Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction ❯ Darkness and Light ❯ Darkness and Light ( Prologue )

DARKNESS AND LIGHT

Disclaimers:

Neon Genesis Evangelion, Dividead, all related characters are owned by there respected owners. I DO NOT OWN THEM. I'm just using them for this second fusion-crossover story that I am writing. I am NOT making any money from the story, I'm doing this for fun, so don't bother suing me, I'm not loaded.

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Authors notes:

My spelling and grammar are not that great, so I'm using Microsoft Word for the spelling and the grammar. I am also using the converter that came with MS Word.

Even though I don't know the Authors names. Since they were cut from the fics I was reading. I would like to give credit to the few Authors who had / have some parts of the ideas that are present in the fic.

On with the Fic

Alone, cold, surrounded by darkness and the life support system on the verge of cutting out, Shinji Ikari huddled him self into a ball to keep warm, as a barely noticeable smile touched his lips.

; Soon; he thought about the predicament he was in and smiled to him self. ; Soon I'll be dead and no one will ever hurt me again;

He had lost all track of time since he fawned him self trapped with in the body of the Angel, not that time mattered to him any more, the blissfulness of being unconscious and dying was nearly upon him and soon he would be at peace. There would be no more pain, no more being used by others, or being driven into the ground, no one could use, or hurt him ever again. Soon the existence he hated so much would come to an end and he would be free from the word that hated and hurt him.

Even though it was getting hard and hard for him to breath the contaminated LCL liquid of the entry plug, Shinji continued smiling as he closed his eyes and surrendered to the darkness.

; No more pain, no more being hurt....;

["Of course you're not going to fell pain, for that mater you won't fell any thing else, you'll be dead."] Came a firm, deep voice from the dark reaches of his mind.

; Who...who said that?; asked Shinji with in the darkness of his own mind.

["I did."] Replied the deep voice.

; Who...who....;

["Who am I, Is that what you're trying to ask?"] Said the deep voice in amusement.

; Y...yes.; stuttered Shinji.

["I'm you, but not a part of the conches person you are. I exist, yet I don't exist in the real world. In short, I am the shadow of your self."]

; Huh...what does that mean??; asked Shinji in puzzlement.

["It means that I am every thing you are not. Where you are afraid of getting hurt, I won't hesitate for a single moment to return the pain ten times over. Where you just exist and let every one use you as they see fit, I want to live a full life with out bowing down to any one, or taking any ones bullshit...."]

;You...you are my...my dark self....you are evil.; stuttered Shinji

A deep laughter of amusement echoed through out the darkness. ["Ooh, you are just to much."] said the voice, still chuckling. ["You don't understand a thing, yet here you are passing judgment and calling me evil."] suddenly the chuckling stopped and the voice once again became firm. ["No Shinji, I'm not evil, however, I am the person who was never allowed to exist in the real world, because of you and the shity choices you made in that pathetic existence you called a life."]

;I....I'm sorry.; whispered Shinji.

["When all else fails Shinji apologizes, like that's going to make every thing better."] said the voice in disgust. ["I had spent more then enough time listening to your self pity, and that music you listen to constantly, I mean come on , I like opera, but you, you just don't know when to give it a rest with the pore, sad, unwanted Shinji......"]

;You don't know any thing.; snapped Shinji. ;You don't have to live out there in the real....;

["You are the one who didn't want me to have any part of the real world.] shouted the voice. [You are the one who chose to be nothing more then a sad and pitiful person. You are the one who chose to let people trample all over you and then you start crying, they hurt me, of course they're going to hurt you, you moron, you let them hurt you. That part that would have stood up to those who hurt you is locked up here with in me, in this darkness, where you should have been locked up, you spineless......"]

;Then why don't you take over and leave me here?; should Shinji.

["Because I can't."] the voice shouted back. ["You lived far to long as you are, there simply isn't any room for me to exist, but that's going to change very soon."]

;W...what do you mean?; asked Shinji in an uneasy voice.

["Soon you're going to be dead, and we get to go our separate ways."]

;Then...you're not here to stop me from dying?; asked a stunned Shinji.

["Hell no."] replied the voice from the darkness. ["I'm here to keep you company until you kick the bucket, then it's sayonara Shinji, I can't say that I'll miss you or your pathetic existence, I seriously doubt that you'll miss me...."]

;Wait, wait a minute.; Shinji cut him off. ;If I die, that...that means you will die as well.;

A loud clapping sounded from the darkness. ["I'm impressed, you actually figured it out."] said the voice in a pleased tone. [With you dead, I get to be free....."]

<"Or both of you could live, and become more as one person then two separate entities that exist at the moment."> sounded a soft caring voice.

;Who...who are you?; asked Shinji timidly.

["You mean you don't recognize your own mothers voice? You are pathetic."] said the growing voice in disgust.

;Mother!?; said Shinji in astonishment.

<"Yes my little Shinji, I am here, I was always here."> replied Yui in her soft caring voice. <I was always here....">

["You're to late mother."] snapped the voice. ["The body is nearly dead, there's no way he can awaken. Soon I'll be free from him, you and that piece of shit Rugabangi....."]

<"Alone he cannot awaken from the deep sleep, but with you merged, and part of him as the whole person, the awakening is p......">

["I hate to burst your bobble mom, but there isn't enough room for me to exist. Even if there were enough room, there's no way in hell I would want to merge with him and simply exist. I'll gladly take oblivion over that pathetic......"]

;Don't yell at my mother.; shouted Shinji. ;Don't you ever at her again, or.....;

["Or what? What are you going to do about it?"] challenged the voice.

;Huh!!??; muttered Shinji.

["There's nothing you can do here, you dumb shit, this is not a physical realm, there are no bodies to be hurt. In the near death state of existence, where ones suppressed personality becomes sentient entity, with it's own mind and desires. The only way we can hurt one another is with words, nothing ....."]

<"Time is of the essence, the body is nearing the point of no return."> warned Yui in a soft voice. <"The two of you must agree to merge if you are to survive....">

["We've been through that already mom."] growled the voice in anger. ["There isn't room, and I don't want to merge with....."]

<"I will make the room needed for the two of you to merge into one being."> reassured Yui. <I must have both of your answers, time grows very short and the body is weakening fast.">

;I...; began Shinji. ;I....will agree.;

["I don't agree."] boomed the voice.

<"Why?"> asked Yui with a deep concern. <"Why will you not agree? Has your hate of him made you so blind, that you would rather face oblivion then save him and your....">

["Hate is just a small part, but it have no relevance at the moment. Come sense on the other hand has a grate deal of relevancy."] the deep voice cut her off. ["With him blaming him self for your death, and every thing else that happens to go wrong in the words, will trap me in a existence far worse then any oblivion could. I will not allow my self to become a prisoner so that he could live, and return to his pathetic existence he calls a life."]

<"When the two of you are merged into the one being, neither of you will have any memories of my death. There well be no memories of a father who abandoned you. That life will be physically purged, the child you were will be gone for.....">

;But....I...I don't want to forget you mother.; protested Shinji. ;I want to remember.....;

<"That is no longer possible my son."> Yui said sadly.

