Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Am I worth anything? ❯ kakashi and the notes ( Chapter 5 )

After a few weeks Naruto was taken out of the intensive unit and placed back into room 27. After five more suicide attempts the medics confiscated any possible weapons. But by then Naruto didn't care anymore. He had sunk into a deep depression and sat in a chair looking out the window all day long. He no longer talked to anyone; he had lost the will to live.

Kakashi and the rest of team seven arrived in Konoha a week after Naruto's last suicide attempt. While they had been gone, Iruka had been training harder than ever before. Kakashi hadn't been that polite to him in the first place, but now it was past rudeness. Iruka had sat with Naruto during the night once and Naruto had talked in his sleep how Kakashi had spent more time with Sasuke training him than with Naruto and even Sakura got more time to train with Kakashi than Naruto. It seemed as if Kakashi had a personal vengeance against the blonde genin. When they arrived in town Iruka went looking for Kakashi taking the all of the suicide notes Naruto wrote, each one more depressing than the last.

Finding him at the Ichiraku ramen stand, iruka asked if he could have a meeting with Kakashi the next day in the training grounds where naruto had become a genin. Kakashi, thinking nothing of it except that iruka wanted to know how Kakashi had been able to copy over a thousand jutsus and what they had done in the wave country, agreed on meeting there at noon.

Usually Kakashi was late for everything but when it came to talking to adoring fans that was one thing that he would not be late for. So when noon approached, he appeared on the training grounds began to read his little orange book while waiting for iruka.

Two minutes before noon iruka walked into the training grounds.

“hey Kakashi how is training going with Sasuke, I hear he really did achieve the sharingan. Im surprised because I thought he wasn't going to have it. His brother Itachi got it at 8 and when Sasuke didn't I was really stunned.”

“oh training is doing great. Sasuke may have better sharingan than Itachi did you never know. Now what is it you really want?”

“well since youre making me cut straight to the point, read these.” Iruka handed the six papers to Kakashi.

 

Dear iruka

I know this will kill you but I cant live like this anymore, im living a lie. That big smile you see I always have well that's a fake. I don't think I have been really happy in years. Don't cry when I am gone you wont have to worry about going to the hospital anymore. Cause I can tell how much you hate the,

Naruto

 

Iruka

I wish those medics would stop trying to save me from dying. Im going to die anyways and why should they care because I have the Kyuubi in me. I doubt they really care about me.

Naruto

 

This time I really mean it. I am sick of every one caring more about an animal then me. I am just sick of it. Every one will probably be so happy I am gone.

 

Good bye iruka don't cry. You will find someone better.

 

Bye everyone say good bye to sakura for me. Tell Sasuke that I really wish we could've been friends and tell Kakashi-sensei that he should read other books than those perverted one.

Kakashi looked up from the papers a question on his face.

“you are going to ask why he tried to commit suicide aren't you? He didn't feel loved. He thought everyone loved Sasuke more than him. That no one would care.”