Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Starting Over... ❯ Touched by Darkness ( Chapter 6 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
Author's Note: Uh oh… Adult warning time!! Non-con, blood-play andShouta- basically this means HEAVY ANGST has just arrived. Yep. You guessed it- Orochimaru/Sasuke is this first section!!
This chapter took me forever to write. I apologize for the wait, but I wanted it to be as good as possible.
Chapter 6
He awakened feeling cold, stiff and sore- the latter two sensations were particularly evident in the muscles of his back and shoulders. He opened his eyes but he saw only black and he realized blinking was difficult because he'd been blindfolded. He squirmed around experimentally, but his arms were trapped against the cold, hard wall he was leaning against. He was startled when the realization that he was naked sunk in to his groggy mind, but it wasn't until a large, cold hand gently caressed his right nipple that he realized he was in serious trouble…
He jumped, instinctively attempting to shy away from the unwelcome contact, but even his legs were chained- he was trapped. Orochimaru only laughed and the chains rattled, but the hand on his chest was joined by another. The sensations weren't exactly painful, but he hadn't asked to be touched much less chained to the wall…
“Let me go, Sensei.” He hissed. There was often lust in the snake Sannin's golden eyes when they were training together, but he still hadn't expected this. Sasuke promised himself that he would never call him Sensei again if the son of a bitch didn't release him. It was a silent promise he never forgot, and one that he kept.
Orochimaru laughed again, and the hands touching his chest continued to explore his body, but now they were moving up his back, very slowly, very gently as if to memorize every detail. He could feel the man's breath against his stomach when the hands reached his shoulders. Sasuke shivered at the unexpected warmth.
“Let me go!” He growled, louder this time.
“No,” Orochimaru said. “I've waited too long for this already, Sasuke-kun. I'm not sure I'll be able to be gentle with you tonight.”
“Don't touch me-” Anger and humiliation suppressed both fear, and his sense of self preservation- until something cold and sharp was pressed hard against his throat.
Orochimaru chuckled as he turned the weapon and pressed the flat of it against his throat and then slowly- lazily dragged it down. “You're so beautiful Sasuke-kun, and so brave too. You came to me willingly just like I knew you would.”
Without any more warning, something warm and wet captured his right nipple and Sasuke moaned when he realized it felt… strangely good to be kissed there. He could feel the pleasure building and spreading too.
“Yes, surrender to me, little one, I promise; you won't regret it.” Orochimaru was smiling, Sasuke could tell, and it made his skin crawl. The Sannin's deep, silky voice was warm and inviting, but he didn't dare trust him. He felt too vulnerable like this already. `Why did he chain me to the wall if he wants me to like this?'
He was getting confused, and that was making him emotional. He warned himself not to panic. His father had warned him about assholes that prey on children. But, as a ninja- particularly one whose father was the chief of the military police, Sasuke had never expected to awaken at the mercy of one claiming to be his `great' teacher…
“No!” Sasuke snapped. He wasn't a genius for nothing. He knew the bastard was touching him like this because he intended to have sex with him whether he participated willingly or not.
“Oh, but your beautiful body is getting hard for me, Sasuke-kun.” The hand that grasped his hardening member shocked him- so did the small gasp of pleasure that managed to escape Sasuke's lips. “That means you're lying to me, little one.”
Sasuke spat, hoping to hit him in the face. “You freak! I'm just a kid-”
He hadn't finished the words before the kunai from earlier was viciously raked across his chest just above his nipple, drawing blood and a startled yelp of pain. Sasuke's skin crawled when he heard Orochimaru moan as his lips moved to the wound instead. The Sannin licked the incision, clearly hoping to force his tongue inside it- which hurt- before he settled for sucking it instead.
“Please. You haven't truly been a child since you were seven, Sasuke-kun. I'm just finishing what Itachi started. I'm giving you what you'll need eventually. You came to me because you know you need my knowledge, power and my techniques. I will give you all of these so that you can have your revenge, but in return, your body belongs to me.”
“No…”
“Oh, yes, you're mine- body and soul and I'm going to prove it to you, tonight.”
“N-No!” Sasuke whimpered. He woke up afraid that he was going to throw up, gasping for breath and completely expecting to be back in the snake's clutches- that felt far too real- too familiar to have been just a random nightmare. Once he woke up and realized he was finally alone in his own room; that was when he cried- because he knew it wasn't really over… The memory had lived in his nightmares for weeks- until the next time replaced it during his self imposed exile.
He'd just been shown that his heart didn't have to be willing for his body to make a fool of him. For the sake of what was left of his own sanity, he learned to separate love from both physical pleasure and desire. He would've preferred not to feel anything at all- yet even then, his dreams betrayed him, because he still saw Naruto every night, and it wasn't long before those dreams became sexual…
Still startled and confused by the dream, he tried to sit up. Flexing his muscles made his arms, shoulders and his back hurt worse than ever; it was too much to fight with. He knew that the constant pain had triggered the long buried memory's return. As he tried to collect his thoughts and quiet his breathing, Sasuke looked around the room.
