Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Does it hurt? ❯ Choking on Nothing ( Chapter 2 )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]
By: Darkened Fire - Tears of a Kitsune
my phones not ringin
my doorbell isnt singing
my bed is empty
fragile and all i do is cry

because he left me
and you didnt even want me
im lost and lonely
cant live without you

im hearin footsteps
outside my door i get up
a voice is hummin
a tune that sounded like goodbye

Anime/Manga: Naruto Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst | Type: Self Insertion | Uploaded On: 03.23.2005 | Updated On: 03.24.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 3.0K | Visits: 576 | Status: Completed

Authors Notes: Hi again everyone! I've been trying to get both `Does it hurt' and `A secret I'd never tell you' both updated at least once a week, and so far it seems to be working. In this chapter we should start to see some important events happening…I hope. I'm lazy and may not be able to fit it in or my writing might not go as according to plan. Actually, I don't plan any of it at all. Most of it is written on the spur of the moment when I suddenly decide `hey! What about I do this!' and then things begin to work from there, or they collapse on top of me. Meh, either way.
To everyone who enjoys reading this fic, why don't you take a look at my other ones too! -Suggestive eyebrow rasie-
Naruto: Sasuke was right, you have no shame do you?
Fox: Nope, not me!
Naruto: …I have no answer to that…
Fox: That's what you get for not being prepared!
Sasuke: Say's she who always forgets to carry even a pencil with her.
Fox: Quiet you, or there will be many painful torture scenes for you ahead! Like no -cough- playing with Naruto for a whole month!
Sasuke: … you wouldn't do that…
Fox: Oh wouldn't I? -evil laugh-
Naruto: Sasuke, what's she talking about? And why does she look like Master Kakashi when he's reading his hentai books?
Sasuke: I… -sigh- just ignore her Naruto,
And now, review responses!
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And on with the fiction:
His ceiling looked duller then usual. That is, if it were possible for a plain white ceiling to seem anymore dull then it already was. He wasn't sure how, it just did.
With his eyes having been directed at one space for over three hours though, anything would begin to look dull. And that was just what Sasuke had been doing all afternoon, gazing the same spot on his ceiling.
In a way, it was almost comforting to be able to simply lie there on his bed and do nothing, but at the same time, he just couldn't relax. He was still waiting for a sudden yell and bang when a ball of blonde energy would bounce into his room and pounce upon him just as it usually did. But then again, Naruto never left it until this late to drag him out somewhere or simply spend the day annoying him. Unlike Sasuke, the blonde was a morning person, sort of.
So, if that were true, why wasn't he there yet?
The dark haired boy sighed. He knew why he was still waiting. It was because he was gone. His one and only best friend had flitted away out of his grasp leaving him totally hidden within the dark.
Sasuke felt lost.
God he missed the blonde. No, not just missed, he needed Naruto. No one else could make him feel so truly…alive. That was the only way he could explain it. The idea that this one, idiotic, extremely annoying person could make him feel so lost frightened him immensely. He knew he loved Naruto, but the depth of his love had caught him by surprise.
But now he was gone, leaving only a note behind, the only thing that proved to Sasuke that the blonde boy had been real, not just a figment of his imagination, and now he'd lost that too. He remembered the words of the note, how much pain and anger had been written into that single piece of paper.
-I'm nothing to them. To you.-
He winced as the words formed in his mind, whispered so quietly, and yet it felt as if they had torn something out of him. Something important, but what?

