Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction ❯ Changing Seasons ❯ Changing Seasons 10 ( Chapter 10 )
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By: JErosion 
Anime/Manga: Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Hentai / Romance | Type: Divergence | Uploaded On: 07.13.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.0K | Visits: 1.1K | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Hentai / Romance | Type: Divergence | Uploaded On: 07.13.2006 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.0K | Visits: 1.1K | Status: Work In Progress
Disclaimer: The following is a non-profit work of fan fiction based on the anime and manga Neon Genesis Evangelion by Hideaki Anno and Yoshiyuki Sadamoto and Studio Gainax. Gigantor! Gigantor! Gigantor the space age robot, he's at your command!
Changing Seasons
by: JErosion
It was lunch time and they were sitting under what was starting to be called the Autumn Tree. If you sat under it like the two of them were at that moment. You would see how the mid-day sun made the leaves glow in a rich gold. In the coarse of the last two months this one tree, for reasons beyond their knowing, had elected to resume the natural cycle of seasons. Albeit a couple of months early from the start of the real fall. It had started this about two months ago. And at a incrediably slow pace it's leaves had turned yellow. And now the first tinges of orange were starting to creep into the endges of it's leaves. Another month or two and it may turn red. It was the only tree in the school yard to have done this. And perhaps the only tree in the whole of Tokyo-3 to undergo the change. And it had become a popular spot for students to eat their lunch. Today they had been rather lucky, and where able to secure the area before any other groups or couples had the chance to.
"mmmmm" she purred at the sensation of his fingers slowly sliding though her hair. A girl could really get use to that sort of thing.
"You like that?" he asked.
"uh, huh." she murmured snuggling her head into his hip. She felt content laying there in the grass. It felt cool out here.
Shinji smiled, he leaned his head back against the tree. This was one of those nice and quite moments. The kind of moment where you could just forget your troubles and just relax. But Shinji was never good at relaxing. He was feeling more and more conflicted as of late. Asuka's 'games' were become more and more difficult for him to ignore. He couldn't tell if she was joking any more. He had been trying to avoid situations that would allow her to engage in her treacherous new hobby. But since they lived together, it wasn't like he could avoid her completely. At least she didn't try anything while he was in his room. The temptation she offered was slowly eroding away his will. How long would it be before he actually reached out with his hand made contact with her skin. How long until she took hold of his had and forced him to touch her?
He looked down at the face of Hikari. Her eye's were closed a small content smile was on her face. It wasn't fair. It wasn't fair to her. She should know. She had every right to know.
"Hey?"
"hmmm?"
"I want to tell... to ask you....um?
She opened her eye's and looked up at him.
"Have you noticed.... anything odd about Asuka?"
She was quite for a long time, before she would answer his question.
"You mean how she sometimes stares at you in class."
"w-What?! She s-stares?"
"Yes, I've seen her do it on more than one occasion." She said with a flat voice and a nod.
She watched Shinji face closely, he had said that he had noticed something odd about Asuka. But from his reaction that wasn't what he had seen. That kind of scared her. She had talked to Kodama about her observations. But the funny thing was.... It was like her sister had expected her to bring the subject up. Without a second's thought she broke into this long speech about how much she needed to watch out for the redheaded girl. Kodama said that Shinji didn't seem like the kind of guy that would cheat on a girl. And that he would probably never do anything to intentionally hurt her. But she also emphasized that no matter how resilient a guy was, if he was pressed for long enough and in the right way he would eventually cave. And Asuka as attractive as she was could be the one to it.
If Hikari didn't know better she would have thought that her lecture was rehearsed. Before she could ask Kodama about that, she went into this story about a relationship she had inadvertently ruined. The guy she had slept with, was much like Shinji. Both shy and polite. And he also had a girlfriend, that he had been going out with for about a year. And although he said that he loved her, and that he was satisfied with their relationship. She knew better, she had a way of reading people. And she eventually got him to admit that their relationship wasn't progressing the way he'd like, at least not in a physical sense. And Kodama being both impulsive and unable to keep it in her pants, proposition him. He was intially horrified and extremely embarassed. And he was completely adamant that he could never do such a thing. Yet Kodama could be rather persisant and persuasive. She explained in great detail on how a touch here, a rub there, and the sight of a little skin could go a long way. She didn't say what happened afterwards, she only mentioned that she wished she had listened more then.