The recliner in the corner was empty. Sakura had said she wanted to go home to sleep in her own bed to change her clothes and get the kinks out of her neck from sleeping in the old chair. Naruto hadn't been willing to leave his side on his first night in the old house though. Sasuke turned over and saw the blond beside him, sprawled out on the massive bed. He was glad to see that he'd really stayed. He knew he was lucky to have Naruto here with him.
He was tired and still horribly sore even after the pain pills Sakura had given him. Sakura had done a first rate job of bandaging him, but his back still hurt and he couldn't sleep on his side yet. Unable to get comfortable again, he just sighed and tried to lie quietly.
He scowled looking around at the huge house that had been left to him. Why had the council made him settle here as one of their conditions for his return? The mansion was part of the dark memories that he'd left the village to try to escape! Why would they want him to live here- are they trying to make him go crazy by locking me up here with the ghosts of the past?
Sasuke heard every noise the house made and the thunder outside continued as well. It had rained on and off while Sakura had applied various creams and treatments to his back and then bandaged him up after they ate, but now there was a storm raging outside.
He crawled out of bed and drew a blanket over his shoulders. He wandered through the darkness and found himself in the dining room where they'd had their take-out supper. Sakura must've cleaned up the boxes before heading home. He shivered as lightning outside illuminated the kitchen. He could almost see his mother standing by the sink in her apron, still beautiful, smiling warmly at him…
He paused in the doorway of the living room, glad that the chalk that'd once outlined his parents' bodies was long gone- but it didn't matter, he could see it anyway if he closed his eyes. Well, he could still see their corpses, Itachi still standing over them- only the traitor's Sharingan eyes clearly visible in the darkness…
He shivered and turned away.
`So much time has passed and everything's changed- so why? Why does it still hurt like this?'
Sasuke passed through a few more rooms like a ghost, wandering aimlessly, until he found himself at the door to the family dojo. He entered silently and lit a few candles and then looked around at the elegant banners that decorated each of the walls.
Justice.
Honor.
Discipline.
Pride.
As a boy, his father had told him early that the family dojo was off-limits for training. Itachi used it freely, but his brother was also the darling of the clan. Sasuke had never asked why- even then he'd had too much pride to complain when he already knew he was considered second best. He'd just done his best to accept it and concentrated on training outside in the forests and on the lakeside dock instead.
He'd mastered the Kanton on his own, but he'd never actually asked his father if it was alright if he trained in the dojo. He'd secretly hoped his father would ask him to train there with him like he had Itachi, but there hadn't been time…
Well, there was no one to ask anymore- he owned it all. In the next few weeks he'd have little to do besides train and meditate in here, and it would be nice to have at least one room in this gilded cage that could be truly his. He stretched carefully, paying close attention to the stiff, sore muscles in his back and shoulders.
He was in pain constantly whether he moved or not, so rather than stop when it hurt, he growled and pushed through it. He started with an easy warm up kata, and focused on grace and sensing his chakra rather than the pain. He was much too stubborn to give up; training was familiar and that made it comforting- even in these surroundings…
He finished that kata and began another, still moving slowly and carefully.
“Teme, do you have any idea what time it is?” Naruto yawned.
“Hn.” He grunted.
“Hey wow- you really have your own dojo?”
Sasuke didn't answer him, he blew out the candles, but the lightning outside gave them enough light to see by in the wide open room.
“Uh, Sasuke?”
He was suddenly exhausted and he didn't really want to talk, but Naruto already had his attention. “What now, Dobe?”
“W-Well, I dunno, I just-” Naruto moved up to him hugged him- carefully to so that he wouldn't hurt him.
“Welcome home… I wanted to say I'm just really glad you're back.” The blond could hardly spit it out, but he said it so warmly that Sasuke didn't laugh- or even push him away.
“Things won't just magically go back to the way they were. You know that, right?” Strangely enough, Sasuke got the feeling he was saying it more for his own benefit than Naruto's.
Naruto nodded, but Sasuke was glad that he seemed reluctant to let go. “Yeah... But things can only get better from here. I mean, this has to be as bad as it will get, right?”
`I really doubt that, Dobe.' Sasuke snorted, and Naruto laughed as he let go of him.
“I heard that, Teme. Don't be such a pessimist! So, uhm did Sakura leave?”
“Yeah.” Sasuke shrugged. “Let's go back to bed.”
“Great!” Naruto bounded after him with the same enthusiasm he remembered from when they were 12. “That means I can finally tell you what she was all upset about when she called us for dinner!”
“You've taken up gossiping while I was gone?”
