Kingdom Hearts Fan Fiction ❯ Love Stinks ❯ Prologue ( Prologue )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
Title: Love Stinks
Author: Izzy-Lawliet (Rin)
Disclaimer: Let’s go over this slowly so you can understand what I’m saying. I do not own this. If I did, do you seriously think that I would be typing a poorly written story like this?
Pairings: Roxas/Sora
Rating: M
Warnings: AU, Yaoi and whatever comes along with it.

Summary: Is it incest if you love your other half? He’s not really my brother, but I’m a part of him, his direct other. Does that mean we belong together? Or…or what? I don’t know what it means… it could mean anything. But I know how I feel, I know how he feels. Now what do I have to do to put two and two together to get four?

Author's Note: I have no idea where this story is heading, so please be patient with me, now if anyone would like to send me some ideas, that would be appreciated, other than that, please enjoy. And this is pages on 1 Word in Verdana, size 9 and is 697 words.

Prologue.

Now, listen to this. I love him, I love Sora, and he’s like my other half. We’re not related, not in the least bit. But it still has to be considered wrong. I mean we’re both guys, there isn’t a thing in the world that’s right about that, in any of the worlds. Not according to my parents, that is. Other people may disagree, you may disagree. But it’s how I was raised. I personally don’t think anything of it, but I can’t really. I’m not allowed to. It’s not allowed for me to. My parents would kill me if they knew anything. Okay, they may not kill me, but who knows what they might do. They might…I don’t know, but it wouldn’t be good.

He’s gorgeous, his spiky brunette colored hair, his bright blue eyes that glaze over with happiness every time we’re together. Bu it’s not like I’m the cause of his happiness, it’s just us hanging out hat makes him happy. I wish I could make him happy like that though.

Like I said earlier, I know how I really feel and I know how he feels, but doesn’t mean I can do anything about it. I like him, no love him, as more than a friend, and he doesn’t. It’s as simple as that, what else is there for me to say. Nothing really. I just wish this love wasn’t one-sided, if it wasn’t, then I would be the happiest teen on the planet, but it’s not, and I guess I have to get over it.

Sora, he’s great. He’s a great friend, great listener, great talker, great everything. And I bet he’s great at other things too. Whoa! Where did that come from? I need to stop thinking like that, he’s practically my brother, and that makes this whole situation worse. We’re closer than friends, but not in that sense, we’re just really good friends. We hang out and do stuff, just like other normal friends. But every time we’re together it gets awkward once in a while. I think it’s because when he jokes around, he gets very sexual, it funny. But then he realizes that it’s more than just joking around for me. I hate how he does that though. He stoops what he saying, stops what he’s doing, and his eyes turn sorrowful. There isn’t much I can do to make him feel better, but luckily it eventually wares off.

I wish life was easier, I kinda wish I had never met Sora, and if I ever catch myself thinking that, I reprimand myself. I don’t believe that I actually wished that about my best friend. I think one day he’s gonna be gone and never come back, what do I do then. I know, I have to get over him. Like I’m trying to do now. I’m trying to forget my feelings for him, so our friendship will be easier. Easier for him, easier for me…

Nothing seems that way for me. Nothing is easy, life has to make everything difficult so I have to suffer, yes that’s what it does. It makes me suffer. That’s my goal in life, to suffer non stop.

Now, I bet I know what you’re thinking. You’re thinking how I could be such a complainer and whiner and how I can’t just get over him. But it’s harder than it seems, because if you have ever been in love than you know what I’m talking about and you know why it’s impossible.

Okay, you think that’s horrible (let’s just pretend you do), what makes it worse is that we tried to date, secretly of course. That didn’t get us anywhere, except three steps back. That sounds horrible doesn’t it? It’s like it’s teasing me, taunting me, and just making fun of me. There’s nothing, absolutely nothing that I can do though. I want us to be together again, but he doesn’t like me, never has. He was just experimenting when we were together. I didn’t have to experiment, I know the way I am, no matter how much I hate it. I guess I’m just gonna have to get over it huh?