Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Voices ❯ Never Be Alone Again ( Chapter 8 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Silently the two boys walk to the Tsuna home. To Lee's surprise, though, Gaara has taken his hand, gripping it tightly within his own. The shorter male seemed to have something on his mind that he looked like he wanted to say, but Gaara chose silence being stubborn to tell anyone anything about himself. But its because of that that Lee feels he has the boy somewhat figured out. He's been around complicated people before, but never anyone like Gaara. Even still, he wants the strange boy to be alright and have a good life, he feels everyone deserves one even if the person, themself, doesn't think so.

Gaara sighed, it sounded like a sigh of defeat actually; turning his head he looks at Lee with a glaring frown. "If I tell you something, do you promise not to tell anyone else?"

"My lips are sealed." He kept his gaze straight ahead watching the sunset turn the sky pink.

Gaara eyes him a moment as if to see if his word is real, but since Lee seems like an honest enough person he decides to tell him. "I had a dream a while back about you and me, Shikamaru and Naruto."

Lee nods hoping the finish of the sentence went along the lines of 'we were having a foursome' or something. Sex was odd enough to him. Sure, he could tell it felt nice but pressing yourself to another person to feel good is just plain weird.

"Everything around me was dying when I passed by it.... People, animals and plants, even cars stopped moving. It was alarming."

"Hmm, but I thought you wanted everyone to die, so we could all be one?" He wasn't trying to be smug, he really wasn't, he just didn't understand how a dream about death could freak out the strange boy who, from what he gathered, liked the idea of passing on.

"I do, but... this dream was different. It wasn't like good dying, everyone seemed sad. No one smiled like they were going to a better place.... They just died."

"I see." He lowers his gaze to the ground. What Gaara's saying makes some sense. Having a warped sense of death, then having a realistic dream about it can really frighten a person. He didn't want to be the one to tell Gaara that, yes, we may all go to a better place possibly people aren't happier just because they're dead. They're just dead and that's it.

Gaara went on. "I got to the tree on the big hill thinking I could escape it but it came at me so much faster;" his voice lowers. "All this darkness creeping up on me.... But you three were there, shielding me from the darkness and it didn't get me, infact it turned around and everything was alive again. I was so confused- but relieved. Then when I turned around to thank you, all of you were dead and the darkness was coming at me again from the tree."

"Hmm." Thinks Lee.

Watching the males expressions, he asks. "Do you think it means anything?"

"I'm not sure, I'm no dream expert. I barely remember my dreams by the time I wake up."

Let down by that response, he sighs. "Then you can't help me."

"I'm sorry."

"Forget about it."

Kinda hard to do that now that I know. Thinks Lee, side-eyeing the shorter male.

The two are silent for a good stretch, hands slightly swinging since, in a state of discomfort, Lee couldn't think of anything else to do. But then a thought occured to him as he remembered what Naruto told him in the bathroom about something that Gaara had said to his mother.

"Gaara?"

The male intoned a small hum telling Lee to go on.

"Maybe he shouldn't have, but, someone told me that you said something to your mother that upset her. Do you remember what it was?"

"Naruto should learn that personal business means just that;" He said ratting the tattle-tell out on his own. "Anyway, I can't remember what I said to my mother, if I said anything to her at all." His eyes seemed to shade over. "We were together one afternoon watching something on tv...." He speaks as though he sees it all happening right now. "She held me in her arms and rocked me.... she said she loved me and gave me a kiss."

Lee felt there was more to it than that and he wished someone could tell him but the only people there were Gaara and his mother. He did get the woman to smile at him, even talk. Maybe she could tell him what happened, and once he knows that he can help the boy be... happy. It seems like that's all Gaara really wants. His sense of belonging is being wanted in a comfortable place surrounded by people who want him back. It isn't hard to get those things- Lee at least thinks so. But Gaara makes it sound like no one could possibly give him that. It could be because of his mother shutting down on him, its the only thing that makes sense to Lee.

I'll do everything I can to reunite them. I'll give Gaara his wish so he doesn't have to wait until he dies to get it. Smiling to himself, Lee can't help but feel a sense of warmth wash over him at helping a friend out, especially when he cares so much about him.

