Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ To be, or not to be... In love. ❯ Chapter four ( Chapter 4 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

I do not own Naruto in any way, everything belongs to Kishimoto-sama.

This is hardcore yaoi, ppl!! I suggest you leave if you don't know the word. Also, people under the age of seventeen should also leave. This is X-rated stuff, you guys! (And it's not just to be safe.)

There will be lemon(s) in future chapters (and a lot of other hawt stuff in this chapter too ;p)

Pairings; NaruSasu (yes, Naruto is seme in this one), KakaIruka, NejiShikamaru and Gaara/? (I won't tell you who it is yet. It's not Shino.)

(Shino; "Whaat?" *runs away... crying*)

I might put in some yuri too, depends on what mood I'm in, and what you guys think.

PS. this chapter is the beginning of something new... read the author's note in the end and you'll find out more.

Beta; Ender_kb (Thee best.)

Okay, let's start! Here's chapter four.
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Sasuke p.o.v.


Oh, gods... I'm going a date! With Naruto! Oh gods, oh gods, oh gods... What should I wear? What are we going to do?

I slapped myself and took a calming breath, while forcing myself to stare into the mirror. I stared at my own excited expression. It was so unlike my normal, cold glare. I hate to admit it, but I was really looking forward to the date. The day had been blissful so far, and I just knew it would continue.

I smiled as I remembered how I watched Sakura that morning. She had looked pissed, and she didn't sit next to Naruto like she used to. Of course Naruto looked as good as usual.

His blonde, messy hair was all ruffled, and his blue eyes were shining with some kind of newly found happiness. Maybe I caused that happiness? I coughed and smacked myself out of my silly daydreams.

Uchihas don't daydream.

Still... that large, scary vein over Sakura's head did not vanish for several hours, and when it finally had disappeared it turned up again as soon as someone mentioned Naruto.

Flashback;

A small spark of hope had panged through my chest.

Could Naruto have...?

My suspicions were confirmed as Shino came up to me after our last lesson.

"Hey, Sasuke-san?"

I stared at the normally silent boy. I didn't think he knew my name. After two seconds, I realized I was still staring and quickly blinked.

"Yeah?"

I wanted to say 'What the hell do you want?' but I don't think he would have appreciated it. And frankly, Shino's kinda scary... I don't know him that well, so I kept my guard.

"I noticed you were staring a lot at Sakura-san today."

What? He saw me? Shit... I've been with Naruto too much. I'm losing my touch.

"Oh? What of it?" I really tried to keep my cool, but the fact that the Aburame-boy actually caught me staring at a girl still freaked me out a bit.

"I just thought you might want to know," he continued, "that if you're interested in Haruno-san, she's available."

I stared at him.

"Huh?" Oh, yeah... that's impressive. Smooth, Sasuke.

Shino smirked (I think), it's hard to see his mouth behind that large collar of his.

"I said she's single. Ino told me yesterday. Naruto broke up with her."

I gawked. He had broken up with her? He was single? The excited feeling started to roam around in my belly until I could barely contain myself any more. I let a small smile grace my lips and then I looked back at Shino again. He kept his stone faced appearance.

I felt like hugging him for telling me such great news, but two things stopped me; one, shino still freaked me out, and two, Uchihas don't hug. That's simply beneath me. Hn.
But then worry crept into my heart. What if it was just a rumor? But still... Sakura really looked angry, Naruto looked annoyed, not to mention the large bump on his head.

I threw a quick "Thanks!" to Shino before running off.

'Gotta find Naruto. Gotta find Naruto. Gotta find - There he is!'

Naruto was sitting on a bench next to the Nara-dude. Shikamaru. I quickly ran towards them, totally forgetting my Uchiha-coolness. Running is not cool.

Naruto obviously heard me, because he turned around and stared at me. I was panting and sweating; hey, I had been running for several minutes! Embarrassed I tried to calm down while he and Shikamaru silently watched me.

"Hello," I said coolly (I hoped) and mentally smacked my forehead. That must've been the most stupid thing I've ever said. "So... um..." it was now or never. ”I heard you broke up with Sakura?" I knew I sounded hopeful, and probably looked hopeful too. Crap.

Naruto smirked.

"Yup. I dumped her yesterday... in the library."

...Oh gods. The person calling for Naruto, it was Sakura, wasn't it? Shit, what if we hadn't heard her? She would have caught us doing... that! My eyes enlarged a bit at this thought.

"Oh. Well what do you know?" I gave a nervous laugh and scratched the back of my head. Then I noticed Shikamaru staring at me. I quickly dropped my hand and coughed.