But that didn't help her much with her problem. It only made things worse. Asuka was her friend. She had asked her if it was alright if she could date Shinji. And she told her that she didn't care. But more and more Hikari couldn't help but think that it a lie. Maybe Asuka didn't know it was at the time either. But the more she observed Asuka, the more it became clear that she felt something for her fellow pilot. And Hikari didn't like that. Asuka was her friend, but she wasn't about to stand aside and let her take him. She didn't get the position of class representative by bowing out to others.
The gaijin already had so much. She was popularity. She had already a graduated from college. She had that fantastic figure, and perfect skin. But she'll be damned, if she let her get Shinji too!
But she was damned if she knew what she was going to do about it. From the moment she had met Asuka, she had liked her. She couldn't help but admire, and envy her for her confidence and her beauty. So when she asked, or prehaps when she stated, for them to be friends. She happily agreed. But what now? Honestly she didn't want to lose Asuka as a friend but she also didn't want to lose Shinji. And if Asuka did something like Kodama did to that boy in her story, would Shinji be able to resist her?
"So what did you mean about her acting odd?"
Shinji's face turned a few shades of pink. That wasn't good.
"s-She just... I don't know.... um.... It's just... she been joking around with me lately."
"mmm."
Now she could ask how. How was she joking around with him. She wanted to know. And yet part of her didn't want to know either.
"How so?"
Silence meet her ears. She bit her lip.
"Has she... been coming on to you?"
He looked away his face definately turned red. Her fists balled up, pulling up some of the grass with them.
"s-She'll do... stuff like that... and then she'll start laughing at me or something."
Teasing. She was teasing him. Maybe. But this only made another question pop into her head. What did 'stuff' involve? Yey knowing Asuka she didn't have to ask. She already knew.
"I've asked her to stop... " he continued, "but you know how she is."
"How...how often does she do these things?" she asked tentatively.
"She's pretty random... and she only makes... these things... in certain situations. Like if we were to pass each other in the hallway or if I walked out of the bathroom right as she was going in. Since we live and work together... so...I can't avoid her.... umm... I just.... kinda watch out, in case... you know.... she tries it again."
She looked up at him. His eyes were cast elsewhere. A look of shame marked his features. He felt bad about it. He could have hidden what was happening from her. But he came clean. A testimate to his honor and his intergraty It was nothing he had been looking for. Nothing he sought out. Asuka was the one. It was all her. So what now? What options did she have? Perhaps.....
No. She couldn't do that. It's too early. She wasn't ready yet. Even though her body was starting to tell her otherwise. Oh, and the dreams she had been having. When she woke, the details of those dreams faded quickly. But the emotional bliss that came with them lingered on, hinting at the explicit nature of her nighttime imagenings. Maybe she could do some things. Nothing that went too far. It wasn't that she didn't want to them. It was... she was scared that once she started, she may not be able to stop.
She sighed at herself. At this rate she was going to turn into Kodama. And with those guys in the black suits watching Shinji, sooner or later anything they did would get back to her father. And she was sure that was all dad needed. It was bad enough with what Kodama did and she was pretty sure that dad wasn't completely oblivious to what was happening at home. She didn't think her father could deal with having two sexual dynamos in the house. Maybe that's why he slept at work as much as it did. To avoid the shame of a house full of sexually active daughters. She had to wonder what the hell was wrong with her family. There was only one possible explaination for the whole thing. Genetics. Maybe mom was like this too. She did manage to get herself pregnant four times.
So did she need to be more physically intimate with Shinji? Perhaps. But perhaps she also needed a 'Plan B.' Maybe something to discourage or distract Asuka from trying anything else with Shinji.
