Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Homeless Harlot ❯ Hooked ( Chapter 14 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Gai is at his office; where Lee is laid out on a table bed. He's been released from the hospital and is now in the loving care of Maitou Gai. Popping his bones into alignment, with his strong hands he gives the male a deep tissue massage.

Smiling when he hears the boys pleased hum, Gai wonders out loud. "Your back was in pretty bad shape, you'll probably need a cane for a little while."

Lee nods.

"How did this happen? Sasuke said that the two of you were taking a jog. Did you cut a corner too soon?"

"No. Sasuke and I were finished with our run by the time I'd hurt my back." His voice saddens thinking about it. He gave Sasuke a terrible scare. It was the same look on his fathers face when it had first happened. "He and I went up to a hill and he thought it'd be fun to play this game- I don't know- he must have done it before a few times, I guess."

Finding that innocent enough, though, Gai asks. "What kind of game?"

"We had to hold onto the blades of grass and let our weight go, to see if it would hold us. I think the point was to fall as well as seeing how long it would take to actually do it."

'So Sasuke had something to do with the fall.' Ever since his anniversary, Gai has been wary of Sasuke's behavior. He loves the boy, really he does but sometimes he can act out-right weird. Gai's been suspecting that maybe his little crush on Kakashi goes deeper than he thinks. The boy might actually be obsessed with him! But would he go as far as sending him out on a wild goose chase to injuring Lee just to get time alone with the man? It doesn't matter what he does of course because Kakashi would never go for the boys seduction tactics but if Sasuke isn't stopped he may end up hurting someone.

"Gai-san? You're pressing too hard."

"Removing his hands like he'd been electrocuted, he waves his hands apologetically. "I'm sorry, I got distracted."

"Its okay. ...Gai-san?"

"Hmm?"

"Tell Sasuke, when you get home, that I'm ok. He was really worried about me."

"I'll tell him."

The boy smiled softly, returning to his relaxed position having shifted from it to turn to face the man.

.................

Kakashi had only meant to do laundry, and yet, he found himself shoving the boy into the vibrating machine, his hands clamping Sasuke's cheeks as he kisses him passionately. The teen had been the one to press the matter by parting his legs to allow Kakashi in as he rocks and grinds into the man; smiling in the kiss when the man responds by grinding back. He moans when the older mans lips travel to his neck sucking it possessively. A certain moan from Sasuke stopped Kakashi from what he was doing as he realized he was about to give the boy a hickey and that's the last thing he should be doing. Their moment on the couch still with him, he found himself getting hard from the image of how the teens sex jerked before climax. In a heated hurry Kakashi reaches for the zipper and fly of Sasuke's jeans tugging them and the boxers down about the male's ankles. Lowering himself, he pulls out his own member stroking it in time with his mouth play over Sasuke's penis.

Head titled back, pleasure washing over his spine, Sasuke grips both hands full of the man's soft gray hair. The gentle rocking of the machine mixed with Kakashi's licks and sucks on nothing but the head of his cock made his mind swirl in a blur of the room and blinding white, especially when one of those torturous hands cupped his balls between his parted legs. How long has he wanted a blowjob from the man? His body was almost sick with pleasure from every clamp and withdrawal, those searing licks from the flicks of the mans tongue against his slit. He can feel the man's forearm brushing his calf, giving his closed eyes a visual with the feeling that the man's hand is imitating what he's doing to him on his self.

Kakashi hums when his tongue passes over three beaded offerings that came from the male's head, as well as the feeling of his thumb brushing his own slit three rapid times. It was when Sasuke raised a leg to sit upon his shoulder that Kakashi took the incentive to simply lift the teen and set him down atop the washer; his mouth never leaving Sasuke's sex as he does so. He simply moved his hands to his hips, the one raised leg assisting him before Sasuke's set down to feel the full rumble of the spin cycle. Kakashi's hand returned to palming and jerking himself, the other hand is clamped to Sasuke's trembling thigh.

With the washer going the two missed the sound of the front door closing. They missed the foot steps walking through the living room into the kitchen. But what they did not miss was the loud...

"Kakashi! Sasuke!"

But they are so close to completion, if only Gai would hesitate a bit longer.

