InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ What Fate Has Brought Us ❯ Chapter 22 ( Chapter 22 )
[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyashaor its characters.
I had tossed and turned during the night, hardly getting any sleep at all. I kept having nightmares involving my mate and Naraku fighting against each other on the battle field. In each nightmare, my mate was the one who received the final blow. I don’t know if my nightmares are trying to tell me something or if my fears of losing my mate had made themselves known.
“Kagome, are you alright?” My mate asked me, his eyes staring down at me with concern. “You were screaming this Sesshoumaru’s name with tears falling down the sides of your cheeks.”
I opened my eyes and turned my head towards Sesshoumaru. “I’m okay,” I spoke softly. “I was just experiencing some nightmares.”
I didn’t tell him more than that. I hoped he would let it go and talk about something else, but it was to much to hope for. He knew me well and knew there was more to it than I was telling him.
He rose an finely, sculpted eyebrow. “Do you always have to keep things from this Sesshoumaru? He is your mate and he will find out eventually. So you might as well get it over with and tell him.”
I glanced away and stared at the wall. I didn’t want to see the expression on his face when I revealed my nightmares to him. “It’s not just one nightmare,” I revealed, keeping my voice steady. Even though I was still frightened. “In each one I had dreamt you were killed by Naraku’s tentacles. He would catch you unaware and strike you in the back, while you were distracted.”
My mate took me in his arms when he saw the glimmer of tears in my blue eyes. He began to rock me back and forth, whispering endearments into my ears. After a few minutes, I quieted down and Sesshoumaru wiped away my wet tears with his hand. He then wiped the wetness from his hands onto the blanket behind him. He believes I didn’t notice, but I did. And his gesture meant more to me than he would ever know.
I was startled when he lifted me, settling me in front of him and wrapped his arms around my growing stomach. I leaned back against his chest and listened to his heartbeat, just as I did before I fell asleep last night.
Not wanting to admit my fears to my mate, I couldn’t shake off the feeling that something bad was going to happen. I realize that deaths and injuries occur during a battle, but I knew it was going to affect me personally. The nightmares I had won’t leave my mind, even with Sesshoumaru’s gentle words.
Kaede had taught me a priestess is sometimes born with the power to see the future. Some can see them while awake and some can see them in their dreams. I just hope that I am not one of them. That my dreams were actually nightmares and not a dream of what will occur.
My mate dropped a kiss to my hair. “Your nightmares are just tricks your mind is playing on you,” he tried to reassure me, as he felt my thoughts drifting elsewhere. “This Sesshoumaru will not let that half breed get the upper hand. He will die this day and this Sesshoumaru will be the one to do it.”
I tilted my head back and looked up at him. “I know you will,” I spoke confidently. “Or if you can’t kill him, you will make sure he will receive a serious injury that will take a long time for him to recover.”
He kissed me then and I tilted my head back even further, to fully enjoy the warmth of that kiss. His hands roamed down my arms, sending a tingling sensation down to my lower region. I began to moan and wanted to feel more, but he abruptly stopped.
“We need to prepare,” he told me, gently removing himself from me, and started to move towards the springs. I sighed as I slid out of the futon and followed after him.
Our bath was a quick affair. Neither one of us spoke very much.
He dressed in his usual attire, while I decided to dress myself in something practical. I didn’t think I would dress in priestess clothing again, after finding myself mated to a demon, but Kikyo had lent me her spare clothing. So my silk kimonos wouldn’t get dirty.
I only changed one thing to the outfit and that was the haori. I had chose one of Sesshoumaru’s instead. From the snort coming from him, I think he approves. It will let everyone know exactly who I belonged to and I needed his scent to comfort me, while he went off to fight. I would be a mess otherwise.
Sesshoumaru looked towards me and I knew it was time for us to head down to the courtyard, where I would send my mate with my final farewell to the battlefield to face Naraku. I should be by his side, fighting along side him, but my place was here. I am to play the perfect mate and stay behind with his pup, while he faces the enemy.
He offered me his arm and I looked up at him in surprise. A female demon is supposed to walk a few paces behind a male demon. Was he breaking protocol just for me? Did he see me as his equal?