"Can I talk to you, Naruto..-san!" ‘Don’t be tripping up now Uchiha.’ I almost forgot about the suffix.

Shikamaru still stared at us as we quickly made our way behind a corner. As I had suspected (and hoped for) Naruto pinned me against the wall and kissed me with fervor. I loved it. He seems to have a thing for my neck, and believe me; I don't mind at all! This time he stayed at the lips though. I still can't decide what he tastes like, but I really don't care. Just the feeling of his lips against mine is enough to make me dazed.

He broke the kiss after about a minute and looked at me. It took me a few seconds to snap out of it.

"So... are we a couple now?"

I stared at him. Couple? He wanted that? He played with a strand of my hair. The words left my lips before I could stop them.

"I don't know. Aren’t there usually dates before relationships?" I blushed and silently cursed. I was such a sissy around Naruto! Damn...

Naruto smiled. I could die just watching that smile.

"Do you have any plans for tonight?"

End of flashback.


I was panicked. Yep...

The biggest disaster of the year had just come to happen! I had never been so incredibly desperate in my entire life! I suppressed the urge to scream out of desperation!

Why? I'll tell you why!

I had no shoes to go with my favorite shirt!

... Oh, gods. I really am the perfect uke, huh? Shit. Hey... I do have a reason for being picky right now!

I glanced at my watch. I still had twenty minutes.

Okay, Sasuke... focus! You're the hottest guy in school! You can figure this out!

Hmm... my shirt is dark grey... and my jeans are black... and I could wear a tie with this, right? Yeah, a black one! Shoes...shoes...? Hmm... oh well, converse* it is! Seriously, they can go with anything.

Okay, I may seem like some weird girl-boy to you, since I care so much about clothes... but I haven't told you yet, have I? Told you why my family is so damn wealthy. Well this is the reason; Fashion. Beauty.
Yeah... my family is rich because my father designs men's clothes, while my mother handles the women’s. It's kind of my duty to look good. Ever since I was little it's always been about beauty.

Enough about that. I already told you... maybe I'll tell you the story some other time. Not now.

I snickered to myself as I tied my tie loosely around my neck and corrected my hair in the mirror for the fifteenth time. As always... perfect. Right?

I bit my lip from nervousness and tried to smile. I succeeded. A true, genuine smile (which felt oddly inexperienced, as if my face didn't quite know how to use those muscles), spread over my face as I thought of the blonde boy.

...Who was going to be at my door in just five minutes! Oh shit.

Where is my converse?!

I went almost rigid as I frantically searched for the shoes and just as I found them (Behind the tv? How the hell..?) the doorbell rang. I jumped and stared at the door. Then I swallowed.

Naruto was standing on the other side of that door. I was going to open it. He was going to smile and probably take my hand. Then he was going to take me out on a date... maybe to a restaurant?

The doorbell rang again and snapped me out of my daydream. Quickly I grabbed the black shoes and opened the door. There was Naruto, partly turned away from me, as if he had been looking at a garden or something, which was odd since I live in an apartment complex.

By myself... it's a long story.

"Hello," he said and smiled with an embarrassed look on his face. I really did not understand why he was embarrassed.

He wore grayish, tight jeans similar to my own, and a white shirt which wasn't buttoned all the way. I got a clear view of his collarbones (which almost caused me to get a nosebleed). Around his neck was a bunch of black strings and, to my surprise, there was a small silver ring in his left ear. I didn't know his ear was pierced. Anyway, to put it short, he looked great.

The hair was pretty much like it usually was, though it looked a bit styled and spikier than usual. I almost drooled, but managed to maintain my stiff expression.

That's when I noticed that he was staring at me as well. I blushed (only a little!) and swallowed.

"Hi."

Silence. I didn't quite know what to say. Naruto was still staring at me. I coughed a bit, and the sound made him snap out of it.

"Um... you look really good," he smiled and rubbed the back of his head. I smirked.

"That's my line."

More silence. I have no idea how long we just stood there and stared at each other, but I bet it was more than a minute before Naruto discovered he could still talk.

"Can I come in?" I just nodded and let him in, completely forgetting about the mess I had made when I was looking for my blasted shoes. Damn.

"Oh shit... " I stared at the room, which suddenly looked a bit like world war three and almost panicked. "It's not usually this messy! I just-"

"I know... don't worry," Naruto waved his hand in a dismissing manner. "People often get excited when they're dating someone as cool and attractive as me," he smirked and laughed to himself. I smacked his head and quickly tied my converse to hide the small blush that formed on my face.