They walk until they reach the Tsuna home, at which point Gaara takes one look at the place then continues past; Lee's hand still in his own, and he heads for the Rock home instead. Lee wondered where the heck the boy thought he was going, but then he remembered inviting him to stay over some night so they can watch the stars together. He figured that Gaara chose this night as the night to take him up on his offer. Just as well, he wasn't sure if he was ready to leave the boy on his own just yet, he seems so emotionally drained, voice barely wanting to speak. Was it really so hard for him to believe that someone cares about him?

Hm. Good death and bad death? Is there really such a thing? Wonders Lee as he unlocks the door to his uncles house allowing them both inside. He wasn't sure of the answer but he would find it out for the strange boy. That's what you do for people who are precious to you. And for Lee Gaara was slowly becoming the most precious of all, not because the boy needs him, but because he's actually kind of sweet in his own way; so-much-so that Lee is finding it hard to spend a day without seeing him at least once or twice.

...........

Its later that day, around nine o'clock. Gaara is sitting on the grass, legs out before him, hands back past his hips on a lean. He's watching Lee put up a tent for them to sleep in. Having dinner at the Maitou home was different from dinner at his house. Gai was very animated and attentive to him, whereas Temari would feed them and either leave or talk about her day which was nothing special. Kankurou would ask him about his day but he mostly did it to pick on him about it. Sometimes his uncle and father would eat with them but not often enough. He wondered what was going on at his house right now. His mother had spoken to Lee, she wouldn't even speak to her own husband muchless children. What is it about Lee that makes him likeable. Can he obtain this? Is that even possible for someone like himself.

"There." Says Lee, pounding the last steak into the ground. Standing he smiles at Gaara gesturing for him to get inside by raising a hand to the tent. "Do you wanna sleep on the left side or the right?"

Standing Gaara walks over to the tent stepping inside. He didn't care which side he slept on. Lowering himself on the sleeping bag, he pulls the loose pajamas about himself wondering how Lee can only have one pair. He has at least three sets but refused to go home to get one so he ended up sleeping in one of Gai's night shirts. The dark blue plaid actually made him look very cute Lee thought, but he kept it to himself. Bad enough he's confused about his feelings for the shorter male, and knowing that Gaara had chose to kiss him without reason made him twitchy as to what the boy would do next without knowing why.

Climbing in, he set his telescope up just outside of the tents flap, pointing it to the sky. "Do you wanna look first?"

Gaara looked towards the open door, then leans out a bit grabbing a hold of the scope. It was amazing that something so small could see so far out into nothingness and yet nothing held everything. Stars, planets, etcetra. Its amazing.

"Does your uncle always talk that much?" Asks Gaara leaning further down, legs bending up beneath him so that he isn't lying down anymore.

"As long as I've known him." Lee replies unable to take his eyes from the boy.

"How could he hug a stranger, though?"

Lee cocks a brow, then laughs. "He's very friendly and likes people. My entire family is like this."

"Must be frustrating to live around."

"Its not!" Lee argues. It was amazing how quickly this boy could frustrate you when he's unknowingly adorible every other time. "We're a great family.... maybe the greatest in the world."

"Now you're just being ridiculous." Comments Gaara turning the telescope to the right. "Can it zoom in any closer?"

"Hmm? Yeah." Sitting up, he grabs the focus giving the knob a good turn. "Is that better?"

"Yeah." He smirks. "I can see Naruto and Sasuke perfectly now."

"Gaara! Stop that." He pulls him away from the scope.

Gaara put his hand over his mouth, shaking slightly. "Calm down, I was joking. Look for yourself."

Frankly he didn't want to, but he had to make sure Gaara wasn't spying on his friend. Peeking into the scope, he was happy to see that it had a really nice view of a cluster of stars that looked a bit like the milky way but couldn't be.

"Wow....." Says the Rock child.

Crossing his arms, feeling an 'I told you so' coming on, Gaara instead looks down at Lee noticing a tip of his ear as his well groomed hair dipped forward with his lowered head. Reaching out, never one to care about someone elses personal space, he moves the hair completely to expose the ear. His thumb brushing absently over the rim of the lobe just long enough before Lee jumped out of his skin from the contact.

"What are you doing?"

"I was just looking at your ears. Why are you so jumpy?" Scooting forward he reaches up again, raking his fingers through Lee's bangs and back smiling at the view of a very terrified Lee as he does this.

