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Dirt Covered Windows

(Summary) After death he gets a visitor (AkuRoku)

(Disclaimer) I don’t own either Axel or Roxas. I might own the beach but...who knows?


It wasn’t really a beach, but then, it wasn’t really not a beach. The water was grey, sure, but it was water. And the sand was black but the particles still fell through his fingers when he spread them out. It was quiet but he could the silent swish swish of the water coming in and the faint swooning of the wind.

He couldn’t feel the wind but it didn’t matter – nothing really mattered here.

It didn’t take long for him to appear. He walked from somewhere beyond his line of sight and settled himself down easily next to him. A couple of minutes of shuffling to make sure he was comfortable and then...silence.

“So...this is where you went.”

He made a sound. He wasn’t even sure what it was supposed to mean but the other took it as a sign to continue.

“I wondered where you’d go. You know, after everything.”

A nod. He was still trying to get used to the idea. He was dead after all and it still freaked him out a little to say it, even in his mind. He didn’t think he could quite say it aloud yet. It would give the idea more reality than if he stayed silent.

Unfortunately for him, the other didn’t share his own qualms about it. “It hurt when you died. And not just me – it hurt Sora too.”

He snorted. “Oh yeah?”

A vigorous shake of the head. “Yeah,” a smile. “He’s a good guy.”

“He’d better be. I sacrificed myself for him and all.” And so did you, but he doesn’t add that last bit. He doesn’t want the other angry at him.

Quiet falls again as they listen. The wind has picked up slightly, almost to the point that he could it rustling through his hair. It’s strange because his clothes are moving and his hair is tilting to the side from the force but he can’t feel it. He can’t feel anything.

Finally the other sighs. “I don’t mind, you know. It’s not like I don’t exist anymore. I’m still there.” He sounds defensive, so much that he has to smirk in response and answer before the other continues.

“Hey, you won’t catch me saying anything.”

“I know. I just....wanted to say it. In case you thought it.”

Out of the corner of his eye he can see the other playing in the sand and it makes him smile – his first proper smile since coming here. It makes him want to feel, so he can play as well and they can play together but he squashes the urge before it can go any further.

“What’s it like?” He’d wondered – even since the two had combined he’d wondered.

He can see the other thinking; it’s almost a visible thing. His brows will furrow and sometimes, like now, his eyes will focus on a distant point as he searches for an answer. It comes after a while, “It’s like seeing through dirt-covered windows. Except sometimes when there’s all this light. That’s all Sora is made of, light.”

He snorts. “Doubt that – he made you didn’t he? Or...you came from him.”

A small grin. “Yeah, but I think I took all that darkness with me.”

He answers with a shake of his head and he reaches out, covering the other’s hand with his. And, even if he can’t feel it he knows the other does from the flicker of his eyes. It fills him with warmth as he leans closer.

“You know, I never thought you were dark. Even when you were with the Organisation you were the only one who was really made of light, you know?” It sounded corny, yeah, but it’s what he thought and he didn’t care because the other had ducked his head to hide his eyes. Those ever so expressive eyes.

“Thanks...Axel.”

“No prob. You gave me a heart after all Roxas. The only thing I can do in return is help you out when you need it.”

He laughs, and it breaks the silence surrounding them and he can hear, just above the sound of the wind, that Roxas is laughing too. And maybe, just maybe, dying was worth it.

Because Roxas can live on, inside Sora. And see out of those windows that he knows will become clear one day. He’s sure of it.