InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Two Lives Turned Upside Down ❯ The Answer and Feelings ( Chapter 14 )

This chapter is dedicated to Nagasaki in thanks of her dedication to my story by always reading and reviewing. Also due to the path which the story is going at the moment! Thanks!!

"Sesshomaru I just can't forgive and forget what you did to me. You were my first and you threw me out like I was trash how do you think that felt? I gave myself to you and you made me feel like I was nothing!" Kagome continued "I..." Sesshomaru started. "No, just let me finish. Part of me wants to believe you so much and just let it go and be with you. Also the age difference is so huge, I mean do we truly have anything in common? I'm friends with your daughter, how uncomfortable would that be? But on the otherhand I can't deny the fact that I do have feelings for you, how couldn't I? I mean at first glance you are everything a woman could want, smart, good looking, rich, charming. But if I can't even trust you how can I have a relationship with you. I'm sorry Sesshomaru I just can't do this so soon, I can't have my heart broken again, I wouldn't be able to handle it."

Lowering her voice she slowly approached him and caressed his face with her hand watching how he leaned into it "Please let's just try to forget any of this ever happened and move on ok? It would be best for the both of us I think." Taking her hand away she pressed a soft and quick kiss to his cheek and moved away leaving him to himself. She couldn't stand the pained look he was giving her and she knew that if she didn't get away fast enough she wouldn't have been able to go through with it.

Standing there in shock again at another rejection he put his hand to his cheek feeling where her lips had touched him for what seemed would be the last time. He had poured his heart out to her saying everything he'd never said to anyone in his life and yet she still rejected him. Now he was the heartbroken one and moving his hand to his heart he felt the constant pain which was a reminder of what he had done to her.

If only he had realized his mistakes before it was too late, if only he'd figured out his real feelings for her earlier. He could still be with her, watching her laugh, smile, and holding her in his arms. For the second time in his life he let the tears fall down his face, this time more than last. He really cried for the first time tonight as he let the tears rapidly flow down his face thinking of how he'd lost the only person he'd ever truly been in love with.

Dejectedly he walked back to his car and got in but just sat there unable to move or think or do anything but feel the pain and hollowness which seemed like it would never go away. Maybe Kagome was right, maybe it would be best just to move on but his heart and mind told him different. They told him that only being with her would make him truly happy and whole. Sighing he knew he had to talk to someone about it or he might do something completely irrational that he might regret later on.

Kagome was having a hard time also. She knew that he had really meant everything he had said but she just didn't feel ready. Allowing herself to cry, she sniffled to to try control herself. She didn't want her friends to think she was crying and so kept herself quiet while letting the tears come. I don't understand why all of this has to happen to me, my life is so extremely confusing I just don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know if I'll ever be able to be in a normal relationship ever again after this.

Hearing a commotion coming she realized what she was first out here for. She was at a sleepover with her friends and she had been dared to stay out here in only her underwear. Quickly noticing that her time must be up and they must be coming to get her she wiped away her tears hurridly trying to cover up the fact that she was crying. Putting on a fake smile she approached them.

"Hey guys!" Kagome shouted. "Hi Kagome" All the girls replied. "So how was it?" Rin asked while giggling. "Ahh it wasn't so bad, just a lil chilly I guess. Now can we please go inside so I can put some clothes on?" "Yea I guess you have suffered enough" Sango replied. Sango couldn't have been more right, as if it wasn't bad enough being stuck outside like that she had to also deal with Sesshomaru and keeping strong enough to reject him again.

Putting on yet another brave face she went inside and put her clothes on, relieved that whole thing was over. The whole night continued and Kagome had actually had a little fun because it had helped to distract her from other thoughts. She was really glad that she had such great friends who helped her without even knowing it. She couldn't ever really tell anyone what had happened because it would be too embarassing if Rin ever found out.

Sesshomaru pulled into Inuyasha's driveway and prayed that he would be there. Although they pretty much never got along he didn't have anyone else who knew him and he could talk freely to. Getting out of the car he approached the door and dreaded talking to his lil brother because he knew he would be ridiculed for actually showing feelings.

Inuyasha answered the door not looking too good himself "Sesshomaru what are you doing here? And by the way you look like hell?" "Yes, thank you Inuyasha but I already knew that!" Sesshomaru replied "I've come here because I needed someone to talk to and I need some advice as well." "Really? Now I can't believe that. The great Sesshomaru comes to his little lowly brother Inuyasha for advice. Wow! Something really horrible must have happened. But I must say I'm not in the best of moods either. Well come in."

Both taking a seat on the couch Sesshomaru started "Brother I do not know what else I can do. I've poured my heart out to that Kagome girl and she continues to reject me. I have to have her and yet I feel as though I'm not worthy of her. I've broken her heart but I feel that I need a second chance to prove myself to her. Inuyasha I think I'm in love with her."

Stunned, Inuyasha could barely make words form but he did by saying "Woah Sesshomaru in love with someone? That's a scary thought but I can't really blame you. Kagome is an amazing person, I have to say I wished that she would've given me a chance as well. I really do have feelings for her myself. But I've decided that it would be better if we were just friends or something. I don't know what to tell ya bro, I mean you've already told her how you feel, it looks like you are going to have to just give her some time, ya know?"

"Yes I suppose but I don't know how much time I will be able to give her, I feel like I'm slowly dying without her near me. Is there any way that maybe you could talk to her and see if there's any way or anything that would help her to forgive me and give me a second chance. For I am truly desperate now and I would do anything to have her back!" Sesshomaru stated.

"Alright, alright I will see what I can do Sesshomaru. But I sure ain't promisin anything" Inuyasha consented. "Thank you brother but I must be going now, it is getting very late and I have some important things to think about." "Ok cya!" As Sesshomaru left he couldn't help but feel a glimmer of hope that Inuyasha could somehow straighten things out with Kagome to give him a second chance. Yes he was not going to give up now.

Notes: Alright another sad chapter, I know. You are probably sick of it but Nagasaki didn't want them to get together yet so I didn't. If anyone has other feelings or suggestions feel free and I will take them to heart! Well I hope ya liked it! Please review and thanks for reading!! I will most likely update again on Thursday so until then. Bye!!

Thanks to Reviewers: Hey guys! Thanks for the reviews, I really appreciate the thought put into some of them. It's really nice to know the time I put into this story is appreciated! The funny thing is is that I normally HATE writing and I mean HATE it but with this story it's pretty enjoyable especially when I get positive feedback. Well thanks again!!!

Miko no Suteki: Great! I'm glad you liked the chapter, yea I thought I needed to throw in some comic relief to lighten up the mood of the whole story! Thanks for reviewing!

Moon_Gazer: Yea I do agree, I really like Sess/Kag fanfics, that's why I wrote one, lol. But at first I wasn't so sure but after reading a few I really fell in love with that combo. Well thanks for reviewing and don't worry I will write more!!

Stardust1219: Well hopefully you were awake when you read this chapter, j/k! ^_^ But um, yea I just hope that you like this one! And thanks for always reviewing!! :-)

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Soul bled dry: Yup I always try to mix it up and as long as I keep getting reviews it does keep me inspired. What is really kool is when people suggest things cuz then I know they are really liking my story cuz they are thinking about it. Well thanks again for reviewing!

Nagasaki: Ok well I took your advice for this chapter, I wouldn't want to make ya mad! Lol, but yes I do agree it wouldn't be right for her to forgive him just yet but it does make it harder to keep the plot going and interesting as well!! Thanks for the suggestion and of course for reviewing!! ^_^

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