Kingdom Hearts Fan Fiction ❯ Dirge ❯ Cigarettes ( Chapter 23 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

: Dirge

Pairing: CloudXRiku!

Rating: M

Warnings: Yaoi , and violence, and bad language, lots of language. And Rape, which will not be included in the fan fiction version. You must read the media miner one to read the rape scene.

Music: Shut Up- Simple Plan

Prompt: Sin

A/N: Hi. I put up the rape scene on media miner. Check my profile for the link.


Riku awoke to snoring. That was something he wasn’t used to. He started to turn over, but winced when his side shot pain all through his gut. So instead of moving his body, he elected to just move his head.

He was in a tent, lying on some sort of woven grass mat. There wasn’t much else in the tent besides a backpack, a fishing pole, a small chest, and another mat with a blonde man lying on it, asleep and snoring.

Deciding to try sitting once more, Riku slowly forced himself to sit up, supporting his weight on his arms. At first a wave of dizziness overcame him and he almost fell, but somehow he managed to stay upright. When he felt steady enough, he brought one of his hands up to run through his hair slowly. ‘Where am I?’ he thought. The last thing he remembered was going with Tidus to the wharf to fight, the rest was a big blank.

A giggle roused him from his thoughts. He looked up to see a couple girls at the entrance to the tent, watching him intently. Not sure what else to do, he raised his hand slightly and waved.

The girls giggled again and ran away from the front of the tent. They were soon replaced by a red haired man in his late teens who came in with a roll of what looked like bandages. “Ah, I see you’re awake ya?” he said, smiling.

Riku just blinked and stared at him. “Who are you?” he asked. “And where am I?”

“You’re in the North Para Plains. Came here floatin’ on the river looking like you tangled with a lion. Thought you were dead ya know?”

“So…I’m not on the Outside?…”Riku asked tentatively. “But…how did I get here?”

“Brother, you’re outside the Outside. And like I said, you came down the river. Demyx over there found ya when he was out fishin’.” At the mention of the name, the red-head pointed to the blonde who was still sleeping. “Thought you were dead till ya threw up.”

“I…threw up?” Riku asked. He still wasn’t entirely sure what was going on, or how he got there, all he knew was that he was in pain. “Why do I hurt so bad?”

“Think you should be telling me that one ya? You were raped though, that much is for certain.”

Riku’s mind was suddenly flung into overdrive. Raped. He’d….been raped.

Another pain shot through his side, causing him to topple over. Alarmed, Wakka came and kneeled over Riku’s limp form.

“I was raped…” Riku groaned, tears floating to his eyes as he finally remembered what had happened to him. “Oh my God…I was raped.”

“Hey calm down…”:Wakka said soothingly. “You’re in good hands now ya? Everything is going to be ok.” He placed a gentle hand on Riku’s shoulder, but the younger boy flinched at the touch and withdrew on himself. The haunted look he gave Wakka was one of distrust, and of fear.

“Who are you?” Riku asked. “Why are you helping me?”

“I’m a doctor ya? It’s what I do. Besides, we gotta look out for each other out here. Don’t got much if we don’t got each other, know what I’m saying?”

Riku could only stare at this boy. He didn’t know him, didn’t know the other man in the tent, yet they had helped him. He didn’t know whether to be grateful, or to hate them.

Another wave of nausea passed over the silver-haired teen. He leaned over to try to puke, but nothing came up but some flem and a little bit of blood. Riku wiped his mouth on his arm, staring at the blood.

“Oh, that’s not good is it?” Wakka mumbled. He walked over to the little box Riku had seen earlier and opened it. He pulled out a small loaf of bread and handed it to Riku. “Here, eat this. It’ll make your stomach feel better ya?”

Riku looked at the bread and wrinkled up his nose, not sure weather to accept it or not, but when nausea began to take him again he took it, only out of hope of not puking more.

The bread tasted good, it had various nuts and whole wheat in it, things that Riku didn’t have the luxury of eating on the Outside. It had been so long since he had tasted something so sweet…

“Whoa, slow down there…” a different voice said. Riku looked up with his mouth full of bread to see the blonde man sitting up on his mat. “You’ll choke if you keep eating like that.”

Wakka chuckled. “Well if he came from the Outside he wouldn’t have tasted food like that before ya?” He smiled and grabbed the bandages he had brought in. “Let him eat, I gotta change his bandages anyway.”