;Why mother?; Shinji cried out. ;Why won't you let me remember....;

<"You are one of the key components in both SEELES and Gandous scenarios."> Yui stated in a firm tone. <"With out you as the second most important key component, neither SELLES Instrumentality of Men Project or Gandous Human Complementary Project can be achieved.....">

["What exactly are this so called projects?"] asked the deep voice with a grate deal of interest. ["And how exactly douse he fit into the....."]

;I don't care how I fit in the projects.; Shinji cried out. ;I don't want what little memories I have of my mother to be taken....;

["Shut the fuck up with your....."]

;I will not shut up.; Shinji snapped back. ;You can't make me do anything.;

["How true."] came a calm reply. ["But at the same time you can't do shit. In short you'll die like the useless piece of ..."]

<"THAT IS ENOUGH FROM THE BOLTH OF YOU."> Boomed Yuis voice, immediately the two of them stopped arguing and an uneasy silence followed. <"There isn't much time left, so both of you remain quiet and listen to the explanations."> She said with urgency in her voice. <"To begin with, the Instrumentality of Men is the scenario SEELE is following, and should it happen that it is fulfilled half of humanity will be destroyed, and the remanding half will merge into one perfect being capable of passing through Heavens Gates and challenge God him self. The Complementation of Men is Gandous scenario, in this particular scenario all of human kind will be dissolve into L.C.L, the essence of the minds and souls will be merged together into one existence for all times.">

; E...every one will...will die; stuttered Shinji in horror. ; That...that's.... madness.;

["As much as I hate to admit it, I have to agree with him. SEELE and Gandou are completely whacked out"] said the deep voice. "[I mean this is really screwed. On one hand there's SEELE who want this perfect being so they can challenge God, on the other hand we have Gandou who wants to turn humanity into a oceans of spit and slam every soul together into one big fucken orgy, either way every one dies. Personally I believe all of SEELE and Gandou should be locked up in a nice padded room with equally nice white restraining jackets, and the room should be thrown away."]

;My father is completely insane.; whispered Shinji.

["The dude is definitely a basket case."] the deep voice agreed. ["It's a good thing death's going to solve that problem for the two of...."]

<"Or both of you can merge into one being, and implement the third scenario."> stated Yui.

;Huh!!??; mattered Shinji.

["No thank you, I don't want to challenge God, nor do I want to join the big orgy. My choose is oblivion....."]

<"The third scenario has nothing to do with the first two."> Yui cut him off. <"The third scenario deals with the creation of a being that will become a bridge between Mankind and Heaven. The being would have the potential to do grate good and a equal potential to do grate violence."> saying that she stopped for a moment, expecting a question or two to be asked, when no questions were asked, Yui continued. <"The being would have to be born of humanity, with the willingness to except the flesh of a Angel with in.....">

["Well that leaves me out of the picture."] stated the deep voice. ["I am just a sentient entity, a shadow of what the duffer here might have been, had he made different choices."]

;I...I am not a duffer.; protested Shinji.

["You're absolutely right, you are not a duffer."] said the deep voice. [You're a fucken waist of oxygen, a useless idiot that doesn't deserve to live....."]

;And you think you have the right to live.; Shinji shot back.

["I never had any kind of rights, you fucken idiot."] snapped the deep voice. ["You took away every possible right away from me when you made your pathetic choices, and locked me up in the darkness part of that crater you call a brain, never to see the light of day, so you could became whatever pitiful and sorry thing you are...."]

<"THAT IS ENOUGH."> boomed Yuis firm voice.

["NOT BY A LONG SHOT."] the deep voice snapped back. ["I'll say my peace before we permanently part company, and I'll be damned if I'm going to listen to the likes of a mother who placed her work before her own child......"

;DON'T YOU EVER TALK TO OUR MOTHER LIKE THAT.; shouted Shinji.

["GO FUCK YOUR SELF, YOU SPINLESS...."] suddenly the deep voice fell silent for a few moments. When it spoke once again it was calm and filled with curiosity. ["Word for word, repeat what you said?"]

; Uhu..I...I said don't talk to our mother like that.; replied Shinji, with a grate deal of puzzlement at the unexpected question.

["I thought, I heard you right."] said the deep voice in a somewhat pleased tone. ["I'm surprised you didn't say,*MY MOTHER*, this time."]

;Huh...I...we...we are...in some way the same person, she...she is a mother....to the both of us.; said Shinji timidly. ;I am sorry.....;

["You were doing so damn good, then you just have to screw it up by apologizing."] said the deep voice in disappointment.

;I...I am sorry."

["Hopeless."] growled the deep voice. ["Lost fucken case....."]

;But...I...I didn't mean....;

["Now what the hell are you apologizing for?"]

;I...I don't know.;

["Figures."]

<"If I didn't know better, I would say the two of you were in fact brothers."> said Yui chuckling.

["Except we're not brothers, we're the same person, just different personalities, one that is and one that never had a chance."] stated the deep voice.

<"Then it is time to change what was to what will be."> said Yui in a serious tone. <"For the two of you to become more then you are, both of you must merge and be reborn into a single being, a being who will have a new chance at life, with out the past being a constant factor....">

;But I don't want to forget you.; protested Shinji.

<"It is the only way you and your other self will survive, it is the only way for you and him to become the being the third scenario would bring in to life."> whispered Yui in a soft caring tone. <"Already the two criteria needed are present, the first is a being born of humanity, the body that is dying was born from a human. To posses the ability of doing great good and great violence is also present.....">

["Except we're fresh out of Angel flesh."] stated the deep voice.

;Uh mom, he's right you know.; agreed Shinji.

<"Even as we speak, I have already opened the entry plug for the needed genetic materials from the Angel with in who's body you are in to fill the entry plug, the same genetic material that is being fused with the body.">

;WHAT!!??; came Shinjis shocked voice.

["Angel D.N.A is fusing with the human DNA In other words the body is becoming something completely different."]

<"Yes, the body is becoming much more then it was, however, that will be of no consequence if the two separate personalities refuse to merge into one being."> replied Yui. <"The two of you must agree to allow the merger to take place.">

;I..I agree.; replied Shinji. ;But I don't want to loss all my memories of......;

<"Certain memories I will leave be, but when they resurface, they will be images that will have completely different meaning.....">

;I don't want to loss any memories of you mother.; Shinji cried out.

["There's barley any memories of you to begin with, now you want to take what little there is..."]

<"As much as it pains me to lose my son, it must be done. For the two of you to merge and become the being of the third scenario, to have a second chance at living a life of your choosing, the pain from the past must be eliminated as a factor."> she whispered sadly. <"But know this, I will be a part of the being, all the knowledge I posses will be a part of the being you will become.">

["Huh??"] muttered the deep voice.

;I...I don't understand.; said Shinji.

