InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Untold Secrets ❯ 0.7 – Mine to do as I wish ( Chapter 8 )

Standard Disclaimer - * Inuyasha © Rumiko Takahashi.

Summary: When, one night Inuyasha of the future turns up in Sengoku Jidai beaten and bloody, Inu-gumi are surprised-except for Kagome, who rushes to his side without hesitation. Secrets are revealed & an untold future comes to light, but will Inuyasha accept his newfound responsibility?

Rated: PG-13 / R for mild to moderate sexual content and Inuyasha's potty mouth.


by: *Angelstars
email: angtanuk@yahoo.co.uk

Untold Secrets

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0.7 - Mine to do as I wish

**Story re-cap**

a mixture of loss and hurt all lay out in front of her at once.

And all because of her…

Inuyasha's ears flattened to his scull as his nose twitched, Kagome's tears had gotten stronger and somehow, he knew he had just witnessed his own death along with her. What he didn't expect was for Kagome's grief stricken, almost like, screams to affect him the way they were. His death hadn't even scratched the surface of his emotions, but Kagome's cries… they made him heave.

The after affects of Inuyasha's death finally hit the groups. Kagome's not the only one who feels as if it was all her fault- final goodbyes leave a surprising truth and Inuyasha finally comes to terms with his mixed feelings for the miko of the future, but will she accept his proposal?

**Continuation**

The silence stung at the Kitsune's ears as he glared at the serious looking wolf youkai. Inuyasha knew he was dying? How? What happened? He would have told me if something was wrong? I don't understand… Damn you Kouga!

"YOU LIE!" He finally found his voice, "Inuyasha would have spoken to me about it, he wouldn't have hidden the truth from me!-"

"Urasi! He kept it from you, to protect you!" Kouga interrupted rising to his feet, fists clenched, and hackles rose in an intimidating posture.

"To protect me?!" The Kitsune glared back, ignoring the attempts of dominance the Ookami now infused toward him.

"Shut your trap and listen to me, brat!" Kouga retorted, taking small steps toward the fox. "Inukuro didn't want you to know that he was dying! Would you have accepted it, if he had? Would you have respected him? His handicap? His damn weakness?!"

"You forget how damn proud he is! Don't tell me otherwise, I know you would have done things differently…"

The Kitsune lowered his head.

Miroku took the opportunity to intervene and calm the seething wolf, while Sango took the stirring cub and neko into another part of the hut as he spoke down at the older Kitsune.

"Shippo, I don't think Inuyasha left the truth from you on purpose, nor do I think he never meant to inform you of his disability."

"No matter what you think, brat! Inu-Kuro did it for you, not his damn self!" Kouga added, "and don't you ever forget that!"

Shippo stayed quiet, listening to the wolf and monk reassure him, but still, the mixed feelings he held close to his heart wouldn't leave.

He still blamed Inuyasha's injury on himself.

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Inuyasha wiped away the last of his sweat-ridden forehead with the back of his haori. His head felt heavy upon his shoulders as another wave of nausea passed him over.

Kagome had yet to cease her mournful sobbing, as she held on to the limp form of his older self.

He swallowed sharply before raising himself up from the ground; he blinked a few times--drawing back from the dizzy bout he had just received from his action. He had to go to her, but something was holding him back… he felt trapped and in reality he wanted nothing more than to bolt it. But, he couldn't abandon Kagome while she was this vulnerable.

Quietly, he pushed aside a large bush of leaves and stepped out in front of the pair.

Kagome's heart felt empty, and painful--like she had been torn in half and crushed to no end, before being chucked out regardless of feelings or emotions. Her link had been severed and she felt alone.

Inuyasha lay limply in her arms, her mate had gone and she never told him her true feelings…

Did he know? Why didn't I tell him that I lov-

"Kagome?" Inuyasha's soft voice interrupted her thoughts.

She sat in complete silence.

Why was this so hard? Why couldn't she look him in the eye?

She wanted to be alone… But she knew he would not leave her, no matter what.

Closing her eyes, she swallowed back the last bits of sour tears and answered quietly.

"I can't," She shook her head; a lone tear renewing trails of floods. "I can't be with you, here, now…"

Her head shook from side to side, as her whole body tensed under his worried gaze. She knew he would not let her grieve, she knew he would attempt to comfort her; she knew he wouldn't want her to be alone and unhappy.

Inuyasha crouched down, attempting to make eye contact with the raven-head miko. He tilted his head to one side and leaned a little toward her, making sure his eyes never left her face to look upon himself.

He wasn't ready to look at him.

