Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Loving a Shadow ❯ Loving a Shadow ( Chapter 1 )

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto.

 

Summary: It means crying and screaming and pain and loneliness. It means loving a shadow.

 

Loving a Shadow

 

A kunoichi can only be half a wife. She is the wife of daylight, of the bright afternoon sun. In the dark, she is a shadow. A shadow of glinting steel and glowing chakra. Then she is no longer your wife - just another comrade, just another shinobi.

 

I know this, but still, as a child, I believe love could conquer all. I believed that, if I loved him enough, it wouldn't matter. That he would be in my heart, and I in his, and that that alone would sustain me.

 

Now I know what it truly means, being two shinobi in love. It means an sparkling clean house, always half empty. It means staying up all night while your partner is on a mission. It means blood and guts and tears. It means waking up in the morning alone, because he was called away in the middle of the night.

 

It means crying and screaming and pain and loneliness. It means loving a shadow.

 

That's what I told him, but he won me over with sweet kisses and soft words.

 

I was such a fool, and now I pay the price. I suffer the consequences. The pain.

 

I wake up every morning, alone in the house that was to be made our home, on the bed where we were to have made love, and screamed each other names, and fucked.

 

And I roll over and stare at the blank space where the bed is perfectly made up, where you should lie, but where you never will.

 

 

 

RoS: This is very different for me, leaving a fic so open-ended. I confess that I was thinking about Sakura and Sasuke when I wrote it, but I wanted to leave it out there. Whatever you want.