Kingdom Hearts Fan Fiction ❯ Aches of the heart ❯ Broken silence ( Chapter 4 )

FOUR : Broken silence

 

Sora descended the last wooden steps of the stairs leading into the welcoming hall and turned to his left to enter the dining room. From there he turned to his left again to walk over to the kitchen, when he heard the keys of a piano playing nearby.

Following the sound to the door at the outmost right of the room, he halted with his hand on the knob, wondering who it could be playing such a beautiful tune.

He opened the door slowly and peeked inside.

Bathing in the light of the full moon shining through the large windows sat a long white haired man behind a white piano that Sora recognised immediately. His fingers flew across the keys virtuously, the sound beautiful, yet melancholic at the same time.

Sora watched him for a while, the melody striking him deeply for some reason, the evoked emotions threatening to bring him to tears as the song reached its melodic peak.

Sephiroth sighed as he played the last note, opening his eyes when he felt another presence in the room. He calmly turned his head to look at the person standing by the door and couldn't help the small smile that passed his features. "Good evening, Sora." He whispered, recognising the small brunette, "It's been a while."

"That was beautiful…" Sora whispered with a small smile.

Sephiroth smiled again and looked back at the piano, "It has been a long time since I played though. Thank you."

The brunette smiled back, "Did you arrive long ago?"

"An hour or so." Sephiroth said, closing the key case. "Did I wake you?"

"Oh! No, I wasn't sleeping yet." Sora whispered with a blush on his face, making the other man chuckle in understanding. "I just came down for a drink."

Sephiroth nodded and stood, "Then I won't keep Riku waiting for you."

Sora just watched him pass by and couldn't help but feel sorry for Sephiroth for some reason. It didn't look like he had the same harsh feelings for his brother like Riku had for him, making him wonder what it actually was that had happened once again.

"It's good to see you, Sora. You look good." The elder man said with a brotherly smile, ruffling Sora's hair briefly. He then exited and left the youth in the dark, large room.

Sora exited too and watched with a slight frown how Sephiroth walked up the stairs. Maybe he would tell him what it was that bothered Riku so much… He shook the idea out of his head though; Riku told him he'd tell him, so there was no need to go ask someone else.

Still, as Sora walked up the stairs with a bottle of water 2 minutes later, he wondered whether Riku should be told of his brother's presence in the house tonight. He decided that he preferred keeping the peace between them and that if Riku wanted to get angry, he could do that in the morning.

 

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"You've got to be kidding me!"

 

Sora shook his head as he laid the last touch to the Christmas tree in the lounge. "I saw him last night. He's here."

Kairi blinked a few times at him as she came to him with two mugs of hot chocolate. "What did Riku say? Did they see each other?"

Sora turned around and accepted the mug she held out for him and shook his head, "Sephiroth had to work today and left early. Riku wasn't up yet. Thankfully."

Kairi raised an eyebrow and took a sip from her drink without saying anything.

"You know, I really don't think that Sephiroth is that bad." Sora softly spoke, sitting himself on one of the couches and looking at the decorated tree.

The redhead shook her head, lay her mug on the glass low table and took place next to her friend to face him sternly; "Na-uh, do you forget what he did to my brother? There's no way a guy like that can be good."

Sora sighed and directed his eyes to the brown surface of his warm drink, "But yesterday I felt these feelings of regret coming from him, like he really wanted to try."

"Try what?"

"Try to make things work." Sora said, looking at her, "I mean, he knows that he's not really wanted here, but still he wants to try."

Kairi gave him a suspicious look, "Is there something you're not telling me?"

Sora shrugged, "What?"

The redhead rolled her eyes, "You're feeling sorry for him."

"Well, yeah…" Sora whispered, "A little."

"Sora…" Kairi exasperatedly whispered, "He's a heartbreaker, a total egoist. He always goes out for what he's looking for. Who knows, maybe he tricked you!"

Sora gave her a doubtful stare, "Why would he do that?"

"Maybe because he wants you to see Riku as the bad guy and turn the tables in his favour."

"I would never chose sides against Riku, you know that." Sora reassuringly said, shaking his head.

Kairi shook her head in turn, "Just be careful Sora, he's very manipulative, don't always believe everything he says."