If there's one thing I hate more than being confused, it's to be embarrassed. Naruto often causes both, so I technically should hate him. Hmm...

"Let's go," I murmured and opened the door. I heard Naruto's steps behind me.

"Sure," he said... and took my hand. I jumped and almost slapped him, but his grasp was soft and inviting, as if he was asking permission. The thought made me calm down, and return the soft squeeze he sent me. I glanced at him. He looked so good. And he smelled good too. What in the world was that cologne? Chanel? Icey no. 2?

Suddenly he met my gaze, and I quickly looked away. I clearly heard the snicker he sent me, and glared a bit at the blonde who just smiled softly in return. Of course I blushed again. Ugh.

Damnit, stop blushing you fruitcake!

"We have to hurry a bit," he said after glancing at his watch and started to walk a bit faster. I had to almost jog to keep up with him at first. Okay, yes! He has longer legs than me... damn.

"Where are we going?"

Naruto looked at me and smirked.

Hmm... his smirks. I must admit, they are sexy... but I still don't like it when someone smirks at me. It makes me feel uncomfortable, as if I'm just a puppet, being controlled, knowing nothing.
Yeah... I snapped out of my deep thoughts as Naruto replied. The answer made me somewhat terrified.

"The cinema."

Oh gods... the cinema? I swallowed. I may not be as experienced as Naruto when it comes to dating, but even I know what going to the cinema means. It's like the freakin' harem for make-out-sessions. I could already picture myself with Naruto, sitting in large, cosy chairs in the darkness, holding hands... then Naruto would bend over and kiss my cheek and then my lips... the way he always does it and then...

Snap out of it!

I cleared my throat.

"Sounds okay," I said with the coolest voice I managed to create, though my heart was beating like mad. Oh gods, oh gods, oh gods....

We got there in just a few minutes, though it felt like two hours to me, and we stepped into the large, fancy foyer. Naruto, still holding my hand, dragged me to the concession stand.

"Want something?" Naruto bought a coke for himself and sent me a questioning look. I immediately started an inner war with myself.

Hmm... I'm on a date so I can't have popcorn. I wouldn't want to kiss someone who has a mouth stuffed with popped corn. Hmm... chocolat? Yeah, that's romantic isn't it? But wait, maybe Naruto doesn't want romance? Maybe I'm over thinking this? What should I do?

"Just water," I said after about three seconds of frantic thinking. Naruto nodded.

"You sure?" He asked while waiting for the water to arrive. I smiled a little and nodded.

"Yeah, I'm not that hungry."

In truth, I'm never... naw, I'll tell you later.

"Okay, so... what movie do you want to see?" Naruto opened his bottle of coke and took a sip. I glanced at him and then at the screens that showed the movie options by the roof.

There were tickets for Spiderman III (no way, I don't wanna look like some super-hero-fan!), Ju-On II (The Grudge 2) (...no...), and A Walk to Remember? The most romantic movie of the year? (What should I do?)

A Walk to Remember seemed very romantic indeed, the perfect make out-movie. I glanced at Naruto again. What did he want to see? Spiderman III was simply out of the question. Was it too daring to go for the romantic movie? I thought back at the previous days and snorted. I was sick and tired of being a girl.

"Ju-On two sounds good," I said and completely forgot one major fact about myself which I totally should have kept in mind. Naruto stared at me.

"Ju-On? Are you sure?" He bit his lip. I smirked.

"If you get scared, you can always hold my hand." I teased. Heh... was I digging my own grave or what?

Naruto scoffed and bought us the tickets.

"Let's go then..."

We quickly found our seats and sat down. The seats were perfect, not too far and not too close to the screen. The room was still bright and people were coming in, happily chatting away. It was nice... the date was starting out nicely. That's when I heard two familiar voices.

"Naruto? Sasuke-san?" Naruto flinched and looked behind us. I looked too. Oh shit...

There, right behind me and Naruto, was Neji Hyuga and Shikamaru Nara... holding hands. Obviously a couple. Ha! I was right.
I paled once I realized that me and Naruto were holding hands as well.

"Um... hi Shikamaru, Neji... wh-what brings you two here?" Naruto stuttered and laughed nervously. I quickly let go of Naruto's hand, sensing his discomfort.
To be quite honest, I wasn't all that sure I wanted to put it on display either. I mean, there are people in our town who seriously don't like...

Numb. No... Sasuke, don't think about it. Don't think the word.

Shikamaru smirked.

