InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ You're My Everything ❯ I'm a slave for you ( Chapter 6 )

6. I'm A Slave For You

 

Inuyasha ran, tears streaming down his face. He was done, finished with Sesshoumaru and his high and mighty ways. What the hell did he think of himself??? He gave him everything, and this is hoe he was treated. He would…he would go far far away from him and find a new master, one who at least cares about him. Someone who had a heart.

 

Kouga…even his arch enemy Kouga had treated him well, better than his own brother. He would start a new life. He knew, though, that Sesshoumaru would not let him go that easily. He would no doubt pursue him and punish him for this but he could at least try.

 

He ran for days and finally, stopped at a village. Once he went to the headman's house, he recognized it as one of the villages he had saved a long time ago. The headman bowed deeply to him.

 

“Inuyasha-sama. It is an honor. Please, make yourself at home. How may I be of service to you?”

 

Inuyasha managed to hide his surprise. He had gotten so used to being treated like dirt that this respect was…going to need a little getting used to. And he didn't remember villagers ever being this kind and nice to a hanyou. Oh well, maybe things had changed a bit.

 

…

 

Two days later, Inuyasha sighed as he looked down from the tree that he was currently occupying. His hope that the villagers had perhaps become kinder had been quickly dispelled when he realized that the reason they were so glad to have him there was because there was a youkai threatening them. Inuyasha had swiftly taken care of him and the “kind” villagers had swiftly lost interest in his wellbeing. Now that Inuyasha was living his old life, the life that he had lived years ago before Kikyou, he could not shake off the notion that something was missing. He was not happy. Everything seemed futile to him; fighting, killing, winning. Inuyasha wondered if he had really fallen so much that freedom no longer suited him. A tiny part of him agreed that perhaps he would be happier under some else's care but the major part of him balked at the idea of being dependent on someone, of practically searching out someone to lord over him.

 

While he knew that, as an uke, he would yearn for some form of protection and sense of belonging, the problem was that due to the abrupt way in which he had fallen into the role of being an uke, he was not yet used to, or accepting of the idea that he was not seme and it just seemed wrong to him to find someone who would dominate him.

 

Sesshoumaru's image flashed in his mind and he shook his head defiantly. He would die but he would not go back to that arrogant son of a bitch. After deciding on staying on in the village for a while, Inuyasha had been tense in the beginning, expecting Sesshoumaru to come tearing into the village anytime and forcibly taking him back. Two days later, however, ti was becoming increasingly clear that Sesshoumaru was not going to chase him, because it would not take this long for the demn lord to find him. His hand ghosted over the Kanji character on his forehead and he sighed again. What was he going to do now?

 

Suddenly he felt a familiar scent coming closer and he frowned, leaping lightly down from the tree. Odd. He had never felt that particular smell draw near so slowly.

 

He moved in the direction of the scent, just to confirm that it was, indeed him and sure enough:

 

“Kouga! What happened to you??” Kouga was limping, he was bandaged all over and there were dark circles under his eyes.

 

“Inuyasha…” he spoke slowly. Inuyasha's eyes widened. He had never seen Kouga like this before. He had seen him highly wounded, almost on the verge of death but not like this. He went closer and took a deep breath. His eyes widened.

 

“You're covered in Sesshoumaru's scent ….so that means...he did this to you?? But why??”

 

Kouga seemed to choose his words carefully. “Sesshoumaru-sama and I…got into a disagreement….” Inuyasha could not believe his ears. Kouga never called anyone -sama.

 

Kouga offered him a small smile. “Don't worry, Inuyasha. It was my fault. I…over-stepped my boundaries. Things are fine now.”

 

Over-stepped his boundaries…that meant that he and Sesshoumaru must have some sort of an agreement which explained the fact that Kouga was still alive. Inuyasha winced. But that only meant that Sesshoumaru must have tortured him in punishment. Ouch.

 

“But where-” Inuyasha swallowed the question he was itching to ask. No, he would not lower his pride by enquiring after Sesshoumaru.

 

“What are you doing here?”

 

Kouga looked at him carefully then shrugged as much as his injured shoulder would allow. Kouga didn't tell him that he was lucky Inuyasha had decided to run much in the same direction as Kouga himself had run so that the place where his…encounter…with Sesshoumaru took place was not very far from this village. Lucky, because otherwise, he would not have been able to travel any great distance given the fact that despite his youkai healing powers, he could barely walk. That and his wounds seemed to be healing very slowly indeed. Clearly, Sesshoumaru's poison was very powerful.