Sesshoumaru continued to stare at me and motioned for me to take his arm by raising his elbow up a couple of inches. I couldn’t refuse him and linked my arm through his. He led us to the main entrance and out into the courtyard, where the bystanders and soldiers moved to the side to allow us through.
We stopped just before we reached the gate and turned towards one another. A sad smile lifted my lips. My blue eyes equally sad as I held out my hands towards him, then let them fall to my sides, remembering he still had an image to keep. No matter how much I wanted to touch him.
I tried not to think of anything happening to my mate during the battle, where I would not be able to see or help him. And I tried not to cry, because I knew that if I did I would lose control. But the tears streamed down my face as I realized this might be the last time that I would see him alive. I could lose him to Naraku.
He surprised me again by reaching over and pushed the hair back from my face that had gotten loose from the ponytail, and used his thumb to trace the trail of tears rapidly flowing down my damp cheeks. I leaned into his touch, not knowing when I would feel it again.
I lifted my head and looked him in the eyes. “Promise me that you will live and come back to me. I couldn’t bare it if you did not,” I finished in a soft whisper, not wanting to be over heard. This was our private moment and I didn’t want anyone to destroy it.
“You have my promise.” He pulled me against him roughly, and I felt his lips press the top of my head. “I will find you when this is over.”
I turned away so he wouldn’t see my expression, and tried to ignore the hard knot in my throat and the tight ache in my chest. I wasn’t ready for him to leave. I wanted to have more time with him.
My mate seemed to sense my new mood and leaned forward, plating a lingering kiss on my mouth. I returned the kiss with passion and as usual, our kiss became heated to the point where soft moans could be heard.
“We must be on our way,” Inuyasha said, hating to interrupt the moment between us. “The sky is getting brighter.”
Inuyasha gave me a quick grin, as I stepped away from my mate.
I went to him and felt his arms wrap around me in a hug. “You be careful, you hear,” he said, tightening his grip as he realized he was going to fight Naraku without me by his side. “And take care of those pups of yours.”
“I will,” I answered, not really knowing what to say.
Miroku cleared his throat. “You mentioned we need to get moving, Inuyasha.”
I couldn’t help but laugh. “I wish you luck,” I said, realizing I could lose him too.
“I don’t need luck. I will defeat him on my own.”
“I wish you luck anyways,” I whispered to him.
After what seemed like hours but in truth it was just a few minutes, I stepped away from him. “If you get killed, I will never forgive you.”
He looked at me like I was out of my mind. “Like I would let Naraku kill me.”
I gave each one of my friends a hug and said to them the same thing I told Inuyasha. They went to stand next the lords they were given to follow in the battle, and I focused my attentions back on my mate.
“I love you,” I whispered, placing my hands around his neck.
He in turn lifted me off the ground and hugged me tightly to him. “This Sesshoumaru cares for you also,” he spoke loud enough for everyone standing nearby to hear. I blushed, feeling content that he loved me as much as I did him.
Then he lifted a hand, placed it against my cheek, and leaned forward once more, planting another kiss on my mouth. It felt as if it was our final kiss.
I watched with tears in my eyes, as he formed his red cloud underneath his feet and took off. The four lords, along with their soldiers and my friends, left behind him. They would soon break off into four different directions once they near the battle site.
He didn’t turn around to look at me, but I kept my gaze fastened on him until I couldn’t see him anymore. I closed my eyes to let out the few remaining tears and took a couple of deep breaths to calm myself, before wiping my cheeks with the ends of my sleeves.
Whirling around, I started to give out orders to set up futons, collect the medicine, and the strips of cloth we had tore earlier. I watched them go forth and do my biding, while I began to erect a tent at the outer edge. We didn’t need the injured soldiers to watch as their own died. They would never recover from the trauma.
It wasn’t long before Ah-Un brought in the wounded soldiers on his back. A couple of the male demons, left behind to help and protect me, headed over to the dragon and removed them. I directed them to the futons, where a couple of the women began to work on them. Thankfully, they weren’t too injured except for a couple of cuts and bruises.
But just when Ah-Un left, it seemed as if he brought back even more than before. The futons were soon filled and we even had to place some of the injured soldiers on the grass.