"Believe everything who says?"

Kairi and Sora turned their heads to the income hall and heard the front door close as Wakka suddenly appeared followed by Riku.

Kairi stood up and walked up to her boyfriend, "Believe everything that you say; just admit it: you didn't get him that Kamasutra kit for Christmas did you?"

"A Kamasutra kit?" Riku echoed, walking passed them and sitting next to Sora to kiss him on his lips.

Sora chuckled and he and Kairi shared a knowing gaze, Sora silently thanking her.

"Sora will just have to wait until next week to find that out, now won't he?" Wakka responded with a sly smile to his girlfriend, kissing her nose.

"So, got to see the horses?" Sora asked Wakka.

"Yeah, though I don't think I'll be riding one any time soon… One of them almost bit my hand off when I tried to feed it with a carrot." He answered, moving himself to sit on the other couch with his girlfriend on his lap.

Riku chuckled, "Bryn is a little temperamental, but he'll grow to like you."

"What did the trainer say? Can we go horse riding tomorrow?" Sora softly whispered to his boyfriend.

"Yeah, it should be no problem." Riku whispered back with a loving smile.

"Okay, that's settled then," Kairi spoke, "Sora and I decorated the house and we think we deserve a reward for that."

"It really is beautifully decorated…" Riku said as he looked around, "But you're not going to tell me that you got to that chandelier all by yourself."

"Or got to the top of the windows to stick those stars up there." Wakka added with a grin.

"Hey, we worked hard!" Sora protested.

"Uh-huh, Leon or Cloud helped, didn't they?" Riku said with a doubtful look as he kept admiring the nice decorative work.

"Just a little." Kairi said, holding her right thumb and index slightly apart.

That made both Riku and Wakka chuckle.

"Don't we deserve some sort of reward?" Sora whispered softly to Riku, putting up his best puppy eyes.

"Yeah…" Kairi whispered to her boyfriend.

Riku turned his head to his friend, "Is now the right time?"

"It's time, brotha." Wakka agreed.

"We passed by a club on our way back…" Riku started.

"And we saw this poster of a big star hanging out." Wakka continued.

Riku reached over to Sora's forehead and tucked a strand of his hair behind an ear, "We wanted to surprise you guys with maybe a nice night out…"

"Yet sadly, to our dismay, all tickets were sold out…" the redhead said with a sad look on his face.

"Who was it?" Kairi asked softly, but Wakka silenced her and continued. "So my bro and I got out of the car to see if there wasn't any way possible to still get in."

"Cause you see," Riku took over, "We both knew how much you two would like to see this person and because we love you more than anything in this world…"

Sora was starting to get impatient, "Tell us already!"

Wakka chuckled, "You tell them?"

Riku nodded, while turning his head back to look at Sora, "And so, Wakka and I bought tickets in pre-sale before coming to Crystle…"

Sora moved himself to sit with his knees on the couch, "And…?" He urged, speaking through his teeth and taking Riku by his collar, shaking him slightly.

"And… we got you guys back-stage passes to see Utada tonight." Riku spoke with a small smirk on his face.

For a moment Sora just looked at him and then he looked at Kairi who had the same disbelieving expression on her face. And then…

"Are you frickin' kidding me?!!" Sora yelled, before embracing his boyfriend, "That's unbelievable! Oh baby, thankyouthankyouthankyou!!!"

"This doesn't count as a Christmas present now does it?" Kairi suspiciously asked her boyfriend.

Wakka chuckled and nuzzled his nose against hers lovingly, "Do I need a reason to give my baby a special night out?"

Kairi giggled and thought about it for a moment before shaking her head and jumping up with Sora to sing the first verse of 'Devil inside' and then screaming at the top of their lungs in total excitement.

The other two just shared a chuckle before covering their ears and silently leaving the lounge with pleased smiles on their faces.

"We're good, ya?"

Riku chuckled and slapped his hand in Wakka's waiting one, "You bet your ass we are bro."

 

 

"Cloud Strife is here to see you, sir."

 

Frowning slightly, Sephiroth pressed in the button of the intercom, "Let him in, Lynn."