"I could ask you the same, Naruto... I thought you said you were going on a date?" He purred. He was so enjoying this... evil, lazy-ass bastard! Neji smirked too, obviously pleased with his boyfriend's teasing.

It made me somewhat pissed. Since Naruto didn't seem like he knew what to say, I thought I should rescue him.

"He's not... or, well... I mean, we're just on a friendly friend-date," I tried to explain, mentally smacking my forehead. 'A friend-date'? What are you stupid?

Shikamaru raised an eyebrow.

"Really? Is that why you were holding hands?"

...I didn't have any answers for that one. I sank in my seat and silently cursed as I felt my cheek go warm again. Damn clever Nara-boy. It's not like he did an amazing job in hiding his crush on Neji either!

"A friend-date?" Naruto smirked at me. I stared at him, then at Shikamaru, at Neji, then back at Naruto again. "And here I thought we were on a real date, Sasuke-chan."

I glared at the intimate way he chose to address me (never call an Uchiha 'chan'), but then realized something; Naruto had confessed to his best friend that he was on a date with me. I didn't really know how to feel...

On the other hand, Shikamaru and Neji were obviously already a couple, so Naruto didn't really have anything to be embarrassed about. I looked away as Naruto took my hand again. He laced our fingers together.

It felt strangely nice.

"Aah, I see... well, good luck Naruto!" Shikamaru said, gave us a big grin and then sat down. He pulled Neji with him and giggled. I swallowed and turned my back to them. Naruto did the same.

To be honest, I was rather annoyed that our classmates were sitting right behind us. How was I supposed to enjoy Naruto's lips if they were there, watching every move we made? And this was our first date too!
I sighed subconsciously. Naruto gave me a questioning look.

"What's the matter?"

I want to be able to make out like hell with you without being watched by Neji and Shikamaru, that's all!

"Nothing." I shook my head. He smiled. Then he bent towards me and gave me a small peck on my cheek. I honestly wanted more than a peck, but the room was still bright, and to make out first chance we got seemed a bit...
Oh well, a peck is a peck, and I squeezed his hand a bit. It felt so nice. He squeezed back.

"Aaw... Naruto! I saw that!"

I slowly sank a little lower in my chair as I was silently making up plans on how to kill all of Naruto's friends.

Naruto turned around, slightly scowling at his best friend.

"Shut up, Shika... you're ruining it," he said with an almost serious voice. I closed my eyes in frustration, suddenly feeling like the girl being protected by her boyfriend.

"Don't be so mean, Shika-chan," I heard Neji say, with a slightly amused voice. I suppressed the urge to growl. I knew this was going to happen!

Damn Naruto for having so many friends!

"You guys..." Naruto started, sounding more annoyed.

"Shh, the movie's starting!" Someone said rather loudly. Naruto settled by sticking out his tongue at Shikamaru (which seemed to work, as Shikamaru actually kept his mouth shut), then he turned his gaze to the large screen. I did too. I involuntarily smiled a bit. It was such a classic first date; the cinema. The movie started.

I tensed when I remembered what movie I had picked. Then I snorted. Che. So what if it's a horror movie? I'm Uchiha Sasuke, for gods’ sake! With that thought in mind, I knew it would all be fine.

Yeah... It went just fine... the first five minutes.

Oh okay, a Japanese movie. (Of course, since we live in Japan.)

Hm... what's that? Is that a... oh gods! Shit...

That's hair, hair in the ceiling?! What the hell?

A girl is crawling down the stairs... Oh my gods! Is that a face?

"Sasuke?"

I flinched and snapped my head Naruto's way. I swallowed and tried to smile.

"Y-yeah?" That's when I noticed my grip at Naruto's hand. I was practically squeezing his hand to death. I quickly let go of it.

"Sorry.." I whispered and turned back to the screen. I could feel Naruto's eyes on my face, but I pretended as if I didn't realize it.

Oh gods, I'm so stupid! You know the thing I should have kept in mind as I decided what movie we were going to see? Well... the truth is, I'm - I'm terrified of scary movies. Seriously, it's almost like a real phobia. And there I was, on my first date with Naruto, watching Ju-On II.

Run, you idiot-girl! It's going to kill you if you don't run....

Oh my gods! What's that sound? It sound like someone's choking...

What's that? OH SHIT!!

"Sasuke, come on," Naruto suddenly straightened and pulled me with him. I stared confused at his blonde neck as he dragged me with him. There were a few people who had to get up in order to let us out. They were obviously displeased with our disturbance.

"Hey, what's your problem?"