"Kagome, look at me" He tried to coax her away from the unmoving hanyou that she held protectively against her chest.

She shook her head, "No!"

"Onegai, please leave me alone," she continued to thrash her head from side to side, as small salty tears lined her cheeks with flooding waterfalls of mournful sobs.

Inuyasha snorted under his breath, "And you know I can't leave you alone, I won't!"

"I beg you, Inuyasha… I can't do this… it hurts so much…"

Inuyasha heard her sharp intake of breath as he reached for her. "Kagome, I will not go and leave you all alone, never."

Kagome squeezed her eyes tightly shut and gripped at the hanyou in her lap. All unwillingness to look at Inuyasha shattered as she lifted her head and opened her reddened eyes.

He drew back slightly before returning to her side, and scooped her up into his own lap, allowing his other self to leave her possessive hold.

Inuyasha pulled her into his chest, burying her head into his fire-rat robes, his own arms now circling her tiny waist as he rocked her slightly.

He laid his chin on top of her head and closed his eyes, soothing her with his warm presence and lulling her into mournful sleep.

As Kagome finally cried herself to sleep in Inuyasha's hold, he rubbed his palms hypnotically across her back, hitting pressure on points that helped calm her and relax her in to restless sleep.

He stayed like that for a few more minutes, holding her close, as he rocked her. His eyes kept shut as his head rested upon her, his nose and ears alert at all times.

He took in a deep breath, capturing her scent, not even taking note of its change, before opening his eyes. Slowly, at first, his sight focussed on the darkened wood of the Goshinboku tree, following its path to the ground and heavily rooted soil, to lie upon himself.

Inuyasha held his breath and swallowed back a new forming bout of nausea. It felt anything but comfortable; his future self lay, seemingly, asleep. But he knew better.

He couldn't help the cold shiver that raised his hairs and gave him goose-bumps, uncomfortably making him feel cold. He had never felt a cold shiver in his life--the feeling unnerved him.

Once again, he felt the over whelming feeling to run, but his emotions bit back and ordered his legs to stay put. He would not leave himself, or Kagome.

He never moved, nor for the rest of the uneasy night.

And it was where Miroku and Kouga had found them the next morning.

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Miroku and Kouga spoke quietly together, as they discussed what kind of burial to give the Inu-hanyou.

While Inuyasha still held Kagome in his lap as he blankly stared at the huts wall, and ignored the presence of his friends around him and the slumbering miko in his arms.

"It would be wise to hold the ceremony as and when Kagome-sama wishes, Kouga." Miroku suggested quietly.

"I say we should not have to subject her to such a thing, bozu!" Kouga retorted. "Beside that, what makes you think I'm leaving my best friend here for all?!"

"Goshinboku. The god tree is where I'll stay. It is where I belong."

All eyes now focussed on the hanyou, who had spoken.

Inuyasha did not look at them as the priest and wolf nodded.

Sango kneeled in front of the Inu-hanyou and smiled slightly, "Inuyasha? How long has she been asleep?"

Amber eyes returned the taijiya's gaze as he replied evenly; "A few hours, no more than four at the most."

"I'm sorry Inuyasha," Sango lowered her head, intertwining her fingers as she fumbled uncomfortably.

"What for? It wasn't my loss…" Came his reply causing the demon huntress to whip her head up somewhat sharply.

"I only meant-"

"Don't worry about it, Sango." He shook his head, while closing his eyes.

Sango nodded with understanding and looked over her shoulder; Miroku and Kouga looked on with worry, but chose not to speak. Instead, both male's gathered the required tools and took leave to settle a place under the god tree for Inuyasha to lay in peace.

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Meanwhile, Shippo had taken a break from all his thoughts and offered to help Kaede with the villages. He had hidden his youkai, with the help of Inuyasha's pouch of magic, safely secured around his neck, so all the villages saw was that of a human, teenage boy. His attire was unfamiliar, but least he did not look like a Kitsune demon. He was sure the village people would not take to kindly to his offer of help.

"Shippo, ye should take a rest, is it not wise to allow ye self something to eat?" The older woman announced as she walked up to him.

"Kaede-bachan, when will you ever stop worrying about such trivial issues? Can't you see these people need my help? I am strong, and I can take this work load without food or water-"

"Tisk, ye will only work yourself to exhaustion and the village men are to tired to work on this afternoon." Kaede retorted, "Ye remind me of Inuyasha, he too is stubborn and proud."

"Well, Inuyasha is no more. If he wanted a real son, he should have mated sooner!"