Sweat beaded down my forehead and I reached up to wipe it dry. I bent over the newest injured soldier and shook my head to the nearest male demon. He took my hint and took the man to the tent. I felt guilty that I couldn’t help heal him, but his organs were hanging out of his stomach. I couldn’t perform that miracle even if I wanted to.
I looked around the courtyard and a feeling of unease came over me. It seemed as if our side was losing. There are so many soldiers injured. So many more than even I thought. And they just keep coming.
I did what I could for the fading demons, but even a priestess can’t hold off death when it must come. They fought bravely and will die honorably.
These demons looked up to me and all I can do for them is smile, and pretend that everything’s okay.
Hearing a female yell at someone for getting blood on her dress, I turned my head and noticed Asuka chewing out one of the maids. I had someone take over the demon I was working on and stormed over to her.
“What is your deal, Asuka?” I yelled at her. I was tired and I didn’t need her acting like a prima donna right now. I had to much to do still. “If you haven’t noticed you’re in the middle of the courtyard, where the injured are being brought. Of course, you’re going to get blood on you, baka. Now, make yourself useful and do something.”
She looked at me like she truly saw me for the first time. “What do you want me to do? I am not talented as most of these females.”
“I don’t know,” I said, rubbing my temples. “Go comfort the males in the tent. Even you can hold their hand and give them comfort in their final moment.”
Muttering, she did as told.
Hours passed and I was getting even more tired. I had to take quite a few breaks for the sake of my pup. And speaking of my pups, I couldn’t be more proud of them. They are helping out where they can and haven’t even complained. I must reward them later for their efforts. I think they will like that.
I shook my head as an uneasy feeling washed over me. Something wasn’t right. This feeling nagged at me, but I couldn’t figure out why I was feeling this way.
I found out what that feeling meant when Inuyasha appeared with torn clothing and blood spattered all over him. He looked weary and I smile at him, walking over to greet him. “Where is Sesshoumaru?” I asked, glancing behind him.
He cleared his throat and avoided looking at me.
My smile faded, as I stared at him with a strange look in my eyes. I should be able to sense my mate, but I couldn’t.
He had yet to say anything or even make a noise. I was getting worried when everyone else that arrived after him, gave me looks of sorrow and pity. “Where is Sesshoumaru?” I repeated, hoping to get an answer this time.
Inuyasha must have sensed the near hysteria in my voice and decided her couldn’t keep the truth from me anymore. “I don’t know how to tell you this,” he finally admitted. “I don’t want to see you hurt.”
I didn’t need my feelings spared, I needed answers.
“We don’t know what happened to him, Kagome,” he told me in a whisper. “We can’t find him anywhere and presume he’s dead.”
It took my stunned brain a second or two to absorb the fact. I suddenly paled and put a hand to my mouth. “It can’t be true,” I whispered brokenly. “He promised he would come back to me. He promised!”
I knew he was telling the truth. I could see it in his eyes. “I don’t know what else to say, Kagome, except that I’m sorry,”
My knees began to buckle but I stiffened them, and stayed on my feet. I can’t appear to be weak. Even though my heart is breaking into millions of pieces.
Inuyasha looked intently at me, studying me for a moment. To see how well I was taking the news of my mate’s death. I made myself meet his gaze and wished I didn’t, because he looks so much like his brother and it hurts to look at him. To know that he’s alive, while my mate is not.
He waited for me to say something. Tears welled in my eyes and I turned my head to the side, trying to hide them. I can get through this. I know it will be hard but I will manage, somehow. I had to for the sake of my pups, my friends, and my subjects.
I took a deep breath, and let it out slowly. “Will you excuse me, please?”
Before Inuyasha took the step that would bring him within arms reach, I bolted past him. He caught the glimmer of tears in my eyes and so he let me go.
I run until I was I inside out bedchamber, collapsing on the floor. I let out a scream and continued to do so until my throat was raw, but it didn’t make me feel better.
I rubbed my rounded belly and whispered to my pup. “I wanted you to meet your sire, but it seems that won’t happen now. We’re on out own. You, me, Rin, and Shippo.”
I curled up on the floor and cried myself into an exhausted sleep. I hoped that the next time I awoke, it would all be a dream, that my mate wasn’t dead, he had won the battle, and I wouldn’t have to worry about Naraku.
