Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ If Only You Knew ❯ Back to Square One ( Chapter 12 )

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Chapter 11 Back to Square One

Outrage filled every pore of my body as that bastard stood there looking so damn smug.

I took a step toward him, feeling a snarl tear itself out of my mouth before I could contain it. I am pissed, it told Sasuke, conveying to him what exact emotion I felt towards him at the present, don't make it worse for yourself or you will regret it.

This message seemed to make its meaning clear to him as the smirk he had wore only moments before was replaced with a more reproachful appearance.

I felt the anger from before drain away, emotional weariness taking over. Even though I had just recently gained the ability to feel was rapidly taking its toll. At this point I just wished things would go back to the way they had been before.

At the present moment, however, I needed to deal with Sasuke and attempt to put this entire situation behind me. After all, I had far more important things to worry about than an Uchiha who couldn't leave well enough alone.

Mentally envisioning the image I wanted to shift into, I felt more than saw my tendons and bones, cracking and reshaping themselves to accommodate said image. I had thought that this might sicken Sasuke, but he watched in apparent fascination as my body contorted back into its usual form. Not flinching at all at the random popping and cracking.

That fascination continued even after I had completely changed back. I felt my face get hot as his eyes trailed their way down my once-again human body.

Attempting to once again gain momentum I forced back the embarrassment that had suddenly appeared and asked Sasuke as calm and collected as I could in such a situation.

"Could I get my clothes back now? It's getting a little chilly out here."

That insufferable arrogant look that I couldn't stand appeared on his face as fast as it had vanished before. Then this eerie smile lit up his face. It was really quite creepy, a shudder went down my spine as I got a really bad feeling.

"Hmmmm…." He mused, placing a finger on this chin as if in deep meditation. "I don't think I'll be able to do that until….yes that should do it."

"What?" I asked, eyeing him warily.

Getting serious he finally cut the crap.

"You're going to answer some questions for me Kyuubi." He stated as if it were already pre-acknowledged that I was going to go along with this. "Once you do so I'll be more than happy to give you back your "clothes."" He grimaced at the last word, making his distaste in my apparel more than evident.

All right, I mused, this is already more than enough. Kyuubi said I couldn't use youkai strength unless it was against another youkai or a life-threatening situation. Sasuke technically isn't human so the damn fox won't be able to argue.

Sasuke took my silence as conceding defeat, not noting the sudden stiffness of my body, he went on.

"The first question I have is why—"

His words were halted as-from the human eye out of nowhere—my clothes were snatched out his hands.

Making sure to mask my chakra I slowed my pace down to that of a normal human, finally stopping when I had found a place that provided adequate camouflage. Wasting no time, I yanked my eye-offending clothes back on my body.

Stupid bastard, I mused, he really thought he could beat me? I snorted. Not likely. I was curious, though, about what he had done when I'd pulled my literal 'fast' one.

I made my way back to where he had been standing not bothering to be stealthy on this go-around.

Once I'd arrived he was surprisingly still there. It looked like he hadn't moved at all.

I laughed out loud, the sound bringing his head to swing around looking at me in shock. I was immediately sobered as I saw the look in his eyes. I took a defensive stance, the gleam in his eye that unpredictable, his body language was also unreadable.

Suddenly he too, started laughing, a broken, defeated sound that pulled at something in me. I didn't speak, something inwardly told me that if I did, if I wasn't silent I would somehow regret it.

The hysterical sound changed into a broken sob. I was at a loss of what to do, I had never had to deal with something like that before. I know it sounded selfish but at his broken sob I started to panic. Shit, I preferred the bastard acting condescending and pissing me off. That I can handle, this is a whole different story. Sasuke's voice brought me out of my panic-induced stupor.

"You should see your face right now." He half-sobbed half-laughed, hysteria still slightly laced in his tone. "You act like you've never seen someone about to go insane." He laughed again, if that horrible sound can be called a laugh. "Then again I guess you haven't. "

I cocked my head at him in curiosity.

"Why are you about to go insane?" I asked, genuinely wondering why. In my defense I had no idea what he was talking about. To me he was spouting nonsense.

"You really don't know do you Kyuubi?" he asked, bewildered that I didn't know what he was talking about.

