Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Let Me Love You ❯ Sasuke's Reason's ( Chapter 5 )

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Before he could even think about what she had just said she rushed back into the cave.

“Why? Tell me why you left!” Sakura groaned out her eyes glittering with barely restrained anger.

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Sasuke's Reasons

 

Sasuke's black brow slowly rose. “What?”

Sakura sighed and walked over to him and sat beside him on the mat. She ran her fingers through her pink hair again and he realized that it was a nervous habit she had acquired.

“I know after tomorrow I probably won't see you again but I want to know, why did you turn your back on your friends and your village just to get revenge? Was it really worth it?”

Sasuke slid his eyes closed and sighed, somehow he knew this was coming; He could see it in her eyes.

“I see one thing hasn't changed about you… you're still annoying,” he said opening his eyes and smirking.

Sakura's brows drew together and he could see the coming storm. He couldn't help it, he laughed thoroughly shocking Sakura. She almost let her jaw drop open hearing the unfamiliar laughter coming from the usually morbid man.

“What's so funny?” she asked indignantly.

“I forgot how amusing your faces are… Sakura even if I told you the reasons for my leaving I don't think you would understand…”

“Try me,” she interrupted a clear challenge in her eyes.

Sasuke sighed again and lay back on the mat. “The first time I left, I was visited by Orochimaru's henchmen and they told me that bonds make people weak, and in order to gain power you had to sever your bonds… back then I was so naive, I let my failed fight with Itachi get to me. I also let the fact that Naruto was seemingly always saving me get to me. Seeing how much he had grown and seeing how little I had grown in comparison was the last straw so I left, going to the only place I thought I could get enough power to defeat my brother.” Sasuke ran his fingers through his hair pulling his long bangs from his face.

“When I realized that Orochimaru only wanted my body I killed him, and after that I formed my own group… team snake. I traveled with them for a while until the war broke out. When I heard the rumors of Akatsuki's involvement I came back to Konoha to confront my brother. That day it was harder to leave my village behind, but I still needed to avenge my clan and I was determined to kill Itachi so I left again. All I've done for the last couple of years was train and hunt for my brother but I could never find him, I still can't it's like he has disappeared…”

Sakura lowered her head, her hair covering her eyes. She was surprised that he had opened up to her; she had expected him to fight her and not say a word. It showed her that he had grown out of his rebellious streak. She made a decision then, knowing that she might regret it later but looking at the man lying next to her she couldn't help but give him one last thing before he disappeared from her life again, for good this time.

“Sasuke… I know where your brother is.”

Sasuke's head shot up so fast she was surprised he had not broken his neck in the process.

“What did you just say?” He asked not knowing if he had heard right.

She got to her feet and walked to the entrance of the cave looking out at the setting sun.

“After you left when the war ended I used my connections to find out Itachi's where a bouts and when I finally found him I had become an ANBU captain. I told Tsunade about it and she gave us the mission to go after him and assassinate him…”

“And did you?” Sasuke could feel cold rage begin to form in him and his curse seal began to react to his intense emotions.

She turned back to him and frowned at the look in his eyes.

“No… when we got there I ran into something that, to say the least, surprised the hell out of me… Sasuke…Itachi is blind. He no longer has use of his eyes including the Sharingan,” She said.

She saw the look of astonishment cover Sasuke's face and then of disbelief and finally back to anger.

“Blind? Do you expect me to believe that? If you're trying to get me back to Konoha…”

“I don't give a damn if you return to Konoha or not. Either way I intend to not see you again after tomorrow. The only reason I'm telling you this now is because you used to be someone I cared for and I'm giving you one last favor so that I don't have to feel guilty for hating you anymore!” she almost yelled.

She swallowed her anger and turned from him again, rubbing her temples, feeling a small headache begin to start.

“Sasuke, this is the truth, he is in Cloud country right now… He has lost all sight to his eyes which is a known consequence of over using the Mangekyou Sharingan. If you would have read the rest of your clan's scroll about the Mangekyou Sharingan you would have realized that. If you don't believe me I will tell you where he is in Cloud and you can go see for yourself,” She said leaving the cave and leaving Sasuke to his own thoughts.

Sasuke felt utterly lost. All of these years he has wasted looking for his brother, all the shit he had gone through to gain power enough to defeat him and now he could probably defeat him with his own eyes closed. Sasuke got up from the mat and began pacing before the entrance of the cave, his mind running a mile a minute. He would go and see if what Sakura said was true, and if it is, he didn't know what he would do. Would he kill his blind brother? He didn't know but he figured he would figure it out when he got there. Then he thought about what he would do afterwards. Would he return to Konoha and try to rebuild his clan? Would he even be able to return to Konoha? He didn't know, at that moment he really didn't want to know. He winced and grabbed his shoulder. The curse seal was still reacting to his mixed emotions. He sat and closed his eyes. He needed to meditate or the seal would be bothering him for the rest of the night.