To be continued…
I had tossed and turned during the night, hardly getting any sleep at all. I kept having nightmares involving my mate and Naraku fighting against each other on the battle field. In each nightmare, my mate was the one who received the final blow. I don’t know if my nightmares are trying to tell me something or if my fears of losing my mate had made themselves known.
“Kagome, are you alright?” My mate asked me, his eyes staring down at me with concern. “You were screaming this Sesshoumaru’s name with tears falling down the sides of your cheeks.”
I opened my eyes and turned my head towards Sesshoumaru. “I’m okay,” I spoke softly. “I was just experiencing some nightmares.”
I didn’t tell him more than that. I hoped he would let it go and talk about something else, but it was to much to hope for. He knew me well and knew there was more to it than I was telling him.
He rose an finely, sculpted eyebrow. “Do you always have to keep things from this Sesshoumaru? He is your mate and he will find out eventually. So you might as well get it over with and tell him.”
I glanced away and stared at the wall. I didn’t want to see the expression on his face when I revealed my nightmares to him. “It’s not just one nightmare,” I revealed, keeping my voice steady. Even though I was still frightened. “In each one I had dreamt you were killed by Naraku’s tentacles. He would catch you unaware and strike you in the back, while you were distracted.”
My mate took me in his arms when he saw the glimmer of tears in my blue eyes. He began to rock me back and forth, whispering endearments into my ears. After a few minutes, I quieted down and Sesshoumaru wiped away my wet tears with his hand. He then wiped the wetness from his hands onto the blanket behind him. He believes I didn’t notice, but I did. And his gesture meant more to me than he would ever know.
I was startled when he lifted me, settling me in front of him and wrapped his arms around my growing stomach. I leaned back against his chest and listened to his heartbeat, just as I did before I fell asleep last night.
Not wanting to admit my fears to my mate, I couldn’t shake off the feeling that something bad was going to happen. I realize that deaths and injuries occur during a battle, but I knew it was going to affect me personally. The nightmares I had won’t leave my mind, even with Sesshoumaru’s gentle words.
Kaede had taught me a priestess is sometimes born with the power to see the future. Some can see them while awake and some can see them in their dreams. I just hope that I am not one of them. That my dreams were actually nightmares and not a dream of what will occur.
My mate dropped a kiss to my hair. “Your nightmares are just tricks your mind is playing on you,” he tried to reassure me, as he felt my thoughts drifting elsewhere. “This Sesshoumaru will not let that half breed get the upper hand. He will die this day and this Sesshoumaru will be the one to do it.”
I tilted my head back and looked up at him. “I know you will,” I spoke confidently. “Or if you can’t kill him, you will make sure he will receive a serious injury that will take a long time for him to recover.”
He kissed me then and I tilted my head back even further, to fully enjoy the warmth of that kiss. His hands roamed down my arms, sending a tingling sensation down to my lower region. I began to moan and wanted to feel more, but he abruptly stopped.
“We need to prepare,” he told me, gently removing himself from me, and started to move towards the springs. I sighed as I slid out of the futon and followed after him.
Our bath was a quick affair. Neither one of us spoke very much.
He dressed in his usual attire, while I decided to dress myself in something practical. I didn’t think I would dress in priestess clothing again, after finding myself mated to a demon, but Kikyo had lent me her spare clothing. So my silk kimonos wouldn’t get dirty.
I only changed one thing to the outfit and that was the haori. I had chose one of Sesshoumaru’s instead. From the snort coming from him, I think he approves. It will let everyone know exactly who I belonged to and I needed his scent to comfort me, while he went off to fight. I would be a mess otherwise.
Sesshoumaru looked towards me and I knew it was time for us to head down to the courtyard, where I would send my mate with my final farewell to the battlefield to face Naraku. I should be by his side, fighting along side him, but my place was here. I am to play the perfect mate and stay behind with his pup, while he faces the enemy.
He offered me his arm and I looked up at him in surprise. A female demon is supposed to walk a few paces behind a male demon. Was he breaking protocol just for me? Did he see me as his equal?
