Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Breaking the Habit ❯ Chapter 9: Cause inside I realize I’m the one confused ( Chapter 9 )

Title: Breaking the Habit
Author: DeityOfDeath
Archive: Yes please...
Pairings: Naruto/Sasuke, Naruto/Itachi
Category: Drama, romance, slash, yaoi, Smut, Mpreg
rating: NC-17/R
Spoilers: Most likely.
Warnings: Yaoi, Lemon, Rape, Non-con, Mpreg, Angst SPOILERS!!!!!!

Disclaimers: I never have nor will I ever own Naruto or its chars. They are property of major companies.

 

Note from Author: Thank You for reading and supporting fan fiction! Enjoy and please review!

 

The chapter titles are lyrics from the song "Breaking the Habit" by Linkin Park.

 

 

 

 

Breaking the Habit

 

 

Chapter 9: Cause inside I realize I'm the one confused

 

 

 

 

“Naruto, are you okay?”

 

I left my hands at the center of my midsection where barrages of kicks were centered. I looked up at Tsunade - bachan and smiled while rubbing the targeted kicking area which only resulted in more kicks and movements.

 

“Chibi Gaki's at it again I see,” she said with a grin.

 

I grinned and stretched on the examining table, “I just wish he'd let me get some sleep when Sasuke's away.”

 

I heard soft maniacal laughter and a chill went down my spine. Looking up I saw Ba-chans hazel eyes alight in mischief.

 

“What?”

 

“So it goes well with the Uchiha brat?”

 

I couldn't help but blush at the brashness of what seemed to be an innocent question but came out so…lewd.

 

“Oh, so the gaki blushes at such an innocent question? That must mean that you're thinking naughty things. Oh, my little gaki is growing up,” she cooed while pulling me up and into a hug.

 

“Ba…ba..ba-chan! It's not like that!!”

 

She pushed me away so that her joking eyes now turned serious with a hint of murderous intent.

 

“And it's not because of him! We're going slow, doing things at our own pace.”

 

“It took you two a year of working together in a group, three years of separation and now another year just to get this far, that's five; no almost six years just to get you two to hold hands, cuddle and share a bed in a non-sexual way. I understand you wanting to take it slow because of what Itachi did but you need to work towards healing yourself.”

 

“I'm healed…”

 

“And don't even start to give me that whole I'm a healthy strong boy crap! I mean healed as in soul and spirit wise.”

 

I looked down at my lap, or at least tried to. It's kind of hard to look past the bump that takes up much of my midsection as of late. I worried my lower lip between my teeth and tried to think of some way to retort but I knew there was nothing I could say to defend myself. She was right; I had been living a decent home life with Sasuke up until a point. I had shared a bed but not “shared” a bed. It's not that I didn't want to, quite the opposite actually…

 

“We've tried…”

 

I felt arms wrap around me, pulling me against a large bosom, “I know you have Naruto and that's the first step. The next step is looking into Sasuke's big ebony eyes and realizing that they're completely different from Itachi's. I've seen the way that boy watches you and I've met Itachi before and there is a vast difference between the look in their eyes.”

 

I stopped and thought about it while I was still ensconced in her warm embrace.

 

Sasuke's eyes were warm and deep and occasionally filled with want and something that looked like desperation. And an emotion I had never seen before and definitely not seen in Itachi's eyes, although both shared the same look of lust.

 

Sasuke's lust was hot and made things deep inside me grow hot and wiggly causing my breath to hitch while Itachi's was frightening. When Itachi looked at me it felt as though he could slowly tear me to pieces enjoying each scream he tore from my throat, which was true because he had enjoyed each and every scream he had torn from my unwilling mouth when he had raped me.

 

But once again my thoughts returned to that unnamed emotion I had seen in Sasuke's eyes. What was that deep and unyielding and so hot, like it would burn him alive starting from the inside.

 

“Love gaki, love; you've seen it before in others eyes but I doubt you've seen it as overflowing or deep as in his.”

 

Her voice and declaration caught me by surprise. Had I said what I was thinking out loud, or could she see what I was thinking on my face. Sakura and the others always said I was like an open book when it came to my thoughts and emotions.

 

“Don't give me that look. Now, since we know the ailment perhaps we can start with the cure.”

 

“Cure?”

 

She gave a deep sigh, closed her eyes and shook her head, “You need to return his feelings gaki.”

 

“I do in every way possible…except in that way…”

 

She looked up and into my eyes, her hazel eyes boring into mine, “Take your time and don't think anyone's forcing you. We just want you to be happy Naruto. We miss you; we miss that goofy smile and outgoing personality. It's been too long. It's time you realized that we're here for you and now you have your dream within your grasp don't runaway now. We all want you to be happy.”

 

I nodded deep in thought at what she had said and then stood up stretching my abused back muscles.

 

“I see what you're saying Ba-chan.”

 

“Good. Keep eating healthy and their okay for you to continue small ninja exercises, its good to keep your muscles in good working condition, just don't over do it.”

 

“Hai…”

 

“Since Sasuke is on a mission Sai is outside waiting to walk you back to Iruka's apartment. Don't give me that look! Since Iruka, Kakashi and Sasuke are all on mission to Suna and that psycho's still out there somewhere I've made a schedule to have at least 1-2 anbu or other jounin on duty at all times.”

 

“This is going to be a fun week…”

 

“Sai!”

 

The door opened and the widely grinning Sai entered and looked in my direction and I was certain that his grin had begun to look more `natural' and a tad bit wider, although weirder was a better term. I seriously think the boy has been hanging around Gai Sensei and Lee way…too much.

 

“Escort Uzumaki Naruto home and station yourself somewhere in or near the vicinity until your relief arrives.”

 

“Yes Hokage-sama!”

 

I rolled my eyes gave a weak smile, turned to face the door and lifted my arms so that they were above my head and slightly behind my back, “Let's get going. I'm hungry.”

 

I walked through the door which was graciously held open by Sai and walked or what felt more like waddling as of late. I made my way down the stairs and out of the hospital. I felt more than heard Sai behind me.

 

“You've gained quite a bit of weight. Is it true what the rumors say?”

 

I sighed and brought my arms down and straightened my jacket in the hopes of making myself look not quite as bloated.

 

“And what do rumors say,” I asked in a solemn tone.

 

“That you and Kyuubi fully merged and you're carrying Sasuke's heir?”

 

“Can't believe everything you hear Sai,” I replied after a moment.

 

I heard a soft noise that I took as an agreement, “So the child isn't Sasuke's and there is a reason other than your condition or the merge that has Tsunade placing her trusted anbu and Jounin on your back.”

 

I didn't answer. He was smart enough to not ask for information and I was too tired to continue the conversation.

 

I was betting that he also knew more than he was letting on. I'm pretty sure I'm still on a lot of the higher ups hit list. I've done a lot and tried my hardest not to bring too much negative attention to myself but why bother any more? They started all of this to begin with. I didn't ask for the damn fox to be sealed in me!

 

“Old conniving bastards…..”

 

“Are you talking about the elders,” asked Sai from where he walked beside me.

 

“Do I really have to answer that? You know more about them than I do, are they still up to their scheming?”

 

 

Sai's smiled momentarily wavered as he turned to look up at the sky, “Sometimes you wonder what they're plotting and sometimes I think all would be better off not knowing.”

 

I nodded and remained quiet the rest of the way home. This most likely meant that something was underfoot and that I should be on my toes. Poor Sai, he was always stuck between a rock and a hard place when it concerned politics but then again so am I.

 

 

To Be Continued….

 

Sorry to take so long. Busy gal as always. It's short but at least it's published. I'm working on some evil plot….my muse hasn't abandoned me but time and energy have. I've been doing 48 hr weeks which by most standards isn't too bad Hell, I did more working two jobs….but on my feet for 12 hr shifts isn't cool. I'm going to try to update other fics so if it takes a while for me to get the next chapter out for this one then that's why.

 

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Mid January - Naruto is raped
Early-mid February - Naruto is back in Konoha, Sasuke makes a move.
mid/late February - Naruto learns of his pregnacy
March - Naruto moves out of his apartment
April - 4mths along, picked house.

May - 5mths along, Itachi appears. Sasuke and Naruto make amends.

June - 6mths along, Sasuke and others on a mission.

July - 7 mths, still no sign of Sasuke.

Mid July - Naruto still trying to face Sasuke intimately, Some secret plots are coming out….