagome, he would ask the woman he truly loved with all his heart to marry him. He was sure this was what he wanted, and he saw no reason to wait.

He was just sorry for Kagome. It wasn't fair for her.

Sesshoumaru had never hated his father more than at this moment.

He had been angry at him when he had married a human. He had loathed him when his half-brother was born. But now, now he hated him.

His hatred was intensified by the fact that he really couldn't hate him.

Not now. Not ever.

It was unfair.

He turned and glared at the lawyer in front of him. If he couldn't even be angry at his father right now, he would at least make this stupid youkai afraid. Sesshoumaru walked towards his desk and sat down.

“Sit.” He commanded the lawyer. The lawyer flinched and quickly did as told.

There was a long silence in which Sesshoumaru thought about what he had just heard. After deciding that it was way too much to process all at once, he ordered the lawyer to repeat what he had just said.

“Re…re…repeat, milord?” Was his intelligent reply.

“Did I not make myself clear?” Sesshoumaru raised an eye-brow at him. He was not in the mood for this.

“Yes, yes, of course.” He cleared his throat and raised a paper.

“By, by this document” he started “I, Taisho Inu, under all my faculties, will give my last word and deliver my wealth. My money will be shared in equal quantities between my two sons, Sesshoumaru and Inuyasha.

Sesshoumaru grunted, and the lawyer looked nervously from the paper to him. Sesshoumaru gave him a signal to continue.

“My companies will pass to both Sesshoumaru and Inuyasha. My houses…”

“I already know what goes to me and what goes to my half-brother.” Sesshoumaru interrupted, irritated. “I want you to tell me the conditions.”

“Yes, yes, of course.” Didn't the lawyer have any more answers?

“In order for my sons to get their heritage, they will have to work together and…”The lawyer cast a frightened look in Sesshoumaru's way. “The will have to marry a human. If they do not follow my last wishes, their part of the heritage will go to the other brother. If neither of them follows my conditions, the money will be handed down to the government.”

There was silence for a long time, in which Sesshoumaru kept a blank expression and the lawyer played with his tie and the neck of his shirt.

“Is there any way to go around these…conditions?” Sesshoumaru said the last word like it was a curse.

“No, sir. If you do not follow them, you'll lose everything, and it will go to your brother.”
”Mmm.”
”Sir, if you allow me, I believe that…”

“I do not allow you.” Sesshoumaru cut in. “How long do I have to follow my father's wishes?” He glared at the lawyer, and the lawyer seemed to become smaller.

“You have a week to find a bride, and then a month to marry her.”

“A month.”
”Yes, a month.”
”Do not repeat what I say.”
And with that, Sesshoumaru got up and calmly left the room. His expression showed as much emotion as a blank paper. The only sign that he was mad beyond belief was the blood on his hands. His claws had dug into them towards the end of that very annoying conversation. He looked at his palm as his injuries healed fast.

He really hated his father. Hated him even more for dying before Sesshoumaru told him exactly what he thought of his will.

Inside the room, the lawyer let out a sigh of relief. Really, youkai could be very unpredictable, especially the inu-taisho ones.

She couldn't breath, couldn't talk, couldn't think, and something was very wrong because she had not just heard that. She just hadn't.

“What?” She said, looking at him with surprise in her eyes. She thought her voice sounded a little bit raspy. She so wanted to sound secure…

“You are going to hate it. Sooner or later. You will simply not like it, and at the end we will both be unhappy, and you will wish you had never met me.” He said as fast as he could. He suddenly found his glass of wine extremely fascinating.

She felt something inside her break, but she…her heart didn't, couldn't, wouldn't understand what he had said. It couldn't be possible. They…

“What?” She repeated. He finally looked at her, and she felt like she had lost it.

She looked beautiful. Her hair was shiny and soft, her lips were perfect for kissing. Her cheeks were slightly flushed, and her eyes…they were so…blue…he had never seen bluer eyes. At the moment, though, her eyes held surprise and pain was starting to enter them.

