InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Vastly Overrated ❯ Strenuous Languidity ( Chapter 6 )

Strenuous Languidity

It's cold. That's the first thought that crosses my mind. Then I suddenly regretted the thought because it brought on an awareness that I was not prepared for. This awareness would be the painful throb in my head. Blearily I open my eyes. I do not have the energy to think, nor to move. Now that I think abou... I wince, thinking hurts right now. Sighing, I sit up in bed and I feel remorse because of the dizzy spell.

Why in the world did I sleep on TOP of the covers? Ah, right. Let me sort out my memories. Went to park, check. Hear Music, Check. Saw Sesshoumaru, Check. Got drunk, check. Punched an intoxicated Inuyasha, Check. Smart mouthed my mom, che- Oh.. oh, my. I'm dead. I groan in annoyance. WHY do I set myself up for these things. Oh, yeah. Because I don't care. Don't get me wrong, I do care about the many situations in my life. I just don't care about the feelings of those whom have betrayed me.

"Kagome!" yelled a voice outside my door. This made me wince. I have absolutely no problem with Souta. I love him, he's only four, but his loud voice is NOT welcome this early in the morning when I'm fighting a hangover. "Kagome! It's lunch time. Dad's home He wants to talk to you!" This next voice is obviously Dutai. He always sounds exuberant when I'm going to be punished. Oh, so it's not really morning. I look over to the clock. Oh, twelve. It's definitely not morning. Afternoon, then. I don't need this in the afternoon , then. It's after all... only an hour after morning, and I'm not a morning person. Especially when I have a hangover!

I decide that father can wait. He's waited before, and he can wait again. Sighing, I stand. When can I be myself? Oh, wait, I'm always myself. I'm sooo messed up. Glaring at nothing in particular, I pull my hair into a bun, and wash my face. I decide that I should put some form of a mint in my mouth and do so. I'm not so out of it that I don't remember that my father would notice the scent on my breath.

"KAGOME!" OoO. Perhaps' I've taken too long, for my father has bellowed up the stairs. I sigh and walk out of my room door and down the stairs, where I saw the man glaring at me balefully. Funny how he thinks his wife is sooo precious and doesn't care at all about the daughter whom she bore. Hilarious how he lets his sons follow their dreams, or at least FIND something to dream of and he doesn't give his daughter a choice. I laugh bitterly. I laugh hysterically. I laugh, and it's such an empty laugh that it makes me shudder. Which leads to a more insane laughter.

My father looked disturbed, and I want to laugh more, but it seems that my self preservation is back. "What is so funny? You nearly lost me a partner... a powerful associate. WHY did you punch his SON? What has gotten into You? You're not yourself! And I won't have you out with that...other boy of his. You are confined to this house for the rest of the month!" I blink. So this isn't about my mouthing off to mom? That's different. Usually his attention is.... wait... a month.. here... in this prison of a 'home'. No!

That meant no going to meetings... No, work... No... Wait.. No meetings, and confinement... meant absolutely...No Sesshoumaru... NO! That's not fair!

Sesshoumaru... We've made a connection. We have a friendship of sorts! He ACTUALLY understands me without me expressing my thoughts. He's a part of me, and I've only truly known him for a day. But we connect. I can't go without him for a month. Who will keep me sane? Who will keep my feelings on a neutral enough plane that allows me to feel pleasant of all things. Who will he open up to? Well really open up in his vocabulary would mean showing an emotion, but still. But, as I Do live in my father's house (even though he's hardly ever here) then I must abide by my fathers' rules.

Odd, how I can actually feel more, and I want to end it.

I suddenly wish for the ever consuming numb-ness that used to be my everyday life. The monotomy... I want it back.

Because... feeling things hurt.

I want my un-obstrusive view back.

I want to watch my life in third person omni. I don't have to be a part of it.

Not if things don't go for the better of my life.

Who am I kidding? When has my life ever been very good to me?

Oh, when I met Sesshoumaru. Life was pretty damn good then wasn't it?

I found a confidant. But what good is a confidant when you can't confide in said confidant.

I once again glare at nothing in particular. My head still hurts too. Usually, I'd welcome the pain, but who likes hangovers? I blink. I've been doing that alot lately. Hmm... how about I narrow my eyes instead? Yea. Instead of blinking, I'll narrow my eyes... Come on, narrow... narrow...

"Kagome... You've not been listening to me have you? Why are you squinting Kagome? Do you need glasses? If you do then you'll be buying them by yourself, I don't have time for it." His voice was monotone. Glasses? No I don't need any glasses. Since when have you cared, or had time.... WAIT... squinting? I suppose I didn't succeed in my plight to narrow my eyes. My right eye twitched... no, I will not blink.. I will NOT blink.. NOOOO! I blinked. Man.

I stare in shock as smoke seemingly came out of my fathers' ears, and his face went beat red. I note the shock on my brothers' (all three of them) faces. What? What the deuce did I do? Wait... "When have I cared? Or had time? I make the money in this house... what right do you have to..." Hehehe... I said deuce. Huh? Oh, did I said that out loud. Ooops... wait what did he say? No. Correction, 'I' make the money in this house, YOU travel but 'I' do the negotiation, you're just angry because I'm better at running YOUR company! I hear gasps all around the room, which had filled with my brothers', my mother, and... cousin Shippou? When did he get here?

Oh... oh shi- I said that out loud... I could have sworn that I only thought that... oh man... where has my intelligence gone? I hear Dutai snicker, and I glare in his direction. HEY I finally got it right! I narrowed my eyes... not squinted. Ah!

I think, I think that perhaps my intelligence has left me indeed. I have a hangover, I'm lucid, I've gotten in trouble, I won't be seeing Sesshoumaru for a while, though to be honest, I know that father won't keep me out of work for more than the month because beside the fact that I said my thoughts out loud, and he is very angry, he knows that what I said is true.

I look around and am glad that THIS time I didn't speak out loud. "I have two questions." I say. He glares at me, and I know he's probably been ranting the entire time I was thinking, and I've missed the majority of it, but I really don't care. Of course, after I ask these questions, I get odd looks from my family.

"First, Do you happen to have any aspirin?"

They shook their heads in the negative. Surprisingly simultaneous.

I guess I'll find out why Shippou is here later.

Yes, I decide as I walk back up to my room, my family wants me to die.

Tche. I suppose it wouldn't be as trite as my life. I can see it now,

"Un-important daughter of Higurashi dies of over-exposure to hangover "

Yeah, that's go over very well.

I'm glad that my sarcasm hasn't died. It's a wonderful constant in my life. IT never changes... No matter what type of sarcasm I use it's still... sarcasm.

Life, however, no matter how fair it is, has finally lied to me. It told me that I could have a kindred spirit. Second thought, No... life hasn't lied to me just yet. I still have a kindred spirit, I just can't speak to him at the moment, nor for the rest of the month... Or, can't I?