"We're trying to watch a movie here!"

I gave them one of my infamous Uchiha-glares but kept my mouth shut, which is more than you can say about Naruto.

"Shut up, morons!" He hissed and pulled me out of the large room. He didn't say anything, and suddenly I got the impression that he was angry.

He dragged me towards the bathroom. Once we were inside, he gently pushed me towards one of the sinks.

"Look," he said and forced me to watch my reflection in the mirror. I... I could see his point.

I was pale as a ghost. Paler than that scary little boy in the movie. I shuddered.

"So?" I murmured and tried to sound uncaring. Naruto scoffed.

"Sasuke..." He didn't have time to finish his sentence, because at that second, I rushed to the closest toilet and threw up. Yes, on my first date with Naruto, I was at the toilet... puking.
I didn't throw up very much though, since I only had water, but still... my dignity was seriously damaged.

As I coughed up the last remains of the disgusting mess from my throat, I felt Naruto's hands at the sides of my face, holding my hair out of the way.
When I finally had cleared my stomach and throat from it all, I stood up and took a shuddering sigh.

"It must have been something I ate," I murmured and tried to give Naruto a small smirk. He didn't look very convinced though. I tried to swallow, but the weird taste was still in my mouth and I quickly stepped up to the sink, pouring myself some water in a plastic, white cup. Feeling relieved as I rinsed the gross taste out of my mouth.

Naruto walked up to me as I silently drank the cold water.

"Sasuke... why didn't you tell me you don't like scary movies? We could've watched something else, you know."

I threw the plastic white thing in the trash can and turned to face the blonde, though my gaze was stubbornly glued to my feet. It was so hard meeting his gaze after all that.

"It's not... a big deal. I just..."

"I want you to be able to enjoy our first date, Sasuke," he said, and was suddenly very close. I could feel his cool breath against my cheek.

"I'm not scared..." I muttered and turned my head away.

He got even closer, and snuck his arms around my waist, slowly embracing my still trembling form. He pulled me close, so that I could bury my face into his shoulder. Mmh... I really loved that cologne.

"You should've told me. You looked as if you were about to die," Naruto sounded slightly amused, and I punched his back a bit.

It was somewhat amazing... the way he made me so calm with such a simple gesture. He just hugged me after all.

"Shut up..." I wrapped my arms around his neck. This was slowly starting to develop into something other than a fight.

We were all alone in the bright, shining bathroom. I lazily looked at the green plant in the corner before closing my eyes as I felt Naruto's first kisses on my neck. Oh, how I had longed for that!
I whimpered and soon started to return the kisses. I kissed his collarbone... then his neck...

"Ah!" I gasped as he caressed my lower backside, and at the same time sucked that spot on my neck... that perfect, wonderful spot... "Naruto.."

He pushed me against one of the white, tile-covered walls and smirked. I smirked back. It felt so... pleasantly sinful. His eyes never left mine, as his hands caressed my sides... my belly... my chest. My lids fluttered closed as he pinched one of my nipples.

Suddenly he maneuvered his legs, so that one of his legs were in between my thighs. Oh gods... Naruto...

His knee slowly inched upward. Soon, it brushed against my groin, making my blush and shudder. That's when his lips finally covered mine and I melted completely. Grasping his hair, I pulled him closer, and smirked when I made him moan. His tongue soon probed at my lips, and as usual... I let him in. I loved the feeling of his wet tongue against mine.

His hands were still massaging my body, from my nipples to my lower belly.

I blushed even more, when I realized two facts; one, I was hard and two, Naruto was too.

This situation suddenly seemed rather familiar. But in the end... hadn't I been longing for this?

I yelped when he suddenly flipped me around, so that I was facing the wall. I was about to yell at him, when I felt his lips against my neck again. It felt unreal.
I was kind of bending a bit forward, in order to allow Naruto's hands to touch my body.

My eyes snapped open when I felt his hands toying with my zipper. I was completely paralyzed while listening to that sound... the sound of a zipper, slowly being pulled down.

The whole situation suddenly seemed more dangerous, more risky... and more passionate.

"N-naruto... I'm not sure if..." I was silenced once again, when he nibbled my earlobe, making me completely zone out.

"There's no one around."

Somehow, I managed to snort.

"That's what you said last time, dobe."

He snickered and nibbled my ear again. I moaned and cursed silently.

"It seems to me that you want this. Do you want this, Sasuke-kun?" He purred. I couldn't quite answer him, because he was distracting me with his kisses.

"Mmh..."

