InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Woes of Night ❯ Woes of Night ( One-Shot )

Woes of Night  

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  She often wondered, was it really worth it? Everything in life seemed so complicated, especially when it was her life. The raven haired girl glanced over to the sleeping hanyou up in the tree. Would anything ever be simple for them? Ever? For her?

She was human just like Sango or Miroku, both of whom had so many worries. Kagome too had worries, perhaps not as significant as those of her friends in the feudal era, but she did. There were often days when she felt depressed; she wasn’t her cheerful self as everyone knew her to be. Being the cheerful one all the time was tiring. No one ever considered that maybe it was an act.

Things were not fine with her; they had never been fine since her younger years. She’d learned happiness and absorbing herself in other activities, no matter how unimportant they were helped. She could escape reality. She could drown herself in others’ problems.

Kagome laughed bitterly, a tear trailing down a smooth cheek, illuminated by the burning embers of the camp fire while the other’s slept.

She loved helping people, but after all this time, she had realized the one who perhaps needed the most help was her. She buried herself in other projects, in the quest for the Shikon no Tama, in school, in everything she did. She buried herself so far in so she wouldn’t have to think. She wouldn’t have to feel. She wouldn’t have to cope.

She’d ran from her problems. She’d constantly avoided everything that could not fit neatly and securely in her life.

Kagome was tired of running; of living her life as if everything was out to get her. As if living on-edge was normal and fun. As if she was fine, when obviously she was not. Inuyasha knew this, she believed, only he wasunsure how to help her.

Kagome was tired of allowing others to help her. Wiping the tears falling down her cheeks away, extinguishing their existence in her world, Kagome stood and looking out into the dark sky, alight with twinkling stars, she made a vow.

Things would change. This existence of hers was not living. The first step to receiving help was recognizing the truth for what it was. Now she would seek help. Physical strength was hard to gain without inner-strength. Relying on others’ strengths would soon be a thing of the past. However, first she needed to find hers’.

After a year, Kagome found herself smiling for real. True strength lay in recognizing truths for what they were and acting upon them. Weakness was a thing of the past for the time-traveler.  

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Just a small reflective short-short on Kagome's inner hauntings. I was sad when I wrote this, so sorry if it's a bit deep...very personal to my heart, you could say.

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha!