Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Death By Love ❯ Her Sanity ( Chapter 7 )

jealousy - [jell-uh-see] n,p
1) Jealous resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage, etc., or against another's success or advantage itself.
2) Mental uneasiness from suspicion or fear of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aims.

hate - [heyt] v, n.
1) to dislike intensely or passionately; feel extreme aversion for or extreme hostility toward; detest.
2) Intense dislike; extreme aversion or hostility.

“Umm...Gaara, what does your necklace mean?” She asked, hoping he'd tell her.

He twitched slightly, sitting up. Looked at her for a few seconds, then said, “That's none of your business…”

Sakura looked down disappointed. She really thought that maybe…he would trust her enough to tell her what it meant. “Fine. I really thought you trusted me by now.” She mumbled.

Gaara focused his gaze on the side of the hospital bed. “Yashamaru gave it to me…” he said slowly.

Sakura looked up.

“I lived with my father and Yashamaru came to visit me a lot, I used to think of him as my only friend…then, he gave me his necklace. He told me that the necklace showed how much he…cared for me. How much he loved me. But then…my father started sending people to kill me. He thought I was useless. And there was no point in me living anymore…''

“Yashamaru!” Gaara squealed as he ran towards his friend. Yashamaru smiled down at Gaara, but then his face expression changed in to one of horror.

Gaara felt himself being pushed out of the way and something graze his face slightly. He looked up to see Yashamaru holding his stomach, and coughing up blood as held his stomach in pain.

“From that point on, I was independent, and found no use for friends. That is what this necklace represents.”

Sakura stared at Gaara for a moment. For once…she didn't know what to say. She realized just how painful his past was.

Before Sakura could think about what she was doing or even stop what she was doing, she leaned across the hospital bed and held him in a small hug.

Three things happened all at the same time after this.

Gaara stiffened against Sakura but didn't pull away.

Sakura realized what she was doing was completely uncalled for and began to release the hold she had on him.

And the door opened and Ino stood frozen in the doorway.

Sakura jumped back as fast as she could. “Hey Ino.” She said trying to sound casual.

Ino didn't move or reply. Instead, she glared at Sakura and closed the door behind her.

“Why do you continue to do this?” Ino asked in a raspy voice.

“What do you mean?” Sakura asked, confused. She didn't understand her friends' odd behavior.

Next thing Sakura knew Ino was standing about 2 inches away from her. She looked completely insane. Her eyes were wild and she was shaking as if the floor was vibrating.

“Why can't you remember!? Im sick of this acting, sick of this pretending! WHY WON'T YOU REMEMBER?!” Ino screamed. Her words were slurred and sounded rehearsed.

Sakura jumped back, afraid. “W-What are you talking about?” She asked, stumbling on her words. She had never seen her friend act this way before.

“It's your fault!” Ino roared. “It's your fault he's gone! You should have died! But no…he saved you! I knew it was going to happen…I KNEW it! But It was already too late…He was already-”

“That would be enough!”



Tsunade stood close to the entrance and took in the situation. Ino was suddenly normal again. Any trace of her crazy behavior was gone.

Sakura however was pressed against the wall. She seemed to be in space. Looking at what seems like nothing. It was as if she was in her own world.

“Ino, I want you to meet me in my office immediately.” Tsuande said never looking away from Sakura.

Tsunade stepped toward Sakura then said, “I want you to have a week off. Forget anything Ino had said to you. She is simply under a lot of stress.”

Sakura snapped back into reality and nodded. Then walked right out of the building. She didn't even stop to say bye to Gaara as she always did. She was confused, scared and empty.

What Ino had said to her had to have some truth in it. The Ino she knew wouldn't start belting out random words. But then again, she wondered if she ever truly knew Ino.

As soon as she walked into her house, Sakura jumped into the shower. She tried to forget everything her “friend” had told her. But it bothered her, and at the same time seemed familiar.

Deep down in her heart…Sakura knew she was missing something. A big part of her life was forgotten, and she had to find it. Everyone around her seemed to be protecting her from the truth…something she desperately needed to know. And the only person who was willing to tell her the truth was nuts.

She climbed out of the shower and sat in bed. She couldn't get what happened this evening out of her head. She looked over at her clock.

8:14 PM blinked on and off.

She rolled over in bed and lay down facing the wall. Sleep wasn't coming easy tonight. She faced up and looked up at the ceiling. The ceiling had a unique design she never quite noticed before. It looked like a spiral that never stopped. She stared at the design with out blinking for a while.

The design began to blur and change. It swirled into a different picture all together. It was suddenly a forest. The sky was a clear blue and the trees seemed to reach higher than any building she had ever seen. The scene then changed, and the forest got very dark. The once beautiful scene was full of fear and mystery.


It was then that she saw it...a person laying down on the forest floor, covered in blood. The person was…herself. Sakura tried to blink, tried to move her eyes away from the spiral…from the scene...from her fate. But she couldn't. She screamed.

Sakura fell out of the bed with a thud. Never had she hallucinated like that before. She knew…she was going crazy. She glanced at her clock again. It was 11:30 PM. Had she been staring up at her ceiling for 3 hours?

Maybe she really was losing it. She was afraid to look up at the ceiling again. What she saw looked so real…

That was it! She needed to know what happened to her 4 years ago. She couldn't even walk around her own house without acting a bit odd now. She snatched the clothes closest to her and stepped out the door. She headed to the place that hopefully held some kind of answer…Konoha Hospital.

She remembered that file she had accidentally read a few weeks ago. Maybe she would find something there. She walked up the steps and tried to open the front door. It was locked.

Sakura pulled out her card and scanned it over the scanner and the door opened with a click. She forgot about the front doors being locked at night.

She pushed her body against the wall and tried to make herself look as small as possible. If any of the night staff saw her, she knew she would have some explaining to do. Tsunade probably told them all about the incident.

She reached Tsunade's office with no trouble. She took out her card and scanned it. It made a loud BEEP kind of noise. Then the door opened loudly. She jumped into the room as fast as she could and locked it behind her. She was glad she had special privileges and her card let her in any room in the hospital.

She walked over to her desk and was surprised to see the file laid out right in front of her. She scanned through it again, skipping her name this time and others she had seen before. She went straight to the death section and began reading again. “Shochia Jing, Sakina Lagska” Sakura stopped. She couldn't believe what was there. Sasuke Uchia was listed under dead.




This has to be a mistake she thought…there's no way…she dropped the file. And as she did, she noticed another file…one that didn't stand out at all. Sakura reached for it and opened it to the first page.

SAKURA HARUNO: DAILY OBSERVATION

It seems she has completely forgotten about the whole ordeal. This is good. There are some things in life that are meant to be forgotten.

Tsunade.

Sakura was shocked. She skipped to the last page.

Slowly, she is beginning to figure out she has been missing out on something. It doesn't help that Ino will not participate in helping Sakura. It seems I will have to get someone to look within her mind.

Tsunade.

Sakura was shaking. Shaking so hard her teeth were clattering. She wasn't actually working at the hospital...she was being checked up on. She was being watched. It was proved. Tsunade knew something she didn't.

Suddenly, the chair at the front desk turned around violently to reveal Sakuras' former friend…Ino.

Her eyes were bloodshot and she had the most poisonous look on her face.

“Hello Sakura…I've been waiting for you. Do you finally want to know the truth?”