Then he pressed his hardness against me as his hand slipped into my jeans, massaging me through the thin fabric of my boxers. I gasped and immediately panicked.

Another person is touching your most private area! Do something! DO SOMETHING!!

I grabbed his hands and tried to pull it up from my groin, but Naruto seemed prepared.

"Naruto... no, stop!" I hissed and pushed away from the wall. I breathed heavily and desperately tried to pull his hand away from me...

Gods, I was so scared. And I couldn't understand why.
Do something, do something, do something!

"Sasuke, calm down!" Naruto said, his voice was soft yet firm.
His other hand embraced my chest.

Hit him!

"Shh," Naruto said and kissed my neck slowly. All his movements stopped. The hand inside of my pants didn't move either.
My eyes were scrunched closed as I panted... sweating with both lust and fear.

"Why are you scared?" Naruto said calmly. "Are you scared of me?" His hold on my softened, as if he was giving me the chance to run away. I didn't.

"No," I murmured, still scared, still not quite knowing why, although the feeling was strangely familiar. It was the same feeling from before; that time in the library.

"Are you scared of pleasure?" Naruto whispered close to my ear. I shuddered and opened my eyes a little.

"N-no..." My breathing slowed down a bit. My hands were still tightly grasping the hand Naruto had slipped into my jeans. He didn't move.

"Are you afraid of people touching you?"

My eyes snapped open at this. I knew the answer; My body is not for other people to see, nor to touch.

My silence seemed to be the answer Naruto was lookin’ for. His hold on my chest tightened. He kissed my neck.

I remembered the time in the library. Almost too clearly. I remember the feeling of his hand on my erect member. I remember the terrified feelings that numbed my body, I remember the panic, but I also remember the pleasure that almost drowned me. I remember the need I had felt at that time, and I remembered the passion.

No one has ever touched me like the way Naruto does, because I've never allowed anyone to do that. No woman has ever gotten the chance, but Naruto is different.
Girls; I really don't like them, at least not the ones trying to be so damn cute all the time. They'll want me to kiss them and tell them everything's alright and that I'll protect them until I die.

I have never met a girl I would protect until I die. I honestly want it to be the other way around. Why should I have to? Just because I'm a guy, does that mean I have to be the strong and protective one? Why is that?

That may be the reason I let Naruto touch me... he made me feel somewhat safe, through the blurrs of panic that still seared through my body. He was the strong one at the moment, and he allowed me to be the weak one.

He accepted me to be the weak one.

And maybe that's what I wanted, what I needed.

Naruto slowly started to massage my still erect member again. His hand slipped inside of my boxers. I hissed and whimpered.

"Relax," Naruto hushed. "Let me give you this."

I stilled and concentrated on the searing pleasure that shot up my spine and Naruto's slim fingers slid over my cock. The panic was still there. Fear of what Naruto might think of my body. Fear.

Am I ugly?

"Oh!" I couldn't stifle my moans as Naruto started to stroke it, firm and slow, while at the same time licking my neck with that incredibly talented tongue of his.

Feels good, feels good, feels so good...

Naruto's actions made me see stars. We weren't leaning against the wall any more, no... it was more like I was the one leaning on Naruto. He leaned back at me I guess, but not as much as I did.
His strokes quickened and I whimpered.

"How does it feel?" He purred and sniffed at my hair. I had to catch my breath a little before I could answer.

"G-good..." I whispered. If I wasn't so damn lost in the pleasure I would have said 'Shut the hell up!', but the truth was... Naruto showed me a completely new level of pleasure. One I had never experienced before.

"I'm glad."

The hand that tried to stop Naruto’s motions before was now encouraging them, carressing Naruto's wrist, pleading for more. The panic was slipping away.

I sighed and whimpered and moaned and... well, acted totally Karin-like, but I didn't give a shit. It felt so good.

"Harder..." The word left my mouth before I could stop it, and I blushed when I realized what I had said. I had actually begged Naruto to touch me harder. I couldn't believe myself.

I could feel Naruto's smirk against my skin. Bastard.

"What did you say? I didn't quite hear you." He purred.

I groaned. Why did he have to torment me like that? But I was so needy, which is something I don’t easily succumb to.
"Naruto! You knew very well what I said!" I managed to choke out before throwing my head back against his shoulder. Naruto had already answered my begging.

His strokes were hard, fast and they made my legs spasm and shake with pleasure. If Naruto hadn't been supporting me, I would never have been able to stand up during this wondrous act.

