InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Unaware ❯ Chapter 10 ( Chapter 11 )

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Ello, everybody! Yes, it's another chapter of Unaware! YAY! Okay, now the response is impeccable and I just can't get over the reviews and the wonderful comments!

 

Thank you very much!!!!! (BIG HUGE HUG!)

 

LOL…Sorry, I just couldn't resist. You all are so wonderful that I don't think just saying that in little letter is enough. Anyways, I'm not sure how many of you have gone to me journal page on my web site to see what is happening as far as my updates. Things are a bit harder now, and I will not let it get me down! You will still undoubtedly see more chappies from me, k? That is a promise I intend to keep.

 

 

Reviewer's Corner

 

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XxDemonic PrincessxX: Well, thank again! And yes, it sucks having to wait and see what's going on with that elusive woman, isn't it? She certainly loves to be out of the picture. I'm just waiting to see what she and Houji have been doing as far as progress into finding a way back. Oh well. At least Inuyasha and Kagome have figured out some stuff. Trust me, read on (wink)

 

Jason C: Thanks, and I hope you're fully awake for this one (wink) Don't want ya falling asleep while reading. People can get hurt that way, as well as lost… (shifts eyes)

 

From Fan Fiction. Net:

 

Kagome M.K: Okay (smiles)

 

kirarakitty: Yeah. It certainly seems that way…Heh heh heh (nervous laugh) And I'm glad I amaze you. I tend to amaze myself quite often. Anyways, it seemed as if they wouldn't get anywhere, but they have shocked me…Seriously, read on.

 

inuyashas's ear's are so cute: I know…Sesshoumaru is up to his annoying attitude antics, isn't he? And well, that was the only way I figured Kagome was going to react to him. She kinda reminds me of myself at times, but you'll understand why a bit better after this chapter. (winks)

 

Neko the cat hanyou: Yeah, I would have been a whole lot lighter on him, and his family jewels. But, hey, this is Kagome (shrug) she's kinda fed up with the confusion she's going through. She explains herself in this chapter, so you'll understand why. And don't worry about being dramatic about this fic. They tend to make us all feel that way, don't they? But thank you very much for your response.

 

?????: Thanks for your response, whoever you may be… (hmm) And I'm glad you can't wait, and I certainly hope I don't make ya wait too long.

 

Owari Nai Yumes: Thank you so very much for the compliment. Be careful, now…Don't wanna give me too big a head…(chuckles)

 

lunarcat12: Wow! I have an addict on my hands…Now that's a first. I guess I have certainly used the correct lure this time, ne? Thank you!

 

Angel: Well now, Houji is the other guy who's in a coma walking around with Kikyo in the alternate dimension, as well as one of the other patients Kagome looked after on her floor. And yes, Inuyasha just loves to keep us all guessing. He's always like that. Not only that, but it seems as if Kagome has followed his lead in that, which has been a bit annoying, wouldn't you say? And yes, I do update weekly. I am one of the rare authors who has a creative enough brain that loves to spurt out chapters within eight hours and get them posted. So, check up on Unaware weekly, you shall find a gift from me (smiles widely)

 

Chii Yasha-san: Well, thank you! I'm glad you love this little story of mine. And Yes, it is a harsh reality for Kagome, isn't it? And Minna=everybody and Oyasumi Nasai=Good night. And you'll see what I have in store for Kikyo and Houji. I can't reveal that much, and thanks for your input and your reviews.

 

Kyasumi: Thank you very much!

 

 

 

Therefore, without further ado, here's the newest installment of UNAWARE! (Echo's ring out)

 

 

Chapter 10

 

 

Kagome had gone to the mall as she planned. She had felt a bit tired throughout her window-shopping due to the emotional rollercoaster Inuyasha had put her through just hours earlier. Wow, what he had done for her when he could have just told her to call a cab home and kicked her to the curb. She thought long and hard about how she treated him, and her actions towards him throughout the ride back to the garage. Overall, he just wanted to give the best customer service, and she went and kicked him where it matters.