"Ahahaa, okay that's enough of that." He says nervously scooting away from the intrusive boy- which in the small tent was kind of tough to do, if anything he only moved closer to him. They should have used his uncles. "How would you like it if I did that to you?"

"Stop making it sound like I molested you. If anything you should be worried about your over friendly uncle doing it."

Nostrals flared in anger Lee raised his hand to slap the boy, but instead he placed his hand to the boys cheek and merely turned his head as if to mimick one during an acting scene. But Gaara seemed to get the hint enough as he touched his face curiously. It was strange. No one's ever disciplined him before- ever. Even when he purposely broke a vase full of flowers for this family that his father said was extra important so no one should bother even a single flower.

Lee looked like he'd just run over a baby seeing the look on Gaara's face. "I-... I'm sorry."

"Forget it." Moving closer to the taller male, he places Lee's hands around his shoulders and his own went around the male's waist. He then lay his head on Lee's chest and sighed comfortably. "I want to be like you Lee. Just like you."

"Huh?"

"Teach me to be like you." He asks a bit more clearly.

"Like me?"

"Yes. Just like you."

"But... I like you as you are."

"If you say so." Releasing the male he climbs into the sleeping bag, then grabs the scope again. "Let's look at the stars some more."

Unsure, Lee lays down to join him. Gaara sure is strange.

Gaara is alone by the large tree on his and his friends favorite hill. The young boy is sitting with his back against the large plant, legs out before him watching the sun sink into nothing. Curling his legs in under him he lays himself down on the soft green grass and through half lidded eyes he watches the sunset lay itself over the sky with a brilliant orange and red glow. Gaara's eyes close momentarily because they open again just as quickly upon his hearing foot steps approaching. Its Lee. Their eyes lock together for a long moment, until the other boy smiles lifting a hand as a greeting. Lee asks him something but his words are silent, but its okay because Gaara's voice is gone as well. But they can understand each other and the red head nods to invite the Rock child to lie with him. Bowing, Lee sinks down to the grass then lays down, though, he chose to lay on his back. He's directly before Gaara so their heads are almost touching.

The two lay comfortably in silence for a bit, then voice still gone, Lee says. "Its funny meeting you here again; this is where I first saw you, from there, we shared a room in the hospital."

Confused, Gaara asks. "Why were you in the hospital? Were you hit by a car too?"

"Hm?" He tilts his head back to look at the male as best he could. "No. I have hypertension."

"And I was in a coma."

Happy as a clam, he rolls over onto his stomach. "That's right!" Arms folded under her chin, he smiles and says. "The doctors told me I could talk to you." Rolling back over onto his back, he lifts his hand over his head, fingers wriggling to get Gaara's attention.

The red head takes Lee's hand, gripping it firmly within his grasp. Lee felt so warm, and so real, he never wanted to let him go.

Lee blushed, squeezing Gaara's hand in return. "Its so weird to look at the two of us sitting together like this. I'm kind of a dork at school, but you you must have tons of friends. You're probably very well liked."

Blinking at that statement, Gaara looks at the top of Lee's head. "No." Resting his head back down, his cheek to the grass, though, resting on his folded arm. "I'm not so sure I'm really liked at all."

"Don't say that!" He squeezes the boys hand again.

"Why not, its what I think."

"Hmhm." Lee chuckles. Closing his eyes, he sighs and says. "I forget sometimes that you say the weirdest things. But I like it, its... cute."

Gaara thinks that over for a moment. Then smiling he says. "Thank you... for accepting me."

Smiling to himself, Lee says. "How's about we make a promise to each other to stay well together and be friends so that way whenever we feel like being ourselves, we'll never be alone again."

Gaara smiles faintly. "I-... I'd like that."

Opening his eyes Gaara mumbles. "I'd like that."

Lee moved a bit at the sound of a voice but he remains asleep. He's always been a heavy sleeper, mostly due to his condition keeping him down and even with the defribrilator he can't break the habit of sleeping like a stone. Which was fine for Gaara.

Scooting closer to the male, he tilts his face closer to Lee pressing his mouth to the sleeping males. Hand coming behind Lee's head, he presses Lee's face closer to his. Gaara's never kissed anyone beyond a quick peck, but he's walked in on Shikamaru and Temari plenty of times to get the basics.