"Oh my gods..." I hissed and slowly started to move my hips in rhythm with Naruto's hand. It felt almost too good. My hands reached back to grab Naruto's head. I twisted my head back at the same time as I pulled his head forward. Then I smashed my lips against his and, gods, the scene was so... erotic.

I was the first one to reach out my tongue, and Naruto gladly welcomed it. We nibbled, licked and sucked on each other while Naruto continued to stroke my hard member.

I was so close...

"Come for me, Sasuke," Naruto whispered in between our passionate kisses.

I groaned and thrashed my head. He sucked my neck hard, as I fucked his hand in an almost desperate manner. Then....

"Ah!" My back arched away from his body, though the back of my head buried itself into Naruto's strong shoulder. My eyes were tightly shut as my body shook with the unbelievable pleasure.
I could feel my own hips weakly thrust a few tired thrusts against Naruto's curled hand.

Oh... dear gods...

I slid down to the floor, panting and sweaty. Naruto still stood up. I didn't look at him...

"Oh my gods," I heard him whisper. "I made you come..."

My breath stilled at his words. I glanced downwards. My softening, still wet member was partly peeking out of my underwear, staring at me. Oh gods.

Then I heard how he dropped down to his knees behind me. He snorted in a disbelieving way. "I didn't think that would work."

I tried to swallow the weird feeling away, but it came back full force when I managed to pull myself to the sink. I stared at my reflection. My hair was messy (not beautiful!) and my earlier extremely pale face was pink and flustered due to Naruto's ministrations. (Ugh!)

My breathing quickened as the panic returned full force. I couldn't believe myself. I couldn't understand how I could've let the pleasure overcome the panic!

Am I really that weak? Have I forgotten everything? Have I forgotten what happened to Itachi?

Gods... what have I been doing these last days? I've become partly a girl...

Almost panicking over a date and here you sit... covered in your own cum. Naruto made you come. He put his hand on your dick and you loved it...LOVED IT! You disgusting freak! You let him touch you there... You're not worth experiencing that kind of pleasure! You're so weak. WEAK! Uchiha Sasuke... you're pathetic.

The screaming, cutting words echoed through my head as I stared at myself in the mirror. Suddenly the bathroom didn't seem so shining any more. In my eyes, it was dirty... and soiled, due to certain white puddles on the floor. A strange smell lingered in the air... maybe from my puking-session. I tucked my penis inside of my clothes with shaking hands.

I almost gasped as the reality came crushing down upon me. Another guy... had made me cum.

I turned my head to face him. Naruto was sitting there, staring in awe at his cum-covered hand. It was my cum that dripped its way down his fingers and wrist.

"W-wash it off!" I stared at him, trying to hide my panicked feelings away. But my semi-glare was quickly replaced by shock as Naruto smiled a little and brought the hand to his mouth, reaching out his tongue and tasting the sticky substance. I put my hand in front of my mouth as he closed his eyes in enjoyment and inserted an entire finger into his mouth, happily cleaning it with his tongue.

I snapped out of it after about three minutes of staring.

"What are you doing?" I whispered weakly.

Naruto looked at me with a sly smile. He looked different to me in that instance. He was so ugly! The sight made me want to throw up again.

What had he done to me! I tried to stop him... it was all his fault!

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" I yelled pressing myself against the wall while staring at him. He had stopped in mid-air, one of his fingers still in his mouth. He slowly pulled it out and stood up. I followed him with my eyes. I was absolutely furious. He had destroyed everything!

He took a step towards me.

"Don't!" I hissed. He stopped, his face looked shocked, hurt, and somewhat panicked. Ha! As if he had any reason to be panicked! Fucking dobe... "Don't come near me."

"Sasuke..." Naruto said softly, slowly reaching out to me. I stared with some kind of hateful awe at his cum-covered fingers.

"Don't touch me!" I yelled and turned my face away. His hand was mere inches away. It froze.

I slowly turned towards him again, with that same old coldness in my eyes. Thank the gods... I found it again! I refound my comfort and biggest safety. What would I do without you, cold glare?

"Don't touch me." I whispered and ran away from the soiled hand, away from Naruto, away from the bathroom that disgusted me so much.

I ran towards the large door as I tried to ignore Naruto calling out to me. A strong hand grabbed my arm, and for a terrifying second, I thought that it was Naruto catching up to me, but just as I was about to scream at him to let me go, I heard a familiar voice.

"Sasuke-kun?" For about two seconds, I stared into Kakashi's face. Somewhere in my mind, I was weakly wondering why the hell he was at the cinema. Someone was behind the white haired teacher, someone with brown hair. I recognized him despite my panicked daze. I had him in some of my classes last year... Iruka, or something...