The noises from upstairs-regardless the washing machine noise- seem to magnify now that they know they're not alone, and the magnified sounds muffle their own as Sasuke bites down on his lower lip to keep his moans inside. Bucking his hips into the mans wet, hot mouth, he hopes to speed them along before they're caught. Caught means game over, end of the line, out on your ass and he can't allow that to happen. Not when he knows how good life can really be: a home, warmth from the cold, food everyday, choices really. He can't give it all up, he's not ready.

Gai's foot steps seem to retreat from the kitchen to go elsewhere in the home. Kakashi's tongue circled the slit and head several times- a move that always finished Gai off, and thankfully it worked for Sasuke as well. He quickly clamped his hand against the males mouth to help silence his cry while he sucked away the evidence, cleaning it just barely before pulling away when he was sure there was no more to be given. Wiping his mouth, he tucks his own shrinking member back into his pants doing up the zipper and fasten before grabbing a handful of dirty clothes to, quick, clean the mess from the washer.

Gai's foot steps travel from his office to upstairs, his calling for them ceased after the kitchen, he seemed now to just be wandering until eventually the basement door opened up. "There you two are." He announces to no one. Walking down into the basement he serveys the area: Kakashi is removing things from the washer and shoving them into the dryer; Sasuke is playing ping pong with the wall. If the boy were sitting on the couch it would have been a lot less obvious. Lowering his gaze to the floor he then looks back up at them with a smile. "I don't feel like cooking today, unless the two of you want to make dinner, we should eat out. Burgers and fries or Thai food?"

"Burgers sound good to me." Sasuke says; the little orange ball hits the wall too hard bouncing back to nail the distracted boy in the eye.

"Me too." Chimes Kakashi. "I'm gonna finish loading this stuff and the next; you two go upstairs, I don't need the company."

Having been retrieving the ball from beside the pinball machine, Sasuke looks over at Gai then to Kakashi, with a shrug he follows the other man upstairs into the living room. Kakashi must be feeling guilty again. Taking a seat on the couch, he makes himself comfortable, moreso when Gai sits beside him wrapping his arms around his shoulders bringing him in so that the back of his head is resting against the man's chest. He remembers sitting like this with his father and brother, they would be outside somewhere in the city just enjoying a view together, it was always such a nice time. But something felt different with Gai.

"Lee wants you to know that he's alright."

"That's good."

"You really helped him out."

"I was really shocked that he'd gotten hurt, I hadn't meant for that to happen." He said in a casual, true yet lying statement.

"He knows." Changing subjects he says. "I saw the most interesting show today, its new I think, about a girl named Asuka and another woman named Ai."

"Oh yeah," He asks cheerfully. Gai can put an interesting spin on the dumbest of things. You could be watching the same show and find it dull but Gai could talk about it later like you weren't there and it'll be the most entertaining thing you've ever heard about. It must be a perspective thing. "so what happens?"

"Actually, its about a couple and another woman who has fallen in love with Ai's husband."

Sasuke's blood chilled. Does Gai know? But his voice sounds so cheerful, like he's only speaking about a show. Its just a weird coincidence, the plot, that's all. "Really?"

The man nods. "You see, this woman Asuka is a friend of there's and has been for a long time. She one day seemed to see the man, Hakeshi, in a different light and suddenly she was thinking of ways to be alone with the man so that she could tell him- just to see what he'd think. One day, her time came- Ai was busy doing something out of the house- she confessed her feelings to the man and he showed her what he'd thought of it. At first, he resisted but then temptation was too great and they burned passionately with each other."

"Aha, that's a lot for one episode."

"It was an hour; they wanted to rush the real point, no sense in dragging it out, I guess."

Sasuke listens to Gai's voice, so calm and chipper and yet the man was stroking his hair, setting it behind his ear as he spoke and it was scaring the shit out of him. For the first time since meeting the man, Sasuke is really paying attention to how strong Gai is, how he could easily do away with him if he'd wanted to. Him and Kakashi joked about it back in their earlier, less tensed times about how the two men could easily be killers that invite strangers into their home and get off on their preys unsuspecting happiness before they do away with them.

"Well.... its...." He stammers thoughtfully. "If the guy is that in a hurry to be with someone else then maybe Ai is better off." He says with a buddy-buddy tone.

"Mmm, its not that simple. She loves Hakeshi more than anyone, its not always as simple as 'he's a bastard I'll just find someone new'. They've been together for a very long time, those two."