She looked at him carefully. She didn't like seeing him like that. It was always better when he smiled. So, she reached up and poked his cheek with her finger.
"It's ok."
"w-What?"
"It's not something you started."
"b-But..."
She shook her head silencing him.
"I think you are a good person Shinji. And I trust you."
He smiled softly. And so did she.
She craned her head around and looked at his wrist watch.
"Lunch lasts for about another five minutes So...."
"hmm?"
She smiled. "Get those fingers moving again."
Shinji chuckled and he was more than happy to comply.
At his age and with his disposition, the only company he could bring to his bed was the kind that was paid for. He hated the idea of doing that, but something he had even less love for, was loneliness. You know, if you pay enough not only can they take care of your desires, but they will be there when you wake up in the morning. Most men can't afford something like that, but when you don't have a family to take care of, you find you have the money for such indulgences.
Humans are such sad creatures. He remembered hearing someone say that once, a long time ago. And indeed he found that to be very true. He knew his share of sadness. Maybe that was why he allow himself to purchase a woman's company. And if anything, a prostitute understood sadness better than anyone.
There was a great commotion ahead, as the doors at the end of the hall burst open. He was nearly knocked over by a white blur. It took maybe but a second for him to identify the person as doctor. He reach out and took hold of her arm before she could get too far away.
"Doctor?" he asked quietly.
"Let go." she whispered without bothering to turn his way.
"What happened?"
"Please! j-Just l-let me go!"
Her head whipped around towards him, she was crying. Her mascara was running in thick black streaks down her face.
He let go. This was too familar. He thought of Mitsune. A girl who was lost and vulnerable. A person he gave comfort to when he was in a similar state. That one incident should have been just an awkward moment, not the start of a relationship. So being in that position again, scared him. Not that he should be. She didn't have any interest in him. And she never would, not when she was carrying another man's child. But in truth, even if it was possible that she could love him, he didn't think he could ever have another relationship like that. One that was based on filling an emotional emptiness.
He watched her disappear around the corner before he turned towards the door in which she had emerged.
He watched her disappear around the same corner that he had come from. He turned and looked at the door she had emerged and then back to where she had vanished. He sighed. He returned to his walk, although at a much slower pace. He opened the heavy wooden doors without knocking. He never had to, so he had little reason to stop now.
He was sitting at his desk, staring off to the side. He had hand his head proped up by one hand. He walked carefully up to the commander. He picked up an over turned chair that lay on his side of the room.
"So I take it she told you?"
Mechainically the commander's eyes turned his way.
"You knew?"
"She came to me seeking advice the other day." he acknowledged with a nod.
A look crossed his features that was mingle of disgust and exaspereration.
Kozo looked around the room a little. On the floor against the same wall that he had been staring at when he had entered, was a broken mug. He smiled briefly reading the words 'World's Greatest Dictator'. He remembered having that cup especially made for the younger man as a gag birthday gift, one year. What a shame, that cup had seen alot of use. Oh well, veterans die hard.
"Well?"
"Well, what?"
"What did you tell her?"
The younger man made a sound that was somewhere along the lines of a growl. That was his way of telling him to shut up. But with the way Ritsuko tore out of here it was more that obvious to how he reacted. He shhok his head.
The man in front of him had a family once and he threw it away. Now he had been given the chance to start again, to have another try. And he turned his back on her, and on his child to be. The two of them were so much alike. Both throwing away the happiness they had for a dream. But you can never take back some of your mistakes. If she could come back tomorrow what would Yui think of what he had done. How would Yui look at him for his crimes. Humans are such sad creatures. That was the thing she said to him a long time ago. He never understood how she could say such a thing at her age. Maybe it was because of the connections her family had to Seele. So yes, humans were sad creatures. Perhaps the saddest of all.
