Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Bleeding Delusion ❯ Disintegration ( Chapter 5 )

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5. Disintegration

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There was an unlabeled bottle resting
innocently on the nightstand.

The opaque brown of the glass did nothing
to hide the sinister clumps of black inside.

“Antitoxins,” Sai had said, which explained
both nothing and everything.
Ambiguous but concise.

Anti-psychotics, he had wanted to clarify,
but the pills told him to say otherwise.

Anti-psychotics indeed.

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“They're purging.”

“Of what?”

“…memories.”

`feelings.'

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Just because “Sai” was without emotions
or regrets did not mean the person who
truly slept inside—whoever that was—
was as well.

And for that reason precisely, Sai took
the medication.

Regret and suffering clung to the hidden
identity “Sai” had shoved down with
the drugs.

In a fit of misguided passion
(misdirected, misinterpreted, mistaken feelings),
Sai did not want to kill Naruto.

Sai did not want to kill Naruto in a spasm of
misread, misapprehended, misconstrued
sentiment.

Like he had done to so many before.

Accidents happen.

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Each day, Sai took one black pill.

(They were unbearably bitter and had the aftertaste of burned flesh.)

And each day, a piece of Sai's heart—a fraction of his ability to feel—was lost.

The world was safe from him.

For now.

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