 

“I was nearby, I smelled you. Wanted to make sure you were alright.”

 

Inuyasha stared at him as if to confirm that this really was Kouga. It was extremely surreal to have Kouga concerned over his health.

 

“Do ya- do you need help?” Inuyasha hesitated, looking him over.

 

Kouga shook his head. “Nah I'll be fine, just give it time.”

 

“Inuyasha…I-” Kouga stopped as if gathering his words. Inuyasha waited impatiently. Really, this new Kouga was very irritating, not that the old one had been any walk in the park.

 

When Kouga finally looked at him with knowing eyes, Inuyasha's breath caught. “Don't be afraid to…do what makes you happy.”

 

Inuyasha stared at him dumbfounded. Do what makes you happy…What did that mean anymore? Could he really do it? Find someone to replace Sesshoumaru in his heart? Would that really make him happy?

 

His eyes shone with newfound resolve. Yes that is what he would do. He would find someone else. Someone who at least cared for him a little. He would make himself happy with someone else and then maybe he could rid himself of the sick masochism that seemed to have come in full bloom in Sesshoumaru's company. Yes, he would find someone who led him away from his own worst self, unlike a certain sadistic bastard who reveled in it.

 

…

 

This, as Inuyasha was soon to find out, was easier said than done.

 

He had found someone. That was not so difficult, because half-demon or not, Inuyasha was well aware that he was not bad looking. As such, once he started looking, he had found eligible partners. Finally, he had settled upon a bull youkai, a quiet, somber demon he had become good friends with. Without outright having to say it, the bull demon, named Kaitou, had understood Inuyasha's plight and had quietly offered his support which Inuyasha had gratefully accepted. As time passed, however, Inuyasha realized that he was reluctant to let the relationship move beyond friendship.

 

Kaitou was, by no means a bad looking male. He was tall, well muscled with long brown hair that he tied in a high ponytail and dark bluish-black eyes. As seme, Kaitou had initiated their courtship, letting Inuyasha know of his intentions with light touches and then soft, almost chaste kisses. While Inuyasha was not out right repulsed, he had to admit that he felt nothing, no attraction.

 

He cursed Sesshoumaru and his own unruly body that would not co-operate, would not understand what was good for him. He felt affection for this demon, sure but it was no more than that. Inuyasha scowled. At this rate, he would be miserable for the rest of his life! No, this was not good. Lips thinning in resolve, Inuyasha decided to do something about the situation.

…

 

Kaitou was returning from an errand in the forest when he felt soft arms wrap around him from behind. He smiled. So Inuyasha had finally decided to reciprocate his attentions…he turned and embraced Inuyasha gently but strongly. Inuyasha swallowed hard, trying to get rid of his nerves. When Kaito kissed him, gently at first, Inuyasha had to work hard to bring himself to respond. But he did, gently thrusting his tongue into the other demon's mouth. They tongue-dueled gently for a while and then Kaitou pulled back, Inuyasha still circled within his arms. He looked searchingly into Inuyasha's eyes who met his gaze whit his own determined one.

 

Tenderly, Kaito slipped off the sleeves of Inuyasha's haori. To help him, Inuyasha shrugged it off himself rest of the way. He felt Kaito's hand move softly under his under kimono, felt it ghost over his chest and nipples, and shut his eyes tightly. He would not chicken out of this now…he would not...he would not…

 

Kaito felt him tense under his touch and looked inquiringly at him. Inuyasha gave him a tremulous, reassuring smile and Kaito softly kissed him on the forehead. Inuyasha tried once again to relax.

 

Then he felt Kaito's hand go lower, lower, to brush his cock and Inuyasha jumped as if he'd been given an electric shock.

Kaito stopped, giving him a questioning look.

 

Inuyasha, on his part, was having an epiphany. Realization crashed upon him like an avalanche. This man…this demon, powerful though he was, was nothing compared to Sesshoumaru.

 

He looked up into his curious blue eyes and all he thought of was fathomless, ice gold eyes that knew him better than he knew himself. He heard his new master's heavy, mature voice and all he could think of was the taiyoukai's deep, sinfully dark voice. Every touch, every gesture reminded him of his real master's effortless grace, his raw power. This man…was nothing compared to him.

 

True, he was kinder and more caring but Sesshoumaru was the only one who knew him…since the day of his birth; knew all his secret, shameful desires. Yes, Sesshoumaru was the only one who had truly tamed him, marked him with his burning touches and his limitless power and control. He, Inuyasha, was forever a slave to the sadistic demon who kept him firmly under his heel. Inuyasha could think of no greater bliss than forever lying at is master's feet, being owned the taiyoukai of the Western Lands.