Changing Seasons
by: JErosion
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Chapter 10It was lunch time and they were sitting under what was starting to be called the Autumn Tree. If you sat under it like the two of them were at that moment. You would see how the mid-day sun made the leaves glow in a rich gold. In the coarse of the last two months this one tree, for reasons beyond their knowing, had elected to resume the natural cycle of seasons. Albeit a couple of months early from the start of the real fall. It had started this about two months ago. And at a incrediably slow pace it's leaves had turned yellow. And now the first tinges of orange were starting to creep into the endges of it's leaves. Another month or two and it may turn red. It was the only tree in the school yard to have done this. And perhaps the only tree in the whole of Tokyo-3 to undergo the change. And it had become a popular spot for students to eat their lunch. Today they had been rather lucky, and where able to secure the area before any other groups or couples had the chance to.
"mmmmm" she purred at the sensation of his fingers slowly sliding though her hair. A girl could really get use to that sort of thing.
"You like that?" he asked.
"uh, huh." she murmured snuggling her head into his hip. She felt content laying there in the grass. It felt cool out here.
Shinji smiled, he leaned his head back against the tree. This was one of those nice and quite moments. The kind of moment where you could just forget your troubles and just relax. But Shinji was never good at relaxing. He was feeling more and more conflicted as of late. Asuka's 'games' were become more and more difficult for him to ignore. He couldn't tell if she was joking any more. He had been trying to avoid situations that would allow her to engage in her treacherous new hobby. But since they lived together, it wasn't like he could avoid her completely. At least she didn't try anything while he was in his room. The temptation she offered was slowly eroding away his will. How long would it be before he actually reached out with his hand made contact with her skin. How long until she took hold of his had and forced him to touch her?
He looked down at the face of Hikari. Her eye's were closed a small content smile was on her face. It wasn't fair. It wasn't fair to her. She should know. She had every right to know.
"Hey?"
"hmmm?"
"I want to tell... to ask you....um?
She opened her eye's and looked up at him.
"Have you noticed.... anything odd about Asuka?"
She was quite for a long time, before she would answer his question.
"You mean how she sometimes stares at you in class."
"w-What?! She s-stares?"
"Yes, I've seen her do it on more than one occasion." She said with a flat voice and a nod.
She watched Shinji face closely, he had said that he had noticed something odd about Asuka. But from his reaction that wasn't what he had seen. That kind of scared her. She had talked to Kodama about her observations. But the funny thing was.... It was like her sister had expected her to bring the subject up. Without a second's thought she broke into this long speech about how much she needed to watch out for the redheaded girl. Kodama said that Shinji didn't seem like the kind of guy that would cheat on a girl. And that he would probably never do anything to intentionally hurt her. But she also emphasized that no matter how resilient a guy was, if he was pressed for long enough and in the right way he would eventually cave. And Asuka as attractive as she was could be the one to it.
If Hikari didn't know better she would have thought that her lecture was rehearsed. Before she could ask Kodama about that, she went into this story about a relationship she had inadvertently ruined. The guy she had slept with, was much like Shinji. Both shy and polite. And he also had a girlfriend, that he had been going out with for about a year. And although he said that he loved her, and that he was satisfied with their relationship. She knew better, she had a way of reading people. And she eventually got him to admit that their relationship wasn't progressing the way he'd like, at least not in a physical sense. And Kodama being both impulsive and unable to keep it in her pants, proposition him. He was intially horrified and extremely embarassed. And he was completely adamant that he could never do such a thing. Yet Kodama could be rather persisant and persuasive. She explained in great detail on how a touch here, a rub there, and the sight of a little skin could go a long way. She didn't say what happened afterwards, she only mentioned that she wished she had listened more then.
But that didn't help her much with her problem. It only made things worse. Asuka was her friend. She had asked her if it was alright if she could date Shinji. And she told her that she didn't care. But more and more Hikari couldn't help but think that it a lie. Maybe Asuka didn't know it was at the time either. But the more she observed Asuka, the more it became clear that she felt something for her fellow pilot. And Hikari didn't like that. Asuka was her friend, but she wasn't about to stand aside and let her take him. She didn't get the position of class representative by bowing out to others.
