InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Two Lives Turned Upside Down ❯ I Love You For Who You Are ( Chapter 30 )

Chapter 30: I Love You For Who You Are

Kagome stirred slightly and slowly opened her eyes looking through her lashes at Sesshomaru who was leaning over her with a concerned expression on his face.

"Whuh...what happened?" Kagome asked softly before the memories flooded back to her.

Sesshomaru with flashing red eyes, big fangs, and claws. As she recalled this her eyes widened and her fear was brought back to the surface. Still on the bed she tried to scoot herself farther away from him ending up leaning against the headboard.

Sesshomaru frowned at the revelation that she was indeed afraid of his true form and proceeded to try calm her but at that moment Kagome did not want comfort, and certainly not from him.

"Who are you?" She questioned him her eyes starting to fill with tears, "Actually I guess the more appropriate question would be what are you?"

Once again Sesshomaru attempted to reach over to Kagome in order to sooth her frayed nerves so that he could explain exactly what was going on. But she wouldn't have any part of it.

"No! Please Sesshomaru stay away from me!" Kagome forced out as tears ran down her face, "I thought you told me no more lies, no more secrets?!"

"Now..." Kagome paused as she took a deep breath to try to pull herself together, "You are going to explain to me exactly who you are and why the hell you haven't told me this already!"

Sesshomaru winced at her harsh tone and felt his heart twist as for what seemed the millionth time he was the cause of pain for Kagome. She deserved better but she belonged to him and no one else and that's how it would always have to be.

He sighed as he began to explain, "You are right...I haven't been completely honest with you. I am in fact not human but a demon, a dog demon to be exact. I am able to conceal my demon traits with a spell in order to blend in with the population but sometimes the spell fails and so I revert back to my true form." As he spoke he watched Kagome's face, trying to read her emotions but for the first time since they'd met he was unable to decipher how she was feeling.

"And as for why I haven't told you that should be pretty obvious. Most people would be terrified of the real me and you've proven just that." Dejectedly Sesshomaru lowered his face not able to meet hers anymore, "I love you Kagome. I was so afraid of losing you I just couldn't risk showing you without being totally certain you would be ok with it. But now I've totally blown it. Please forgive me," Sesshomaru pleaded to her as he once more looked into her eyes.

Silence ensued as Kagome seemed to contemplate what he'd just told her. Inwardly Sesshomaru prayed that she would forgive him and normalcy could return. He didn't know how much more stress this relationship could take.

Kagome's thoughts ran rampant. Can he be trusted? Will he lie again? Why didn't he tell me before? Can I forgive him? But Kagome smiled lightly as she answered the most important question of all...Does he love me? Yes, yes he does love me she thought as she gazed at the fearful expression on his face.

"Sessho.." Kagome started and watched as he seemed to grimace and look down in preparation of what she would say.

"Look at me." she stated softly before continuing "I guess I can understand why you didn't want to tell me this but..." Kagome paused as she moved closer to him brushing her hand across his cheek affectionately, "you should know that I love you for who you are on the inside not out. It doesn't matter to me that you are a demon, I just wish I didn't have to find out at that exact moment. It did scare me just a bit I have to admit." Kagome giggled as her mind went back to them making love.

Sesshomaru felt his spirits lift as he was always amazed at Kagome's mood changes. She was a such a forgiving and understanding person, he didn't know why he was ever so worried in the first place. She would love him no matter what he was, as he would love her the same.

Kagome gasped as Sesshomaru instantaneously reached for her and she was enveloped in a hug. She smiled as did Sesshomaru while they were locked in each other's embrace. The love between them was so strong it was almost tangible. Kagome sighed happily as she rested her head on his shoulder with her face nuzzled against his neck breathing in his calming scent.

Reaching one hand up into his silky hair she began to run her hands through it soothingly. As she did this a funny sound seemed to reverberate through Sesshomaru's chest and into hers. It sounded like a purr a cat would make, and so she laughed softly continuing to glide her hands through his hair.