 

She felt so low she became depressed. She didn't even buy anything. She became depressed over her life and her choices. She saw women and men walking hand in hand through the mall and saw couples stealing kisses here and there. She realized what he had been talking about all along. She feels that she isn't worthy of any man's heart or gifts. And he said was that she was blind.

 

As she sat down on a bench, she closely watched a couple walking past her. The young woman was dressed all in rags. The man with her saw beyond the clothes. Beyond the purple and green colored chopped hair. He looked past the fashion faux paus and saw the woman inside. His smiles were genuine and he even saw the clothing as just a part of her character. He wasn't dressed the same. He was in jeans and a plain t-shirt.

 

Kagome thought about the girl after she walked past. The girl reminded her of herself. She might have been beautiful on the inside, but she presented herself the complete opposite on the outside. For Kagome, it was the complete opposite, but similar. Kagome realized she presents herself as beautiful on the outside, but cuts herself to pieces on the inside. Kagome's eyes began to tear. Inuyasha saw her just like the young man saw the girl. She decided she couldn't just walk away like she wanted to. The situation wasn't that simple.

 

Once she was fed up with being on the uncomfortable bench, she stood up and headed for the exit. On the ride home, she enjoyed the music on the CD's left under the visor. Inuyasha's fave music. She imagined him singing. She found herself singing along and enjoying herself. As it got dark, she pulled into the driveway and turned off the ignition.

 

“Who's that?” Shippo asked as he saw the strange car pull up into the driveway. He diligently watched through the window as the door opened and someone got out. “Mom's home!” Shippo yelled and opened the door. Kagome stepped up and was greeted by her son and her mother not only with hugs, but also with questions about the car.

 

“Oh, my car is in the shop for repairs. I forgot to get an oil change, so while I was on the highway, the car had problems.” Kagome explained as she set her keys down on the table beside the answering machine, on which five messages flashed.

 

“So, whose car is that?” Shippo asked as he pointed out the window.

 

“Oh, that's a courtesy car from the repair shop.” Kagome smiled.

 

“Wow. That's a very nice car, Kagome.” Her mother marveled. “How did you get a hold of such a nice choice in courtesy cars?”

 

“Well, I had an `in' with the mechanic, I guess you could say.” Kagome responded with a blush.

 

“Oh?” Her mother replied as she turned and eyed Kagome over her shoulder.

 

“Inuyasha was the man who came to rescue me off the high way.” Kagome drawled out.

 

“Inuyasha helped you?” Shippo asked excitedly.

 

“Yep, he did. He was almost too nice. I mean, look at this car. You have to come see this!” She exclaimed as she led them out to the driveway to marvel the vehicle.

 

“Wow!” Shippo exclaimed as Kagome clicked the keypad and the doors unlocked. They all opened door and sat into the luxurious leather seats.

 

“I never thought I'd ever sit in a car this expensive before.” Kagome's mother sighed as she leaned her head back and relaxed after she hit the message button in the passenger seat.

 

“Whoa, mom! A little screen popped out of the seat in the back! It's a DVD player!” Shippo exclaimed as the two women turned a bit in their seats and saw the little screen propped up between the two seats in the back.

 

“Kagome, tell me. Whose car is this? Is it his bosses?” Her mother asked, beginning to notice something odd about the situation.

 

“No, actually. It was a car Inuyasha's father owned before he died. Inuyasha said it's not one of his favorites. He's not much into luxury. He likes hot rods more than something like this. He's not one to sport that he's made of money, so he made it into a courtesy vehicle. He said it just sits there at the garage and his boss drives it every now and then.” Kagome shrugged.

 

Her mother covered her mouth as she began to giggle. “What?” Kagome asked.

 

“Isn't it obvious, sweetheart? He's in love with you.”

 

“Yes, I know.”

 

“You know? So, why the long face?” Her mother inquired.

 

“Simply because he's not free, mom. Why is it that everyone else sees this as something good?” Kagome said in frustration.

 

“Well, you finally met a man worth his salt in many ways, Kagome. What's wrong with that? He's a good man and he treats you better than you treat yourself. I'm just waiting to see what happens next with you two.” She chuckled.

 

“Please, mom. Nothing's gonna happen. I can't accept more than a friendship.”