<"When the time comes you will understand."> reassured Yui. <"The immediate concern is more important, both of you remember this above all else. Where one will be out of control and the one who brings of chaos, the other will be the balance to bring about the needed control and order, where one will be restless, the other will be the calm, where one will be hate, the other will be caring. A balance between the two of you will come into existence and you will become the single being that was meant to be. The needed genetic material from the Angels body is merging and creating new D.N.A strands and rewriting the old D.N.A with in every cell of the dying body, the changes are already beginning to take place, there is no more time to waist. Now the two of you will be merged and reborn into one being.">

;MOTHER....;

["MOM....."]

<Farewell my one and complete child, when next we meet one another, it will be a new beginning where you will be much more then a complete person.">

With those words the two separated entities dark world exploded in to a bright blinding light.

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"All the N2-mines with in the Angles shadow are active and ready to detonate, Eve-00 and Eve-02 are holding there positions and awaiting further orders." Maya stated.

"The operation will commence in T-minus 90 seconds and counting." Ritsuko replied staring up at the counter on the main monitor with her usual detached expression.

"Why did you do it Shinji?" Misato whispered sadly, slowly lowered her gaze from the main monitor, wandering why he had rushed head first to confront the Angel. One single reason rushed through her mind. ;It's my fault, I should have been more stricture with him, if I didn't let the discipline slid, he wouldn't be in this situation.... he wouldn't.; closing her eyes tightly, she felt the tiers pressing up against the inside of her eyelids. ;There must be some thing....;

"T-minus 30 seconds to detonation." Came Mayas voice, snapping Misato out of her thoughts.

The sudden realization that she would more then likely loss one of the few people she really cared about, struck her hard. It was the second time in her life, Misato Katsugari felt a sense of utter helplessness, all she could do was bear witness to the immanent death of her word, a boy she had come to care about allot more then she would admit.

Ritsuko nodded her head in her usual detached manner. "Detonation will commence on my...."

"What the hell???" came Hayugas surprised voice as the computer display in from of him sparked to life. "This can't be." he said aloud as his eyes widening more. "It...it's powering..."

"What seems to be the problem Mr. Hayuga?" demanded Ritsuko.

"Eve-01 is powering up, the signal is coming in clear...."

"That's impossible, the Unit's been out of power for twelve hours." stated Ritsuko in her calm scientific tone. "Recheck the readings."

"I've already checked and rechecked the data." replied Hayuga. Shacking his head in disbelief. "Impossible as it is, Eve-01 is powering it self......"

"Misato some thing's happening to the Angel." boomed Asukas over the intercom. "The Angel looks like it's buckling on one side."

"Asuka hold your position." commanded Misato. "Don't go near the...."

"WHAT THE HELL????" screamed Asuka in shock and horror.

Fear surged through every fiber of Misatos being. "Asuka, Rei pull....."

"Two more patterns are confirmed with in the Eve." yelped Maya.

"Identify the patterns." commanded Ritsuko.

Maya shuck her head. "Patterns are merging with the Pilots pattern, I cannot distinguish them at....."

"What in the name of...." shrieked Asuka in terror as a tear appeared in the shadow and along the Angels zebra striped body, in a mater of moment the tear crossed the whole diameter of the sphere.

"All sensors and gauges are going off the scale!!! Eva-01's power levels have spiked beyond all possibility of the MAGIS measurements." Maya gasped in utter terror. "The Unit is fighting it's way....my...God, what is that...that thing!!??"

The Eves massive right arm punched through the side of the Angels body and quickly withdrew back in to the sphere as blood spewed like a stream out of the gaping wound. A moment later both of the Eves massive arms came out of the wound, grasping firmly on to the sides of the blood poring opening. With a single violent pull the wound ripped wide open, reveling the blood covered colossal form of EVA-01, yet that wasn't what drove utter horror in to all whom stood witness.

The primal rage with in the glowing red eyes of Eva-01 burned with a purpose.

"May God have mercy on us all." Ritsuko mattered to her self, as she stood at her control council her eyes frozen on the monitor where the carnage played it self-out.

Around her many of the teaches were abandoning there posts and ran out of the command room in terror, others simply dropped to the metal floor whimpering, there eyes filled with a horror above all horrors

"Is that...that thing what I'm piloting??" Asuka cried out in terror at the shire gore, yet she couldn't help but look at the rage glowing eyes. Some thing in the red orbs of rage made the feeling she held deep with in her stir, well beyond the terror she felt, there were feelings long buried and forgotten coming to the serfs of her being. The first to make it self-clear was a feeling of true respect. The second feeling took even Asuka by surprise more then the first, it was a feeling she would never admit having for any one. For the first time she felt that those raging eyes could truly understand the person she is, the person she wouldn't let any one else even take a glimpse at, she would willingly let those red glowing orbs look in to her very soul.

For Rei Ayanami the sight of the raging eyes became just as mesmerizing, feeling she barely comprehended stirred with in her. The utter loneliness she lived with constantly, shattered suddenly and for a brief moment, she no longer felt alone, she no longer felt expendable and easily replaced. In those raging eyes she was a person, a very special person. She know her self to be very special to Gendou Ikari, she was his tool to be used at the appointed time, then she would be nothing more then a discarded tool. To Shinji she was a friend, but in those glowing red eyes she was so much more then a special tool and a friend, in those mesmerizing eyes she was a real person, a person with a special bond.

As Eve-01 leaped out of the decaying body of the Angel, the spell it held the two pilots under was broken, yet the stirring feeling with in Asuka and Rei continued to stir.

Landing on the now soled shadow of the Angel. The raging Unit slammed its right open palm on the ground with a force that shattered the shadow into thousands of little fragments as it brought its red glowing eyes on the descending remains of the Angels now black deformed sphere that was the body. It rose up from its crouching position, the left arm shot up grabbing on to the remainder of the body, its sealed mouth opened wide and a unearthly howl of victory echoed through out the city of Tokyo-3. Once the remainders of the Angels body were crashed. Eve-01 collapsed on to the ground, the raging red glow in its eyes fading away as the last of the Units power was depleted and the last of the glow in the eyes faded away. The back opened and the entry plug unscrewed it self out of the neck.

Regaining conciseness, the young boy coughed a few times as the contaminated LCL liquid was drained from the plug. Coughing the remainder of the liquid out of his lungs, he opened his eyes slowly and before him he saw a figure, it was that of a female, behind her a bright blinding light, giving the form a fragile and angelic appearance. In a state of uncertainty and confusion, the young boy could only manage to whisper.

"I must be dead."

"Shinji!" cried out a worried voice from the figure with in the light.

The blinding light suddenly disappeared as the phantom form before him turned into a purple hair woman. He felt her warm hand gently come on the side of his face. "Wh...."

"God, I thought we lost you." Misato cried out taking him into her tight embrace as tiers appeared at the corner of her eyes and slowly streamed down her cheeks and onto his chest. "You're alright, you're alright....."

"Misato." Came a voice behind her.

"What is it Asuka?"

Holding one of the two flashlights Asuka moved the light over the inside of the entry plug and shattered in fear. "Misato you better take a look around you."