"What's that noise you're making Sessho? Are you purring?" Kagome asked him as she stopped her hand movement.

"No..." Sesshomaru answered outraged, "Dog demons do not purr like lowly cat demons. It is a low growl that dog demons emit when they are happy and content."

"Alright, alright," Kagome shushed him reaching for his hair again, "But I do have some other questions that I would like to ask you." Pulling away from their embrace they sat facing each other.

"First, can you lift your spell? I'd like to see your demon form" Kagome asked.

"Yes, I will show you" Sesshomaru acquiesced before he closed his eyes in deep concentration.

Kagome watched as all of a sudden his appearance changed and all of his demon traits surfaced. As soon as it finished, Sesshomaru opened his eyes to see Kagome right in front of him reaching out to touch the marks on his face.

"Beautiful," Kagome murmered as she traced the crescent moon on his forehead and the stripes on his cheeks.

Sesshomaru shivered as she moved her hand to his pointed ears where she ran her finger along the edge of it. He growled gently baring his fangs to her.

"Oh!" Kagome started as she looked at his teeth, she had to admit it was kind of erotic imagining him using those teeth on certain parts of her body.

The scent of Kagome's arousal wafted its way up to Sesshomaru's nose and he growled again this time much louder and gruffer.

This snapped Kagome out of her thoughts as her eyes met his golden ones which were clouded over in that all too familiar way.

"Wait..." Kagome voiced "why aren't your eyes red in your demon form? They were when we were..." Kagome paused as her face pinkened slightly in embarassment.

"Well you know when" she smiled.

"Only when I experience the most extreme emotions do my eyes turn red therefore signifying that I am in my basest demon form. So while experiencing extreme pleasure, for example, my eyes will most likely turn red which is what happened when we were mating" Sesshomaru explained.

"Oh!" Kagome exclaimed as her face turned from pink to red, "I understand now, I think." A pulsing on her neck distracted her as she reached up to feel it, and then Kagome remembered him biting her.

"One last question, why did you bite me?" she said to him as she pulled her hair away from her neck revealing the mark to him.

"My biting you was necessary as the last part of the mating process. As a dog demon it is necessary to mark you in some way to make it known to other demons that you are mine and taken. And so that bite will eventually scar leaving a mark that will stay with you for as long as we are together. It also links the two of us together and I am able to sense when you are in danger as well as be more in tune with your feelings."

"Wow, that's pretty complex" Kagome replied her face showing amazement.

"Yes I suppose" Sesshomaru said nonchalantly while moving closer to her brushing her hair aside again, "there are other upsides as well" he stated, his voice turning husky as he ran his finger across the mark.

Kagome instantly shuddered and gasped as a tingling feeling shot into the lower part of her body. Her face flushed and she looked at Sesshomaru, shock evident on her face.

"What was that?" Kagome asked innocently.

"That is one of the other upsides" Sesshomaru mused with a smirk on his face, "By my touching the mark on your neck it causes you to feel aroused."

"Ugh..." Kagome pouted, "that's no fair."

"Oh it's plenty fair. After all, I just have to look at you and I become aroused" he finished, his eyes glowing mischieviously.

"Sessho..." Kagome started but was unable to finish as Sesshomaru's lips descended on hers.

Sesshomaru kissed her demandingly wanting to deepen it but was stopped as Kagome pulled away from him. A growl was on the tip of his tongue but he froze as he noticed how tired Kagome looked all of a sudden. It was dark outside now and had been for a while so it must've been quite late.

Kagome yawned before speaking "Sorry Sessh..." Kagome smiled, her eyes shutting "But I'm really tired, let's just go to sleep, k?" she finished while slipping under the covers and laying on her side facing away from him.

Sesshomaru grumbled to himself about Kagome just leaving him high and dry but after glancing at Kagome's already sleeping form he smiled and climbed into bed next to her pulling her against him, his arms around her waist. Kagome immediately sighed contentedly and curled up against him.