The door to his office suddenly flew open and a very pissed off Cloud entered before closing the door again. "We need to talk."

Sephiroth sat back with a questioning eyebrow, letting go of the pen he had been holding and putting it in front of him on his desk. "Hello to you too, Cloud." He said softly, "How may I help you?"

"Quit the fucking attitude, Sephiroth."

"What's wrong?" The elder man softly asked with concern.

"Oh please, like you care!" Cloud scoffed, "Like you fucking care!"

Sephiroth didn't reply but simply looked at him with a non-understanding expression.

"I need you to stay away from me!" Cloud said, irritated by the other's dumbfounded expression, "I need you to stop ruining my life!"

This made the elder man stand up and keep his eyes on the other man, who was returning the gaze defiantly. Sephiroth approached him and stopped right in front of him. "Don't fight it, just give into it."

Cloud shook his head as he took a step back, "You're so self-conceited…" He wanted to walk away, but was held back.

"Am I?" Sephiroth whispered, "Am I really, Cloud?"

I can't do this…Cloud thought to himself, trying desperately to free himself from Sephiroth's grip on his left arm. "Let go of me!"

"Tell me the true reason for your coming here, Cloud." Sephiroth whispered softly, feeling the blonde's resolve to be angry slowly crumble.

"I hate you!" Cloud tearfully whispered, his body refusing to struggle any longer against what was so obvious, but his heart not willing to forget what pain he endured because of the man. "I hate you so much for what you did to me…!"

"Cloud…" Compassionately whispered, closing his eyes in remorse.

"I never told you… but I loved you, Sephiroth." The blonde now whimpered, his eyes tightly closed, "I loved you so much and you just ripped my heart out like it was nothing. How can I forgive you? How do you expect me to act after 7 years?"

Sephiroth made the blonde turn around and pulled him closer to him, "I've never stopped thinking about you. I've never stopped regretting either…"

Cloud didn't look at him, stubbornly refusing to. "It's too late."

"Is it?" Sephiroth whispered, making Cloud look up at him finally.

"You ruined it for us and I'm in love with another man now." Cloud turned his head to the side and closed his eyes, "We can't go back to what we were."

"Then at least give me this…" Sephiroth whispered as he lowered his lips on Cloud's, taking advantage of the blonde's weak moment.

Despite himself, Cloud found himself kissing him back fiercely, pouring in all the hate, all the pain and love he had been holding back for seven long years. His body seemed to have a will of its own; his heart feeling like it was on the verge of breaking, yet endlessly happy at the same time. He took his face in his hands and deepened the kiss, not wanting it to end, not wanting to return to reality… A reality where he couldn't and shouldn't be kissing Sephiroth like this, where he already had a loving and caring partner in his life and where his desires for his ex shouldn't be re-surfacing like they did now.

Sephiroth broke the kiss, looking into the other man's eyes intently, "We can have it all, Cloud. All I'm asking for is you."

Cloud closed his eyes at this and caressed his right cheek against Sephiroth's hand holding his face, a silent tear rolling out of his right eye. "You don't know what you're asking of me…"

Sephiroth gave him an indulgent look, "I'll be satisfied with what you can give, Cloud…"

The blonde sniffled and took a step back from him, disengaging their embrace. He needed some time to think it all through; he didn't know what he would do, where things stood between him and Leon and where what he just did would lead him to. He was old enough to know that he couldn't love two persons at the same time without tearing himself emotionally apart… and, inevitably, hurting someone along the way…

He turned around and exited Sephiroth's office, leaving a part of his heart behind with the one he once used to call his own.

 

 

The clock on the wall in front of him indicated 1.40 am as he looked up from his sitting position at the end of the bed he shared with Leon. He could hear the soft whispers of Sora and Riku who just returned from their night out with Kairi and Wakka. He waited patiently in the darkness of his room for the silence to return in the house after he had heard all bedroom doors close themselves. He then slowly stood up, leaving Leon asleep in their bed and made his way to the door where he exited on the tip of his toes.

Once in the corridor of the second floor, he then took the stairs right in front of their door leading to the third level of the house and to the attic room.

Not wasting any time with hesitating any longer, Cloud opened the sole door at the top of the stairs as soundlessly as he could, peeking inside the large, dark room.