 

“Stop lying to yourself. You need someone like him, and he's a rarity, isn't he?”

 

Kagome sighed and stepped out of the car. She was fed up with her mother approving of deviancy and adultery. She felt all alone again. No one was listening to her. She was a good and loyal woman. `If a man is taken, leave him be' that was her motto. As she stepped around the car, she clicked the keypad on the key ring and started the alarm. As she stepped into the house in defeat, her mother opened her door, causing the alarm to go off.

 

Kagome figured she'd leave the noise to her mother as she set the keys down and stepped up to her room. Since she felt alone in her decision, she decided to hole herself in her room for the rest of the night. When she sat down, the phone rang. She eyed the number. She sighed and stared for a ring or two, then decided to pick up this time.

 

“Hello?”

 

“Kagome, hey. How is the new car going for ya? Did you have a nice drive?” Inuyasha asked as she got up, opened the window and let the sounds of the alarm going off fill the room. “What the? Is someone messing with the car?”

 

“No. I did that. My mother upset me, so I left her inside and set the alarm as I stepped into the house. She must have tried to get out.” Kagome said nonchalantly.

 

Inuyasha sat there on the other end shaking his head. “You are something else, you know that?” He pointed out sarcastically.

 

“Yeah. So what else is new?” Kagome shrugged.

 

Inuyasha chuckled. “Well, I guess you're doing well with the car. Anyways, I was curious. Since you're not working for a while, ya wanna get a bite to eat sometime?”

 

“As in what and why?” she asked.

 

“No reason. Doesn't really have to be.” Inuyasha shrugged. Sesshoumaru stepped into the kitchen and listened in on the conversation from his seat at the table.

 

“Well, I don't know.”

 

“Aw, c'mon. I thought we came to a truce today. I'm not asking you out or anything. I just…You know…would like to see you.” Inuyasha begged. Sesshoumaru's eyes strayed to the back of his head.

 

“Well, maybe. We'll see, okay?”

 

“How about tomorrow?” He asked, suddenly looking behind him, seeing his brother sitting directly across from him.

 

“Well, I guess.” Kagome gave up in defeat.

 

“Something wrong?” He asked.

 

“No, I'm fine, just a bit stressed out from earlier. It's okay.” She assured him.

 

“Okay. I'll see you tomorrow then. Good night, Kagome.”

 

“Good night, Inuyasha.” Kagome replied as she hung up the receiver.

 

Inuyasha folded his cell phone and took a deep cleansing breath. `She accepted, great. I just don't wanna leave her the way she is. She's so destructive to herself, it saddens my heart.' He thought to himself as he got up and turned towards the kitchen. When he saw his brother sitting at the table with his back to him, he sighed aloud.

 

“When did you get down here?” Inuyasha asked as he stepped up to the fridge to pull out a drink.

 

“I've been here for a bit. Why? Do I have to announce when I settle somewhere?” Sesshoumaru asked as he sipped his water and flipped through the newspaper he brought with him.

 

“No, I didn't say that.” Inuyasha shrugged nonchalantly as he stepped past Sesshoumaru and towards the other exit.

 

“Inuyasha.” His brother called after him. “You didn't just ask that woman out on a date, did you?”

 

Inuyasha stopped dead in his tracks and turned briskly in anger. “Why would that be any of your business?” He snarled.

 

“Because, I'm just curious as to why you have to meet with her, see her, or be near her. Doesn't make sense unless you ARE cheating on Kikyo.” He stated simply without looking up from the ads.

 

“Tsch…You don't know my reasons, but they are good ones.” Inuyasha spat as he leaned up against the doorframe.

 

“And they are?” Sesshoumaru asked finally looking up from his paper.

 

“It has nothing to do with me. It's for her.” Inuyasha stated, as his eyes diverted to the floor.

 

“How do you mean?”

 

Inuyasha made eye contact as he replied with, “She's had a hard life.”

 

“How so? What is it you're trying to do for her?” He asked simply.

 

“She closes herself off to others, especially men. Because of traumatic instances in her past, she can't trust them. She…Sees herself as if she's not worthy of love or affection because of what happened to her.” Inuyasha said sadly.