She looked heart breaking beautiful.

She wasn't enough for him.

And then her voice broke through his thoughts, and her words almost made him tell her it was all a joke.

“I thought you were going to propose to me tonight.” She said, softly. She looked so small, so hopeless… In his heart, he knew this was the best choice. The only choice.

“I was, but…something….” Should he lie to her? “Something got in the way.” He found he couldn't tell her the truth, not here, not like this, not now.

And then she finally looked up to him, and he swore he saw fire in her eyes.

“I want the truth.” She told him firmly, and he stood speechless for sometime.

She wanted him to laugh and tell her he was just teasing her. She was waiting for the moment in which he would reach for his pocket and pull out a little box. He would get to his knees, and she would laugh and tell him what an idiot he was. Of course, when he asked the question she would say yes because she could never say no to him.

But he just stayed in front of her, with his mouth slightly open, and his eyes shining with guilt. He finally looked at her in the eye, and she gasped in surprise.

`Oh God, Oh, God Oh God!” She thought. This was not real. This was not happening. This could not be possible. She felt like getting up and saying `Ok, you got me. Where are the cameras?' But she knew that would not happen. It could not happen because life was never that easy, and Inuyasha's eyes never lied. His body, actions, and mouth could lie, but never his eyes. And it was in those golden orbs that seemed to hold the light of the sun that she found the truth.

He was leaving her.

His eyes didn't have the shine that they usually held when he looked at her.

There was no shine, no shine, no shine…

“Kagome…” he said, and his voice didn't have the tender tone that it used to have when he pronounced her name.

She was losing him.

“Inuyasha.” She said, just because she couldn't handle the silence right now.

He knew he was breaking her, but he had to do it. If he didn't do it, it would just be harder, and he didn't want to cause her more pain. He had never wanted to cause her any pain.

He had.

And now she was suffering.

It was for the best.

“Maybe we should discuss this somewhere else?” He didn't want the world to see her fall.

“No.” She said firmly. Inuyasha sighed. “Why are you leaving me?”

Her question made him freeze. How could he tell her the truth? How could he make it lighter? His ears dropped, and he let out a small whimper.

Kagome's heart became smaller and dread spread through her body. Her mind kept spinning as thousands of questions formed in it.

Why was he breaking things off?

Was there someone else?

Did he not love her?

Had he never loved her?

“Please…” She begged, and Inuyasha finally opened his mouth.

No words came. There was just silence, and Inuyasha and Kagome found they had never felt more apart from each other.

“I…” He started, but the words went dry in his mouth.

And then Kagome decided she was tired of waiting. She wanted and needed and this wasn't fair. She would do anything, everything, to just stay by his side. She loved and adored and needed him. She wasn't letting go of him.

“I'd do anything…”

“Don't.”

“…to stay by your side…”

“Stop.”

“…and never be apart…”

“Don't say it.”

You'll only break your heart…

“I love you.”

It is too late.

“Kagome…”

Before he could say anything else, she got up, walked around the table, and caught Inuyasha's lips with her own. She forgot that she was in an elegant restaurant and was supposed to behave right. She just wanted Inuyasha to kiss her back. She wanted him to remember how much he loved her. Because he did. He had said it on countless occasions. And he still loved her because, what could get between their love?

And then Inuyasha pulled back and crushed Kagome's words.

“Kykio…” he breathed against her mouth, and then his eyes widened.

Warm golden met broken blue and Inuyasha saw his mistake.

Kagome found her surroundings returning to her. She saw the table that they were at and saw some people that had been starring at them. She saw the waiter making his way towards the table and, over all, she saw Inuyasha. Or rather heard what he had just said.

She had lost him.

Without another word or look at Inuyasha, she took her little, black purse and walked with as much dignity as she could towards the exit of the restaurant. She opened the double door and slid outside. She was met by November's cold wind.

About three blocks from the restaurant she started running.

She didn't let herself cry.