Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Them ❯ Ino ( Chapter 2 )

You think I’m stupid. I hate that. I hate it when you look down on me, when you underestimate me, when you find me to be so negligible that you forget about my existence completely. You utter and complete bastard.

Do you think I don’t notice the way you use me in your plans? He’s the brute force, you’re the brains. Me? I’m the damn bait! Can’t you see how powerful I am? …or at least how powerful I could be? Give me responsibility! Give me a fair share! Stop excluding me! It’s not my fault I’m a woman and you, you chauvinistic prick, can’t get past the set of breasts and hips I was born with. I’m no weaker than you are and I swear, I’ll prove it to you.

He never pushes me like you do. He’s soft, kind, gentle, and never, ever intimidating. I don’t have to prove myself to him. He’s comfortable with me this way but sometimes… Sometimes I wish he would say the things he doesn’t dare say. I wish his will was harder, more volatile, more…like me. I wish he could stand up for himself more often because when those idiots pick on him, calling him those damn names, I just…I can’t…and then there’s nothing that can contain me. Your voice can’t call me back when I get like that. You can’t stop me. I’ll throw you away every time you try. And when it happens, I will scream and fight and THERE IS NO ONE WHO COULD EVER, EVER STOP ME!

And then he grabs my hand and the fire’s gone. He tugs me away and I’m left cold and numb. I never realize what I’ve done until then. He leads me away and you stay to make things okay again. That’s your job. You have to protect me because I can’t stop until he calls me off. That’s his job.

What’s my job?

The two of you, you balance each other so well, so perfectly, that I feel like a third wheel. I’m only an addition, put in to make the right number. I’m outside you and him. I’m not perfect like you and him. I’m the dog, he’s the collar, and you’re the leash. Funny, isn’t it? We should fit. We should all just…fit. And we don’t. There’s one too many.

I watch the two of you sometimes when you’re on that hill, watching the clouds. It happens when you’re tired, when your body is aching so good that you just don’t want to move anymore. It happens when he’s heartsick and needs a healing presence that I can’t provide. It’s so…perfect. I hate that. I hate you and him…at least, I want to. I want to but I can’t because you two are just…there…and it’s too much…I can’t live without you two anymore.

I don’t know if I love you or him. Not the way that love warms the air between you, how much you care for one another. I doubt either of you would survive without the other. I know if I died, you and he would go on together, feeding off each other’s strength. It hurts so badly that I can’t be that strength. You won’t let me. He won’t let me. So why should I ever take strength from those who won’t use mine?

FUCK YOU!

I don’t care anymore! Go away! Go be the perfect best friends, the perfect team mates, the perfect ninja, the perfect people. Go ahead! I don’t need you. I don’t need anyone. Watch me be the best kunoichi there’s ever been! YOU JUST WATCH!

I wonder sometimes what will happen later. You’ll be an elite jounin, I know that. You’ll be famous and powerful but you won’t be an ANBU because you’re too lazy for that. He’s going to get married, pop out a few kids, and live happily ever after. Maybe he’ll become great. Maybe he won’t. Happiness is all he seeks out.

There was once a dream of mine where we stayed together. You, him, and me, greatness to the end. We were the best. We would legends….and most of all…we were together.

Damn it, I’m not going to cry…I can’t…but it’s just so hard when I know, deep down inside, that I can’t compare. You and he will leave me behind.

Gods, please, don’t leave me behind…

A/N: I've never written Ino before. Hopefully, I caught her pretty well... I just had a sudden bit of inspiration for this...