The older lady watched as the Kitsune-turned-human continued to work hard on the grounds of the field. The young lad had obviously taken Inuyasha's death hard and to even go as far as putting his relationship down where the hanyou was concerned; had prompted the elder somewhat.

Had the cub, she once knew, really changed that much? Or was he to alike the hanyou for his own good?

She shook her head and continued to admire the boy's willingness.

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Later that evening…

The sun was setting in the east, masking the sky with orange and red as daybreak dusted, and its falling shadow cast upon the forest of Inuyasha. A forest, said to be named after a hanyou, who had been brought to his knees and sealed by a powerful priestess. He slept for 50 years, and was freed by her reincarnation, brought back from hells slumber to awake with a second chance of life.

That life had now come to an end, and he now slept once more, under the watchful gaze of the god tree he once slept, attached to, for 50 years of his life.

Kagome kneeled in front of the massive tree, knowing that her hanyou mate now slept under its protection. Safe from harm--safe from pain.

Behind the young miko priestess, stood her close friends, the wondering monk and demon slayer. The young fox-cub and neko cat nestled in the arms of the older priestess. Behind them, stood the wolf demon, once a foe, now a friend and Kitsune, the very one who sat in the arms of the older woman.

High above, Inuyasha sat in the branches of a tree, his amber eyes never left the young girl he had grown to love as she, once more, voiced her goodbyes.

It had grown silent when Miroku finished the last of his words, following prayer as he allowed the girl from the future take up position in front of the gravesite.

Inuyasha's acute senses of hearing twitched at his ears when they perked up, firm and twisted forward as he watched his friends all finish their own goodbyes.

All heads lowered to the ground as she spoke.

"I know this is hard to believe, as Inuyasha is still with us. But, to me, I lost a part of him. A part that shared my heart, and my soul. Inuyasha and I were more than just good friends; we were bound to one another, bound with mind, body and soul. However, destiny was not on our side, and decided to take a part of him from me. I guess… only one was meant for this world, even so, I nearly lost him too."

She lowered her head to gather her courage and say her final feelings, knowing he would be watching, knowing he would be there.

"I feel a loss, and it pains me to say goodbye… but I know, I still have him by my side. I always will. But I never got to tell him how I felt, how I still feel… I'm sure he knew already." She turned to face the god tree, and pressed a hand upon its trunk before closing her eyes.

"Aishiteru Inuyasha" She whispered and leaned her head against the tree, bringing her forehead to her hand.

The teenage Kitsune looked up at the tree Inuyasha perched in and back toward the girl from the future, before closing the lost space between both groups. He looked at Kouga, as he watched him with a curious gaze, before he found himself beside the young miko.

"Kagome?"

The young miko turned to look at the older fox, "Shippo-kun?"

The Kitsune's head lowered at the close termed name before his hand reached out to give her something.

"G-gomen ne, Kagome. I have something to give you,"

Kagome looked down at his hand and back up to the fox demon, "Nani? What is this?" She asked, tilting her head to the side a little, causing a lone tear to run down her right cheek.

Shippo lifted his head and opened his hand, "It was something he gave me, Inuyasha I mean. I thought it would now rightfully belong to you, so you could give it to… well, Inuyasha's son." He finished.

The raven-haired girl looked at him seriously, "What do you mean, Shippo-kun? Inuyasha did give it to his son."

The boy shook his head, "No, he said it was for his son. I assumed he meant for me to give it to his son when he was born… you're pregnant and I put two and two together."

Kagome smiled gently and cupped his hand within her own, closing the sacred treasure along with it.

"Shippo, he meant you. Don't you understand? Inuyasha thought of you as his son, and this belongs to you now, guard it with your life."

The Kitsune's eyes widened, "You know what this is?"

Kagome nodded.

"It is what holds Tetsusaiga, as it rests."

It was Shippo's turn to nod.

"Demo, I thought… I can't protect something that was meant to ward off demons… why did he give this to me?"

"You'll understand someday. Inuyasha wanted to keep it in the family and you are his only son."

The fox demon stood quietly, his eyes fixed upon the piece of blade in his hand.

"He-he wanted me to have it?"

Kagome's smile warmed as she squeezed his hand reassuringly. "One of pure heart can wield Tetsusaiga. You hold no evil or wards against the fang's barrier. But… when the time comes, when the time is right, only then will you be able to hold Tetsusaiga."

He looked up at her with wide bright eyes; he felt his mouth drop slightly. He was at a loss for words.

Wiping away the last of her tears, Kagome looked up at the tree across from the shinboku, Inuyasha had no moved from his place and she really hoped he had not heard the news of her pregnancy.

