Kingdom Hearts Fan Fiction ❯ I Should Have Stopped You ❯ I Should Have Stopped You ( Chapter 1 )

A.N. I do not own Kingdom Hearts, and unless a miracle of apocalyptic proportions happens, I will never own Kingdom Hearts. Thank you.

 

Roxas, please, forgive me.

I should have stopped you.

Even as I watched you go a voice screamed inside me to stop you, but I was stupid and didn't listen to it. So I lost you forever.

You would never have had to go through that hell if I had just stopped you. I know it won't matter to you anymore, but the reason I didn't was because I admired you. You had the courage to leave the organization, if only for a little while and try to find who you truly were.

Something I was too scared to do.

I can still see you in him, you know? His defiant stances, his bright eyes, some of the little habits he has, all of them remind me of you.

But he isn't you. He never will be.

Even if you were a part of him, you two are completely opposite…

I hate him.

For everything.

For wielding the damn keyblade, for his “heroics,” for suddenly declaring us his enemies when he has never had the pain of feeling empty and deciding we were the bad guys for not wanting to have this empty feeling anymore.

But most of all for taking you away from me.

But at the same time I love him…

Just like I love you Roxas. You were my first friend…my only friend. I needed you in ways that I can't describe.

Dammit Roxas! You just can't understand just how much I'm hurting. I go over it again and again in my mind, kicking myself constantly for not stopping you, but it's too late now. So I'm going to do the only thing I can think of to make this right.

Even as I walk out of Castle Oblivion knowing that I'm going to die, all I can think about is you. As I turn my back on people who won't hesitate to kill me if I go through with this fool's plan to join the boy you came from, all that runs through my mind is you.

We promised we would meet in the next life, but I know that I won't get another one.

You will though. You'll live through that boy, and that is the only reason I'm going to join his side, to give you another chance…or at least to try to.

I truly think that's all I can do.

But…

I really should have stopped you.

 

A.N. Well that's the end. I hope you all liked it and I would appreciate reviews and constructive criticism. Thanks Again!