The gaijin already had so much. She was popularity. She had already a graduated from college. She had that fantastic figure, and perfect skin. But she'll be damned, if she let her get Shinji too!
But she was damned if she knew what she was going to do about it. From the moment she had met Asuka, she had liked her. She couldn't help but admire, and envy her for her confidence and her beauty. So when she asked, or prehaps when she stated, for them to be friends. She happily agreed. But what now? Honestly she didn't want to lose Asuka as a friend but she also didn't want to lose Shinji. And if Asuka did something like Kodama did to that boy in her story, would Shinji be able to resist her?
"So what did you mean about her acting odd?"
Shinji's face turned a few shades of pink. That wasn't good.
"s-She just... I don't know.... um.... It's just... she been joking around with me lately."
"mmm."
Now she could ask how. How was she joking around with him. She wanted to know. And yet part of her didn't want to know either.
"How so?"
Silence meet her ears. She bit her lip.
"Has she... been coming on to you?"
He looked away his face definately turned red. Her fists balled up, pulling up some of the grass with them.
"s-She'll do... stuff like that... and then she'll start laughing at me or something."
Teasing. She was teasing him. Maybe. But this only made another question pop into her head. What did 'stuff' involve? Yey knowing Asuka she didn't have to ask. She already knew.
"I've asked her to stop... " he continued, "but you know how she is."
"How...how often does she do these things?" she asked tentatively.
"She's pretty random... and she only makes... these things... in certain situations. Like if we were to pass each other in the hallway or if I walked out of the bathroom right as she was going in. Since we live and work together... so...I can't avoid her.... umm... I just.... kinda watch out, in case... you know.... she tries it again."
She looked up at him. His eyes were cast elsewhere. A look of shame marked his features. He felt bad about it. He could have hidden what was happening from her. But he came clean. A testimate to his honor and his intergraty It was nothing he had been looking for. Nothing he sought out. Asuka was the one. It was all her. So what now? What options did she have? Perhaps.....
No. She couldn't do that. It's too early. She wasn't ready yet. Even though her body was starting to tell her otherwise. Oh, and the dreams she had been having. When she woke, the details of those dreams faded quickly. But the emotional bliss that came with them lingered on, hinting at the explicit nature of her nighttime imagenings. Maybe she could do some things. Nothing that went too far. It wasn't that she didn't want to them. It was... she was scared that once she started, she may not be able to stop.
She sighed at herself. At this rate she was going to turn into Kodama. And with those guys in the black suits watching Shinji, sooner or later anything they did would get back to her father. And she was sure that was all dad needed. It was bad enough with what Kodama did and she was pretty sure that dad wasn't completely oblivious to what was happening at home. She didn't think her father could deal with having two sexual dynamos in the house. Maybe that's why he slept at work as much as it did. To avoid the shame of a house full of sexually active daughters. She had to wonder what the hell was wrong with her family. There was only one possible explaination for the whole thing. Genetics. Maybe mom was like this too. She did manage to get herself pregnant four times.
So did she need to be more physically intimate with Shinji? Perhaps. But perhaps she also needed a 'Plan B.' Maybe something to discourage or distract Asuka from trying anything else with Shinji.
She looked at him carefully. She didn't like seeing him like that. It was always better when he smiled. So, she reached up and poked his cheek with her finger.
"It's ok."
"w-What?"
"It's not something you started."
"b-But..."
She shook her head silencing him.
"I think you are a good person Shinji. And I trust you."
He smiled softly. And so did she.
She craned her head around and looked at his wrist watch.
"Lunch lasts for about another five minutes So...."
"hmm?"
She smiled. "Get those fingers moving again."
Shinji chuckled and he was more than happy to comply.