The kiss may have been one-sided at the start but soon Lee's sleeping state took notice to warm feeling washing over him, and in a deep breath he pulled himself from his coma-like state to see the red head pulling away from him; his lips parted from the quick release of them. Gaara looked guilty for having woken him up, but Lee only smiled at him, placing a hand to his cheek pulling Gaara back down to kiss him in return. He's not gonna get this wrong this time. Mouth parted, taking in Gaara's bottom lip to sandwich between his own, he gives it a tested lick with his tongue before pulling back a bit allowing the lip to be tugged between his own before it came free. Gaara moved back, tasting his own mouth with a lick as if it might have been bitten to drawing blood. Assured that he wasn't going to be called out for rough kissing, Gaara returned the favor to the Rock child, pulling kisses from him as well.

Unable to resist further contact, Lee wraps his arms around Gaara's back pulling him tightly to him. Lee is a bit surprised when Gaara straddles his hips, warm weight resting upon him but his mind is too clouded to be frightened by what happens between two people sitting on each other while kissing. Gaara's breaths come out in heated little pants in Lee's ear as he kisses the shorter boys jaw and cheek; Lee's hands curiously wander down Gaara's back to his hips then lower, intention set on raising the night shirt that covers the boy like a nightgown. It wasn't until he recalled whose pajama top it was that Gaara is wearing that Lee snapped out of his trance. Pushing the red head away, he sits up before Gaara can return to his lap.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know what I was doing." He said lamely.

Gaara looked put out because of that. "...So you didn't like it."

"I did."

"Oh.... then you don't like me."

"I like you too."

"Then what's the problem?"

Lee frowned thinking that over. Would Gaara really have had sex with him just right off the bat like that, or did he merely want to kiss? Lee would gladly kiss him if that were the case but sex is... its serious. Really serious.

"Well?"

"Gaara, will you go out on a date with me?"

That took him by surprise. Smirking a bit, he looks down at the sleeping bag beneath him. "Where would we go?"

"I don't know. Someplace, though, that we can both enjoy."

"Until you decide on a place?" He questions suspiciously.

"Until then, you're my boyfriend." He grinned as the word passed his lips. He's never had a boyfriend before- or a girlfriend but either way its a nice feeling.

Nodding, Gaara stands up then leaves the tent.

Curious, Lee asks. "Where are you going?" He moves the flap of the tent aside.

"I have to pee."

He hears the male say as he disappears into his uncles home.

"Oh." Still grinning like a nut, he lays back down on the sleeping bag, a nice feeling coursing through him. Gaara's gonna be alright.

Walking through the home after going to the bathroom, Gaara spots Gai in the kitchen starting breakfast. Lee may not want to teach him to be like him but that doesn't mean he can't just mimic what he's seen the chipper male do. Heading into the kitchen he cocks a brow when the older male laughs upon seeing him. It must be the over-sized pajama shirt on him. Lee thought it looked funny too.

"Good morning!" Greets the man brightly smiling at him while his hands absently tend to an omlette for them. "Did you sleep alright?"

"I guess." He replied truthfully.

"Is Lee up?"

Turning his head as said person just enters the house; tent folded under his arm. Gaara replies. "Yes."

"Good! Breakfast will be in 15 minutes."

Nodding to show he got the message; Gaara, though, remains at Gai's side.

Gai hummed thoughfully while turning the egg over in the pain. His glance kept itself at the boys position beside him. He wondered what the boy wanted for starters but then told himself not to be so rude. Maybe Gaara is just really hungry and can't wait. Or maybe the boy is just a little off. In all the time his wonderful nephew has known the boy he's never once come home without saying what an odd boy Gaara is.

"Do you-.." Gai begins but is cut off.

"Can I help with something?"

Oh! Was that all? Laughing to himself, Gai shakes his head. "I've got it covered, thank you anyway. You can go hang out like youthful boys do. Watch tv, maybe wrestle or take a relaxing shower. We have a wide selection of board games and card games."

Mouth twitching in brief thought, he turns to leave but stops a moment to ask over his shoulder. "Are you sure?"

"Very sure. Go on now."

"Alright. But if you need me, just call." Leaving the kitchen, Gaara couldn't help but feel good about how that went- though he missed Gai scratching his head in puzzle over it. He was actually getting excited about today and tomorrow too. If this works things are gonna be really interesting from now on.