Narrowing her tier filled eyes, Misato loosened her tight embrace slightly and looked around the entry plug. Her eyes immediately widened in terror.

The inside of the entry plug was a mess of shattered monitors with indents of fists of Shinjis clinched fists, the metal behind the monitors was warped and twisted. The two butterfly handles that made up the Eves primary controls had been ripped out and indebted into the metal at the sides, the smooth metal serfs of the control seat had been torn to shreds by what looked like inhuman claws.

"Ikari-kun, what was in here with you?" asked Rei in her monotone voice.

It was then that realization struck Misato, she was afraid, very afraid. "Nothing human could have possibly done this kind of damage." she whispered to her self, knowing very the shire brute force needed to twist and rip metal could only be done by a machine or some mater of creature.

"So...fucken...tiered.....want to.....sleep." Came a very exhausted, growing voice from the nearly unconscious boy in her arms, his eye lids closed and every thing around him disappeared in to the darkness of a blissful sleep.

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Uncertain of how loge he had been unconscious for, he forced his eyes open and just as quickly closed them as the light of the lamp on the small night table brought on a sudden pain. ;Fuck, that hurts.; he thought to him self, his left arm shot out from under the cover, a moment later the small lamp was shattered. Forcing his eyes open halfway, he carefully looked around the near dark and very unfamiliar room, a slight growl escaped his lips. ;Where the hell am?; he asked him self, just as another question popped in his head. ;For that mater who the hell am......;

At that instant a number of images flashed in front of him. "Shit." he hissed, grabbed the sides of his head as the bombardment of images continued. "What the hell is this??" he asked him self as he seen images of a timed little boy standing on a catwalk, in front of him a giant one horn robot.

*"You must pilot Unit-01." boomed a cold authority filled voice in his mind.*

The image changed to a bearded man with glasses, looking down at the catwalk from an observation booth and once again. The Mans voice boomed in his mind.

*"If you will not pilot, then I have no use for you."*

"Who the fuck is this asshole?" growled the boy, clinched his teeth in pain. "Better yet, who am I?"

*"Shinji, you have to pilot." sounded a woman's voice.*

An image of a purple hair woman flashed in front of him and once again her voice echoed in his mind.

*"If you don't pilot all of us will die."*

"Shinji....Shinji...Ikari." the boy said to him self. "That's my name, but who's the woman with the purple....."

*"Fuytsuki awaken Rei, the replacement pilot is useless." boomed the bearded mans cold authority filled voice.*

"Rei!!??" Shinji whispered to him self just as an image of a blue hair girl wrapped in bandages being whiled in on a stretcher flashed in before him. "Rei, she's familiar....no, not just familiar, more then that...much more." desperately his own mind began to associate words with the blue hair girl. ;Flesh.... blood....;

The image of the blue hair girl disappeared, and was replaced by an image of a flame hair girl.

*"I am the best Eve pilot, remember that idiot Shinji."*

Once again the image changed, this time he saw the red headed girl in a fit of rage slapping a scrawny little boy.

*"Stupid little pervert."*

"That scrawny little boy." he whispered to him self in surprise. "That's...me."

Less then impressed by the images of being abused by the red headed girl, Shinji let out an angry growl.

"Who is that...that bitch......"

With the image changing from the violent red headed girl to a blond headed woman, Shinji suddenly found him self very uneasy with the particular image of a cold and calculating woman wearing a lab coat.

*"You shouldn't run away." boomed the blond headed woman's even voice in his mind.*

"Run away from what?" he asked him self.

As if to answer his question. Another image flashed in front of him. He saw a number of aircraft flying over a colossal shadow that engulfed a very large aria of a city. The image changed once again to the air crafts and the what they were doing, Shinjis uneasiness slowly turned to anxiety, just as sudden his eyes widened and fear surged through him, the sight of bombs being dropped into the shadow made the fear even more intent.

"Why the hell would that frighten me?" he asked him self in puzzlement and grabbed the sides of his head as the images began shifty fast once again.

The image of him with in some sort of a cockpit, the image changed to the giant purple robot, then the colossal shadow, then to the air craft dropping the bombs, when the image changed for the last time, it focused on the blond headed woman giving commands.

*"The operation will commence in T-minus 90 seconds and counting." boomed the blond headed woman's detached voice.*

"What operation?" he asked him self as the fear with in him rose, he immediately recalled the image of him being in a cockpit, the giant robot, the shadow and the aircraft dropping the bombs with in the shadow. "She can't be serious!!??" he said to him self in terror.

The image of the blond headed woman nodding her head in a completely detached manner flashed in front of him, and once again her cold and calculating voice boomed in his mind.

*"Detonation will commence on my...."*

"Detonation!!??" he shrieked in terror. "That bitch wants to kill Me." ignoring the fading images, he jumped out of the bead, took a quick look around him. Seeing a barley noticeable beam of light come from a small opening in the curtains. He jumped over the bead and very carefully moved the curtain, just enough so he could see. The sight of the cites bright lights and the full moon hanging over the city was more then enough for him to realize that he was in a building, five floors up.

"Oh this is just grate." he grumbled to him self, moved away from the window, only to stop where he was and narrowed his eyes into tiny slits. "The window is closed, the door is closed, and I fell a draft." hesitantly he looked him self over and sighed. "No wander I fell a draft, I'm butt necked." rising his head, he once again looked around him.

The closed door directly in front on him caught his undivided attention, with out a second thought he rushed over and grabbed to door handle, immediately he shattered as images flashed in front of him.

The first image was of a hallway with a few nurses and two Doctors walking, the image of two large men in dark blue suits with sunglasses, and ear-pieces standing at the sides of the door, made him back away from the door very quickly.

"Not good." he whispered to him self, glanced to his right at the second closed door.

Moving over to the door, he braised him self, and carefully placed his hand on the handle. When nothing happened, he exhaled in relief and opened the door. The first thing that meet him was darkness, on instinct he reached to the left and found the switch, with out any hesitation, he switched on the light and narrowed his eyes as he looked around the brightly lit room. "The bathroom." he growled, walked inside and quickly locked it, stepped in front of the mirror and for the first time had good look at him self. "This is me?" he said to him in surprise, pulled his head back as an image of an underdeveloped, scrawny little boy with short hair flashed in front of him. "That can't be right, or could it?" carefully he examined his own facial features, as he kept the image of the scrounge boy in his mind. Sure enough the face was identical, but that was where the similarities ended.

Where the scrawny boy had straight short hair, Shinji had long, spiky hair going down to the middle of his back.

Where the boys' features were timed and filled with uncertainty, Shinjis face was unreadable.

Where the boy was scrawny and underdeveloped, Shinjis body structure was that of an athlete, a sleekly built, with well defined muscles, his high was also a facet, the scrawny boy was short, Shinji for his part stood at five feet and seven inches.