"I said I don't didn't I?" I said, knowing irritation was beginning to fill my own voice. "And stop calling me Kyuubi! That is not my name, you idiot!"

His eyes widened in surprise at my declaration, or maybe it was just shock that someone had dared insult his person.

"Look." I said, cutting the bullshit, "I'm not great at this whole 'in touch with you emotions' thing. If you have something to say, say it already! If not, let me know so I can leave!"

Inwardly I knew I was being rude, but this bastard had a way of getting under my skin, making me lose all of my hard-earned control. I don't like not being in control, in fact, I abhor it.

"Oh Gods." He responded in wonder. "The great Kyuubi is anti-social? Who would have known?"

That was so it. I started to take off, but a hand on my shoulder stopped me. I brought my head around to his and looked from his hand to my shoulder. Getting the point he removed his hand. I started to take off again but an uncharacteristically soft voice stopped me.

"Please don't go Naruto."

I stopped but didn't turn around.

"What exactly do you want from me Sasuke?" I demanded. How much shit did he honestly think I was willing to put up with? "First you won't quit molesting me. Then you turn into a whiny little child when I won't play your little games. What the fuck is your problem?"

"You are my problem."

That made me turn around and look him in the eyes in amazement.

"I would love to know how I am your problem." I sneered at him.

"Like now for example." He now strangely calm, pointed out logically. "You run away whenever the conversation takes a serious turn."

This was creepy. It was like we'd switched places. I was now the emotional wreck and he was the cool, logical one. Not happening, that's what this was.

"Honestly Sasuke." I replied wearily. "I'm really just tired of this whole situation. Just leave me alone from now on."

I started to walk away again, not liking the fact that I was in fact walking away, but what else could I do? I wasn't exactly equipped to deal with this type of situation.

Running away again, ne gaki?

Fuck off Kyuubi.

Oh, someone is touchy today. You know if you run away this time he won't ever be open to reconciling with you again. This is in essence, your last chance.

Kyuubi aren't you the one who told me to stay away from him? Now you want me to make up with him.

Hey, that was before I knew how he really felt. The Uchiha is quite the actor when he wants to be, but even he can't hide his feelings from me for forever.

I knew the damn fox was right. Even with everything that that stupid bastard had put me through I would regret it if I let things go the way they were. Turning around I made my way back to where he was, grumbling all along about stupid foxes and their inability to stick with one decision.

He was no longer there.

Swearing under my breath, I took off in the direction of his chakra signature. Damn bastard, never around when you actually want to talk to him.

Swiftly closing in on his chakra I noticed it was close to the village. The weird thing was I sensed another person's chakra right next to this.

As I quietly approached the area where the two chakras currently resided I was anything but prepared for what I saw.

Sasuke was thrusting into Sakura's more-than-willing body, their cries of near release more than evident.

I felt something inside of me shatter into pieces. The pain was unbearable and I'd never felt anything like it. Nothing the villagers had ever done could compare to this. I just stood there the whole time, with this pain filling my entire being, watching them both finally find their release.

"-kkkuuuuuunnnnn!" I heard the pink-haired thing yell as it reached what I assumed was its peak.

Sasuke came, right after, the only sound he made was a sort of grunt.

He collapsed on top of her, and that's when it happened.

Whatever had caused my emotions to surface, immediately shut the door and locked them away once more. I went numb. It was as though I had never, no matter how briefly had possessed the ability to feel at all. I welcomed it with open arms. Emotions were overrated, why I had ever wanted them in the first place was beyond me.

Sasuke was in the process of pulling up his pants, brushing bits of dirt here and there. Sakura was doing the same. I disinterestedly observed that there was no blood on her panties before she pulled them up. Hm, either she went horseback riding a lot or "Sasuke-kun" wasn't her first. I was betting on the latter rather than the former.

What a gentleman Sasuke was, I mean, he even offered her a hand up from her position on the ground, truly a great example of a shinobi.

I chose that moment to walk into their little bedroom away from home.

Sakura's face immediately went bright with color and she looked away from me with embarrassment. Sasuke stared at me openly, gauging my reaction. Apparently this was the moment I was supposed to explode into tears and hysteria.