"So what about Asuka's feelings? She's just supposed to forget about them because the two are together, because they have history?"

"I don't know. That's what made it so interesting. Two people can love the same person, but in honesty, two people cannot have the same person. It seems ideal to make it work but it never really could, now could it?"

"I don't think so. One would eventually become jealous."

"Mm."

"But, I'm sure that Ai is very attractive and has lots of other guys looking at her too- like how Asuka looks at Hakeshi. Couldn't she just be happy with one of them? Can't she see that they've had each other long enough and should give someone else a turn?"

"That's a very selfish way of seeing it, but I suppose so."

"See! You see how simple it is and everyone is happy... right?" He wants to jerk his head away from that threatening caress but he can't move. Frozen in wonder, held tight by the conversation.

"I see, but it doesn't solve the problem it only makes it go away visually. Emotionally, spiritually... they're going to suffer apart and the others they're with will suffer as well."

"But he cheated with someone else! I really don't think Hakeshi wants to be with Ai if that's the case."

"Sleeping with someone is a blinding passion that can sweep even the strongest of stones to a crumpled mess, but the thing that builds them back up is not the sex, but the love. ...Blind passion won't give you love, it gives you relief. Nothing more, nothing less."

"But what if he loves Asuka? What if he does wanna be with her?"

"Then he can have her, because Ai would probably have to check herself into a mental clinic from laughing at how improbable it all is."

"It is NOT!" He sits up turning slightly in the seat to face the man. "Hakeshi could love Asuka if he really thought about it! Maybe Ai is just in the way of that!"

Gai smiled. "But if he could really truly love Asuka, then why would Ai even be an obsticle?"

That seemed to strike a nerve with Sasuke; he clenches his jaw tightly before finding his voice to say. "She's not.... its just... a thought."

Reaching out to massage the boys back his hands are smacked away.

"Stop it!" Sasuke snaps.

"But Sasuke... its only a drama on television... nothing more."

His breathing is hard and a little frantic, his dark eyes dart back and forth as he thinks of a way for himself- well- Asuka and Hakeshi or he and Kakashi or somebody dammit! to get their way. And Ai will be left with nothing. She's wrong to think a heart can't be changed! She's the one who thinks selfishly!

"Relax. Here," He grabs the boys shoulders, rubbing them, soothing him as they shrink down from the pent up state they got into. "just relax. I didn't mean to upset you, I was just telling you about a show I was watching."

"I know but..." He can feel his breaths calming but tears are stinging his eyes. He won't cry here, he can't! Closing his watering eyes, he allows himself to calm into Gai's tender touch. That seemed to be the key to unlocking the door and he turned in on the man and cried against his chest. He half expected Gai to shove him off, or get on his case about how he knows what he and Kakashi are doing, but the man only held him, hushing him while his hand caresses up and down his back.

Friday.

It was a typical day- well, no, it wasn't actually; Naruto was acting strange, beyond strange. Mostly around Sasuke as he spied the, usually happy, blond talking and joking around with the others when he wasn't anywhere near them yet but the moment he walked up, he turned ice bitch on him. He asked the others what was going on but they could only shrug. Reading class was when it was the most hardcore.

"And Naruto, will you read the next chapter, please."

"Bite me." He grumbled, crossing his arms, looking out the window to stress that that was as far as talking to the man went.

Naruto wasn't like this with the other teachers. Well, he and Naruto don't have all the same classes but he could just bet the boy was fine with everyone but Kakashi.

Laughing playfully, Kakashi says. "Excuse me?"

"I said bite me, you son of a bitch." He repeats with a little more venom.

"That's what I thought you'd said." He kept his voice light and calm. "I have no choice but to give you detention, Uzumaki-san."

"Whatever." He leans over the desk, cheek pressed to it, arms still crossed beneath it.

The class was speechless; this is so unlike Naruto they're actually whispering to each other about a clone theory. Sasuke touches the males back only to have his hand smacked promptly away. Not about to be pushed around by some dumb brat, Sasuke grabs the boy by the shoulders leading him out of the room into the hall.

"Sasuke, I did not give you permission to leave my classroom."

Sasuke wasn't listening and continued out of the room, the resisting blond being pushed along ahead of him.

The rest of the class was left watching dumbly, wondering what the hell was going on.