Sesshomaru sighed himself and a few minutes later he too drifted off to sleep.

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Rin's eyes opened slowly and she was met with darkness and complete silence. Sitting up in bed with a start she then remembered that she had come home and fallen asleep in her room. With a sigh of relief she then looked at her clock to see that it said 4 o'clock am.

"Wow, I slept a long time" Rin muttered to herself.

Getting out of bed she made her way into her father's room to see if he had come home yet, nope. He wasn't there. Rin paused in the doorway contemplating where he must be at this ungodly hour. Unable to think of any feasible explanation she decided that she might as well get ready for school. There was no point in going back to bed if she would just have to get up in a couple of hours anyways, it would be good to get a little head start.

After showering and getting dressed Rin sat in her room digesting everything that had happened in the past couple of days. Lost in her thoughts time flew by and then it was time for school.

Getting into her car Rin headed off to school ready for what hopefully would be a good day.

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Sesshomaru woke up with Kagome in his arms and smiled. Nuzzling his nose into Kagome's hair he breathed in deeply, loving her warm scent of vanilla. Sighing he looked over at the nightstand to find that it was unfortunately time to get up. He had to go to work, he had a big meeting today that he just couldn't be late for. Pulling away from Kagome he watched as she squirmed, already missing his warmth but calmed as Sesshomaru pressed a kiss to her forehead.

As Sesshomaru finished his shower and got dressed he wrote a short note for Kagome apologizing about having to leave her but that he would be back as soon as possible to finish what they had started last night. Smirking to himself he left the note on the nightstand next to where she slept soundly. He gazed at her for a minute before running a hand through her hair gently and finally leaving the house.

About an hour later Kagome awoke and sat up in bed yawning and stretching her arms above her head. She felt really refreshed and energized from last night's sleep. Kagome noted that Sesshomaru wasn't there anymore but figured that he must've had to go to work. Glancing at the clock she saw that she had better start getting ready for school.

Returning to her room after she took her shower she saw the note on the nightstand and read it. Her face flushed at his words of "finishing what they had started" but then shook off that feeling as she knew she had to make it through the school day.

Leaving the house Kagome made her way to school on foot. About halfway there she remembered that she would also have to confront Rin today because they shared a class. Frowning at this she was not too thrilled to have to deal with that again. Oh well, she told herself, you're just going to have to suck it up and deal with whatever Rin has to say to you.

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Rin sat in the math class that Kagome had with her waiting nervously for Kagome to walk in. She wasn't sure how to approach Kagome about this whole thing but Rin knew one thing, she didn't want to make a scene. Especially not in the classroom, then everyone would know what was going on and she definitely didn't want that.

Sucking in a big breath as Kagome entered the classroom she watched cautiously as Kagome took her seat next to her.

Looking towards Kagome Rin opened her mouth to speak....

Notes: Alright! You guys probably thought I fell off the face of the earth!! Well I didn't and I have to apologize from the bottom of my heart for once again taking so long to update this story. I'm not gonna make any more excuses but anyways, I hope you enjoy this chapter. I know it probably seems rushed that Kagome seems so upset about Sesshomaru and then just accepts but if I didn't it would be like 3 more chapters just to resolve that and with the way I update I just couldn't do it! Hope it's alright anyways, next chapter is the Rin and Kagome confrontation if you couldn't guess that already. Not gonna make any promises about when I will get that chapter out cuz I really don't know. But thanks for reading anyways! Please review if you want me to continue otherwise I might just ditch the whole story unfortunately...I said I wouldn't do it but it's getting kinda tedious! Until next time!! ^_^

Thanks to Reviewers: Well I just wanna say thanks soooo very much to those who have continually supported me and my story. It's so nice to know that you guys like my fanfic even though this is my first writing as well as the fact that I am actually not a very good writer!! ^_^ You guys are seriously the best, I wouldn't have ever made it this far without ya!!! ^_^ Luv ya!!