 

“And you, a married man, think you can help her?” He asked.

 

“What's that supposed to mean?” Inuyasha spat.

 

“I'm just trying to understand your motives. Are you trying to help her? Or trying to date her and get into her pants since your wife is lying dead in that bed at the hospital?”

 

“Fuck you!” Inuyasha growled as he tossed his drink at Sesshoumaru and took off towards the stairs.

 

“Get back here!” Sesshoumaru shouted as he quickly made his way towards his brother.

 

Inuyasha shot up the stairs and down the hall, his brother close behind. To the house, it seemed like old times. The two siblings fighting and chasing each other through the halls. The two of them really hadn't changed. Even as adults, they spat and fought like rabid dogs in a ring. No matter how hard their father tried when they were kids, they fought each other and were like night and day.

 

When Inuyasha reached his room at the end of the hall, he slammed the door on his brother's face and locked the knob. He then listened to his brother shout through the door how he's a complete idiot and has no clue what he's doing. When his brother began on how bad and unfaithful a husband he made, Inuyasha opened the door, punched Sesshoumaru square in the nose and slammed the door once again. Once Inuyasha locked it, he stepped away from the door and fell onto the bed face down.

 

He shuddered as he bit back tears and inhaled the scent left by his wife on her side of the bed. He grabbed the covers and held them to his nose as if he were inhaling oxygen.

 

“Kikyo…You have to believe me. I still love you, I do. He's wrong. I'm going through hard times right now, and I am honestly trying to find my way. Whoever did this to you, I hate with all my being. Why we had to be torn apart like this, I'll never know or accept.” He sobbed.

 

Sesshoumaru gathered himself from the wall opposite the door just as he heard his brother's sobbing words. He stayed a moment to listen to what was in his heart. It sounded truthful. It sounded sad. `Did I just make a mistake?' He thought as his brother finally lost it loud enough to the point where he just had to walk away. Eavesdropping on his sobbing brother wasn't his idea of fun.

 

 

@*@

 

 

The next morning, Kagome looked out the window at the car she was leant from Inuyasha. She still didn't know what to make of his reasons for wanting to see her again. It was one thing to be friends with him, but she couldn't tell if he wanted more, or if he just needed a companion. No matter how hard he tried, he fell and he admitted to it. She couldn't allow herself to fall, no matter what the circumstances.

 

What her mother said to her the night before just angered her. To think of any opportunity to be loved was good. Her mother was a bit racier than she thought. It surprised her what with the values her mother was showing now that she remained loyal to Kagome's father all those years `til his death. No matter what Inuyasha tries, she won't give in. She was an honest woman who couldn't let the weakness of her heart take over her mind in the supposed relationship she and Inuyasha have.

 

Sure, he can accommodate her well, but she still wondered if there were hidden motives behind each kind deed he performed for her sake. She never asked for any of that, and he still refused to relent. Sure, most of the men she had bumped into so far in her life had been assholes at best, but Inuyasha was a rarity among men, and not only that, but taken by that lucky wife of his. The more she thought about Kikyo laying in that bed, holding his heart within her chest where it's not needed now certainly made her jealous.

 

 

Kagome was suddenly startled out of her thoughts as her mother stepped down the stairs groggily with bags under her eyes and yawning loudly. Kagome turned to see her worn out mother step in the direction of the kitchen while looking like the living dead. `I guess leaving her to fend off the car alarm by herself last night was a bit harsh.' Kagome thought as she stepped away from the window and into the kitchen after the `dead on her feet' mother.

 

“Here, I'll make breakfast. Have a seat. It's the least I owe after what I did last night.” Kagome suggested as the older woman shuffled over to a chair and sat down.

 

“No kidding. Shippo was very upset by the noise, and all I did was try to get out of the car.” The older woman sighed as she leaned her forehead upon her hand.

 

“I'm okay now. I'm really sorry. I don't know what came over me.” Kagome said over her shoulder as she grabbed the eggs from the fridge.

 

“It's okay, honey. I'll take responsibility for that one. I said something I shouldn't have.” The older woman moaned as she shifted in her chair.

