Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Are you really that lonely? ❯ So cold ( Chapter 1 )

Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto sighs never will

A/N: Okay this fic is extremely angst, later on it'll probably be more 'sweet'. I really hope you enjoy it. Review and tell me what you think, if you read it please review it matters so much to me that i know what my readers are thinking and what they want. Hell i'll even take constructive critisism!.

Anways on with the fic.

Are you really that lonely?

Naruto's POV

I let the tears run down my tan face.

I was so sick of keeping up this charade, trying to please everyone not even putting any effort to please myself.

I gave everyone all my love. I would do anything for them they should realize that by now. Yet it seemed the more love I gave it seemed as if I got hurt even more.

The smile, the constant happiness it was all just a mask I put on every day. Can't they see I don't have anything else to give? They drained me leaving me with nothing in return.

My vision blurred by my tears I picked up the only picture I own. The picture of Sasuke, Sakura, Kakashi and myself. I treasured it so much I had put it in a glass frame. Angrily I thre it across the room delighting the sound of the glass shattering. Wiping the tears off my face with the back of my hand I walked over to the closest glass shard plunging it deeply into my left wrist, making sure it hit the veins. Ever so slowly did I drag the glass, smirking as my skin ripped open. Enjoying the physical pain so much more than the emotional and mental. My blue eyes were fasinated upon my bleeding arm. I watched in utter awe as the blood gushed out of the wound I just created.

Feeling slightly dizzy a few minuets later from loss of blood I cleaned the blood off my skin and wrapped my left arm up in bandages, making sure to include my hand as well in order to avoid any questioning stares or any confrontation. Not that it didn't already happen everyday. Tearing my eyes off my arm I looked into the mirror, only to see an emotionless boy staring back at me, his blue eyes revealing nothing. I walked out of my apartment walking to the training grounds where Kakashi had instructed us to meet him at.

Sasuke's POV

' She is so annoying' I mentally hissed as Sakura kept talking my ears off.

"I wonder why dobe isn't here yet." I wondered suddenly aware of the blonde's absence.

Sakura stopped talking and looked around for a minuet.

' What the hell is she doing?' I thought

"It's not like Naruto to be late." She spat.

' Hadn't I just said he wasn't here? Hell it's not like she gives a damn about him anyways. She's so infatuated with me to notice anything else.'

I continued to stare off into the distance. It was eeriely peaceful and I hated every second of it.

"Kakashi-sensei!" Sakura exclaimed "You're on time!"

"I guess I am." Kakashi smiled at her. Then looked around "Where's Naruto?"

I looked at the silver haired jounin.

"We have no clue. I thought the two of you would've ran into each other."

"I haven't seen him." he looked in the direction of Naruto's house, "Maybe he overslept, I'll give him ten minuets to arrive here if he's a no show I'll just continue today's lesson without him."

Ten minuets later

"Where the hell is he!" I hissed angrily

I looked at Sakura she was shook up for some reason, looking in the direction where her eyes remained glued I frowned.

"Naruto where the hell have you been!" I demanded

He just looked at me not saying one word.

'What the hell!' I thought

"What is..."

All of the sudden I felt my body flying through the air only to smash into a tree. I glared at the blonde.

"WHAT THE HELL IS YOUR PROBLEM!" I yelled " WHY DID YOU FUCKING ATTACK ME FOR NO GOD DAMN REASON!"

He didn't reply he just kept his lifeless blue eyes fixed upon me as he began to make ninjustu symbols with his hands. It was then that I noticed his bandaged arm, fresh blood seeping through.

"What happened to your arm?" I asked concerned

"Why the fuck would you care?" He spat as I became surrounded by thousands of his dopplegangers. Angry at the blonde's sudden assualt upon me I threw my kunai, strinking him, not one of his dopplegangers. He gave me a look of disbelief before he passed out.

"What the hell was that about?" I asked my teacher.

The older man looked at me his visable brow furrowed in deep concentration.

"The only thing that seems to make sense is that Naruto believes noone cares for him. He probably thinks no one will ever love him." the silver haired ninja picked the blonde up. "I'm taking him to the hospital you can visit him whenever you'd like."

I just nodded as our teacher disappeared.

'Did Naruto honestly believed no one loved him? Couldn't he see that I love him?'

Without me realizing it I had started walking in the direction of the hospital, my heart ached so much to see the one I love in so much turmoil.

' I would give everything up just to hold you in my arms, to make love to you. You own my heart Naruto and everytime I see your beautiful face I seem to fall in love all over again. Just please don't hide anything from me, I will do everything that I can to ease your pain. I want to know why you became so cold all of the sudden. I want to know what happened to your arm. I just love you so much it hurts. Why are you the only one who can't see how much I love you?'

Kakashi's POV

"He attacked Uchiha Sasuke for no reason." I explained to the Hokage "He came to the terrain where we usually train completely void of any emotions."

"That's because he feels no one cares about him Kakashi." Tsunade answered softly as she unwrapped the bandage from the unconscience blonde's arm revealing a lond and wide gouge.

"Is that self inflicted?" I questioned

She nodded and ran her fingers through the blonde's locks.

"But why would he attack Sasuke? The Uchiha loves him! It's obvious he does!" I asked not liking to see my student in this condition

"Sometimes we are so blinded by our anger that we can not see the one we love is right in front of our face." she replied softly

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