“Shut up, Teme, this is hilarious!” Naruto grumbled, but smiled again just as suddenly.
Sasuke listened with half an ear as Naruto told him about a lunch date he'd been on with Sakura when Konohomaru showed up. The story of Sakura scolding the two boys for the “Double Knockout Jutsu” was putting him to sleep quite nicely until Naruto poked him in the ribs.
“Hey, you're still awake, right, Teme? You can't miss the best part!”
Sasuke nodded and vaguely fluffed his pillow before nestling his chin back into it. “Hn.”
“Okay, so Sakura's still yelling at all of us when Konohomaru makes the seals again- only this time he and his shadow clone were- uh… both guys! That was the funniest thing ever. I've never seen Sakura stop yelling so fast in my life! Seriously! Next time she yells at me I'm going to do it too!”
Sasuke glanced over at the blonde. He was still excited by the story, but he was blushing- and now he was avoiding his gaze too. `Two guys, so what? Why is he blushing like that?'
Part of what had bored Sasuke about the first part of the story was Naruto's vivid description of the two girls and their perfectly shaped body parts, their exact positioning and even the fact that he remembered how their hair was arranged…
“Okay well, what was so great about that? What did these two guys look like?” Sasuke arched one eyebrow expectantly. `What a weird story- unless he's trying to hide something from me?'
“Err… why would you want to know about that?”
“Why not, you remembered every detail about the other jutsu, right?”
“Err…” Naruto blushed even more, drawing a chuckle from Sasuke.
“So I take it he used someone we know?”
“How'd you know that?”
`How indeed, Dobe. You're terrible at hiding things.' Sasuke smirked. “You're right; it is funny, that she liked that jutsu.”
Naruto was still blushing. “Well, yeah! She screamed Kyaaaa! What a game plan! Then of course she denied it.”
“It must have been a pretty good illusion to get that kind of a reaction out of a girl.”
“Yeah, I guess it was. Sai's suck a jerk sometimes though!” Naruto growled. “You would've been way sexier with anyone but him.”
“Thanks,” Sasuke laughed.
“I mean-” Naruto paused and just stared incredulously at him. It looked like the blond couldn't decide whether to laugh too or blush and hide under the covers. “Wait- you're laughing…”
“Why wouldn't I? I wasn't there so it isn't like I was actually involved.” Sasuke said. `If I had been I would've been with you.'
“W-Well… I wasn't actually going to tell you, because… you and Sai are both guys- so I didn't want to… God, I really sound like a Dobe, don't I?”
Sasuke nodded, but he was really only thinking about the way Naruto had reacted to kissing him, but he managed to keep his tone light. “It sounds like it was pretty funny to me. I mean, I did like her for a while, but even then Sakura always did drive me a little crazy when she used to cling to me all the time.”
“She drove me crazy when she did that to you too,” Naruto growled.
`So, you're still not over your stupid crush on her? What a love triangle that was…' Sasuke sighed. “It looks to me like you two are close now though.”
“Yeah? Well, I guess I thought so too! But this morning- on our way to find you, she… She said- we better off as friends.”
Sasuke was stunned, he actually agreed with Sakura's assessment but he kept his expression guarded. He couldn't help remembering how stubbornly she'd pursued him without actually trying to understand him. He took that as a sign of her immaturity, was their pink haired teammate finally growing up?
`Sakura's a thousand times better suited for Naruto than you are,' the mocking voice in his head chirped happily. `After all, wasn't that you who'd been remembering how you got raped by Orochimaru and then stayed with him anyway? Do you suppose anyone this innocent would want you if he knew how many times you-'
“Hey?” Naruto nudged him.
Sasuke bristled, thinking about Orochimaru always made him uncomfortable being so close to anyone. But Naruto's wide blue eyes captured him; he couldn't bring himself to look away. `You're the only one I've ever wanted to love, but I don't want to hurt you anymore.'
“What?”
“You okay?” His crystal blue eyes held concern and gentleness as he scooted closer. “What were you thinking about?”
“I… don't want to talk about it.”
Naruto surprised him when he smiled. “Okay, then we can talk about what we should do you finally get out of here!”
Sasuke rolled his eyes and snorted reproachfully. “That's depressing- thinking about a few weeks from now. How can you be so stupidly happy all the time?”
Naruto grinned impishly and stuck his tongue out. “It's better than brooding! And we have all the time we need to come up with something extra special to do.”
“Like what?”
“We could have a party?” Sasuke glared evilly at him and Naruto laughed nervously. “Okay, then how about we go out for ramen, and then go spar until we can't move anymore!”
“That'd just make us sick, Dobe; we should spar and then go eat.”
The blond smiled. “Okay then, it's a deal! And you're buying since it was your idea and all!”
Author's Note: There will be a longer, heavier lemon version of this chapter, but because of the subject matter, the full version will ONLY be posted on Adultfanfiction.Net.