 

Kagome looked her way to see her dejected form leaning over the table. She looked saddened. “What's wrong?” Kagome asked as she stopped baking and sat down before her across the table.

 

Her mother looked up at her and made eye contact for a moment. “I just worry about you, honey. You went through so much when you were young and you never really dealt with it. You've bottled it up and locked away the key. You never really dealt with what has happened in your past.” She assured as she reached her hand across the table to her daughter's. “I want you to have a chance to be happy. I never meant for you to go after Inuyasha. He's good for you in different ways. He has touched you in ways no other man has been able to since your first love died. Honey, I think that means something.”

 

Kagome didn't know what to say other than, “Oh. I'm sorry, Mamma. I thought you were promoting promiscuity. You confused me badly. I was wondering what meaning you were trying to put forth when all you've taught me throughout my life is to be honest and accepting of such circumstances, and to be loyal. I'm glad you don't mean for me to date a married man, Mamma.” Kagome replied as she reached her hand to her mother's and smiled.

 

“Good girl, I understand now why you've been so uptight and upset around me lately. I'll try to be more specific when it comes to Inuyasha. But, don't pass up any opportunities for this young man to help you. Whether or not he means to date you, he has helped you to open up. That is a good thing. He's helping you overcome a fear that has rotted inside of you for years, honey. Show him you appreciate what he's done. I saw how he feels about you in his eyes. They are easy to read. He wasn't showing love in his eyes when he came to take you out last. He was showing that he cares for you. That's worth much more than just any man wanting to date you. He has no motives along those lines, I feel it.” Her mother reassured her and they both smiled. Kagome stood from her chair and gave her mother a big hug. One thing Kagome had always counted on was her mother's words of wisdom. She'd be lost without her guidance.

 

After the hug ended, they both chatted over various subjects as Kagome made breakfast for the three of them, just in time for Shippo to shuffle in groggily. Once Kagome finished preparing breakfast, they all sat and ate. Once they finished stuffing their empty tummies with Eggs, milk, Toast and Coffee, they all talked about the night before and laughed at the expressions Shippo made as he explained to his mother how his grandmother stopped the alarm. Once again, that little bundle of joy and happiness brought the proudest smile to her face.

 

 

@*@

 

 

Surprisingly, for the first time in weeks, Inuyasha fell asleep in his and Kikyo's bed. He had been so engrossed in his emotions the night before after the fight with Sesshoumaru that he cried himself to sleep. He found himself sprawled out over the bed, still fully clothed. He wiped the drool from his lips and sighed. When he opened his eyes, he saw a strange but familiar ceiling. When it occurred to him where he was, he sat up abruptly and looked around at the bed. He eyed the covers, all a mess and even the wet spot where his mouth had been.

 

“Damn…I never thought I could sleep here again.” He moaned to himself as he got up from the bed and padded into the bathroom to relieve himself. He looked in the mirror off to his side and saw the luggage under his bloodshot eyes. He didn't realize how hard he lost it last night.

 

Once he zipped his jeans, he stepped over to the sink and ran the water. He cupped some cool water in his hands and splashed it on his face a few times. Once he felt satisfied he had washed away the sleepiness, he wiped his face dry with one of the towels and eyed himself in the mirror once more. He looked better, but even he could see his heart bleeding through his eyes. He placed his hands onto the vanity and bowed his head as he thought about what he had planned for the day. To see Kagome.

 

“No date. Maybe not a restaurant then. I wonder what she'd be up for.” He sighed as he took one more honest look at himself, trying to find a reason to smile. Coming up trumps, he stepped out the door as he turned off the light. He cleaned himself up and got dressed. In the process, he tried to come up with a plan for a friendly meeting where they could just hang out and be themselves.

 

After about an hour of thought, he came up with a few ideas. One was a walk in the park, since it was nice and sunny outside. They could walk around the mall, or they could check out the local festival. Even the thought of the Tokyo Ferris Wheel came to mind, but that one was shoved away as quickly as it came. “No dates. No dates. So where can we go? I honestly don't wanna have to ask him.” He said aloud to himself as the thought of asking his know-it-all brother about what he would suggest.