-Tell me Sasuke, does it hurt to find out that you're not the only one who doesn't care anymore?-
He smirked coldly at his own stupidity; he knew what it was now. Naruto had ripped out his heart. It was gone, still following the blonde whenever he went, as much as the dark haired shinobi didn't want it to be true, he knew it was.
Biting his lip, Sasuke fought off bitter tears of pain. `Why?' he wanted to scream the word out, but instead didn't say it at all. `Why did you leave me here, alone again? I thought you'd know what it was like to be alone…' Squeezing his eyes shut, a lone tear slid down his cheek and off onto the pillow as he turned his head to the side, as if facing away from someone upon the ceiling. The skin that the tear had touched felt as if it had been burned, searing a path into his cheek.
“I loved you, damn it.” He whispered resentfully, strange emotions boiling within him. “Did you say you loved me too?” But he knew that his was somehow only partially his fault for the blonde shinobi's leaving, as much as he hated to admit it, he had driven the other boy away by never saying the truth to his face.
A sudden loud knocking at his front door startled him out of his dark thoughts. He scowled, trying to ignore the harsh pounding at the door and rolled onto his side. However, the knocking didn't stop. “Sasuke! Open up, it's Sakura! Let's go out for dinner! Kakashi invited us.” He winced at the girl's voice, knowing that if he didn't answer soon she'd break down the door just to get to him.
Ever since Naruto had left, the cherry blossom girl had become, if possible, more like a stalker then ever before. Constantly following him and trying to push him into a conversation, it seemed as if Sakura had put it upon herself to `take care of him'. Sasuke was disgusted by this decision, he was not a child anymore, but was ever so slightly impressed that she had picked up on his change of mood. She had once lived in an ignorant sort of bliss before team seven had fused themselves together, but now appeared to have become mature, in a way.
Eventually, he forced himself up and off them bed and over to the door, opening to quickly while dodging a fist that had intended to rap the door. “Oh! Sorry Sasuke, I didn't think you'd answer so fast.” She smiled in a sickening sweet sort of way; it made the dark haired boy want to throw up. Of course, he had always tolerated the pink haired girl (as well as just about every other female in the village) despite how much she annoyed him, but it was only because of the fact that a) she was his team mate and comrade and b) Naruto had always been good friends with her.
Sasuke frowned; reminders of the blonde were everywhere.
“Come on Sasuke! Go and get ready so we're not too late.” Sasuke didn't bother to argue with her, he just didn't have the energy lately; he hadn't been able to sleep easily for a while now. Sakura ushered him to his room and closed the door, blushing at the thought of her long time crush change just behind the painted wooden door. Grudgingly, the dark haired boy did as was requested, changing from his dirty clothing that he had trained in earlier that morning and into a fresh set. Emerging once more, the Uchiha glared at the girl, arms crossed over his chest to show that he was ready. Plastering a smile onto her features, the cherry blossom girl grabbed his arm and proceeded to drag him out of the door, “Time to go then!”
They reached the chosen restaurant, which, to Sasuke's dismay, happened to be Ichiraku's Ramen stand. Images of the noodle stands best and worst customer flooded his mind, causing him to feel a sudden hatred towards his old mentor, for it had been Kakashi who had chosen their lunch spot. He knew that the silver haired man had done this purposefully.
To both Sakura and Sasuke's surprise, the scarecrow was already seated at the bar, waiting for his two former students. Glaring at the man, who smiled brightly back as if he had not been the target of the look that would have killed anyone other then himself or Naruto, Sasuke seated himself upon on the of the stools. Sakura plopped herself down between them both, beaming. “Hello Master Kakashi.” She greeted the said person, who returned her friendliness, “Hello Sakura, Sasuke, both of you have been having a good day I trust?” The pink haired girl nodded, though the Uchiha heir looked away, avoiding both of their pleasant gazes. He scowled at them both for being so happy at such a time.
Ordering quickly, neither teenager attempted to catch their teacher without his mask on, they had given up trying such things long ago. Their blonde team mate, however, had never truly stopped trying, he was determined to some day see what lay behind the piece of blue material that barred the majority of Kakashi's face from view. Having said nothing the whole time, Sasuke stirred his food absently around it's bowl, listening to his two comrades conversation.
“So how have you been, Sakura?”
“I've been alright, and you, Master Kakashi?”
“Fine, fine. And your family?”
“They're all fine; How about your last mission, you just got home yesterday, didn't you?”
“Yes, a B class to the Hidden Cloud Village,”
“Oh! How exciting, I hear they sell some beautiful clothing.”
“Mmm hmm, truly wonderful….”
Sasuke couldn't stand it anymore. He had been sitting silently with clenched fists during their entire conversation. How in all hell could they talk like that when Naruto was missing? And why hadn't Kakashi been searching for him, had the whole village given up on finding what they had lost?
Standing suddenly, causing Sakura to look up at him in surprise with Kakashi beside her, though he didn't seem shocked in the slightest, the dark haired Chuunin shot out of the Ramen Stand and into the air, sprinting along building tops.
The pink haired girl stood to go after him, a cry of “Sasuke” upon her lips; however the sound died when a hand around her forearm prevented her from moving. She turned to see the silver haired Jounin gazed past her somewhat lazily. “Don't worry about him, he's going to do what has to be done.” Sakura opened her mouth to reply, but again she was cut off. “He has to find him on his own, but I doubt that Naruto will come back with him.” The girl looked back out at the rapidly retreating form of Sasuke, heading towards the village gates. “But…why?” She asked quietly as Kakashi's hold on her arm gone. “Because Naruto too is searching for something, I'm not quite sure what, but I can guess.” Came his quiet reply. “Sasuke is being selfish in trying to find him. He hasn't thought of what he would do once he finds Naruto, but he will try to force him into returning to Kohona even is it is against his will.” Sakura did not reply and simply nodded her head in understanding.
“Then I hope he never finds him.”
He sped through the leafy foliage, haphazardly leaping from branch to branch with really looking where he was going. Anger and adrenaline flared through him, blurring his vision red and clouding his mind. Sasuke wasn't sure where he was going, but he knew what he had to do. He had to find Naruto.
Authors Notes: This was written while I was watching television, yay for LOST! I hope this chapter was better then the last, or at least acceptable enough to get some more reviews. (As Naruto and Sasuke have already pointed out, no shame at all). Anyway, I hope you all enjoyed it! It was a lot shorter then I'd have hoped, but I was too tried to write anymore, and I need to get on with `A secret I'd never tell you's new chapter. So, night night for now!