He found himself in Sephiroth's home office now, and there was a door at the opposite site of the space. He crossed the room quickly, still on the tip of his bare toes until he reached the next door and laid a hand on the doorknob. The door opened without a noise, granting him access to a moonlit bedroom.

On his right he found a king-size bed and in it, the sleeping form of Sephiroth, sleeping on his back. Cloud approached the bed and laid himself on it with stealth before creeping underneath the covers and up the man's body until he practically straddled him.

Sephiroth only grunted silently in his sleep.

He studied this handsome man's features leisurely; tracing with a finger over his lips lovingly and watching how they slightly parted as in invitation.

Closing his eyes, he then lowered his lips into his neck, gently pressing a soft kiss on the smooth skin there, his hands roaming over Sephiroth's broad chest with delicate fingers.

As he laid there with his eyes closed and nose buried in Sephiroth's silver mane, he felt a pair of hands sliding their way up his back and embracing him tenderly. Cloud slightly moved his head and azure met with jade, their faces inches apart.

Cloud then sat up, making sure that their eyes were still locked and loosened the knot that held his night robe together, letting the opened parts slide down his now bare skin.

Sephiroth reached out to him and caressed his right cheek, pulling him down on him, accepting the offer the other had made.

Their kiss was passionate and sweet this time, setting the tone for their joining.

Knowing that there wasn't much time for extended foreplay, Sephiroth slowly sat up as he felt Cloud wiggle his hips, silently asking for him to take him. He took hold of the smaller male's hips and positioned him on top of him, looking him in the eyes.

Cloud softly smiled down at him before closing his eyes as his tip passed his tight ring of muscles. He hadn't forgotten about how painfully large Sephiroth used to be and hoped that he could relax enough to fit him all inside without lubrication.

Sephiroth watched him close his eyes as the first sting of pain shot through him and wiped away his first tear with his right thumb, whispering soft encouragements while his tight heat enveloped him completely.

Cloud arched his neck at this feeling that he hadn't felt in so long, softly murmuring Sephiroth's name in the transparent dark.

Sephiroth let his lips run over the soft skin of Cloud's right shoulder, lovingly nipping and leaving soft kisses while he coaxed his hips to move against his. He wouldn't deny that he was entranced by what Cloud was offering him right now. He just wished that he wouldn't have to let it go again.

A loud gasp filled the room and a soft moan soon followed as positions were being changed, Cloud finding himself on the covers, his legs wrapping around Sephiroth's waist, his hands running through his long mane, pulling the light mass to one side so it didn't interfere. They softly smiled at each other, Cloud's gesture a reminder of long past times.

"I still don't understand why you don't tie it up…" Cloud whispered softly.

Sephiroth watched him for a moment, silently admiring him as he laid there underneath him. He knew of course that what they were doing right now wouldn't have an effect on their current situation, though there was no need to deny that the attraction between them rose every time they were near each other. This was a natural result of the cramped up desire and denied feelings… He wouldn't ask Cloud for more than he could give, but he knew that what he felt for him was mutual, although impossible to act out upon in public.

Sephiroth did not disclaim his fault as to what happened between them, he also knew that it wouldn't help Cloud to thrust him like he once did. Yet he was ready to accept whatever he was willing to give him. Even if it was only physical. "You've always been a part of me, Cloud…"

Cloud felt tears sting behind his eyes at that and arched as Sephiroth started to move gently, softly whispering his name again before pulling him down on him for a slow, tongue-tangling kiss.

When he and Leon had gone to bed earlier, he hadn't been able to find sleep, his thoughts still dwelling on his conversation with Sephiroth from earlier that day. It had cost him a lot of courage to get out of the bed and come up here, but his heart had longed so badly to be near him again… He couldn't help the way he felt for him, the attraction never seemed to cease between them. He had told himself that this could be a one time thing only and that in that way he prevented future 'accidents' by releasing the tension between them now.

"Seph…" Cloud managed, closing his eyes once more and pulling him closer against him, wanting to feel him deep within as he felt the pleasure grow. Of course Sephiroth told him that he regretted what happened between them and that he wanted to try again, but no matter how much Cloud found himself reminiscing about those times, he always regretted that Sephiroth had gone and done what he did. He couldn't give him his heart anymore; it was too late for that.