Shoving Naruto forward into the lockers, Sasuke leans close to whisper to the male. "What is your problem? Did someone die?" He hardly saw how that was a reason to be a little bitch all day, but for some people death was probably hard to understand. Well, thinking about the dead doesn't count, he'll always hold the memory of his brother and father dear. But he's not gonna cry about it and act like an idiot to others he's around. He's been taught better than that.

"The person who died.... is me... the moment I feel for you." Fist balled he barks at his ex lover. "You asshole!" Slamming his fist into Sasuke's jaw he shouts over the ringing bell. "That's for me falling in love with you!" He slams his fist into the male's face again. "That's for being so damned cold all the time!" He punches him again then once more. "You lied to me! You lie-..." He goes falling back to the floor.

"I never lied to you!" Sasuke snaps in return before pouncing on the boy laying into his face blow after blow. "You fucking prick! You lied to yourself!!"

Not about to let his anger be staunched by another, Naruto dodged a hit hooking Sasuke in the ear to knock him off before he took the lead dragging the male up to his feet, shoving him into the locker, then punching him over and over in the gut with one hand while the other has the street child pinned at the shoulder. But Sasuke headbutts the fired up boy, aiming for more but he's pulled away and so is Naruto, right before the boy could kick him in the groin. The two struggle against their captors, hearing and not hearing the things they're saying to keep them calm.

"You bitch! You're nothing!" Naruto actually spit blood, from his lip, at him before he's turned around by the two who grabbed him.

Sasuke turned his head spitting a tooth across the floor; the unseen until just then, crowd jumped and eeeuuwed. That's what 16 years of poor hygene will get you in a fight. The pain didn't even register yet, he was too busy seeing red.

"Sasuke, what the hell is wrong with you?" Orochimaru hisses at the teen before looking around at the other students. "Get your asses to class, now!"

They only needed that; they've never heard the man talk above a near mutter and they didn't want to know what would happen if NOW wasn't obeyed.

"The principals office, now." He says to the two males.

"Fuck you!" Sasuke pulls away from Kiba, the other person who had grabbed him. "Fuck all of you immature, shit heads!!" Free, he charges at Naruto, but Shikamaru blocks his path but Sasuke shoves him out of the way into the locker; he crashes into the lockers not a moment after. Hand to his cheek he sees that his attacker was Neji; a bitter, protective look in his eyes. Shikamaru and Neji, he never would have guessed it from the two. As if it mattered. Ready to strike back, his fist is grabbed by Naruto who is then leading him towards the boys bathroom. This could only get worse before it gets better, but at least he might get some answers as to why the male is acting so stupid today.

The first thing Naruto said, once in the bathroom, is "Why?" he isn't even facing Sasuke, he's speaking to a wall. To look into the male's cold dark eyes would only send him swinging again. How could he ever think that heartless bastard was attractive? How could he let his heart go so willingly with this mysterious boy when from the start he's been nothing but cold and aloof. He supposed he had this result coming then. He's too trusting. "Why did you lie to me?"

"About what?"

"Being my boyfriend."

"I didn't lie, because at no point did I ever say that I wanted you as a boyfriend.... you put those thoughts into your own head. I told you that I just wanted to sleep with you, nothing more." He stares intensely at the blond's back.

"I... I know but... I just thought that you had love all mixed up because of, you know, how you grew up. Like maybe you thought you didn't deserve it the right way, or something."

Confused, Sasuke tries to make sense of what the boy is saying. "Naruto, you seem to be under some impression that I was molested or raped out on the streets, but you're wrong. My father and brother both taught me how to survive if anything happened to either of them. I can fight, I can run if I need to, and I know every place in this city so if I need to hide I may as well be a ghost." He walks a step closer, reaching out he takes the boys shoulder. "Naruto... why are you acting like this all of a sudden?"

His head tilts back as he looks up at the ceiling, thoughtfully. Naruto had spent all of yesterday making up excuses for what he'd seen; being molested and feeling unloved had stopped the searing rage that burned in his heart but to hear Sasuke say that no such thing had happened only brought the anger back in full swing.

"Then you're just a slut!" He hisses. Eyes shut tight, he holds in his tears.

Sasuke shakes his head to the accussation, though, it was unseen.

"I saw you, yesterday, I saw you and Kakashi-se... that sicko, fucking on the coffee table!" He barks, turning around with rage in his eyes, making his beautiful clear blue look as dark as a cruel sea during a thunder storm.