Sesshoumaru continued to stare at me and motioned for me to take his arm by raising his elbow up a couple of inches. I couldn’t refuse him and linked my arm through his. He led us to the main entrance and out into the courtyard, where the bystanders and soldiers moved to the side to allow us through.
We stopped just before we reached the gate and turned towards one another. A sad smile lifted my lips. My blue eyes equally sad as I held out my hands towards him, then let them fall to my sides, remembering he still had an image to keep. No matter how much I wanted to touch him.
I tried not to think of anything happening to my mate during the battle, where I would not be able to see or help him. And I tried not to cry, because I knew that if I did I would lose control. But the tears streamed down my face as I realized this might be the last time that I would see him alive. I could lose him to Naraku.
He surprised me again by reaching over and pushed the hair back from my face that had gotten loose from the ponytail, and used his thumb to trace the trail of tears rapidly flowing down my damp cheeks. I leaned into his touch, not knowing when I would feel it again.
I lifted my head and looked him in the eyes. “Promise me that you will live and come back to me. I couldn’t bare it if you did not,” I finished in a soft whisper, not wanting to be over heard. This was our private moment and I didn’t want anyone to destroy it.
“You have my promise.” He pulled me against him roughly, and I felt his lips press the top of my head. “I will find you when this is over.”
I turned away so he wouldn’t see my expression, and tried to ignore the hard knot in my throat and the tight ache in my chest. I wasn’t ready for him to leave. I wanted to have more time with him.
My mate seemed to sense my new mood and leaned forward, plating a lingering kiss on my mouth. I returned the kiss with passion and as usual, our kiss became heated to the point where soft moans could be heard.
“We must be on our way,” Inuyasha said, hating to interrupt the moment between us. “The sky is getting brighter.”
Inuyasha gave me a quick grin, as I stepped away from my mate.
I went to him and felt his arms wrap around me in a hug. “You be careful, you hear,” he said, tightening his grip as he realized he was going to fight Naraku without me by his side. “And take care of those pups of yours.”
“I will,” I answered, not really knowing what to say.
Miroku cleared his throat. “You mentioned we need to get moving, Inuyasha.”
I couldn’t help but laugh. “I wish you luck,” I said, realizing I could lose him too.
“I don’t need luck. I will defeat him on my own.”
“I wish you luck anyways,” I whispered to him.
After what seemed like hours but in truth it was just a few minutes, I stepped away from him. “If you get killed, I will never forgive you.”
He looked at me like I was out of my mind. “Like I would let Naraku kill me.”
I gave each one of my friends a hug and said to them the same thing I told Inuyasha. They went to stand next the lords they were given to follow in the battle, and I focused my attentions back on my mate.
“I love you,” I whispered, placing my hands around his neck.
He in turn lifted me off the ground and hugged me tightly to him. “This Sesshoumaru cares for you also,” he spoke loud enough for everyone standing nearby to hear. I blushed, feeling content that he loved me as much as I did him.
Then he lifted a hand, placed it against my cheek, and leaned forward once more, planting another kiss on my mouth. It felt as if it was our final kiss.
I watched with tears in my eyes, as he formed his red cloud underneath his feet and took off. The four lords, along with their soldiers and my friends, left behind him. They would soon break off into four different directions once they near the battle site.
He didn’t turn around to look at me, but I kept my gaze fastened on him until I couldn’t see him anymore. I closed my eyes to let out the few remaining tears and took a couple of deep breaths to calm myself, before wiping my cheeks with the ends of my sleeves.
Whirling around, I started to give out orders to set up futons, collect the medicine, and the strips of cloth we had tore earlier. I watched them go forth and do my biding, while I began to erect a tent at the outer edge. We didn’t need the injured soldiers to watch as their own died. They would never recover from the trauma.
It wasn’t long before Ah-Un brought in the wounded soldiers on his back. A couple of the male demons, left behind to help and protect me, headed over to the dragon and removed them. I directed them to the futons, where a couple of the women began to work on them. Thankfully, they weren’t too injured except for a couple of cuts and bruises.
But just when Ah-Un left, it seemed as if he brought back even more than before. The futons were soon filled and we even had to place some of the injured soldiers on the grass.