Still staring in the mirror, Shinji narrowed his eyes and shuck his head. "No, I am not him, and he is not me, yet we are part of one another." suddenly he flinch, his eyes immediately filled with puzzlement as he recalled what had happened when he touched the first door handle. "I touched the door handle and seen every thing out side the room. How the hell did I do that? For that mater how did I know where the lamp was when I didn't even see it with my eyes, yet I know where it...."

Hearing the outer door opening, he quickly unlocked the bathroom door, switched off the light and with out making a sound opened it enough so he could see what was happening. Seeing the bright light flood into the near dark room. Squinting his eyes and continued watching.

An older, gray hair man in a lab coat walked in and let the door close behind him, reached for the light. Before the older man could switch on the light. Shinji was already out of the bathroom, his right open palm slammed against the back of the older mans head as his left hand covered the mans mouth, drowning out the cry that would have followed.

"Don't worry old man you won't die, you'll be out for a few hours." he whispered, gently placing the unconscious man on the cold floor, Shinji stood up measured the unconscious man with his eyes and nodded his head. "You'll do even when you're a little plump, not that it maters at the moment." with out another word Shinji striped off the unconscious mans shoes, pants, lab coat and shirt.

Dressing him self, in the dark brown trousers, white shirt and black shoes, Shinji narrowed his eyes, reached into the back pocket and pulled out a rather tick black wallet. Opening it he looked through it, seeing only fifty dollars among a dozen credit cards, he sighed. "Allot of good the cards will do me." he mattered to him self, took out the fifty dollars and proceeded to toss the wallet on the unconscious mans chest, when he stopped and on a strange instinct, crouched down and placed his right hand on the unconscious mans head.

Immediately he gasped as numbers flashed in his mind followed by each of the twelve cards, the last card that flashed in his mind was pin number belonging to an NERV expense account, followed by two words. *Unlimited Funds.*

Pulling his hand away, he placed the wallet back in the pocket and smiled. "I should be felling guilty, but for some resin, I just can't bring my self to fell a ounce of guilt, then again my life is on the line." Standing to his feet, he moved to the door and once again placed his hand on the handle, as he expected images flashed in front of him, but this time the images were that of the two men in dark blue suits. Immediately his reflexes kicked in, the door swung open, he stepped over the threshold, his right lag shot up directly towards the man standing to the doors right. The moment his heal connected with the mans temple, he snapped his lag back as a muffled groan sounded from the dazed blue suit man. An instant later, his right leg was on the ground, just as the second man turned his head only to be meet by a fist in the face, followed by a vicious open palm blow to the side of the head, just as the crumpling man reached into his suit. Shinjis right hand reached in the muscular mans suit and took holed of a cold metal object. His mind immediately registered the object he grabbed as a very dangerous thing, but there was no time for him to analyze the object, he had to act fast before the situation at hand went out of his control. With out wasting another moment. He pulled out the object and spun around just as the first man regained some of his senses and reached into his suit. Only to have the metal object in Shinjis hand slammed hard against the side of his head, blood spurted out of the stunned mans mouth as his head snapped to the side. Shinji didn't wait to see the first man crumple to the tiled floor face first. His attention was already on the wobbly second man holding his broken nose. With out a moment wasted, Shinji swung the metal object once again, and sure enough it connected with the side of second mans head. This time he saw a gash open on the side of the wobbly mans head as blood began to pore out and the man began to crumple. Shinji grabbed him by the neck and tossed him through the half closed door, taking only a moment to see the door open fully once again, he moved over to the first man grabbed him by the lag, and drugged him into the room, releasing the mans leg. He glanced at the door as it began to close it self.

Once it was closed, Shinji blinked, his eyes widened slightly at the realization of just how fast he had moved, and the strength with in his body that was increasing with every move he had exsiccated.

"Okay, so I'm fast, and I get stronger, I suppose it's normal." he said to him self, glanced at the three unconscious men and blinked once. "Who the hell am I kidding, they didn't even see it.....I don't have time for this." forcing him self to dismiss all the questions roaming around in his mind, he looked at the metal object in his right hand and raised an eyebrow slightly. "A gun." he said to him self. "A special issue semi-automatic. 9 millimeter, 20 rounds in a clip." flinching at the sudden knowledge coming from him self, Shinji ran his left hand over his face. "Aside from being able to see through closed doors. Seeing in peoples heads for there pin number. Having very fast reflexes, and strength to go with it. I have a very messed up brain that's just filled with information, yet I have very few memories of my past, my distant past I can't recall anything, and the worse thing of all I'm constantly talking to my self. I'm definitely out there some where, a well." shrugging his shoulders. He moved over to the first man in the dark blue suit, striped the suit off, and took the shoulder holster with the weapon and five extra ammunition clip holder. Quickly he placed the holster on him self, moved over to the second man, striped the shoulder holster off him and placed it on him self. Placing the gun back in the holster, he looked at him self and scowled at the sight of two guns and ammunition clips under his armpits.

;I can't go out looking like this, I'll definitely draw allot of attention on my self.; he thought to him self, glanced at the floor where a dark blue suit lay, picking it up, he downed it on him self. ;It's a little big, but it definitely hides the guns.; moving over to the first unconscious man. He quickly frisked him, finding the wallet, Shinji examined the content. Finding a substantial amount of money and no credit cards, he pocketed the money, moved over to the next man. Finding a very substantial amount of money and a NERV expense account, he placed his hand on the mans head and sure enough the pin number flashed in his mind followed by two worlds that made him smile brightly. *Unlimited Funds.*

;Perfect." jumping to his feet, Shinji moved over to the bead, took holed of the blanket and ripped it into strips, a few moments later he hog tied the three men securely. ;That should give me more then enough time, before the others fined you three.;

Moving to the door he once again placed his hand on the handle and watched as images flashed in his mind. A nurse was at the station and she seemed to be writing up some sort of a report, the closest exit was just five doors in the opposite direction from the station, other then that the rest of the floor was clear. Allowing him self a smile, he quietly opened the door and very carefully ripped the inside door handle off. Keeping the door open, he placed the ripped door handle on the floor of the room, moved outside the room and closed the door just as quietly. Hearing a click from the door, he quickly shot a glance at the nurses' station and waited for a moment. When he was sure that it had gone unnoticed, Shinji took holed of the door handle and attempted to open the door, when it refused to open, he allowed him self a grin. Turning away from the station, he quickly made his way to the fifth door where a brightly-lit exit was placed. Opening it, he moved out of the hallway and carefully closed the door. With that accomplished he moved down the flights of stairs as fast as he could with out making any kind of sound.

Reaching the main floor, he placed his hand on the last door and waited for a moment, when no images flashed in front of him, Shinji didn't waist a moment in exiting the Hospital building, half way down the street, he walked up to a some what uneasy man.

"Excuse me sir." he said politely. Watching the uneasy man carefully. "Could you tell me what time it is, and what time do the department stores close?"

Hesitantly the man looked at his watch. "It's 8:15 p.m., as to the department stores, they are open till 10:00."

Shinji bowed slightly and smiled. "Thank you very much, and have a pleasant evening sir."

"You are welcome." replied the older man watching Shinji disappeared down the street and shuck his head. "Kids this days, don't have any sense of style or fashion."