 

He decided to just sit down upon his disheveled bed and call her as he pulled the cell phone from his pocket. He sighed as he dialed the number and waited for her to pick up.

 

Kagome had been carrying the laundry up the stairs when the phone rang out. She had a feeling she knew who it was, since she couldn't talk to any of her friends at work. She took her time as she stepped into her room and set the basket upon the bed. Looking at the caller id, she took a deep breath and picked up the phone.

 

“Hi, Inuyasha.” Kagome answered politely.

 

“Oh, hey. Caller Id, huh?” He chuckled.

 

“Yep. So? What ya need?” she asked as she leaned back on the bed and looked up at the ceiling.

 

“Well, I thought I'd call and see where you'd like to go today. I figured since you'd know a nice, non-date place to go, I'd ask you first before making any plans.” He said cheerily enough.

 

Kagome chuckled and sighed, as her smile grew wider. “Well, let's see. You would probably be bored with the mall. The movies are soo out it isn't even funny.” She said aloud as she thought outwardly. Inuyasha remained silent as she drawled out ideas. “You sure you have no ideas? Especially since you're the one who just HAS to see me, ya know.” She joked.

 

Inuyasha laid back onto the pillow. “Tsch…Who said I HAVE to see you. I could soo call it off, ya know.” He joked in a smart assed tone gaining a laugh from Kagome.

 

“Well, in that case…” (Click) Inuyasha sat up abruptly. “She hung up on me!” He said out of shock. As he stared at the phone in surprise, it rang and her number appeared on the display. He accepted the call and said, “Very funny.”

 

Kagome laughed at his sarcastic tone and they both laughed over the abrupt reaction she gave him moments ago. They both decided a few minutes later that he'd come by to pick her up and they would walk around the park, and maybe around town a bit. Kagome was excited to be able to go out on the town with him. Although she was excited, and maybe a bit nervous, she remained dressed casually in her low-rise running pants, t-shirt and thin hoodie. She brushed her hair into a sloppy ponytail and splashed some water on her face to get rid of the sweat that formed on her face from hauling the laundry up the stairs.

 

A half hour later, her doorbell rang. She bolted down the stairs yelling, “I'll get it!” When she opened the door, she saw Inuyasha calmly leaning up against the brick next to the door with his arms folded across his chest and a smile on his face. “Ya ready?” He asked.

 

“Yep. See ya ma!” she shouted and then stepped through the door. They climbed into his car and he drove them to the nearest park.

 

During the ride, they both sang together to the tunes that played through the speakers. Once the first song ended, he stole a sideways glance her way. His glance piqued her interest. She looked to him fully and watched him. “What?”

 

“Nothing.” He answered simply.

 

“Suuuuure.” She replied as she eyed him intensely.

 

“What?” He asked, as he looked her way innocently.

 

“Tsch…Nothing…Yeah right. Do I have something on my shirt?” She asked as she looked down curiously.

 

“No. It's nothing.” He replied as he shifted a bit in his seat.

 

“Whatever. I saw that look in your eye. You're curious about something.” She mentioned.

 

“That's what you think.” He spat back playfully.

 

“Awh!” She reacted as she then directed her gaze away from him and watched the scenery.

 

Her actions once again caught his attention and he shot another gaze her way. He looked at her repeatedly before reaching over and nudged her shoulder. “Hey, you okay?”

 

“Whatta you care?” she spat towards the window.

 

“No, seriously, what did I do?” He asked curiously. She closed her eyes for a moment when she turned towards him and asked, “Is it because of what I'm wearing?”

 

“Huh?” He asked innocently.

 

“The glances you're giving me. Are they because of how I'm dressed?” she asked seriously.

 

“Well, yes and no. I've just never seen you dressed like that.”

 

“Something wrong with it?” she asked.

 

“No. I think you look good like this, actually. Why?” He answered honestly.

 

“Oh. Okay. That's a relief.” She sighed as she leaned her head back and smiled. He inwardly sighed as he watched the road.

 

When they arrived at the park, he parked the car and turned off the ignition. Kagome unbuckled her seatbelt and looked his way as he reached under the dash and pushed a button, popping the trunk. He caught her watching him out of the corner of his eye. He looked her way and winked as he then climbed out the door. She followed suite and looked to the trunk where she saw the top of his head peeking over the roof of the car.