Sasuke's bitter expression changed to shock. When did Naruto... how did he see them? Thoughts crashed around in his mind as he wondered but Naruto cleared it up for him.

"You don't even deny it! You were there, and the curtains moved.... I thought that sex book reading perv was molesting you but you... you were into it." He could barely get those last words out, head dipping as tears spill out. "I loved you, I trusted you-.."

"No. You may have loved me but there was no trust behind it. You pitied me, Naruto. You loved me because you pitied me! You couldn't have thought that I was a trusting loving person if I were hitting you up for nothing but sex, you made an excuse because it made what I wanted from you less sad from the reason you thought I wanted it to be that way."

That stung the blond namely because it was a bit true. He wouldn't call it pity, so much as it was sadness for the street child. But no more. That innocent boy, that poor child, its broken and ruined- the image- tarnished with stains of red and voices of lust.

"Naruto.... I can tell you because you need to know. I'm sorry that I've hurt you, I really am but..." He takes the angry males hand. "I love Kakashi... I've loved him for a while, before I asked you to sleep with me. I thought you understood that I didn't want a boyfriend when I had made my offer to have you as nothing but a way to get off. I'm sorry that hurts but its the truth. I never thought that he would actually care about me too."

"Does he? Or is he just a disgusting pervert looking to get off as well?" He snaps, though, his hand remains in Sasuke's.

"He never actually said it, but... when we're together I can feel it."

Naruto shakes his head. "So, you really never liked me that way? You couldn't even try?"

"No."

Naruto scoffed. "Stop being so damned biting with your words- I'm hurting over here!" He shouted to the world.

Sasuke couldn't help but smile at how open the boy was with his emotions. Its actually kind of cute. "Alright, keep your voice down. I'm sorry that you're hurt and that I used you like I did, really... but I can't be sorry for how I feel about Kakashi." He says seriously.

"And what about Gai-san? He's really nice; are you just gonna hurt him as well? What did he ever do to you? Him you actually gave a reason to be trust worthy and you're just spitting his kindness back in his face."

"I'm not doing anything like that! I love Gai, he's like a mother to me. That's why I think its better that he just find someone new, someone who won't fall for someone else."

"Do you hear yourself? You just insulted the person you claim to love by saying he's no good. You really don't get love." He pulls his hand away. Naruto is quiet for a moment, then he growls in frustration. "I wanna smash your face in! But... but I can't. Its not your fault that I like you in that way, I did sort of take your words and run with them. I started as nothing but your friend so I can go back to that."

Relieved he smiles. "Thank you." Wrapping his arms around the silently crying blond, he's glad to feel the hug returned. "Do you forgive me?"

"Yeah. I guess so."

"Thanks."

"One condition. You don't hurt Gai-san anymore. I don't care that you have a thing for Ka-.." He can't even say his name right now. For an adult to do something like that. He'd expect it from maybe Orochimaru-sensei, but from anyone its wrong! That man has to be what? 50? 40? Either way he's no teenager. "If you don't stop what you're doing with him, I'll tell Gai-san all about what I saw."

Sasuke moves away from Naruto, and nowhere in the boys gaze does it say that he's joking or so much as unsure about it. "....I... I won't be with Kakashi anymore."

"I hope you mean that." Walking passed the male he exits the bathroom into the now empty hall.

Sasuke looks after the male, thoughtfull. He knows Naruto well enough to know that he really would tell Gai... and after that little talk they had the other day he knows that Gai should not be tried and messed with. For a while, he'll cool it with Kakashi. Who knows, maybe his feelings for the man will pass.

* * * *

It had been a long day. Sasuke served his first detention in absolute pain from the injury of his fight with Naruto. Gai was a mess when the man brought the teen home and saw what he looked like. Dinner was hard on the boy who had to sip soup through a straw, the noodles and chicken bits cooked to near mush so that his mouth would not hurt. He lost a molar. Later on Sasuke showered and dressed for bed, homework was completely ignored but he said it was easy enough and he would finish it in the morning during breakfast. After Gai's shower he was very quiet, that is until he'd found the right way to word what was keeping him so quiet towards his lover all evening.

"Kakashi." Gai says later that night while toweling his hair. "Point blank... Are you fooling around with Sasuke?"