-0o0-

Sakura came back to the cave a couple of hours later, washed up and feeling a little better then when she left. She still had a headache though. She stepped into the quiet cave to find Sasuke sitting near the fire, his eyes closed. She knew that he was meditating not sleeping so she quietly moved to the mat and sat, deciding to sort through her confusing thoughts while he finished.

In all the scenarios she had thought of in these past years she never thought that she would end up just talking to Sasuke, let alone helping him. She didn't know why she was helping him. He was a missing Nin, an S-class criminal and she was a Konoha ANBU captain. She should be taking him back to Konoha, not helping him in his goals. Her eyes roamed over to Sasuke's prone form. His dark silky hair was as spiky as ever and the dark spikes were a big contrast to his pale skin. She remembered the warmth of his skin under her fingers and she felt a small shiver travel down her back. He had always done this to her, he had always affected her body without even knowing it. A long time ago she had realized that her supposed `love' for the Uchiha had been a young girl's infatuation. Now looking back on her actions toward him she had understood why he had thought she was annoying because frankly she thought that she was annoying back then too. She truly felt ashamed looking back now at her actions towards the dark haired boy. Now as she gazed at the still male before her, she realized that she did care about the man still. As always her body was still affected by him, but when she looked in her heart she knew that she still held a small affection for him. It was no where near love but she still cared for him and that's why she guessed that she had helped him. When they where younger he had saved her a lot and she guessed this was her way of paying him back. After she removed the curse seal they would be even, and she would never have to deal with him again. She saw Sasuke stir and open his eyes and she quickly turned her gaze to look into the fire.

“Where in the cloud country is Itachi?”

She closed her eyes. She knew that he would go after his brother, he was so predictable.

“In a village that is on a crescent shaped island its called Crescent isle. If you go there you will find your brother. If you survive come back to Konoha and I will remove your curse seal and after that we are even.”

“Even?” Sasuke's brow rose in questioning.

“When we were young you saved my life numerous times and I'm paying back my debt to you.” She said simply shrugging her shoulders.

“I didn't save you so that you can pay me back, Sakura.”

“I do not want to owe you anything anymore Sasuke, I'm tired of thinking about you all the time, and I just want to be rid of you already. You're a part of my past that I just don't want to deal with anymore.”

Sasuke felt a pang in his stomach at her words. He had always thought that whatever he did, Sakura would always be in his corner to support him. She was the one thing that he thought would always be there when he got his revenge and came back to rebuild his clan.

“You really hate me.” It was not a question but a statement.

“Sasuke you broke my heart when you left, did you expect me to welcome you with open arms when you came back? A person can only take so much pain and rejection before they get the point. I got the point a long time ago and I realized that I don't need you in order to live my life.” She sighed and rested her chin in her palm.

“Hn.”

Sakura turned her head so that she could look at Sasuke. She saw a hint of sadness flash through his eyes before it disappeared behind his mask.

“Why do you do that?”

“Do what?” Sasuke asked confused.

“Why do you hide your emotions… you are human you know, it's not weak to show emotions.”

“Just a habit,” He said simply.

“Hm,” Sakura just shrugged too tired to argue with him anymore.

“It seems I'm not the only one who wears a mask, Sakura.”

Sakura just closed her eyes, not letting him see the sadness she knew they held.

“As a shinobi you learn to wear a mask, it's a way of life and I have perfected that way of life. The reason why we are so good at being ninja is because we have nothing to lose. You have no family or friends, I have no family only one friend and acquaintances Naruto has no family, and Kakashi I'm assuming he has no family either… It's all the same with us, we can never get too close with people or we suffer in the end. I've learned to accept that, but you're different, you are afraid to show emotions, I've realized it's not smart to let anyone close, it's not the same.”

Sakura tucked a stray pink strand behind her ear and licked her dry lips. She stifled a yawn and stood up stretching her tired body.

“Well I don't know about you but I'm tired and I have a long trip ahead of me tomorrow so I need to get to bed.”

Sasuke got up from the mat relinquishing it to Sakura and walked over to the other side of the fire. Sakura slipped off her shoes and lay down on the mat. She took out a kunai from the bag next to her and gripped it tightly in her hand. She scanned the cave and the surrounding area looking for any unfamiliar chakra signals. Not finding any, she yawned again and slipped her eyes closed.

-0o0-

Seeing that she had finally succumbed to sleep, Sasuke allowed himself to look at her.

What she had just said still floated through his mind and he frowned slightly remembering her words.

`Am I the reason why she has become so cold?'