 

Curiously, she walked back to the trunk area to see what he was pulling out. He had a picnic basket and a blanket. As well as a cooler and his book, the one he was reading that night in the hospital. She reached over and grabbed some of the belongings and he slammed the trunk shut. Once he had gathered the rest, they headed out to a spot on the grass in the middle of the circle of trees. Once they had everything settled on the blanket, Inuyasha opened the cooler and handed her a drink as he grabbed his own. She looked at the food he had brought and they both made themselves some sandwiches as they sat and talked about recent events.

 

“Tell me something.” Kagome requested. “Hmm?” Inuyasha turned his eyes to hers. “Why do I matter so much to you? I won't be mad. I just wanna know and understand.”

 

“Kagome, I see how you hurt yourself by belittling yourself due to your past. I just want you to know that what happened wasn't your fault. Those things happen to girls every day. You're strong, but being strong doesn't mean not moving forward and forgetting what has happened in the past.” He said as he sipped his drink. She turned her eyes to the drink in her hands. He looked her way and turned to face her. “I mean, c'mon. It was a loss of innocence, but look what came of it. Shippo is so cute, and he has his mother's eyes and heart.”

 

She looked his way. He was smiling sweetly at her. She returned the smile. “Yeah. I wouldn't trade Shippo for the world. You're right. I locked my feelings away to remain strong for my boy. I wasn't sure of how I'd feel about him when he came into my life, but once I had him and saw his cute little face, I put aside my own selfish fears and lived for him.”

 

“That was where you decided to set yourself aside not only for your son, but from your own consciousness.” He pointed out, gaining a nod from her.

 

“Now that I think about it, I decided to live in a fantasy where I was just suddenly graced with him, and I locked away the truth, but still had it in the back of my mind.” She replied in a serious tone. Inuyasha sat back and listened as she explained her feelings. “I wanted to forget. I wanted to believe he was a gift, not a mistake I made. I just didn't know how to keep the lie going. Sometimes the truth would surface, and I'd either lose it for a bit, or shove it right back into the vault where I felt it belonged. When those memories were locked away, I could live without regrets. I could remain sane and strong for my boy. Since he was born, he became my life. I felt I was doing only what I had to.”

 

“Well, now there's a reason why you have to deal with those feelings and regrets. Everyone makes mistakes. I myself am no exception.” Inuyasha chuckled as he looked away and took a swig of his drink.

 

“What do ya mean?” Kagome inquired as she popped a grape into her mouth.

 

“Well, you're not the only one who's made mistakes. That's about all I can say.” He said shortly.

 

“Oh, come on. Here you are, asking me to pour my heart out and deal with my regrets when you're figuring I'm gonna let you off that easily?” She said as she playfully nudged his shoulder. He looked her way with a serious look in his eyes. She gasped at the piercing look he gave her.

 

“Trust me, you don't wanna know.” He said in a serious tone.

 

“Well, can I ask you this? Is it something you've done? Or something done to you?” she asked innocently.

 

“Something I did.” He drawled out as he looked forward.

 

“Why are you afraid to tell me? You've been so interested in my life and my troubles, why not share yours?” she inquired as she put her hand on his shoulder.

 

“Because you don't know me well enough to trust me if I told you. Don't worry, I'll tell you eventually.” He assured as he turned his gaze her way. His eyes held a pain she had never thought she'd see.

 

“Then I shall remain patient.” She replied as she popped a grape into her mouth.

 

As she repeatedly did that, he looked her way and watched her. She looked so loose and carefree while his heart weighed heavily upon him secretly. She popped one last grape into her mouth and caught his eyes. She then held up a grape before him. He looked in question for a moment before he smiled and then opened his mouth. She tossed the grape into the air, and he moved to catch it effortlessly. She giggled as he smiled and enjoyed the taste of the sweet grape. As the hours went by, they chatted and tossed grapes to each other as they formed a friendship and came to an understanding.