Sweat beaded down my forehead and I reached up to wipe it dry. I bent over the newest injured soldier and shook my head to the nearest male demon. He took my hint and took the man to the tent. I felt guilty that I couldn’t help heal him, but his organs were hanging out of his stomach. I couldn’t perform that miracle even if I wanted to.
I looked around the courtyard and a feeling of unease came over me. It seemed as if our side was losing. There are so many soldiers injured. So many more than even I thought. And they just keep coming.
I did what I could for the fading demons, but even a priestess can’t hold off death when it must come. They fought bravely and will die honorably.
These demons looked up to me and all I can do for them is smile, and pretend that everything’s okay.
Hearing a female yell at someone for getting blood on her dress, I turned my head and noticed Asuka chewing out one of the maids. I had someone take over the demon I was working on and stormed over to her.
“What is your deal, Asuka?” I yelled at her. I was tired and I didn’t need her acting like a prima donna right now. I had to much to do still. “If you haven’t noticed you’re in the middle of the courtyard, where the injured are being brought. Of course, you’re going to get blood on you, baka. Now, make yourself useful and do something.”
She looked at me like she truly saw me for the first time. “What do you want me to do? I am not talented as most of these females.”
“I don’t know,” I said, rubbing my temples. “Go comfort the males in the tent. Even you can hold their hand and give them comfort in their final moment.”
Muttering, she did as told.
Hours passed and I was getting even more tired. I had to take quite a few breaks for the sake of my pup. And speaking of my pups, I couldn’t be more proud of them. They are helping out where they can and haven’t even complained. I must reward them later for their efforts. I think they will like that.
I shook my head as an uneasy feeling washed over me. Something wasn’t right. This feeling nagged at me, but I couldn’t figure out why I was feeling this way.
I found out what that feeling meant when Inuyasha appeared with torn clothing and blood spattered all over him. He looked weary and I smile at him, walking over to greet him. “Where is Sesshoumaru?” I asked, glancing behind him.
He cleared his throat and avoided looking at me.
My smile faded, as I stared at him with a strange look in my eyes. I should be able to sense my mate, but I couldn’t.
He had yet to say anything or even make a noise. I was getting worried when everyone else that arrived after him, gave me looks of sorrow and pity. “Where is Sesshoumaru?” I repeated, hoping to get an answer this time.
Inuyasha must have sensed the near hysteria in my voice and decided her couldn’t keep the truth from me anymore. “I don’t know how to tell you this,” he finally admitted. “I don’t want to see you hurt.”
I didn’t need my feelings spared, I needed answers.
“We don’t know what happened to him, Kagome,” he told me in a whisper. “We can’t find him anywhere and presume he’s dead.”
It took my stunned brain a second or two to absorb the fact. I suddenly paled and put a hand to my mouth. “It can’t be true,” I whispered brokenly. “He promised he would come back to me. He promised!”
I knew he was telling the truth. I could see it in his eyes. “I don’t know what else to say, Kagome, except that I’m sorry,”
My knees began to buckle but I stiffened them, and stayed on my feet. I can’t appear to be weak. Even though my heart is breaking into millions of pieces.
Inuyasha looked intently at me, studying me for a moment. To see how well I was taking the news of my mate’s death. I made myself meet his gaze and wished I didn’t, because he looks so much like his brother and it hurts to look at him. To know that he’s alive, while my mate is not.
He waited for me to say something. Tears welled in my eyes and I turned my head to the side, trying to hide them. I can get through this. I know it will be hard but I will manage, somehow. I had to for the sake of my pups, my friends, and my subjects.
I took a deep breath, and let it out slowly. “Will you excuse me, please?”
Before Inuyasha took the step that would bring him within arms reach, I bolted past him. He caught the glimmer of tears in my eyes and so he let me go.
I run until I was I inside out bedchamber, collapsing on the floor. I let out a scream and continued to do so until my throat was raw, but it didn’t make me feel better.
I rubbed my rounded belly and whispered to my pup. “I wanted you to meet your sire, but it seems that won’t happen now. We’re on out own. You, me, Rin, and Shippo.”
I curled up on the floor and cried myself into an exhausted sleep. I hoped that the next time I awoke, it would all be a dream, that my mate wasn’t dead, he had won the battle, and I wouldn’t have to worry about Naraku.
To be continued…