-*-

It had been two full weeks of running one test after another on the Third Child. Now that she had gathered all the available data and examined then reexamined the puzzling data extensively. Ritsuko Akagi couldn't understand what had happened to the Third child, and how it happened. It was a puzzle she was determined to unravel but that was some thing she would have to do later. At the moment she was summand to the commanders office with all the findings she had available. Even though most of the data was unresolved the Commander didn't want to wait any longer. Annoyed as she was with his demanding attitude on the particular mater, Ritsuko didn't have any choice but to obey.

Placing the last few pieces of paper in the folder, she got up from her desk and made her way to the Commanders office. After knocking on the office door, she didn't wait for Gandou to say enter, instead she walked in, moved in front of the desk and placed the folder in front of the unmoved Commander.

Ignoring his lack of reaction and the puzzled face of Sub-Commander Kozo, she turned the lap top on the desk around, keyed in a few commands and turned it to face NERV Commander.

Calmly Gandou glanced at the laptop screen and narrowed his eyes slightly at the sight of a silkily athletic built boy, with long black spiky hair lying on an examination table.

"This was recorded yesterday, when I was preparing him for the C.A.T scan, as you can see, his growth has stabilized, it is no longer out of control as it was during the first twelve days." stated Ritsuko and took a deep breath. "His body structure and muscle tone are perfection it self. A silkily athletic built for incredible speed and brutal strength. How and why the phenomenon occurred is still unclear. The tests I had run on the Evangelion Unit-01 do not revile any kind of anomalies. With the exception of the entry plug that was decimated from the inside, yet even the damage that was done could not had possibly been done by the Third Child. Most of the damage did not match his physical structure at the time, however, the body structure he possesses now, is a perfect match with the damage. Once again it is unexplainable how it happened with in the entry plug, since the pilot did not posses the particular body structure at the time, the D.N.A I couldn't even begin to examine. The D.N.A begins to brake down moments after the blood samples are taken from the Third Child, it's as if the body will not allow the blood to be examined." she explained and moved her gaze over Gandous unreadable face before continuing. "The C.A.T scans reviled that his entire brain and cortex are fully active, even though he is in a coma, there is not a single part of his brain that is not active. In short Shinji Ikari is the most advance human being in existence but there is a downside."

Gendaou narrowed his eyes slightly. "Explain Doctor?"

Behind the Commanders seat, and away from Ritsukos attention Sub-Commander Fuytsuki shattered in fear at what he had heard so far. ;The boy, could it be that he.....;

"His long term memory was deliberately and very carefully eradicated. There are fragments remaining, except there is no way of knowing what the memory fragments are, also, there is no possible way for him to regain any kind of memories. He doesn't have a single memory of his childhood." explained Ritsuko.

Fuytsuki felt a cold shiver go up the entire length of his spine. ;It has happened exactly as it was explained in the Dead Sea Scrolls.; he thought to him self with a growing fear surging through his old body, he glanced down at Gandou siting ever so calmly in the chair. ;I wander if you truly understand what had taken place Ikari, or are you too blind and centered on your one and only goal to see it?;

For just a moment in time an uneasy frown touched Gandous face, and just as quickly disappeared as he once again became the cold and calculating Commander of NERV. "Where is the Third Child at the moment?"

"After the examinations and the tests, I had him returned to the same room in the medical word with the two security personnel." replied Ritsuko somewhat uneasy about the Commanders question.

"Very well Doctor." said Gandou, glanced up at the uneasy blond-headed woman. "As of this moment you are not to revile a single thing about the Third Child to any one, he is classified and on need to know basses only. That will be all Doctor."

With out a word , Ritsuko merrily gave him and the Sub-Commander a nod and exited the Commanders office.

Once the door closed, Kozo spoke. "Ikari, she had described your son as the Divine Child, the bridge between Humanity and the Heavens, the third possible scenario that is with in the Dead Sea Scrolls, how did it happen?"

"It would seem the Third Child had undergone the process successfully during his time with in the Angel. Now he is reborn in to the most advance human on the planet. The Divine Child, the bridge between Humanity and the Heavens." said Gandou placed his hands in front of his mouth, looked down at the yellow folder in front of him with worry in his cold eyes. ;Why my Yui? Why did you do it? Why did you make him uncontrollable, when I need him the most?;

"How will this affect your scenario Ikari?" asked Kozo in a disturbed tone and thought to him self. ;Considering that the third scenario had already produced the Devin Child, and both yours and SEELE scenarios are barely on the way, I would have to conclude that your scenario is nothing more then a.....;

"The scenario was changed before, it will be changed again to incorporate the Third Child's sudden change." replied Gandou in a calm and collective tone. "For the moment my friend. I need you to keep Major Katsuragi, the second child and every other unessential personnel from the Third Child. I will also need you to pick the best security officers and have them posted at the Hospital this very night."

;You are just too blind to see that your scenario is nothing but a wishful dream Ikari.; sadly Fuytsuki shuck his head. "I will get right on It." he said, made his way towards the door.

"Three more things Fuyutsuki." said Gandou, looked up with a cunning smirk on his lips, as a plan formed in his devious mind. "Have the Third Child kept under constant sedation, have restrains placed on him and authorize the security personnel to use deadly force."

Horror surged through every fiber of Fuytsukis body. "Ikari what are you doing?" he asked in a horrified tone. "Is it really necessary for such drastic......"

"It is best to deal with a small inconvenience, before it becomes a major problem."

Fuytsuki narrowed his eyes. "And what of Unit-01. Who will pilot it?"

"The Dummy Plugs are more then sufficient, should the need arise."

Kozo swallowed in a dry throat. "Ikari you are playing with fire." he warned, the fear in his eyes more then noticeable. "The Dummy Plugs are still unstable. Your attempt to control the Divine Child will not succeed and your attempt to have him eliminated will fail as well. You know very well what the Dead Sea Scrolls say about the Divine Child. The Child is capable of grate good, and equally grate violence....."

"Irrelevant." stated Gandou. "With the Third Child restrained, or neutralized, there is no resin for concern."

Seeing a smile appear on Gandous lips, Kozo couldn't fined it with in him self to be confident about the entire situation, the terror surging through every fiber of his being, made it clear that what Gandou planed was a mistake that could never be corrected. ;Ikari, you will never have any kind of control of the Divine Child.; taking a deep breath, he turned around and silently made his way out of the office, leaving the supreme Commander of NERV to indulge him self in praise and admiration.

-*-

Even though he looked very much out of place with the clothing he had on, a number of people openly stared at him, some even commented behind his back at his lack of fashion sense. At his first stop in a clothing store, he was even followed by a store mangier, which expected him to stile something. When Shinji went to the cashier and paid for the goods, the man seemed surprised and became very plight, offering to carry the bags, Shinji for his part declined politely and walked out of the store, carrying his own bags. He quickly exited the mall, went into a dark alleyway, changed into the clothing he had bought, a black T-shirt, jeans, a black trench coat and a pair of comfortable running shoes. Discarding the clothing he had borrowed from the Doctor and the security man. He quickly adjusted the two arm holsters. Making sure that the weapons were hidden under the long black trench coat, he returned to the shopping mall, and sure enough no one paid him any attention as he continued shopping. After he acquired a few more items of clothing and a hikers backpack, together with a sleeping bag, camping equipment, a map of the city and a map of Japan. Shinji proceeded to withdrew money from the two dozen instant tellers available in the shopping mall.