Instead I stopped, looked right at Sasuke, and let him take a good look.

His eyes widened.

I decided I didn't want to spend another night confined indoors, so I turned around and walked back into the forest adding a tenuous excuse as I left over my shoulder.

"Tell Kakashi that I'm training."

"And if I don't?" was Sasuke's reply.

For about the millionth time today I turned around.

"Tell him whatever you want to. I really don't care."

"You don't care about anything do you?" he asked softly. "I just fucked Sakura right in front of you and you didn't say or do anything." Sakura had disappeared or it probably would have burst into tears about Sasuke putting their little 'tryst' into such course terms.

"I thought I did." Was my response.

"You thought you did?" he growled angrily. "Either you did or you didn't"

"It doesn't matter anymore." I said emotionlessly. "You've made your choice and I hope you and the pink monstr—I mean Sakura will be very happy. You certainly deserve each other."

"You really are frustrating Uzumaki, Naruto!" Sasuke cried.

"You know Uchiha," I stated coldly, "you really need to work on your own emotional control. If I didn't' know any better I would say you'd never received any education on the principles of being a shinobi."

"What the hell is wrong with you?" Sasuke hissed. "I know you have the ability to feel now."

"Funny thing." I sneered at him. "I actually have you to thank for that. So thanks. Now you might want to head back to your girlfriend. I think she's feeling your loss."

"Laugh at her all you want." Was his retort. "At least she's still human."

I laughed at him, it was an empty, hollow sound.

"What is so damn funny?" he asked, puzzlement evident in his features and tone."

"You just paid me a compliment, you imbecile."

"What do you mean?"

"You really think that I want to be human?" incredulity filled my voice. Scoffing I continued. "You may have youkai blood but you are still so very naive. The evidence in that is the fact that you would compare me to one. In fact I can guarantee that these supposed youkai you say are in hiding, if they have any pride as a youkai then they won't want to be anything like you people. But of course, you wouldn't know this. You know nothing about part of your own heritage, obviously other than that there are some youkai in hiding. You're lucky I'm not Kyuubi, otherwise you would now be dead for the statement you just uttered."

Sasuke was now—thankfully—silent.

"Now that we understand each other let me give you some pointers, for your own health." I went on. "Don't talk to me unless it's about youkai. Two I don't give a fuck who you fuck. Otherwise stay the hell out of my way." With that I took off leaving Sasuke staring at my back.

Well that didn't go quite the way I thought it would.

Don't tell me you're siding with him again.

Hell no, I hate him again. Stay away from him.

Kyuubi, you have to be the most fickle being I have ever encountered.

So sue me, it replied, it's not my fault that the kid is such a fucking moron. But forget about that you have bigger problems. You're now back to square one.

I don't care anymore Kyuubi.

You say that gaki, because, you don't know any better again.

You stupid fox, I do know better remember I know now what it's like to feel.

You had a brief taste gaki, it's not like you've had prolonged exposure. But am worried about what you felt just before you lost it.

What?

That bastard broke your heart.

Oh, so that's what that pain was all about? I mused. That really hurt.

Don't think your worries are all over now gaki. Once your emotions return -and I'm sure they will—you're literally going to be in for a world of hurt.

I'll worry about that when the time comes.

All right gaki but don't say I didn't warn you. Now for a change of subject, where exactly are you going to sleep?

Somewhere in the forest, probably the forest floor.

Are you sure that's really the wisest idea? With that Zabuza guy out on the loose?

Let him bring it, you know he's no challenge for either of us.

Well that kid is nothing to sneer about either.

Yeah I know, I suddenly frowned. That kid is going to be a problem

Because he's stronger than Uchiha or because you may have trouble maintaining your mask to save the little bastard's ass.

Like I care about him, I scoffed, it's the kid. I don't want to have to kill him, but the may force my hand.

You know gaki I love the fact that you're confident in your abilities but this kid may be as strong as you.

Yeah right, I scoffed, Kyuubi are you trying to make me laugh.

Actually yes, it chuckled, but it worked didn't it?

I reached an area that I deemed suitable to sleep on. All right Kyuubi I'm going to bed now.

Goodnight.

Goodnight.