"Harder…" He sobbed over his shoulder, rocking against him, fighting back the now threatening tears.

Sephiroth removed himself from him at that, turning the blonde over on his stomach before pulling him by his hips into a hand and knees position, claiming the tight heat of his lover once more.

Cloud bit his lower lip so not to cry out, his hands fisting in the covers as he arched his back at the dull, throbbing pain in his lower back now and the pleasure that was starting to build itself into an almost unbearable boiling sensation.

Smooth, loving lips caressed his spine, sending more pleasurable tingles coursing through his body, making him throw his head back and gasp.

Sephiroth threw his own head back at the small sounds Cloud made, the soft cries and moans sounding like music to his ears. It all felt so unbelievable to him and he didn't want to let it go.

"Seph… please…" Cloud moaned, feeling his peak nearing with each thrust inside. "I'm so close…"

Three thrusts was all it took for Sephiroth to feel Cloud shudder under him and muffle his scream as he came and took him with him as his channel tensed around his manhood.

 

They collapsed on the bed, Sephiroth listening to Cloud's ragged breathing with an endeared smile. For a few moments they didn't move from their position, Sephiroth caressing circles on Cloud's left shoulder with his thumb, occasionally pressing soft kisses in the other's neck.

This felt so right, it seemed so good… Cloud had a smile on his face as he closed his eyes at the tender ministrations. Yet he knew that he couldn't stay any longer, no matter how good it felt. He first turned his head to look at Sephiroth from the corner of his left eye before completely shifting his body so he was on his back.

A soft kiss was shared between them, both dreading the time for separation that was drawing nearer. With a lingering nip on Cloud's lower lip Sephiroth let go, moving himself away so Cloud could stand.

Tying a knot on his dressing robe now, Cloud watched how Sephiroth approached him and stopped right in front of him, caressing a few of his locks behind his right ear.

"Thank you," The tall white haired one whispered with a soft smile.

Cloud closed his eyes and pressed a kiss in the palm of Sephiroth's hand stroking his right cheek. "It's alright…" He opened his eyes and removed the hand caressing his face gently, "Goodnight, Seph."

Sephiroth watched him make his way to the door and leave through it; his heart feeling empty once more as he found himself alone is his large room, bathing in the pale moonlight.

 

 

Sora walked up the last step of the stairs towards the second floor, holding a bottle of water he had just gotten himself from the kitchen, when he heard someone descending the set of stairs coming from the top floor. He waited patiently, wanting to greet Sephiroth as he came down the stairs, since he hadn't seen him all day and not wanting to give him the impression that he had wanted to hide from him by entering his room rapidly.

To his great surprise though, he saw Cloud descending the stairs in his dressing robe that he held closely to his body. Sora quickly took a few steps back down the stairs, making it look like he was just coming from downstairs, reaching the top of the stairs again just in time as Cloud prepared to descend them.

"Sora." He looked and sounded a little surprised as he saw the little brunette, "I thought you were already asleep, how was the concert?"

"It was great!" Sora whispered back, silently noticing that Cloud was holding his dressing robe a little closer to him, and constantly tucking his hair back behind his right ear. "I just went down to get something to drink. Well, goodnight then."

"Goodnight," Cloud nodded and continued his way down as Sora walked passed him by.

Sora entered his room and closed the door. Riku was already asleep in their bed. He entered the covers and placed the bottle of water next to him on his night table. He felt Riku's right arm pull him down beside him and he quickly turned off his light before nestling himself in his partner's arms for the night.

As he watched Riku's face in the little silver light that entered their room, he wondered what he would've got done if it had been Riku descending those stairs, smelling like the sex he had had with someone else than him.

He wondered if Cloud had known how much he would hurt Leon with what he just did and if he even regretted it all…

"I love you, Riku," Sora whispered, suddenly feeling the urge to tell him that.

"I love you too, ange," Was Riku's murmured response before falling asleep again.

With a worried heart Sora snuggled closer to him and closed his eyes, desperate to find the depths of a worriless sleep.

 

 

 

To be continued…

 

-BDP-

 

 

 

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