Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Discordia ❯ Prologue ( Chapter 1 )

There's a common moral that usually comes out as a mushy topic that often preachers, parents, or even teachers, tell to their students, children, or audience, that, all humans are born the same way, and we are told, that we are all perfect, in our own way.   Lies   And whoever tells us this old saying must right now be in rehab, for having too much pride in his morals. And the people who had always listened to that, must have committed suicide for being betrayed by the human's weak emotions. Or is at least tempted to do so. Fools   But, there is a moral that counters that moral. And it is, "You can hope, but you can't hope for one thing, it encourages chaos to conquer all. If you do this, all hope will be lost. Avoid it, and you will succeed."   Faith  

For those of you who I know don't understand, this means, that you shouldn't push your luck too much, because if you have a lot of faith in one thing, and you don't have faith in another thing that's supposed to have faith, chaos will conquer all that faith you had, which acts as punishment since you should've have hoped for both of the things you should've hoped for, to where you have no more hope.   Hope   And I bet to those of you who are "reading" this, must be thinking that,   ''She should shut up and get to the point! This is getting boring!'' or,   ''Damn! this crap doesn't even make sense!''   or even,   ''This person can't even write a decent story! It’s totally off topic!''   Explanations

But, you know what? I don't care.

Because I have already lost all hope, every single last bit of hope.

And do you reader really want to know why I lost all of my hope? Wonder

I'll tell you then. Emotions

It's not because I feel bad because everyone isn't interested in this story, it's because, I never really had any hope to begin with, or at least I don't think I had any. To tell you the truth, I'm not sure if I was born with emotions, well, emotions that make a person happy.   Happiness  

The only two emotions I know of, is hate and disgust. But, I did think that I had something for this one person. He made me feel things that I never truly understood, but, I obtained an ambition to learn them, to understand them more, these other emotions.   Love  

Yes, I remember, that boy, that one time when I saw that certain redheaded boy, with the most amazing light green eyes that had a lot of thick black linings around them, yes, he definitely did something, something that made me feel all warm and fuzzy and, I think, happy. Beauty  

Whenever I looked at him, my stomach felt all bubbly, which hardly ever happens, and I would always feel a smile crossing my face, which I know never happens, or was it the way his eyes looked at me and they always reminded me of the sea.   Grace  

Or was it that amusing kanji scar on his forehead that said, love? Whenever I looked at it, I could always picture a rose, which I believe was the symbol for love, but, I didn't think that I was in love with him, but I did stare at him a lot.   Concord  

But I bet it was the way he looked when he had to sit down because that gourd was probably tiring him ,it sort of reminded me of a panda eating grass.   Harmony  

But who am I kidding?!   Discord  

I don't even think that I'm capable of understanding these things, these questions that just came out of no where, the always seem to wonder into my head!   Chaos  

Yes, he made me feel things like emotions, he even made me do things that never happened before, like smiling, and laughing.   Denial  

But, now that I think about it, he even made me feel, like I still had hope, and that day, when he found out everything about me, I remember, that he said that he would still love me, because on that day, he told me everything about him, and that was the first time in my life, that I felt loved, that emotion, it sure is a silly emotion, and that time, I felt I could trust him.   Darkness  

But I hated it! All those things that happened! And on that same day, just when I figured it all out, everything went blue.   Hate  

Then, I heard screams, and crying, and his voice. And even my voice, trying to tell him something, then, my eyes opened and the blue that I saw, was a tall, beautiful woman, who was blue, like water, actually, who seemed to be made of water, and was looking down at me, showing no expressions. But she looked like a goddess, an emotionless goddess, just like me, although I was no goddess. Though I didn't know her, she looked really familiar.   Sadness  

And then, after that, I closed my eyes, and for a long time, I didn't think there was nothing for me to hope for.   Give up  

But, I insisted on hoping, on every inch of hope that I had left, because I tried to open my eyes, due to my name being called, and the only thing that I could remember, I saw his face, instead of the woman's, and I was reaching out to him, and saying things that I couldn't really remember. But I do remember one thing, his face, of course.   Priceless  

The way his face looked at me, crying, and when I reached out to touch him, he held my hand tight. And again, instead of blue, everything went black. Hold on  

And that was it, that was the last time, I would ever him again. And that was complicated. I can't believe I did something crazy, out of love. A second chance  

But, even now, I-I still wanted to know those feelings I felt. B-but I didn't have any regrets. Because, I know I had felt them, all along. Regrets  

But still, I went through a lot of pain, and so did he, and that was m-my only regret, seeing him hurt, way more than I was. Pain  

If only, if only, I could change time, and make things right, or, comeback to life and live happily with him, or even, the best suggestion, if I could only stay in that coma, all alone in that strange place. Forgiveness  

Oh Gaara, what did you do? What did you do to make me feel this way? I-I feel hurt. I'm so sorry. I should never had fallen in love with you! I'm so terribly sorry! Could you possibly ever forgive me? I didn't mean for it to be this way, for you to get hurt in the end, I didn't want it to be that way!   Memory  

And even now, wait, why am I thinking all of this this?! How did I end up thinking all of this?!   Death  

I-I-I couldn't possibly be, alive!   Goodbye

"Where am I?"   Hell