Emptying all the instant-tellers with one of the NERV expanse accounts card. He left the shopping mall a half an hour before it was do to be closed, from there he went to every bank marked on the map, and once again used the NERV expanse account cards. Three hours later, he finished withdrawing all available funds from nearly every bank instant teller in Tokyo-3. Stopping at a fast food restaurant. He grabbed a quick bite and made his way out of the city with all possible speed, by his calculations, they were already aware of his disappearance. Very soon they would be aware of him using the NERV expense account cards, not that it made any difference to him. The cards had served their purpose, he got ride of them at his last bank stop and now he was well out of the city. The night had served him very well, in a few hours it would be day brake, by then he would be far away from the city of Tokyo-3. Walking along the highway leading to Tokyo-2, he stopped for a moment, turned around and took a look at the brightly-lit city he was leaving.

"I am free." he said smiling, turned his back to the city and once again resumed walking away with all possible speed.

-*-

With in the Geo-Front, Sub-Commander Fuytsuki, pail in face and nearly frightened to death at the news he had just received. Marched down the hallway leading to the Commanders office. In the few minutes that it took him to reach the office, to Fuytsuki it seemed as if an hour had gone by. With out knocking he opened the door and stepped in the dark office, his uneasy gaze immediately locked on the calm and collective bearded man with glasses siting behind a desk, his white glowed hands placed in front of his mouth.

"He escaped from the Hospital." said Fuytsuki, closing the door behind him.

For a moment Gandous eyes widened as his body jerked involuntarily. "The Third Child must be found." he stated in his calm voice. "Have the city blocked, no one comes in, no one leaves."

Fuytsuki shuck his head. "I do not believe that will do any good." stepping closer to the desk, he took a sharp breath. "The extra security personnel that were assigned to the Hospital, found Doctor Ling and the two security personnel assigned to watch over the Third Child, beaten and hog-tied in the room. From the information they gathers after debriefing the three of them. A time frame was established. The assault and escape occurred five hours ago, I do not believe the Third Child is with in the city limits."

"Have the surrounding aria searched, he could not have gone far, above all he must be captured and brought back if it is possible." Came Gandous ever-calm reply, yet he frowned. "If he will not come back willingly, authorize security to use deadly force."

"Ikari, he is armed." stated Fuytsuki. "The child took the guns from the two security personnel. He also took two NERV expense account cards. One from the Doctor the other from Sargent Taow, the cards were used all over Tokyo-3 and very large amounts of money were withdrawn from nearly every instant teller in the city. The full amount is not yet known, but so far from the bills the MAGIS have provided, it is well over twenty thousand...."

"How did the Child acquire the pin numbers for the expense accounts?" demanded Gandou.

"That is yet to be determined." replied Fuytsuki and added. "The assault on the three personnel was not extensive, it was just enough to render them unconscious and neutralize them as a threat."

Gandou clinched his teeth. "It would seem the Third Child has began to manifest some rather unique abilities."

"From the debriefing of the two security personnel, the child has developed more then just unique abilities."

Gandou frowned once again. "Explain."

"His speed and strength were far beyond that of a child his age, he is also versed in some form of marshal-arts...."

"Impossible." scowled Gandou. "The Third Child never studied marshal-arts, or any thing remotely related."

"Never the less, the description of the few moves witnessed by the two security personnel contradicts the available data on the Third Child." stated Fuytsuki, and sighed. "Ikari, for all we know the Third Child may not even exist any more, you must face the fact that he is the Divine....."

"He is still the weak and cowardly child that I had brought here." said Gandou in his usual cold tone. "Why else would he run away."

Sadly Fuytsuki shuck his head. "Your refusal to see the facts will be your undoing."

"I see the facts very clearly. The Third Child is a problem that will be eliminated and the scenario will once again be back on track." stated Gandou, looked up at the uneasy old man. "Fuytsuki have the security personnel search the city and all possible routs to other cities. It is more then likely that the Third Child is moving on foot, he could not have gone far."

Once again Fuytsuki sighed to him self. ;The Divine Child will be your undoing Ikari, just as he will be SEELES undoing.; he thought to him self and said. "I will get right on it."

Watching his old friend turned and exits the office, Gandou opened a drawer and pulled out a picture of his wife. "Why did you do it my Yui?" he asked, gently moved his left-gloved hand over the picture. "Why can't you understand that my scenario would bring us back together as a family once again. Now you left me no choice but to deal with him as an obstacle." placing the picture carefully back in the drawer, he closed it and once again focused his attention on the door in front of him. "I will not permit the disruption of my scenario."

-*-

"Where is he??" demanded Misato as she held the uneasy, blond headed Doctor pined up against the wall of the office. "Commander Ikari, Sub-Commander Fuytsuki and you have been giving me the run around for two weeks now." hiss the furious purple hair woman. "Now you're going to do a good deed and tell me where Shinji is, or....."

"Major Katsuragi, I will remained you, that threatening a fellow officer is more then sufficient grounds for a court-martial." Ritsuko cut her off, her cold, unyielding gaze locked with Misatos unmoved, furious gaze. "I will let this one incident...."

Before the blond-headed woman could utter another word, Misato slammed her right open palm on the metal wall only a few centimeters from the suddenly startled blond headed woman. "I seriously doubt that any one is going to court-martial for threatening a fellow officer, when they can court-martial me for murder one." she snapped and watched carefully as Ritsuko flinched just enough to take her threat seriously. "I want to know where Shinji is."

Ritsuko shuck her head. "That is not possible......."

"You better make it possible." snapped Misato, slammed her right fist on the wall, this time she brushed the side of Ritsukos face. "Do I make my self clear?"

"I can't." whispered Ritsuko, took a quick glance around her, and once again locked her calm gaze with Misatos raging eyes. "No one knows where Shinji is, he ran away."

"So he ran away again." said Misato in a slightly calmer tone. "The Commander will just send the security personnel......"

"He didn't just ran away some where in the city." Ritsuko cut her off, took a quick glance around her once again. "He assaulted Doctor Ling and two NERV security personnel. After that he left the city, Sub-Commander Fuytsuki has all available security personnel looking for Shinji here and in other cites. So far not a single sing of him and to make things even more strange, Shinji doesn't resemble his old self in the slightest."

Misato narrowed her eyes. "What are you talking....."

"For once in your life Misato, shut up and listen, what I'm telling you could very well get me a bullet in the head." scowled Ritsuko

With out a word Misato nodded her head.

"Remember what the inside of the entry plug looked like after Shinji freed him self from the body of the Angel?" asked Ritsuko.