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His shoes tapped lightly on the floor. It was thursday. And usually, angels allowing, he would spent those afternoons playing a round of Shougi with his former pupal. It was like a routine. Something he felt comfortable with. Which must be a sign of his advancing years. He didn't like to think of himself as old. But he was. He had already found himself falling into a life of consistency and scheduled repetition. Wake up, shower, eat, work, eat again and then return to an empty bed. An empty bed. He could curse Doctor Akagi for dredging up the memories that he had conditioned himself to forget. But it that really wasn't her fault. That was something of his own doing. And he did get what he deserved.At his age and with his disposition, the only company he could bring to his bed was the kind that was paid for. He hated the idea of doing that, but something he had even less love for, was loneliness. You know, if you pay enough not only can they take care of your desires, but they will be there when you wake up in the morning. Most men can't afford something like that, but when you don't have a family to take care of, you find you have the money for such indulgences.
Humans are such sad creatures. He remembered hearing someone say that once, a long time ago. And indeed he found that to be very true. He knew his share of sadness. Maybe that was why he allow himself to purchase a woman's company. And if anything, a prostitute understood sadness better than anyone.
There was a great commotion ahead, as the doors at the end of the hall burst open. He was nearly knocked over by a white blur. It took maybe but a second for him to identify the person as doctor. He reach out and took hold of her arm before she could get too far away.
"Doctor?" he asked quietly.
"Let go." she whispered without bothering to turn his way.
"What happened?"
"Please! j-Just l-let me go!"
Her head whipped around towards him, she was crying. Her mascara was running in thick black streaks down her face.
He let go. This was too familar. He thought of Mitsune. A girl who was lost and vulnerable. A person he gave comfort to when he was in a similar state. That one incident should have been just an awkward moment, not the start of a relationship. So being in that position again, scared him. Not that he should be. She didn't have any interest in him. And she never would, not when she was carrying another man's child. But in truth, even if it was possible that she could love him, he didn't think he could ever have another relationship like that. One that was based on filling an emotional emptiness.
He watched her disappear around the corner before he turned towards the door in which she had emerged.
He watched her disappear around the same corner that he had come from. He turned and looked at the door she had emerged and then back to where she had vanished. He sighed. He returned to his walk, although at a much slower pace. He opened the heavy wooden doors without knocking. He never had to, so he had little reason to stop now.
He was sitting at his desk, staring off to the side. He had hand his head proped up by one hand. He walked carefully up to the commander. He picked up an over turned chair that lay on his side of the room.
"So I take it she told you?"
Mechainically the commander's eyes turned his way.
"You knew?"
"She came to me seeking advice the other day." he acknowledged with a nod.
A look crossed his features that was mingle of disgust and exaspereration.
Kozo looked around the room a little. On the floor against the same wall that he had been staring at when he had entered, was a broken mug. He smiled briefly reading the words 'World's Greatest Dictator'. He remembered having that cup especially made for the younger man as a gag birthday gift, one year. What a shame, that cup had seen alot of use. Oh well, veterans die hard.
"Well?"
"Well, what?"
"What did you tell her?"
The younger man made a sound that was somewhere along the lines of a growl. That was his way of telling him to shut up. But with the way Ritsuko tore out of here it was more that obvious to how he reacted. He shhok his head.
The man in front of him had a family once and he threw it away. Now he had been given the chance to start again, to have another try. And he turned his back on her, and on his child to be. The two of them were so much alike. Both throwing away the happiness they had for a dream. But you can never take back some of your mistakes. If she could come back tomorrow what would Yui think of what he had done. How would Yui look at him for his crimes. Humans are such sad creatures. That was the thing she said to him a long time ago. He never understood how she could say such a thing at her age. Maybe it was because of the connections her family had to Seele. So yes, humans were sad creatures. Perhaps the saddest of all.
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Author's note: I know it's taken a while for this release, but I've had a few games taking up my time as is the wonderful world of graphic novels and manga. This chapter was released with chapter 11 as well since both are too short to really stand alone, but they are seperate because of the time that passes between each chapter. Either way I have something more light hearted for chapter 12. Or at least things I find funny.