"Sasuke!" Naruto was closing in on me.

Oh shit.

"Let go of me!" I sneered and freed myself from my teacher's tight grip. The look on Kakashi's face was, I don't know, it was surprised, yet understanding. As if he knew what I was going through. I would have snorted if I wasn't so damn busy, running away and all.

Then I ran out to the almost numbing coldness of the autumn night. It was already dark. The movies had probably ended already. I felt sick as I remembered the terrifying scenes from the movie we had been watching and almost regretting running away from the comfy safeness of Naruto. Almost.

I cast a glance towards the sky; the dark blue heaven was shimmering with stars. Then an icy wind ran through my hair and light clothing. My jacket was at the cinema. I shuddered but really couldn't care less.

I just ran, blindly, numb, until I reached my apartment. I looked behind me, panting harshly.

Naruto was nowhere to be seen, and I hoped that it would stay that way. I panted and sighed with relief as I found my keys in one of my pants pockets.

I unlocked the door, rushed inside, closed it, and locked it again.

Then I bit my lip, still panting, still panicked enough to throw up again. I could still remember the orgasmic pleasures Naruto had given me and I whimpered as I felt the small tingles of the afterglow pulsate through my exhausted body.

I slowly made my way to the bathroom. It was dark everywhere, and when I turned the light on in my large bathroom it reminded me of the bathroom at the cinema, so I turned the light off again with a frown.
I went to the kitchen to get myself a candle and then walked back to the bathroom.

In the dim light of the white candle, I undressed myself and stepped into the shower.

Water quickly soaked my body.

I glanced down again... then I scrunched my eyes shut. No tears came. I felt dirty... disgusting... sick.

I took some soap and scrubbed my body with almost violent movements. With a single, desperate sob, I let the water rinse my body...

I turned up the temperature of the water... warmer... hotter.

Hot. Yes... The water made the whole room steamy and warm. The candle became soaked with the steam and went out. The room was so dark. I hissed as the hot water hit my skin, burning it... it hurt, sure... but it was honestly the only way I could handle it.

It’s not like you deserve that kind of pleasure any way, you disgusting freak.

I nodded to myself. I sighed with relief as the panic vanished and was replaced with the numbing pain from the almost boiling water, but it was still better than the panic that made me want to throw up all over again.

After a few minutes, I changed the temperature again. Colder. Cold.

Yees...

The coldness cooled my skin down, and hopefully it would make evidence of the scolding water vanish. I shuddered as the ice cold water covered my body.

After a few minutes, I turned the water off and stepped out of the shower and turned the light on. I was relieved. The bathroom didn't look like the bathroom at the cinema any more. The walls weren’t even the same color.

Heh, funny I didn't notice that before.

I took one of my grey towels out and wrapped it around my shivering body before going to the kitchen. My skin was sore from the shower. I tried to ignore it.

I made myself a cup of tea before heading to my room. It was so pleasantly dark everywhere. No annoying sunlight anywhere. It calmed me; the feeling of my pillow against my cheek and the smell of my sheets. Familiar things. I slowly drank my tea in the silent darkness and awaited the fatigue to arrive. It soon did.

My lids closed, even though my body was shaking with chill. Was I getting a fever?

What happened at the cinema was still haunting my mind, my every thought and my body. I wrapped my arms around myself, scratching myself on the back. Anything to punish myself.

'Don't worry... you're not like him, okay? I'm not like that at all... Don't worry. I'm not gay... I'm not. I'm not. I'm not. I'm not beautiful enough... I'm not. Don't worry... these things can't happen to someone like me. Don't worry...

These words were my own, final lullaby as I finally drifted away to a restless sleep.

All the things that happened when I was little... No... Or...

...Maybe it's time to tell you. Tell you about my fear and the cause of my panic.

Tell you the story about my brother, Itachi.


TBC
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Author note; This is important, so you should read this. I want to announce something. This chapter is the beginning of "The dark period" as I like to call it. Which means, that the following chapter (or chapter(s)) will be a bit darker than the rest. This is because Sasuke and Naruto will have their chances to tell us about the past. Especially Sasuke. So don't feel worried or upset if you think that I suddenly turned into an angst-writer. These Emo-chapters are necessary. Life isn't just fun, we all should remember that. That's all.

*Converse is like my favorite shoe-model. If you honestly don't know what a converse is, I suggest you find out! They're so damn hot! *drool*

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C ya'll soon! (Chapter five will contain very yummie stuff indeed!) *chu*