Misato shattered for a moment, and once again nodded her head.

"There was nothing inside the plug with him." whispered Ritsuko and watched as Misato gave her a look of disbelief. "Bolivia me Misato there was no one or any thing in the plug with him, but some thing did happened to him during his time with in the Angels body. It affected him in ways that are still a complete mystery. He began changing the same night, that is why no one aside from my self, Doctor Ling and a few security personnel were permitted to see him in the Hospital....."

"The speech about mental contamination, that was all just a front?"

Ritsuko nodded her head. "There was no mental contamination, not in the sense it is described." she whispered. "Whatever it was that happened to him, physically wiped out most of his memories, what fragments of memory he possesses are unknown, but the brain wasn't the only thing that was affected. His entire body is affected as well, he's grown taller and he doesn't look like a scrawny little boy any more, he now possesses an athletic built. From what I have heard, his reflexes are very fast and he is far more stronger......"

"Wait, wait just one minute." Misato cut her off, gave the blond-headed woman a puzzled stare. "Why is it you are willing to tell me so much all of a sudden?"

Ritsuko forced a smile on her lips. "Call it a premonition, or a gut felling, but this isn't the last we heard of Shinji, he'll come back to Tokyo-3, except he won't be coming back to pilot or to bow down to any one for acknowledgment and a nice word."

"What do you mean?" asked Misato in an uneasy tone.

"His memories were wiped out deliberately and very carefully, he doesn't have any memories of his childhood, they are simply none existent, what fragmented memories he possesses are resent in nature. My guess is that he will more then likely interpret the fragmented memories in a entirely different way, then he would have, had he possesses all of his...."

"Are you saying he might interpret the fragmented memories as bad?"

"I'm saying he might interpret them as they truly were at that time." stated Ritsuko. "Remember he doesn't have any childhood memories, Gandou is by all accounts nothing to him. In short the Shinji Ikari who ran away doesn't care in the slights whether the Commander approves or disapproves, or if Gandou will except him as a son. I seriously doubt that Shinji cares for such things, and the one particular memory that was holding him in a constant state of self blame is now eradicated. It won't mater to him in the slightest if Yui Ikari rose from the dead, to Shinji she means nothing." Ritsuko explained and took a shaky breath as Misato swallowed in a dry throat. "Now can you imagine a person with a new leas on life with out the past being a constant factor, could you possibly imagine what a person such as him is capable of doing?"

A grin touched Misatos lips. "I would say he'll more then likely get far away from Tokyo-3 as he could and never look back....."

"Or he could wait until he's sure every once guard is down, and come back with pay-back on his mind." said Ritsuko.

Misato began to chuckle. "Shinji come back for revenge, really now Ritsuko....."

"The old Shinji wouldn't, but this isn't the old Shinji we're talking about." Ritsuko cut her off.

Misato stopped chuckling and a hint of uneasiness touched her face as she looked into Ritsukos eyes. "You are afraid of him aren't you?"

"Yes." replied Ritsuko nodding her head. "I am afraid of him a grate deal, as you should be Misato."

"I am not the one who put him through hell with tests, synchronization, harmonics and countless other so called tests." stated Misato as a mater of fact.

"But you are one of the people who was in the cadge when he first arrived, you were there manipulating him, like Gandou, Rei and my self." said Ritsuko, took a cigarette out of her lab coat and proceeded to light it. "You are also the person who sent him out to fight the Angels time and again....."

"If I'm understanding you correctly, I'm on his list of people he'll want to get even with for the pain he suffered, is that about right?" asked Misato.

"If there is such a list, there's allot more people then just, me, Gandou, Rei and you." replied Ritsuko, took a drag of the lit cigarette and exhaled. "Asuka, the Sub-Commander could very well be on the list as could the entire NERV staff, I don't know for sure and I hope that I never fined out." with that, she pushed Misatos arm away and made her way out of the office.

"I can't believe Shinji would do that." whispered Misato.

Stopping near the door, Ritsuko turned around, took another drag of the cigarette. "May be this bit of information will change your mind." she said exhaling the smoke. "Shinji is armed and is considered very dangers, the security personnel who are tracking him have been authorized to use deadly force."

Misato shattered, turned to face the blond headed woman only to find her self-watching Ritsuko leave the office. ;There is allot more to this then what you told me Ritsuko.; she thought to her self as determination filled her eyes. ;And I aim to fined out what is it you didn't tell Me.;

-*-

Closing the door to her apartment. Misato walked into the kitchen, opened the fridge and took out a beer. Guzzling down the entire can and tossed the empty can in the sink with out her usual WHOP, there was just too much on her mind for her to do the regular routine. Taking out another beer she quickly guzzled it down and grabbed another can.

Unknown to the purple hair woman, she was being watched by Asuka who shuck her head in disgust at the sight of her guardian guzzling down ten cans of beer with out loosing a step in the routine.

"Should I take it that your search for that idiot Shinji didn't go to well?" said Asuka in a loathing tone.

Tossing the tenth empty can in the kitchen sink, Misato took out another beer, cracked it open and turned to face the arrogant, flame hair girl. "You might say that I found out more then I was prepared for."

"The stupid pervert must have run away, and he isn't coming back." spat Asuka in utter disgust.

"You're right, he did run away." stated Misato, took a few sips from the can. "As to him not coming back, I wouldn't bet on it if I were you."

"It's a bet I'll win, he hasn't been in school for the last two weeks, and he hasn't been to a single harmonics and synchronization test. Stupid Shinji ran away just like the spineless little boy he is, I say good rhythms to a spineless coward." beamed Asuka in her glory. "Now I'll show every one what a real Evangelion pilot can do, with out a spineless wimp to get in my way."

Misato gave the flame hair girl a less then impressed glance. "Don't be to disappointed if he show up when you least expect....."

"The only way I can see that happening, is if NERV security drags him back to Toky-3, I can't see the Commander using resources and spending time to get that idiot back, so the little wimp could run away." snarled Asuka, crossed her arms across her chest. "That winding little idiot isn't worth the time and effort, I say good rhythms to bad rubbish." she smiled in triumph. "When I show the Commander what I can do, he won't even bother to look for that stupid, perverted little boy. I already beat Wander Girl in the synchronization tests, and now I'm going to show every one what I can do against the Angels."

Misatos face remained unmoved. "That remains to be seen."

Anger flashed in Asukas eyes. "And what's that suppose to mean?"

Guzzling down the rest of the beer, Misato tossed the empty can in the since took another beer from the fridge, closed the door and made her way towards the bedroom. "Goodnight Asuka."

Fuming Asuka stormed past Misato and into her room, slamming the door, she began to curse in German, Misato for her part opened the beer can, glanced at the closed door from where a raging flame hair girl began to throw things around the room. Sadly Misato shuck her head, turned her attention on the open door of a smaller room.

"For humanities sack and our own, I hope Ritsuko is wrong about your intentions." she whispered sadly, entered her own bedroom, guzzling down the beer.

to be continued…..