 

Inuyasha shut his eyes tightly. He was truly pathetic. But he could no longer deny his real self. Sesshoumaru had not made him masochistic. He had only accepted that part of him. And try as he might, even though he hated himself for it, he was who he was and no amount of pretending to be anyone else would do. He needed Sesshoumaru. It didn't matter if the demon Lord cared nothing for him. He was the only one who knew Inuyasha and Inuyasha had to be with him, near him, accepted by him, even if it meant as a slave. His life belonged to the taiyoukai.

 

But he had thrown all that away. Like a fool, he had thought that he could run away, could free himself from his desires and now, here he was pining after the demon Lord. Of course, Sesshoumaru would never take him back and he had been foolish enough to think that Sesshoumaru-sama would really come chasing after him, a worthless pathetic hanyou.

 

He backed away from Kaito, a look of horror and pain on his face, his fingers unconsciously went to the possession mark on his forehead. Kaito saw the gesture and understood immediately.

 

“I'm sorry!” Inuyasha said desperately and ran. Kaito watched him, a sad but knowing smile on his lips. He could not, after all, challenge the claim of the Lord of the Western lands.

 

…

 

Inuyasha traveled for days, frantically searching for any signs of the taiyoukai. He knew that he would not be able to find him if he did not want to be found but he took comfort in the fact that the Lord of the West would not bother hiding from a hanyou like him. But he was getting panicky. He had retraced his steps, going to the place where he had last been with him but there was no sign of him. He could not scent him anywhere. What was he to do now?

 

Dejected, he slumped down against a tree. Sesshoumaru could be on the other side of the world by now! How exactly was he to chase him?

 

Just then, he felt it. Sesshoumaru's powerful, imperious aura. He jumped to his feet and his knees almost buckled in relief. He was nearby and had no doubt sensed his arrival. An if he was willing revealing himself, that meant he wanted Inuyasha to go too him, right?

 

He sped off in the direction of the aura and soon enough, he came to the clearing where Sesshoumaru was apparently resting, flawless as ever. His eyes were closed, head resting lightly on a bent arm.

 

Then Inuyasha saw something that broke his heart. Lying near Sesshoumaru's feet, in a position he himself had occupied so many days ago was a young boy. A young, naked boy who was either sound asleep or unconscious and by the worn out look on his face, and his swollen lips, Inuyasha had no doubts as to what he had been doing.

 

“Sess-Sesshoumaru….” Sesshoumaru did not even deign to open his eyes.

 

Inuyasha's heart plummeted. He had already been replaced…

 

“Aniki-sama…I came to beg your forgiveness…”

 

“Get lost.” Inuyasha flinched as if he'd been struck.

 

“Sesshoumaru-sama please,” he cried out desperately. “I realized my mistake…I can't live without you…please forgive me…I-I'll do anything …”

 

“I believe you promised the same once before, hanyou.” Sesshoumaru's deep, cold voice sent shiver's down Inuyasha's spine.

 

“I…I don't know what else to say….please…I won't do it again... I beg of you…”

 

Sesshoumaru turned his face away. “You are not wanted. Leave. I called you here to let you know that the mark will disappear within a few days.”

 

Inuyasha's eyes widened in panic. He dropped to his knees. “No!! No please…master…punish me, use me, do whatever you want, but please…don't leave me…anything…anything but that…”

 

Sesshoumaru opened his eyes but did not look at him. “Why, hanyou? You were so keen for your freedom just a while ago,” he sounded amused. “I treat you very badly, do I not? Then go. You have your freedom.”

 

Inuyasha looked up desperately. “No you don't! You can treat me however you like! I don't care…I don't care…..please, if you don't want me, then kill me. Kill me, because as long as I am alive, my life and body and soul belong to you.”

 

Sesshoumaru finally glanced at him and Inuyasha's heart almost shut down at the sight of those clear, piercing eyes that could read him so clearly yet revealed nothing.

 

“You know not your own mind hanyou.”

 

“I do! I do now! Look, I'll prove it to you….I'll prove it. Order me. Order me to do anything at all and I will.”

 

Sesshoumaru finally turned fully and smiled. This should be…interesting….

 

A/N: There! The fast update I promised. Sess/Inu fun in the next chappie. Any ideas, suggestions as to what Sesshoumaru should do to Inu are welcome. Tell me what you think of this chapter!!