The hanyou sat back against the bark of the trunk, his ears still perked and taught.

Kagome? Pregnant?

How did he miss that?! He hadn't even noticed the change in her scent? Was it because his mind was so pre-occupied by the tension between them? Well, now he knew why Kouga had gone ballistic over him `touching his woman'

He focused back, trying to put all her strange behaviours together.

The mood swings. The weird bouts of nausea. The temper tantrums. The snapping at him for no reason (that one made him cringe). The obsession with eating at all different times of the day. Her need to rest and the tiredness she suffered from.

Kami-sama! She was pregnant.

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The next morning, Shippo and Kouga left early. Both had decided to go back to future Tokyo and start a new. Kagome got upset that Shippo turned down her invitation to stay with her back at her home. What she didn't know was the reason why? The Kitsune knew Inuyasha would not allow her to leave, even more so, now that he knew she was to have his pups.

Their goodbyes went quick and even Inuyasha and the older fox shared a few passing words. It left the Kitsune smiling.

That afternoon, Inuyasha asked to be excused from the brunch Kaede had prepared for them (causing a few heads to turn in the process), to think things through. He preferred to be alone while he thought, not that his mind and heart had any quells with how he felt right now, but still, he needed a time out. He didn't venture far from Kagome, he wanted to protect her at all times, and seeing as his thoughts would mainly focus upon her well-being and his pups, he was happy to stay near.

After hearing Shippo and Kagome's heart-to-heart, he had been fighting down the urge to take Kagome aside and tell her how he felt. Something always stopped him.

One: being it was to soon. Two: being he had also lost a loved one in the process of a day.

He couldn't just stop thinking of Kikyo, but he had found it hard not to push her aside and think of Kagome. He had failed miserably. Kagome was on his mind all the time of late.

His feelings for the girl had only intensified since finally noticing the distinct smell of pregnancy alluring his heartstrings pleasantly. Although, it felt strange knowing she were to have his pups and not actually touch or mate with her himself.

Still, he had in the future and in doing so, it meant he had claims to her and would be the one to look after her and his pups from now on. The only problem being, she wanted to leave and go back to her own time.

Her proclamation came not long after Kouga and Shippo had disappeared back down the well. He was stung to say the least, she hadn't even told him before her announcement.

Setting those feelings aside, he had to come up with something to keep her from going, from leaving his life entirely.

One thing sprang to mind, but did he have the balls or the guts to ask her? And would she say yes?

"Only one way to find out!" He snorted, eyeing said girl as she left the hut and into the woods.

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Kagome sighed and left the confides of the small hut, she had felt the need for fresh air and excused herself from the lunching snack. Finally, time alone to help clear her mind of all the bad things that had happened over the last 2 days.

She wanted something right to happen for a change. Something that meant she wouldn't have to be unhappy anymore, something to help take her mind of her loss…

"Oi, Kagome!"

She heard Inuyasha call from one of the trees up above.

Smiling, she tilted her head upright and answered him with a smile.

The hanyou was beside her in a flash. "Kagome, what are you doing in the forest alone?"

The miko stood back and blinked, "Um, I just needed some fresh air is all, Inuyasha." She replied, her voice sounded confused and more than a little nervous.

He eyed her up and burrowed his eyebrow slightly, "Keh, you shouldn't wonder the forest alone, Kagome,"

"Ano, Inuyasha? What's with you?" She asked, raising her eyebrows.

The hanyou blushed and stuttered under her curious gaze, "Well, I… you see-well, I was just-"

"You what?" Kagome interrupted, now completely mystified.

Inuyasha shook his head and flicked a finger to scratch nervously at his nose, "I wanted to ask you something…" he lowered his voice and head from view, sheltering his eyes under white bangs.

"Nani? What is it, Inuyasha?"

"I-I…" He lifted his head, and opened his eyes before continuing, "Will you become my mate and marry me?"

There. He had finally said it.

He watched as Kagome stared at him, her face void of any emotion. She went pale, then slightly green, as she swayed a little.

He nervously waited for an answer.

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A/N: Gomen ne! I meant to get this out sooner, but I got ill. So I had to try and write this in one night! I succeeded, and came to this conclusion.

Which, I must say, is a cliffhanger! Will she or won't she? Did he ask her at the wrong time? Hn, we shall have to see in the next chapter:

08 - Let me love you!


-- Shout outs!

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Final note:

I'm down to one chapter and a half peeps! *Sniffs* I'm so sorry to see this ending, but I have decided to continue on with "There's something about Kagome" and my small romantic fic "Stuck in a meddle with you" so I've always got more on the way! ^_^

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