 

Once sunset came around, Inuyasha and Kagome packed up the picnic stuff and stored it all back in the trunk. Then, they decided to walk a bit and enjoy the colors in the sky and the city skyline as it lit up bit by bit. The atmosphere was calmer and they enjoyed the crisp air as the sun went down and a nice breeze blew in. It was so serene; the two of them relaxed as they strolled drown the path, talking about their pasts, other than what ate at their hearts. Inuyasha laughed genuinely at some of the funny stories Kagome told of her family. Her brother especially. How he went to one of her old guy friends to ask him how he should express his feelings to a girl, and Kagome caught her brother telling her guy-friend he loved him.

 

Inuyasha mainly mentioned how he would antagonize his older brother, and how they would fight and the antics they did as they grew up together. The stories made Kagome laugh so hard, that they had to sit down on the nearest bench as they both doubled over in laughter over how Inuyasha sat on his brother until he called out uncle while he was face down in a muddy puddle in front of his first crush.

 

“Inuyasha, you were such a booger back then!” Kagome laughed.

 

“I was a what?” He asked curiously.

 

“A booger.” She spat back, literally.

 

“That's a new one.” He replied as he leaned back into the bench and caught his breath.

 

“Learned it from my mom.” Kagome said as she leaned back to catch her breath as well. They both stared up at the moon as they thought back on how much fun they had that day. Once silence fell over them, and they were finally both calmed down, they both turned to look at one another for a few moments.

 

“Kagome, are you still feeling strange about meeting and hanging out like this?” Inuyasha asked.

 

Kagome thought for a second at how much fun she had with him that whole afternoon. “Actually, this was the best day I've had in years.” She replied with a genuine smile. “Thank you, Inuyasha.”

 

“No prob. I guess I needed a day away from everything too. With everything that had happened, I began to feel like a chicken with my head cut-off. I didn't know how to feel half the time, and I was very confused.” He admitted openly.

 

“And now?” Kagome asked.

 

Inuyasha looked her way. “I found someone who can help me deal with these events. I guess you could say you helped me to deal with them openly. I don't know how I could have gotten through all this without someone to confide in. Someone who understood me completely.” He said calmly.

 

“I guess I have done my job well, then.” She smiled as her gaze went straight ahead.

 

“I'm glad you're opening up to me. I guess I've done something right, huh?” He mentioned as her gaze fell to her lap and she began to pick at her nails.

 

“Yeah. I guess you could say you have made some progress, but my heart still struggles with things here and there. I guess what it comes down to, is being completely truthful and straightforward with intentions. Both you and my mother had me confused as to what I should do for a while.”

 

“How do you mean?” He asked.

 

“Well, both you and my mother had me thinking that I should help you commit adultery.” She bowed her head. Inuyasha chuckled as he leaned a bit forward and leaned his arms on his thighs as he looked her way, and saw her face was serious and worry-full. “I'm sorry, did I hurt you?” Inuyasha asked in concern.

 

“No. I just can't believe I thought that about you two. You were right when you said I didn't know you, or your intentions. I jumped to conclusions. I'm sorry, about all of it.” Kagome said as he turned to her and gathered her into his arms.

 

“Kagome, I told you I am still in love with my wife. Don't worry about coming between us. I have no intensions of pursuing you in that way. I don't know if I can totally explain why I care about you so much, but know that I do care about you.” He said as he held her closely and in a friendly manner.

 

Kagome's eyes closed and she inwardly sighed in comfort. “Thank you, Inuyasha.”

 

 

 

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Wow. I love how this turned out! It's funny because I was figuring that I had most of it written out. Before I realized it, Inuyasha had started to reveal something about himself that even I didn't know. Yes, folks…I have no idea what he did that was soo horrible… (Shakes head) Oh boy. He certainly loves to keep me on my toes. Anyways, I guess this is how it's going to go as far as updates for Unaware and Street Musician. It'll take longer to update, and for that, I'm sorry. I will certainly have to hope my mind will want to be more creative more often, meaning almost every day. (Looks inwardly…Yes, mind. No more days off.) And once again, I am so happy you guys are so supportive and I enjoy writing for all of you thoroughly. Anyways, hope your Unaware day has been as good as mine! Ja ne for now!