"If I said, yes, then what?" Answers the man keeping his tone casual, like his lovers.

"Then I'd ask that you stop."

Kakashi nods "Fair enough. But what if I won't."

Gai lowers the towel. "Don't you mean, what if you can't."

"Alright then. If I can't. Then what?"

Looking his lover in the eyes he sighs. "Then you and will attend therapy to work through your addictions."

"And what of our homeless harlot?" He asks in all seriousness. "Will we throw him to the curb? Put him in a home?"

"No. Sasuke will remain with us, but he will see a therapist as well."

Smiling, he leans over to kiss his lover but is turned down by the turn of the man's head. "You always know best, Gai."

The man rolls over. "Goodnight." He turns off the lamp.

"Goodnight." He turns off his.

Kakashi opens his eyes, damp with sweat, his heart pounding in his chest and ears. He wondered if the bed were shaking, its beating so hard. 'I was only dreaming. It felt so real, though. Could it have been a sign to tell Gai? Or a sign to keep it quiet and simply let the problem go away on its own. But is there a problem? Yes, sleeping with a teenager is against the law; I'd be locked up for sure doing it, consensual or not. Its more than that, though, I love Gai and doing this with Sasuke will surely hurt him. I could go to jail over this, who cares, but Gai being upset with me is too much to think about. The terror of losing him is all too real from a dream that simple, I could feel every bit of his disappointment in me and what I've done. Sasuke and I have to end this.'

Getting out of bed, he crosses the hall to Sasuke's room. He would have knocked but it might wake Gai, so he instead just walks in. Sasuke is awake, oddly, writing in a book; he would have thought that it were homework if the teen didn't quickly shove it away before sitting up from his stomach laid position before.

"How are you feeling?" He means the boys busted face. They had to get him to the dentist quick to see about the swelling caused by the punched out tooth. Sasuke got some painkillers for it and was told to keep ice on it until the swelling went down. He has a few other bruises on his face from the blonds enraged beating. He would have stopped the slaughter if he'd gone out into the hall but he had no idea the arguement in the classroom would escalate.

"I'm fine." He smacks away the fatherly hand, after fully receiving a mothers touch from Gai earlier when he'd gotten home from detention. "We have to stop doing this, Naruto knows and he said that if he so much as whiffs us doing anything again that he'll tell Gai about it."

"So that's why he's been snapping at everyone today."

"Namely just you and me."

Sitting on the bed, he runs a hand through his hair. "How did he find out?"

"He saw us, yesterday, through the window."

Kakashi sighed heavily hearing that. "I was just going to say that we should cool off a bit, but being black mailed out of it is a whole other thing."

"He said if we stop he won't tell."

"And you're sure you can trust him?"

"He may be mad at me, but Naruto's word is good. I'm sure of it."

He nods. "Can you handle that?"

"I don't have a choice." He sits himself beside the man. Cupping his hand to Kakashi's cheek he pulls the man in giving him a kiss slowly moving away from it. "For the road." He shrugs.

Snickering, Kakashi stands. "For the road." He's at the door.

"Kakashi?" He's scooting himself under the blanket. "Do... do you love me?"

The man smiles warmly before saying. "With all my heart." He closes the door after his leave.

'With all his heart, huh? Then why does he sound more like my father than my lover?' Saddened he reaches for the journal, taking the pen into his hand he finishes what he'd been writing.

'Today Naruto found out about Kakashi and me- well, to be accurate he found out yesterday and took it out on us today. I think he might tell the others. I don't know why, maybe he's too honest when it comes to questions and the people who asks them. Certain people, though, he's not some motor mouth that would air his feelings to just anyone who'll listen. I can't help but wonder if he still wants that sleepover with me or not. I know he wouldn't want it today but, tomorrow I'm going to ask him about it because it might make him feel better if I don't just start ignoring him or something. I want his friendship, he's done nothing to deserve being hurt the way he is, though, I still think its his fault he's in pain I am partly to blame for putting the position there.

I'm afraid of Gai, really afraid. I don't think he'll throw me out on the streets if he ever found out. But I think that he might end up hurting me without a thought to it until afterwards. It's a good idea that Kakashi and I cool off. But... I can't let it go completely. I used to think it'd be easy, but now I'm not so sure. I need distractions and plenty of them.'