He had to admit it did disturb him greatly to think that his actions had affected Sakura's life so disastrously. His eyes roamed down Sakura's relaxed features to the kunai clutched in her hand.

`Even while she sleeps she is on guard.'

He was brought out of his thoughts when he sensed a chakra signal not too far away. He rose to his feet quickly and slipped out of the cave to inspect the surroundings.

-0o0-

Sakura was rudely awakened to the very unpleasant sensation of having rough, wet, lips atop of hers. Her eyes flew open to the sight of a disgusting face a little bit to close to her own. She brought up the kunai in her hand to press against the man's throat in a flash. He froze atop of her and then started to laugh. Sakura couldn't help but scrunch her noise at the putrid stench that wafted from his mouth.

“You taste as sweet as you look Konoha slut!”

Sakura's eyes widened in recognition of the name and she instantly sliced the kunai deep into the man's throat, successfully spraying herself in his blood. She threw the heavy weight of the dead man off of her and stood up. Hearing something from the entrance to the cave she spun around to see Sasuke drop two more dead men from his arms.

His onyx gaze widened when he saw the blood on Sakura and he quickly made his way to her. To Sakura's surprise she saw raw fear in his usually blank eyes.

“Don't worry Sasuke it's not mine,” she said and pointed to the dead guy on the ground, his blood slowly pooling around him. She saw him sigh in relief and the fear disappeared behind the mask again. She thought it was interesting that the usually cold hearted Uchiha had felt fear because he saw blood on her. She put that thought away for later and wiped the blood from her chin. She could still feel the guy's disgusting lips atop hers and she had to forcefully stop herself from gagging. She wiped at her lips, a disgusted look covering her features. Sasuke looked at her oddly and she almost smiled, almost being the key word there.

“That asshole thought he could take advantage of me while I slept so he slobbered all over my face, I guess in an attempt at a kiss.”

She bent over and took out a spare cloth from her bag, totally missing the murderous glare Sasuke aimed at the dead man. She wiped the blood from her skin and thoroughly wiped the excess saliva from her mouth and then threw the cloth in the fire.

“So I guess they finally found me, I wonder where the other two are, when I last saw them there were five of them…”

“You know these men?”

“Not know them, I ran into them on my mission and they decided they wanted to have some fun with me. That's how I ended up on the bank of the river, they totally out numbered me. There were ten of them but I managed to kill five of them but by that time I knew I needed to run or they would be able to capture me so I thought my best chances would be to go in the river to get away from them, but I ended up going down the waterfall so that idea didn't work out so well. I'm surprised they are still out looking for me I guess they really are bored.”

Sasuke and Sakura decided to find another place to camp for the night so they took their things and hurriedly made there way to another clearing close by where they settled down and decided to take shifts like old times. The rest of the night went smoothly without anymore of the men showing up. The next morning Sakura got up well before dawn and went to the nearby river to wash her face off and wake herself up. When she made her way back to the camp she found Sasuke still sitting leaning on a tree.

“What are you still doing here? I thought you would have left already.”

Sasuke didn't respond, instead he pushed himself from the tree and walked up to her. He brought his hand up to her face, causing Sakura to tense up immediately. She saw the uncertainty in his eyes and she scrunched her brow in confusion. Before she could say anything he tucked a stray pink strand behind her ear.

“Sakura… arigato.”

Sakura eyes snapped to Sasuke's and the memory of the first time he walked away from her began to haunt her as those words floated through her.

She closed her eyes, stemming the flow of memories and took a deep calming breath.

“For what, you're the one that saved me remember?”

When she didn't receive an answer she opened her eyes to find Uchiha Sasuke gone, and once again she wondered when she would ever see the dark haired man again. She knew that she didn't want to see him again but something deep within her hoped that he would return to Konoha so that she could take the curse seal off. At that moment she realized that she was in deep trouble… She realized that she was never going to be able to get over the Uchiha and for that reason she decided to have a morning training session by punching the hell out of the tree that Sasuke was just leaning against )a few minutes ago.

“Damn Uchiha if I see his face again I'll make sure to punch that stupid smirk of that pretty little mouth of his,” she growled, finally deciding to head back to Konoha and beat up another one of her former teammates.

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Authors note:

So Sasuke and Sakura finally part ways. It took me a while to get this chapter out and I don't know if I'm too happy with the turn out but I hope you guys like it anyways. So will Sakura ever see Sasuke again? Will he find and kill his older brother? Well you'll find out in the next chapter. Thank you for reading or at least scanning. PLEASE review I'd really appreciate it thanks again!

Next chapter:

It's been three months since Sakura had a run in with Sasuke and she has gone back to her normal routine. What will happen when Sasuke finally returns to Konoha? What will be Naruto's reaction?