Riku simply stared, chewing a little more slowly on the bread this time. Something in his mind shouted at him to be cautious, but part of him wanted to trust these men. When he swallowed he looked over at Demyx. “You…were the one who found me?”

“Yeah…” Demyx said, running a hand through his ….strangely styled hair. “I was fishing, found you tangled up in the reeds.” He stpped a moment, then grinned. “Good thing I found ya huh? You might have died.”

Riku looked down. “I wish I had…” he mumbled, suddenly not hungry anymore.

“Aw come on…you’ll live, everything’s good right?” Demyx smiled.

“No…” Riku sighed, dropping what was left of the bread onto the mat. “It’s not.” Tears welled up again and started to flow down his cheeks unconstrained. “I lost, and….then he….And what about Cloud? And Sora and Roxas….I let them down.” Riku slowly lifted his hand and gently felt along the severed edge of his ear. “And those things they did…it…it hurt so bad.”

Wakka only stared at Riku sadly. “You know brother, I’ve never had anything bad like that happen to me, but I feel for you ya?” He stretched out a hand to touch Riku again, then stopped as the younger boy flinched. “But it’ll get better, you’ll see.”

“Yeah, you’re with us now.” Demyx grinned. “Everything will turn out ok, you’ll see.”

But Riku didn’t feel better with that assurance. He suddenly felt desperately alone, and sick again. He wanted to hide in Cloud’s strong arms, to push his head into his chest and fall asleep, like he had the day of Dirge. He wanted the comfort that his strong body could give. But most of all, he wanted to roll back the clock, and to stay in bed, instead of running off with Roxas.

“I want to go back,” he said suddenly, looking up and looking Demyx in the eyes. “I want to go back to them.”

Demyx’s eyes softened some. “I’m afraid you can’t, not yet.”

“Why not?”

“You aren’t healed. Can’t walk back to the Outside all busted up like this ya?” Wakka held up the bandage he had grabbed earlier. “You comfortable with me wrapping you up?”

Riku stared a moment, then nodded. As much as he hated to admit it, the blonde man was right, he couldn’t leave yet, and he might as well get fixed up while he was there.

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Cloud was out for blood.

It was evident in the way he walked, in the way he talked, and in the frown on his face. He left the house more often, and Sora and Roxas began to worry that maybe, just maybe, Cloud was losing it. They knew he was upset about Riku’s death, especially Roxas, who knew about their relationship, but the way he was acting, they were on the edge of a full-scale war.

On one of Cloud’s excursions, he stopped over at Namine’s place.

“Naminé?” He asked.

“Here!” the blonde called from a back room. Seconds later she appeared, a box in her arms. “You need something Cloud?” She plopped the obviously heavy box onto the counter and leaned over it, a smile on her face. “I have everything!”

“You have Tidus’s head?” Cloud growled, causing several patrons to look up from their business at him.

Naminé sighed and looked at the table. “I was afraid of that….Look, Cloud, Riku died…that’s true, but I think-”

“I don’t give a damn what you think.” Cloud hissed. At Naminé’s hurt look he sighed and leaned on the counter. “I need cigarettes, you got any?”

“Thought you usually bought them from the kid on the corner…”

“He’s out., now you go them or not?” Cloud growled. He wasn’t in the mood to be arguing with people.

“Um…one second.” Naminé replied. She ran into the back room and came back seconds later with a pack. “Here…it’s on the house.” She watched as Cloud immediately pulled out one of the sticks and lit up, shoving it in his mouth forcefully and taking a long, deep drag off it. “Cloud…I’m worried about you.

“Don’t be.” Cloud growled, taking another long drag. “I’m fine.”

“You sure don’t act fine…”

“I said I’m fine!” Cloud shouted, slamming his fist onto the counter and causing Naminé to jump.

“Cloud….I ..think you better leave.”

Cloud only grunted, grabbed the pack of cigarettes, and walked toward the door. “Later.”

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Poor Cloudy Cloud. He’s Emo….but that’s how he’s suppost to be so haha.

You hate me don’t you? You know you do.

I so botched up Wakka’s speech. But cut me some slack, I haven’t played FFX in a year and it’s been several months since I’ve played KH, and I don’t have my game right now, (my friend took it for the summer)